red and white roses together

When Sheng Huai opened his eyes, it was still dark outside the window.He took out his phone and looked, it was only three o'clock.Can't help sighing lowly, it's time to fall.

He closed his eyes and didn't feel the slightest drowsiness, so he simply lay down on the bed and closed his eyes to rest his mind.

The world is quiet, and the wind blowing insects outside the window can be faintly heard, as well as the occasional roar of cars on the distant streets, and——

TV next door?

Sheng Huai listened carefully, and he was sure that it was the sound coming from the next door.And next door to him lives Ji Congxiao.

Kids don't sleep at night?

He got up neatly, not caring about his nightgown, opened the door and knocked on the door next door.

With wet hair on his head, Ji Congxiao opened the door in a T-shirt and shorts, staring at the people outside the door for a moment: "Brother Sheng? Are you still up so late?"

"The jet lag is not reversed." As soon as the door of the room was opened a crack, the sound of the noisy TV in the room came to his ears. Before Sheng Huai had time to react, he saw Ji Congxiao's appearance just after taking a shower, and he The pair of chopsticks in his hand were obviously in use, and he couldn't help raising his eyebrows: "Eat in the middle of the night?"

"Woke up from hunger." Ji Congxiao answered casually, made way for him, and walked back yawning.

"Didn't you eat tonight?" Sheng Huai remembered that Ji Congxiao's little assistant had prepared a large box of sumptuous dinner for him, which was said to be cooked in the hotel kitchen.

"No appetite." Ji Congxiao was used to being with him relaxedly, without any scruples, and spoke freely.

Sheng Huai almost immediately thought of Qiao Yi's evaluation of Ji Congxiao - child, self-willed, never willing to eat properly, and most importantly, has a weak stomach.

Looking at the table again, although they are all things to nourish the stomach, after all, they have been left for so long, not to mention that they are all cold, even the rice should be hard, and... He glanced at the ice that was still steaming on the table Beer, the crease between the eyebrows is even worse.

"Brother Sheng, sit down as you please, I'll take two bites first." Ji Congxiao greeted casually.With his familiarity with Sheng Huai, there was no need to bother entertaining him.Of course, if it was someone else who came, he wouldn't put them into the room in the middle of the night.

He took two steps forward and sat down on the sofa again. Before he could move his chopsticks, someone held his hand from behind.Ji Congxiao turned around in doubt.

Sheng Huai turned his head towards his messy bed: "Change, I'll take you to eat delicious food."

Night travel is no stranger to Ji Congxiao. He has slept for a long time, and he may not be able to fall asleep after eating.Now with Sheng Huai as his company, and going out again, he, who has been calm since joining the group, was instantly excited, and immediately followed Sheng Huai without saying a word, changed his clothes.

Follow him around the streets and alleys, and find a small shop with warm yellow lights, and then he is full of millet porridge.

"Brother Sheng, why are you so familiar with this? I feel like I'm back at your home." Ji Congxiao was following Sheng Huai, walking under the dim light on the street, digesting.

"I used to shoot "Peacock Blue" here." Sheng Huai walked beside him, watching the children raise their hands to touch their stomachs from time to time and couldn't help but said, "Either don't eat, or make yourself like this."

With a low sigh, he stopped and looked down at Ji Congxiao.

Ji Congxiao stopped following his movements and looked up.

"Although I often call you a child, you are not a child after all." Sheng Huai looked at him, with obvious worry and helplessness in his eyes, "Congxiao, you have to take good care of yourself. Human life is really not good. Long. No one can tell you to miss you all the time."

Ji Congxiao's heart ached from the last sentence, but he raised the corners of his lips abruptly: "Is there any difference between a child and a child?"

He staggered his eyes and walked forward.The intention is to make jokes and expose this topic.It's just that Sheng Huai, who is used to being considerate, didn't get what he wanted this time.

Ji Congxiao took four or five steps forward, but still no one followed.The footsteps gradually stopped, and the smile on his lips fell back.He turned around, looked at Sheng Huai who was still standing there with a blurred expression against the light, pulled the corners of his lips, and discarded all the pretense.

"Brother Sheng, as you said. There are not many years in a person's life. Then why do you have to live so tiringly? Follow your heart, do what you want, and die when you deserve to die."

Sheng Huai watched him smile, looked at the corners of his lips, watched the light in his eyes go out instantly, watched him standing under the light, but his whole body seemed to be wrapped in a black mist, no matter how strong the light was, They couldn't reach his heart, couldn't ignite the light in his eyes.

Sheng Huai had never seen Ji Congxiao like this before, but he didn't find it abrupt, even expected.

"I found that I have always misunderstood you deeply." He talked about him from left to right.

"What did you misunderstand?" Ji Congxiao asked.

Sheng Huai counted for him bit by bit.

"At first, I thought you were bright and wanton."

"That's just my disguise."

Sheng Huai bent his lips and walked towards him.

step.

"Later, I thought you were a little fool who didn't know how to defend against others."

"But in fact, I just prepared for the worst from the beginning."

two steps.

"Until just now, I always thought that you at least have some expectations and longings for your own life."

"Then this is a big misunderstanding."

Three steps.

"There's an even bigger misunderstanding."

"What is it?"

"I always think you are not a child, but in fact, you are still a child who hasn't grown up."

Ji Congxiao looked up blankly, and Sheng Huai had already walked in front of him.

He was close at hand, and he could clearly see the expression of the man in front of him.Worried, helpless, and indulgent.

"I'm going to cry." Sheng Huai sighed lowly, looking down into those eyes that couldn't be illuminated by the light, he could see the wind and rain piled up in them at a glance.I've noticed from just now that although this guy's expression hasn't changed much, but following his every word, as he approaches step by step, the obscurity and depression in his eyes gradually accumulate, and the sense of alienation deliberately created around him also disappears. Getting thicker.

He raised his hand and patted the top of his hair.

The gray eyes, the alienation of the whole body, were broken into pieces by his slight touch, and fell to the ground.

"Do you think that my showdown with you is to break off friendship with you? Are you ready to accept the worst result in your imagination? Do you also want to withdraw all the feelings poured into me?"

"Are you... sad?"

As soon as his words fell, water droplets fell on the ground between the toes of the two of them.

He sighed softly.

"Sometimes, you can't accept it calmly and calmly if you are not prepared. Even if you are prepared, when it really comes, you will still be sad and sad. Because the feelings you gave during the process are not fake. "

"You are not as cold and heartless as you imagined. You just lied to yourself. You just think that you are not sad or sad."

"Silly boy."

The moisture in Taohua's eyes was even worse, and the teardrops slid down from the corners of his eyes almost continuously, falling on Sheng Huai's fingertips, scalding his heart for a while.

He raised his hand and opened his arms towards the person: "Let me lend you my shoulder."

Ji Congxiao opened his mouth, but did not make a sound.He could only shake his head, and after a while he said with difficulty: "I will be photographed."

Sheng Huai's arms are still open: "I'm not afraid, are you afraid?"

Ji Congxiao couldn't hold on, so he took a step forward, and put himself in his hands like before.It wasn't until he was hugged tightly by a warm embrace that he finally understood how much he couldn't bear to part with this man.

Even if he knows that this person has seen the darkness and gloom in his heart, even if his reason tells him that he is not the kind of person who will abandon it, but when he listens to him explaining the darkness that he doesn't want to face, he still I can't control my fear, fearing that he will be like everyone else, so I will walk away from now on and stay away.

No one doesn't like cheerful people, and no one likes gloomy people.

He has understood this since he was rejected by all his classmates.So, I lived alone for three years. At school, no one talked to him, no one did activities with him, and no one would stand up for him. At home, apart from endless questioning and harsh criticism, What is left is still the silence and quietness that makes people frightened to the extreme.

He didn't know what to do, and he could only turn his eyes away when he saw other people's families happy and in groups, and he could only turn on the TV in a quiet and scary room, allowing the sound to fill the entire space.

Until later, someone told him that a play is a play, and everyday life is just a play.

So, he learned to dress himself up as their favorite, sunny and enthusiastic, cheerful and optimistic, and really gained a lot of friends.But he knew that what they liked was the false Ji Congxiao, and once the darkness in his heart was known, those people would leave with strange eyes.So I never dared to show my true face, and I never dared to ask for their sincerity.

He doesn't want anything, as long as it's lively.

As long as there is no sound in the world anymore.

But now, this person clearly knew all his true faces hidden under the appearance, but he didn't leave.He walked towards him, stretched out his arms towards him, opened his arms towards him, and warmed him with his whole world.

How can this person be so good?So good that he couldn't bear to let it go.

With his chin resting on Sheng Huai's shoulder, Ji Congxiao opened his hazy eyes to look at the lights on the roadside, and finally closed them.It was so bright that he couldn't even hold back his tears.

The author has something to say:

Good evening, little angels~ I’m finally back, my legs are going to be crippled after climbing the mountain qaq

Okay, let's get to the point, let's give you some candy first.