red and white roses together

Sheng Huai's annual regular review was originally in charge of Alan, but this year Alan was busy with a project research and couldn't figure it out, so he recommended him a junior from the imperial capital, and Sheng Huai once had a Dr. Qi who is still in contact occasionally.

The weather was getting colder, Ji Congxiao didn't want to go out.Sheng Huai originally wanted to go there alone, but unexpectedly, when he mentioned it, Ji Congxiao not only asked to accompany him, but also asked if he could be added to the consultation list.

When talking about this topic, the two were basking in the sun in the glass attic. Although the sun was very warm on the terrace, the wind was strong in winter, so the two had no choice but to move into the attic.

Sheng Huai finished reading the script and was having nothing to do. On a whim, he took a camera and took a lot of photos of Ji Congxiao who was lazily leaning on the sofa.This topic was just mentioned casually, just like he told little friend Ji that he was going to go to a supermarket on weekdays, but Ji Congxiao's reaction was beyond his expectation.

However, Sheng Huai was only stunned for a moment, then nodded in response.On the contrary, it was Ji Congxiao who uttered this sentence, frowning and rubbing against him with a tangled face: "Is your reaction too flat?"

Sheng Huai took a picture of him nearby, then smiled, and took him into his arms, playing back his masterpieces one by one, and asked casually, "Then what kind of reaction should be appropriate?"

"Shouldn't you stop me? Tell me, you don't have to go, you're fine, I don't mind at all?" Ji Congxiao glanced at the camera display, saw his big face, and wanted to delete it.

Sheng Huai stopped his movement, pressed his hand to prevent him from making trouble, then rubbed his hair, smiling: "Have you read too many love scripts these two days?"

Ji Congxiao: "..."

"How about these photos? Save them and make them into a photo album, okay?" He put the screen in front of Ji Congxiao, still holding his hand for fear that he would delete the photos again.

Ji Congxiao glanced at it: "Never mind, the photo looks good together."

Sheng Huai smiled, kissed him on the cheek, raised the camera to take a picture of the two of them, turned around and saw that the angle was wrong, and half of Ji Congxiao's face was out of the frame.Ji Congxiao laughed, Sheng Huai gave up the difficult selfie with the camera and replaced it with a mobile phone. The front camera showed them bathing in the bright sunshine. Sheng Huai embraced Ji Congxiao, and turned his lips Gently touching his forehead, the two looked at the camera together, Ji Congxiao smiled, raised his hand and clicked the button to shoot.

Only then was Sheng Huai satisfied.

"What you said just now is only half correct." He turned on the computer, connected his phone to the computer, and said, "It's not that there is no problem, it's a big problem. If it's someone else, I would really suggest seeing a psychiatrist, because This is the best choice. It is obviously not a good thing to live in the shadow that you can't bear."

Ji Congxiao looked at him quietly, knowing that he still had something to say.

"But you are different, kid, your last sentence is right. I don't mind." He imported the photo into the computer, called up the photo of the two of them, adjusted it a little and set it as the desktop, "I don't mind what you say What's the matter with appearance, I never mentioned it, just because I don't think you need it."

"Because I'm here." He turned his head to look at Ji Congxiao, smiled, "I'm here, I can accept all your good and bad, I can accompany you through this life, so that you never have to Suffering from loneliness, in that case, what difference does it make if you go or not, good or bad?"

Ji Congxiao frowned: "Then I decide to go? What do you think?"

"Naturally, I support you. You can do whatever you want. I'm listening to whatever you want to tell me. If you don't want to say it, then I won't ask. The past is in the past. I think——" Sheng Huai wrinkled Frowning and looking at the computer screen, "The black borders on these two sides are really ugly."

"Then I won't talk about it." Ji Congxiao spread his hands.Ever since the two got together, Sheng Huai hadn't asked him the reason for this problem. He originally planned to confess to Sheng Huai about the past and the past today, but he didn't expect to get such an answer, and suddenly felt that he had put it in his heart Those pasts and times didn't seem to be a big deal anymore, and suddenly there was no desire to mention them.With that time, it is better to take two more photos as souvenirs.

He took the notebook, removed the selfie of the two of them, cropped it and refilled it, which just fit the entire screen.

Sheng Huai hugged him and kissed him: "My kid is really amazing."

Ji Congxiao raised his chin: "That is."

He took the DSLR and pressed Sheng Huai, "Don't move, let me take a few pictures, I will definitely take better pictures."

Sheng Huai raised his eyebrows: "Why?"

"Have you never heard of it? Lovers are the easiest to capture beauty."

"All I know is that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, even if it doesn't look good, you will still find it beautiful."

"……Do not talk!"

"it is good."

……

When Sheng Huai and Ji Congxiao arrived at Qi Shi's psychological consultation room, it was not yet the appointed time.The other party was leaning on the desk and making a phone call, with a soft smile between his brows.This made Sheng Huai, who had been in contact with him a few times and only felt the coldness and toughness of the other party, couldn't help but choked, and immediately realized that, if nothing unexpected happened, he was talking on the phone with his lover again.

Qi Shi retracted the line, and walked towards the two of them, his soft and restrained expression just now changed to a dull expression.

"Doctor Qi, we meet again." Sheng Huai and Qi Shi shook hands. Even though they said so, in fact, although the two had been in contact, this was the first time they met in reality.

Qi Shi nodded as a greeting.

"This is my lover, Ji Congxiao." Sheng Huai introduced him. Ji Congxiao followed the words and pulled off his mask, and reached out to Qi Shi, "Hello."

Qi Shi turned his gaze to his face, raised his brows lightly, and a trace of surprise flashed between his brows and eyes: "It's you?"

Ji Congxiao paused, subconsciously feeling that the other party recognized his identity.However, what he said did not sound like the tone of seeing a celebrity, but he was not an acquaintance either. If he had to say it, it could only be regarded as goodbye to someone he knew.

"Where have we met?" Ji Congxiao looked confused, and frowned as he glanced at the other person's face, which was clearly recognizable beyond the standard. If he had seen it before, he would definitely remember this face, but the truth is There is no such person in his mind, but he does feel familiar.

"On New Year's Eve, the amusement park Ferris wheel, my wife and I stand in front of you."

A few simple words evoked Ji Congxiao's memory in an instant. He was surprised in a soft voice, and then his eyebrows and eyes were raised: "It's you."

He turned his head to look at Sheng Huai, and explained: "We met once."

It's really just one side.

On New Year's Eve.

At that time, he had just confessed his love to Sheng Huai, and at the same time cut off the contact between them. He didn't know where to go, but felt that there was no place for him in this world anymore.So he followed the crowd to the playground.Under the Ferris wheel, this gay man stood in front of him, gave him a cup of hot cocoa, and enlightened him for a long time.That was kindness he rarely encountered.

Ji Congxiao still remembers that he was extremely envious of their deep feelings at that time.It's just that I was in a bad mood and it was dark at night, so I didn't remember their appearance much.

The simple greetings ended here, Sheng Huai finished the test first, and after confirming that there was no problem, he changed to Ji Congxiao.

Ji Congxiao pushed open the door and walked into the place where Sheng Huai just came out.The style of this office is simple and relaxed, the colors are elegant, and the sunlight pours in from the glass panes, making it warm and bright.It reminded him of the terrace and attic at home, and he relaxed unconsciously.

Therefore, when Qi Shi suggested moving the place of communication to the single sofa under the glass window, he agreed without hesitation.

Ji Congxiao sat down on the light blue single sofa, squinting his eyes and looking at the sun, the warm sunlight made his whole body warm.

"You seem to be in better spirits." Qi Shi came over with a folder and a pen, and put a cup of hot cocoa in front of him, "Drink something sweet and feel good."

Ji Congxiao thanked him, took a sip, and the corners of his lips curled up: "Brother Sheng also likes sweets, and when he meets something he likes, he always eats until he is satisfied."

"Really?" Qi Shi sat down opposite him, "I like it too, but my wife doesn't let me eat more because I have bad teeth."

When he said this, Ji Congxiao immediately thought of the scene where the two of them laughed because of sweets when they first met, and couldn't help but sigh: "You two have such a good relationship."

"We have known each other since we were teenagers, and it has been nearly ten years now." Qi Shi lowered his eyes, his expression faded a little, the corners of his lips were raised slightly, and the eyebrows and eyes were obviously much softer than before.

Ji Congxiao has been in the entertainment industry for so many years, and he has already become pure and innocent when it comes to the changes in people's expressions.Seeing his appearance right now, I felt a little bit envious in my heart, and said bluntly: "I envy you all very much, I have always been."

"I thought you were doing well now." Qi Shi raised his eyes to look at him, unscrewed the cap of the pen calmly, and drew a cyan mark in the blank folder.

"It's really good, it can be said that it's my dream." Ji Congxiao replied.

Qi Shi got straight to the point: "That's why I've always been curious about the reason for your coming."

"In order to solve some hidden dangers."

Qi Shi raised his brows slightly, looked directly at him, and waited for the next article.

"Doctor Qi, take the liberty to make a hypothesis." Ji Congxiao raised his head and glanced at Qi Shi, "If your lover wants to separate from you irretrievably, what will you do?"

Qi Shi's hand shook, and a slash suddenly appeared in the originally smooth handwriting on the white paper.

He looked at Ji Congxiao thoughtfully, put away his pen, took a sip of coffee, as if deep in thought.Then he raised his eyes and pondered: "I really can't imagine this scene. But if I have to answer, I can only let go and bless."

Ji Congxiao pulled the corners of his lips and smiled, he leaned back, tucked himself into the soft sofa, raised his eyes and looked out of the window, letting the sun hurt his eyes: "Look, it's normal for you to be like this." Human thoughts. And I—”

"I probably won't let him go. Whether I imprison him or hide him, I won't let him leave me. I once, even thought of letting him die with me—"

He lowered his eyes, his eyelashes trembled slightly, curled his fingers, and whispered what he was thinking.

"—Because of that, he will never be separated from me again."

"So the reason for your trip is not for yourself, but for fear of hurting him." Qi Shi calmly and straightforwardly stated Ji Congxiao's purpose.

Ji Congxiao was shocked by his sharpness, but still nodded truthfully.

"Mr. Ji, I have a question to ask you." Qi Shi closed the folder and even capped the pen.He put the folder aside, leaned over to take the coffee, and pulled back the cuffs of his shirt to reveal a simple watch.Ji Congxiao noticed that he adjusted his sitting posture, leaning against the sofa, holding coffee, and his aura changed significantly.

Calm, calm, in control of the audience, with ease.

This is Sheng Huai's evaluation of Qi Shi on the way here.

Ji Congxiao didn't think about it for a while, because the other party had always been listening quietly before.Thinking about it now, Yomona was just trying to guide him to say the information he wanted, and it wasn't until now that he revealed his true style, which was no different from Sheng Huai's judgment.

"You said that you wanted to die with him before, did it really exist or was it just an imagination?" Qi Shi asked.

Ji Congxiao put aside the distracting thoughts in his mind, no matter what his style is, as long as it is effective.

"It really happened." He replied in a low voice. When he was along the water, at the bottom of the deep and dark river, he almost killed Sheng Huai.Thinking of Sheng Huai's dying and pale expression after coming out of the water, he subconsciously curled up his fingers and squeezed the cup tightly.

Qi Shi swept across his fingers and continued to ask: "Then why didn't it work?"

"Because..." Ji Congxiao was at a loss for a moment, why?Because he discovered Sheng Huai's indulgence to him, because even though he was aware of his intentions, there was still no harshness or resentment in those eyes, only the consistent tolerance and affection he had never seen before.How could he be willing to let such Sheng Huai accompany him to die?

He answered with all the facts, only to see the other party nodded, and his fingers silently tapped on the sofa.

"I heard Mr. Sheng mention that the most serious time you saw was his first love. Is there a misunderstanding?"

"Yes."

"It is said that you were trying to control your emotions at first?"

Ji Congxiao nodded.

"Then, why do you still restrain yourself instead of letting go when you know he will tolerate you?" Qi Shi raised his eyes and looked directly at him.

"He loves me, so he chooses to be tolerant. I love him, and I want to go on with him as much as possible. I don't want him to... hate me." Ji Congxiao lowered his eyes, "A person's patience is limited, even if I understand Knowing that he loves me, I don't dare to bet on it. It's nothing more than usual, and I can't accept the scene of a real explosion."

That's what he thought at the time, but Sheng Huai opened his arms to him, hugged him, and forced him to vent.The temptation was too great, and he couldn't control himself after all.However, after waking up, I will still be annoyed and regret it.It was also at that moment that he had the idea to completely solve his own problem.

In order to go on with Sheng Huai, and in order not to hurt him.

Qi Shi didn't say much, and changed to a question instead. His speech speed slowed down, as if he was asking casually in his spare time.

"I saw that string of bracelets on Mr. Sheng's wrist, and I like it very much. I want to ask where you got it, and I want to ask for one for my wife."

Although Ji Congxiao was surprised by the jump in the content of the conversation, he couldn't understand why the other party suddenly seemed to start chatting. He was still suspicious of the deep trap buried under the other party's question, but after thinking about it for a while, it didn't work out. Asked, only gave him an address.

Qi Shi immediately took out his mobile phone to check it, and handed him the relevant page of the temple: "This?"

His movements are extremely natural, and the interaction between the two looks like selling Amway between friends.

Ji Congxiao looked at him blankly and replied.

"Someone in the comments said it was very effective?"

"I've heard the saying that sincerity leads to success."

"What is Xincheng?" Qi Shi asked the same question as Ji Congxiao.

"Long length head and merit money?"

"May I ask, what did you ask for?"

Ji Congxiao didn't answer directly this time, but looked up at him with a frown, hesitatingly said: "Can I say this? Will it be like a birthday wish, saying it won't work."

"Then change the question," Qi Shi changed his mind, "Is what you're asking for related to your relationship?"

"No."

"Don't you think it's a pity that you spent so much effort not seeking affection?"

Ji Congxiao shook his head.He didn't dare to ask for affection, he didn't dare to ask for more, lest his greed would make all his thoughts come to nothing.

"The last question. In the face of life and death, do you choose him or yourself."

"I have already made a choice, nothing is more important than him—" Ji Congxiao's voice stopped abruptly before the last one was spoken.

He looked up at Qi Shi.

The latter raised the corners of his lips, showing a slight smile: "You must have felt it too. In your heart, Sheng Huai's status is far higher than yourself, better than your life, and even—"

"—better than your feelings."

Ji Congxiao opened his mouth, but made no sound.

"Your mind, your heart, your subconscious, all put him first. No matter what you do, you can't help but avoid hurting him."

"So, what's there to worry about?"

Ji Congxiao still didn't speak, his eyes fell into the distance.There is disbelief between the eyebrows.

Qi Shi bent his fingers to pick up the coffee, brought it to his lips, and took a sip. Seeing his appearance, he added: "There is one more thing you probably didn't realize—"

Ji Congxiao turned to look at him.

"The setback you made to Sheng Huai is not just that."

"You will give up asking about his whereabouts in order to let him have a good rest; you will spend more time with the two of you, and you don't want him to spend too much time on your daily itinerary; even you yourself have never I found that your inquiries about his itinerary are getting less and less detailed. These are all said by him himself, what do you think this means?"

Ji Congxiao's eyes widened suddenly: "You mean—"

"That's right." Qi Shi nodded, "Your possessiveness is gradually fading. Obviously, his frankness has given you enough sense of security, and your love for him is the catalyst."

"Your possessiveness is defeated by your love."