she has two faces

"Deng Deng, then I have to go first," Jiang Di leaned his back against the dusty wall in the crowded kitchen where only two people could stand, and looked at Xu Deng in front of him.

There was a gas stove behind Xu Deng, and she kept her head down. It was too difficult to keep a little distance from Jiang Di in such a crowded space.When Jiang Di lowered her head to speak, the hot air she exhaled sprayed on her hair, which was already very hot, but this made it even hotter.

"I see."

This is something that doesn't need to be talked about. When they knew that their parents had arrived, they knew that this stolen freedom would come to an end after all. To vent the pain that has accumulated in my heart for many years, but once I have enjoyed this kind of unscrupulousness, I am always reluctant to go back.

Not to mention that each other will know what kind of day they will face when they go back.

Xu Deng talked a lot to Ye Xia in the room. This was a rare opportunity. She had very few chances to be alone with her mother, almost none, because every time someone else was there, Xu Shu bluffed. Her father was silent, but the sense of presence cannot be erased, so he couldn't speak, and he didn't know how to start.

Before this, she never thought that there would be such a day when she heard her mother tell her about missing her, her difficulties, and her disappointment with Xu Deng's indifferent look.

There are too many kinds of feelings in the world. The most basic family relationship comes with birth, but it is also good or bad.

She doesn't know whether she has had friendship or whether it has been included in love.

But even if you understand it, it is too difficult to maintain and preserve the relationship.

She was so subtle that the verbal description was extremely dry, but she hesitated when it came to the action, so that now, she dared not look at Jiang Di's half face with the slap mark.

But Ye Xia said so much, and when it came to her daughter's absurd love affair, she still felt that their behavior was just an impulsive reaction when they were young, and it was nothing, so she said bluntly: "Say goodbye to my classmates, We should go."

Xu Deng stubbornly refused to get up, she refused to leave, and she didn't want to leave, Ye Xia's tone made her feel like a three-year-old child, and any behavior was extremely childish.

no.

What do you know.

She looked at her mother, and when she was about to speak, the door was pushed open. Jiang Di poked his head in and said to her, "Xu Deng, come out."

Then he looked at Ye Xia: "Auntie, I'm leaving after a few words."

"Then I'm leaving?"

Jiang Di sighed, looked at the hair on the top of Xu Deng's head, and couldn't help touching it, "See you again if you have a chance, don't be sad, just go back and live with your mother, it's no big deal if your parents divorce, let me tell you, my mother There is a friend, maybe just an aunt, who made a lot of money by herself after the divorce, and her assets are tens of millions. No one dares to underestimate her...you..."

Xu Deng raised his eyes and looked at the chattering person.

There is a window behind her, even if it is opened, it can't block the afterglow of the setting sun. She doesn't know, Jiang Di looks at her, and feels that Xu Deng, who is enveloped by the tenderness of the afterglow, makes people feel more and more unable to let go of it.

"When is the chance?"

Jiang Di is a bit taller than Xu Deng. Xu Deng used to keep his eyes closed when he was talking, but now this look is very similar to the look they met for the first time in Chenggang, except that there is embarrassment in it. They are all gone, wrapped in the stubbornness in her bones, dotted into her eyes, making people dare not stare.

"I do not know either."

Jiang Di burst out laughing, "It's not that we are going to die after being raped, there must be a chance to see each other."

"Does it hurt when you laugh?"

Xu Deng really didn't know how to react to people who were still joking at this time, so he finally raised his hand and pressed Jiang Di's face.

"Why doesn't it hurt!"

"It hurts like hell."

Jiang Di wiped it with the back of his hand, "My dad is very strong, I have to cover my face well when I go back."

She took Xu Deng's hand and pressed it on her chest, "It's good to learn the way in idol dramas, although it's a bit dirty."

"Baby, with me here, don't worry about anything else."

"Stop talking with a pig's face," Xu Deng sneered, turned and turned on the faucet to flush Jiang Di, pressing his hand on Jiang Di's face, "Then...there is a chance to see you?"

The feeling of ice was only for a moment, Jiang Di took Xu Deng's hand on her cheek, grinned and said, "Okay."

Outside, Jiang Guangye still couldn't hear his emotions, "Can I go?"

Jiang Di replied "Okay" and put down his hands to go outside. After taking a step, he let go of his hands and touched the doorknob.

She sighed, and finally turned around, took Xu Deng's hand that hadn't fully dropped, cupped her face and kissed her hard.

Xu Deng was caught off guard by the kiss, but the "have a chance to meet" accelerated her panic, and her reluctance multiplied and turned into a fierce response.

It was so intense that she wanted to bite off the other person's flesh and suck her blood, so that the resentment of being forcibly separated by the elders could calm down a little bit.

In the end, it was Jiang Di who pushed her away. Her lips were glistening with water, and there was a little bit of blood from the cut. She licked it nonchalantly, and finally panted and said, "Xu Deng, let's go to university together." Bar?"

She knew that she would not be able to go back to school in the third year of high school, and the days waiting for her would actually be very sad, but she couldn't make Xu Deng erratic at such a moment.

"Okay." Xu Deng smiled.

She really seldom smiles, always with a straight face, looks cold and heartless, not getting along at all, actually she smiles very cute, the lower row of teeth is a bit uneven, but unevenly cute, plus sporadic spots on her face Her freckles and yellowish hair don't look so pitiful anymore, but they are actually very flattering.

Only she herself feels that she is the type that no one looks up to.

"Which university?"

"The one in S city? You can see the sea."

"Ah."

Xu Deng watched as Jiang Di opened the door and walked out.

She stared at the scratches left by previous tenants on the wooden door, and finally walked to the sink, wiped her face with the sound of rushing water, and wiped away the tears that hadn't shed yet.

When she came out, Jiang Di had already left.

She was empty when she came, and she took nothing with her when she left. Xu Deng stared at the empty living room, and finally entered the room. Ye Xia was on the phone, turned around when she heard the voice, and told her to wait a while .

Xu Deng actually had nothing to clean up.

The room she and Jiang Di arranged together is meaningless now, including the five-yuan old electric fan that the other party is so precious, the sound of clanging is still there, and I don't know what the landlord will do with it after she leaves.

Old things always get thrown away, but what about old feelings?

Will her relationship with Jiang Di get old?

Only now did she understand that people actually live as individuals from beginning to end, and they like to parasitize in individuals as a kind of emotion, looking for someone with the corresponding magnetic field, but the magnetic field will always dissipate, either because of external force or because of the individual In itself, a relationship of interdependence between two individuals can only proceed if both parties tirelessly attempt to re-establish it.

She suddenly remembered what Chen Qianzhan said when she sent Jiang Di and her to the train station——

"If you don't understand anything, think about it carefully, what you want to do, what you can do, etc."

What i want to do

What can I do?

I wish I could do nothing, but I still want to do something.

The university that Jiang Di mentioned should become a short-term goal.

She grew up so big, and she didn't have a clear goal to live. She just muddled through. Today and tomorrow will become tomorrow's yesterday and the day before yesterday anyway. As for the future, let's talk about it later.

But now, she suddenly has a future.

The school started in mid-August, and the senior year came so fast that a group of people were a little dazed on the first day of sitting in the classroom. The scene outside was the same as the day of the holiday, with the same annoying cicadas and poisonous The sun is shining brightly, there are still those familiar faces in the classroom, time seems to have never passed.

But Jiang Di didn't come again.

Xu Deng sat on the seat, and the seat next to her was empty. During the class meeting, the head teacher said a lot of precautions. When Jiang Di was mentioned, he also mentioned it in one sentence, saying that it was something at home, and he would still take the college entrance examination. of.

He didn't say anything, but everyone was curious and discussed it in private.

Xu Deng also wanted to know that Jiang Di's expression before he left was actually not good. The smile on his red and swollen face turned into a forced smile, which was so ugly.

Maybe she already knew this was going to happen.

Xu Deng looked down at the practice questions, and ignored the heated discussions of the people around him.

But even though she has a goal and a direction to work hard for, a little free time is enough for her to think about Jiang Di. After all, Jiang Di has a strong sense of existence. She is more dazzling than the sun. People who have been dazzled will always remember that feeling, so that when they look at others, they feel extremely dim.

Even though she has a new deskmate now, she is still not used to it.

She lost all the news about Jiang Di, and always said that everything is very convenient in modern society, but once a person gets out of the number that is related to the connection, it is easy to get off the track, which means that the connection with the other end of the number is completely cut off.

She still rides to and from school alone, no one will drag her to the cafeteria to eat, and no one will forcefully hug her out of the school after evening self-study and class. The influence of habits is too great, even if Xu Deng has emphasized to himself I let it go countless times, but the throbbing that Jiang Di aroused couldn't be diminished, and it clung to her in the middle of the night, and it turned into dark circles that were particularly eye-catching the next day.

It's been a long time, but it still passes day by day. Autumn has come and gone, winter has come and is going to go again.

Another semester is over.

The poplar trees in the school have bare branches, and the northern winter wind blows on the face like a knife, not to mention the smog every two days, the gray world, Xu Deng simply gave up cycling, it took her so long, I finally learned to get used to the complicated buses and subways in big cities, and followed the crowded crowds to where to go.

During the winter vacation, she finally met Jiang Di.

In a shopping mall in the city center, she, Ye Xia and Xu Shu came to buy New Year's clothes. After their parents divorced, she and Xu Shu had the custody of Ye Xia, and his father simply went out to marry that woman outside. up.

Probably because the parents' divorce brought a big blow, Xu Shu didn't make such fuss anymore, but her attitude towards Xu Deng was much better, and she was able to sit in the dessert shop and drink milk tea calmly.

There are too many people in the shopping mall, the New Year's celebration is accompanied by recurring songs blowing in every corner, escalators go up and down, and there are piles of people.Xu Deng clings to the habit, looking at the people passing by outside the window, her eyes are still lifeless, she seems to be in a daze.

"Hey, why do you think he is so handsome with this woman? This woman has a bad personality. She always knows how to buy a hot search on the draft. I'll go and ruin my male god..."

Xu Shu held her mobile phone and chattered a lot of gossip with Xu Deng. She has been talking a lot since she was a child, and she has a strong sense of territory. If it is her, others will cry and cry. After her parents divorced, she found herself vigilant Life may not be as good as it used to be, I have restrained a little, learned to restrain myself, at least I know that drinking milk tea and asking Xu Deng for a cup is no big deal.

But Xu Deng's attitude still made her very angry. She patted the table and realized that it was taken with a mobile phone. Alright..."

Xu Deng turned a blind eye to this hand, she didn't look at anything anyway, and when she was about to see if Xu Shu had another stinky face, she suddenly saw a familiar figure from behind in her peripheral vision.

Wearing a black woolen skirt with a coat on his arm, he was walking with a tall man.

It's Jiang Di!

She stood up abruptly and rushed out of the dessert shop.

Xu Shu was taken aback by her, for fear that her own sister would go crazy. After all, since the other party finished a cool run away from home, her mental state was not good, and she didn't speak. , as if she had been abused, but she still grew taller, and this reason is not valid.

She originally wanted to chase her out, but when she remembered that she hadn't finished the cake she ordered, she just sat down again and waited for Xu Deng to go crazy in the shop to find it by herself.

There were a lot of people in the shopping mall, and Xu Deng hadn't been here much before, so she got lost after walking around. Panting, she stood on the round glass handrail in the middle and looked around blankly, and finally saw her on the escalator opposite. The person you want to find.

She wanted to catch up, but couldn't jump down, so she ran to the straight ladder, but there were many people waiting, so she ran down the stairs, and found that she had lost track when she reached the third floor.

She patted her forehead with her hand, the heating in the mall was very good, and she was still wearing a thick down jacket, so the heat was a bit uncomfortable, on the one hand, she was uncomfortable because she couldn't catch up with Jiang Di.

Difficult to... can't breathe.

She grabbed the sweater and clenched her teeth. The next moment, someone grabbed her hat and dragged her back.

It was pitch black in front of her eyes, with warm palms covering her face, she smelled a familiar smell, and finally groped and hugged the other person's waist.

"Jiang Di!"

Jiang Di dragged this foolish person to the safe passage. In the dark passage, only the safety sign was glowing green. She pressed Xu Deng against the wall,

The author has something to say: "Don't talk about anything else, let's kiss for a while, you miss me to death."

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