love to love

When I heard this name, my heart was no longer as sour as when I was abandoned, but I couldn't completely let go of it. It is said that women will never forget their first love in their lifetime. In fact, men are similar, and they may not be more heartless than women in this respect.However, most men are animals that think about the lower half of the body. It is almost the same to say that they know how to enjoy themselves in time.

It took less than a year for Chen Yibai to disappear from Wen Han's life. It is absolutely impossible for Xiao Wen to completely get over his emotional pain and forget about Chen scum.Assuming that Wen Han really can't remember who Chen scumbag is, and has lost everything about his past with Chen scumbag, then either Wen Han has lost his memory or this person is so ruthless.Of course, what is said here is a hypothesis, and it is obviously impossible to become a reality.

Xiaowen now feels more unspeakable melancholy and inexplicable tension in his heart.

He was clutching the phone, his eyes were blurred, the person who was almost forgotten, now being reminded to think of it, isn't this a trick of good fortune?Chen Yibai took the initiative to call him, what did he want to say?Wen Han's fingers did not know whether he pressed the call button intentionally or unintentionally, and put it to his ear, it was the long-lost Professor Chen's voice: "Xiaowen...Wen Han?...Is that you?"

Not seeing each other for more than half a year, Chen Yibai is not doing well at all.

Wen Han could tell that the hair of the man sitting opposite him was disheveled, and it was no longer as meticulously combed as before. Moreover, the strands of hair were greasy, sticking together, and coiled on his head like soaked weeds. Two locks of hair drooped down, hanging on Chen Yibai's half-framed gold-rimmed glasses, looking downcast and funny, making Chen Yibai look a little older.There is no shadow of the high-spirited Professor Chen back then!

Chen Yibai was wearing a washed-out shirt, the top button was unbuttoned, the buttonhole was threaded, and the fringe came out fluffy, giving it a slightly down-and-out smell.

Wen Han never thought that seeing Chen Yibai again, the person surnamed Chen would be so unsatisfactory. I really don't know what happened in the past few months that can change a person so much.Should he be gloating or should he pity Professor Chen?

Chen Yibai noticed Wen Han's probing gaze and felt a little embarrassed.He pretended to push up the glasses frame, pressed his tongue against his chapped lips, and said to Wen Han with a smile, "Xiao Wen, how have you been recently?"

"pretty good."

"Ah, that's good, that's good."

"..." Wen Han is not a talkative person, he really doesn't know how to answer this conversation.

Did he want to take the initiative to ask Chen Yibai what he wanted him for?He couldn't ask that.Or ask him to ask if Chen Yibai is doing well, let alone ask, even a blind person can tell that Chen Yibai is doing very badly.Professor Chen didn't want to say anything, and it was useless for others to ask. Wen Han had no choice but to keep silent because he cared about Chen Yibai's face.

Chen Yibai looked at Wen Han through the lens, he is a student who can't lie, he seems to be living a good life, his childhood should be quite nourishing, his complexion is much better than when they separated, his cheeks are a little swollen, Visible paste some meat.

Looking at it this way, Xiaowen is still pleasing to the eye. Be good, obedient, do what you ask, when you are with him, you will never say "no" to reject him, and you will not have any temper at ordinary times, you are easy to lie, you will believe whatever you say Otherwise, Professor Chen would not have taken down Wen Han all at once.

Wen Han was really naive (same as "stupid") back then.

Wen Han saw that Chen Yibai didn't speak, but his eyes were looking at himself. He lowered his head and pretended to drink the water in the glass. He really didn't understand what Professor Chen was up to.

On the phone, Chen Yibai only said that he wanted to meet up, and made an appointment at a small restaurant in the west of the city called "Zaohong Restaurant". The upstairs of "Zaohong" is that kind of dilapidated small hotel, which is cheap and doesn't require ID cards. The two of them used to go wild.As soon as Wen Han heard that the meeting place was here, there was an instinctive resistance in his heart, and he was very unwilling to come, but after such a long time without seeing Chen Yibai, he really wanted to meet Chen Yibai.

In layman's terms, it's just one word - "cheap", Wen Han himself told himself that he should be clean with the surname Chen, but curiosity killed the cat, and humans are nothing but high-level animals.

"Xiaowen..."

"Huh?" Wen Han raised his head and responded to Chen Yibai.

"You...you don't blame me..." Chen Yibai rubbed his hands restlessly.

"What?" Wen Han didn't understand for a moment.

"Before... about breaking up before, I... I have no choice but to..." Chen Yibai's hands are always sweaty easily, no matter whether it is spring, summer, autumn or winter. Wen Han knew it when the two were together before.It's summer now, the weather is extremely hot, and Chen Yibai's hands are sweating profusely from rubbing, as if they were just washed.

Chen Yibai was a little nervous about Wen Han, so he was sweating more and more, from the partial sweating on his hands to the whole body sweating, even his forehead was about to sweat.He couldn't explain why, he just felt that as a student, he seemed to be a little different from before, but he just couldn't tell.

"..." Wen Han didn't expect Chen Yibai to come up and talk about the breakup before, what would Professor Chen have to do, if Chen Yibai hadn't said that it was best to separate because he was tired, he would never have known that Chen Yibai was married, There is also a well-behaved and obedient daughter!He became a San'er in a daze, and he was still a boy's junior!

For countless days and nights, Wen Han could never forget the photo that Chen Yibai stuffed into his hands after he said "don't meet again". It was a happy group photo of Zhang's family of three. I lied to you, I am a family man..."

This unspeakable relationship made him unable to easily confide in others, and he was also a victim. If he knew from the beginning that Chen Yibai was married, he would definitely not agree to Professor Chen's overtures.Even now, he doesn't know whether Professor Chen's wife knows about the mess between him and Chen Yibai.

Back then Wen Han had just entered the university campus, and Chen Yibai was his mentor. He was almost forty years old, and he looked like he was only in his early thirties due to proper maintenance. I don’t know when the relationship between him and Chen Yibai changed. Quality is no longer a simple teacher-student relationship.He also once asked Professor Chen how he did not have a spouse when he was of marriageable age. At that time, the surname Chen sweetly said that he was waiting for the right person.He was repeatedly brainwashed by Professor Chen, saying that "People in the city generally get married late, and Chen Yibai is no exception."

"When you graduate, we will go abroad to register for marriage" has always been Chen Yibai's declaration of love. After hearing this sentence, he dedicated his virginity/nan/body/to Chen Yibai, and the place was in the morning The upstairs of the red restaurant is not romantic at all now that I think about it.

Student Xiaowen has mixed feelings in his heart, he doesn't understand what Professor Chen is saying now.If he could turn back time, he wished he had never met Chen Yibai.

Although Chen Yibai lied to him, his feelings for Chen Yibai are true, and he can let go without saying let go.The constraints of worldly morality made him ashamed to contact Chen Yibai to ask for clarification. He didn't want others to poke his back and call him a male/fox/raccoon/spirit.If everyone who has experienced emotional pain can forget the pain after a night of sleep, there will not be so many people in this world who have to seek death for the sake of love.

The advent of what love is.

Seeing that Wen Han didn't speak, Chen Yibai took a few pieces of paper from the tissue box on the dining table and wiped his hands, then sighed: "I was the one who was sorry for you..."

"Professor, it's all over..." In fact, it's too late to say these things now, Wen Han just woke up from a dream, his fate is over, and he doesn't have the crazy obsession with Professor Chen at the beginning, and he can't go back to the past, just Can look at the present.

The point is, does saying "I'm sorry" work?

"Then you are still blaming me!...I...I..." Chen Yibai grabbed Wen Han's hand on the water glass with his big paw, and repeated the word "I" in his mouth, trying to justify himself .

"Professor, I... you let go first! I don't blame you! Don't mention the past." Xiaowen broke free from Chen Yibai's restraint in horror, looked around, and found that no one in the restaurant noticed The anomaly of the corner table.It's okay, it's okay, I almost got a heart attack from being scared by Chen.

Originally, Chen Yibai didn't allow the two of them to have any physical contact outside, for fear that others would notice something.Now that Chen Yibai is in a noisy restaurant with people coming and going, he doesn't care to grab his hand, he can't understand it.He patted his chest, still in shock.

"Really?! You didn't blame me! That's great..." Chen Yibai didn't care that Wen Han broke free from his hand. He put his left hand into his trousers pocket and rubbed his finger at the door key of the hotel upstairs. The hot hair in his underwear Up, it seems that the possibility of spring/night tonight has reached 90%. His student is soft-tempered and easy to talk.

Wen Han doesn't want to talk about the past with Chen Yibai, and he doesn't want to bring up the past, it's useless to talk more.He took out the mobile phone that Chen Yibai had given him back then and looked at the time, Lu Hao was still waiting for him at home.Chen Yibai saw the mobile phone with sharp eyes, and narrowed his eyes hidden behind the lens.

"Professor, I have something else to do, so I'm leaving first." Wen Han stood up after speaking, he didn't say "goodbye", probably there was no need to say goodbye.

"Wait! Hey...Xiaowen..." The young man walked quickly, Chen Yibai stood up and wanted to keep it, he hurriedly paid the bill for the bowl of egg drop soup he ordered, and chased after him. out of the restaurant.

Wen Han may have gained some weight, but his back still looks so thin, like a telegraph pole, and his loose clothes swayed as he walked.

Chen Renshuang's eyes followed Xiao Wen's direction, ran a few steps, stretched out his long arms and grabbed the other's shoulders, Wen Han couldn't help it.