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After eating the delicious food and climbing the city wall, the two walked slowly to the hotel.The night in a small city is much quieter than that in a big city, and the pace of life is slower. There are basically no people on the street at this point. I just climbed the city wall to look at it, and only the lights of the residential areas in the distance are on. Still brightly lit.

The two walked and chatted one after another. Ren Yang saw that there was no one around, so he reached out and took Li Shangshui's hand.Li Shangshui struggled a bit, then let himself hold his hand.

"It can't be like this in school," Ren Yang suddenly felt sad, "It would be great if everyone didn't care about gender like Xu Ruxin."

Li Shangshui thought of Su Yue's family, who had persisted for so many years, and now he might be used to the eyes of the world.Hearing Xu Ruxin again, he said in surprise, "Did you tell Xu Ru something new?"

"Huh? I didn't tell you?" Ren Yang thought of what happened on Valentine's Day, and laughed again, "On Valentine's Day, I recruited all of her. If it wasn't for her, we might not be together .But even if I don't say it, people have already guessed it!"

"Aren't you... not afraid that she will tell others?" Li Shangshui hesitated for a moment before asking.

"What are you afraid of?" Ren Yang asked back, "I will come out with my friends sooner or later anyway, Ah Shui, you don't have to worry too much. And if you don't want to make it public, I won't talk too much."

"I don't care," Li Shangshui said. "It's mainly on your side. You have parents, family members, and friends. There is no guarantee that each of them can accept homosexuality."

Li Shangshui knew that grandma was getting old and couldn't stay with him for long, so once grandma left, he really had nothing to worry about.But Ren Yang is different, he has lived in a normal environment since he was a child, and he cannot accept that Ren Yang runs counter to the expectations of his relatives and friends for his own sake.

Ren Yang was silent for a moment, and said softly: "There will be a way. They can't eat me."

Walking to the corner, you can see the hotel, Ren Yang shrugged, "Okay, let's not talk about this. Go back quickly, there are still important things to do."

Li Shangshui actually wanted Ren Yang to face up to this problem, but felt that he was too hasty.The two are still young now, and they can't take the step of being forced to marry by their parents. They are just dating now.He smiled bitterly silently, seeing Ren Yang waiting for him in front of the revolving door of the hotel, he left the question behind and followed.

"You take a shower first." Ren Yang took off his thin coat, "I'll study how to use the test strips first."

Only then did Li Shangshui remember that he asked Ren Yang to buy test strips before, so he didn't take it to heart, took his pajamas and towels and went into the bathroom.Before he finished washing, he heard Ren Yang knock on the door outside, he turned off the hot water, and heard Ren Yang's vague voice: "Ah Shui, what should I do, I seem to be positive..."

He couldn't hear the words after that, but the word "positive" poured into his ears, almost making him unsteady.He remembered that if he was infected with HIV, the test strip must be positive.And if Ren Yang is really infected, his whole life will be accompanied by pain.Li Shangshui didn't dare to think too much, his mind went blank, and he didn't care about taking a bath anymore, so he took a towel and wiped it carelessly before rushing out of the bathroom.

Opening the door, I saw Ren Yang standing at the door with his arms folded, with a miserable smile on his face.Without saying a word, Li Shangshui hugged him, wishing to strangle him into his body, and then, as if thinking of something, he lifted Ren Yang's chin, his hand was so strong that Ren Yang couldn't help frowning.

In the next second, Li Shangshui kissed him, pushed Ren Yang's jaw open with his tongue, and forced him to open his mouth to accept him.Ren Yang was hurt by his blow, and quickly stretched out his hand to push him away, and asked unsteadily, "Hey, are you not afraid of infection?"

Li Shangshui's eyes were full of ferocity, Ren Yang had never seen Li Shangshui like this before, so he couldn't help but froze for a moment.Li Shangshui closed his eyes, stepped forward to hug Ren Yang again, and said solemnly: "It's a big deal to get infected together!"

Ren Yang immediately faltered, he was just playing around, and Li Shangshui didn't expect Li Shangshui to take it seriously and react so strongly.He lightly stroked Li Shangshui's back—Li Shangshui came out in such a hurry that he didn't even bother to put on his coat, and said in a soft voice, "Ah Shui, let me go first, at least put on your clothes first."

Li Shangshui didn't let go, so Ren Yang had no choice but to push him to the side of the bed while being hugged by him, and finally pushed him down on the bed, and then raised his head to meet his gaze.

"Ah Shui, I..." Ren Yang looked at his tense jaw, and suddenly dared not speak, "I'm not masculine, look, this is feminine, I was teasing you just now, I didn't expect you to take it seriously. I'm sorry, A water……"

Li Shangshui looked at the test paper, then at Ren Yang, so angry that he couldn't speak for a long time.He could only push Ren Yang away, then went into the bathroom, put on his shirt, and began to brush his teeth and wash his face.From beginning to end, without saying a word.

Knowing that he was in trouble, Ren Yang walked to the bathroom door hesitantly, looked at Li Shangshui pitifully, and said as if he had nothing to say: "Brush your teeth so early, I still want to buy you a drink, haha... "

Li Shangshui kept ignoring him. After washing, he turned and went into the room to turn on the TV to watch the news.

"Ah Shui, I put the test paper here, you can test it later, there is a way to write on it." Ren Yang saw his expression and knew that tonight was over, and the good atmosphere was ruined by his prank.I could only talk to him in a very flattering tone, and then I packed up my pajamas and prepared to take a shower.

Li Shangshui was sitting in an armchair watching TV, but he was still thinking about the scene just now. He was scared out of his wits, but the man was teasing him. He was really about to explode.

He took the test strips distractedly, and took blood step by step. He felt a slight pain from his fingertips. He froze for a while, and decided to forgive Ren Yang, otherwise, what else could he do?

After 5 minutes, the test paper showed negative, and he was relieved.Turn around and go to the bag to get the diary, as long as many emotions are written, they will soon disappear.

When Ren Yang came out, he saw Li Shangshui writing on the desk, and he didn't dare to go up to read.When I pretended to go to the balcony, I took a sneak peek—fortunately, I didn’t cry.

Ren Yang didn't know why there was an illusion that Li Shangshui was crying alone.While taking a shower, I kept thinking that I would never lie to him in the future, no matter what happened, I would never lie to him.

After walking behind Li Shangshui several times, Li Shangshui still didn't respond.Seeing that his hair was still wet, Ren Yang asked, "Ah Shui, do you want to blow dry your hair?"

Li Shangshui raised his head from the notebook, lowered his head and wrote something on it, then closed the diary and nodded to Ren Yang.Ren Yang happily rushed into the bathroom and took out the hair dryer, and dried Li Shangshui's hair very well and skillfully.Amidst the loud noise, Ren Yang lowered his head and said next to Li Shangshui's ear, "Ah Shui's hair is so hard."

Li Shangshui ignored him, enjoying Ren Yang's thoughtful service with his eyes closed.

After blowing his hair, Ren Yangyou took Li Shangshui's test paper knowingly and said, "Ah, I knew that both of us must be healthy. Hey, Ah Shui, are you going to sleep?"

Li Shangshui chose the bed by the window to lie down, and turned his back to Ren Yang, apparently still not wanting to communicate with him.

"Ah Shui?" Ren Yang was at a loss, he hadn't even tried to coax a girl—of course, his sister wasn't counted—in the face of this situation, he really understood what it means to "do nothing or die".He leaned over to Li Shangshui's bed with a shy face, trying to touch his face, but Li Shangshui turned away very shamelessly.

"Ah Shui..." Ren Yang refused to let go, and shamelessly lay down on the bed, trying to lift the quilt to get in, but he couldn't.He laughed, Li Shangshui is acting like a spoiled child on purpose, and it's a bit childish for two people to grab the quilt or something.

So he didn't lift it anymore, and directly hugged Li Shangshui with the quilt in his arms. Li Shangshui struggled meaningfully, and then stopped moving.

Ren Yang leaned forward and kissed Li Shangshui from forehead to chin, and said softly, "I made a mistake, Ah Shui, don't be angry, okay?"

Li Shangshui couldn't understand Ren Yang's act of admitting his mistake and eating tofu, so he gave him two words: "Get out."

"Don't get out, I want to sleep with you," Ren Yang said without changing his expression, "I didn't have the chance to share the same bed at school. If I can't be together when I go out to play, I'm too stupid."

"Then you still book the standard room?" Li Shangshui blurted out without thinking.Immediately realizing that what he said was not very good, his ears turned red, so he closed his eyes and did not look at Ren Yang.

Ren Yang laughed and said, "The bed in the big bed room is not much bigger than this one, and the price is the same. If I book the big bed room directly, I'm afraid you will say I'm a hooligan."

Li Shangshui thought to himself, he doesn't know who is playing hooligans now.

Ren Yang kissed Li Shangshui's closed eyes, felt his eyelids tremble slightly, kissed the tip of his nose again, and finally took Li Shangshui's lips.This kiss was different from the intense kiss in the afternoon, it was longer and softer, it seemed to be comforting, and it seemed to be expressing unspeakable love.

Li Shangshui let go of the hand that was holding the quilt corner, put his arms around Ren Yang's back, and responded silently.As long as I can hold this person, kiss him, touch him now, nothing else matters.

At the emotional point, Ren Yang raised his body slightly and asked softly, "Ah Shui, can we do it?"

Li Shangshui was also a little impatient at this time, his face was flushed, and his lips were moistened with water, which was indescribably alluring.Ren Yang's throat twitched, and he really wanted to dismantle him into his stomach immediately, and even more wanted to rub him into his body, so that no outsiders could see him forever.

Li Shangshui nodded embarrassingly with his eyes closed, his voice trembling: "Lubrication and condoms, do you have any?"

Ren Yang's eyes lit up, and he quickly got up to look for something in the TV cabinet.When he came back after a while, he shook the things in his hand to Li Shangshui: "I didn't prepare it, but the hotel prepared it for us." After speaking, he leaned over and kissed him, "Ah Shui, I like you so much."

After kissing and kissing, he lifted the quilt, reached into Li Shangshui's clothes, and kept walking and caressing him. This was the person he had dreamed about in his dream.Ren Yang reached out to take off Li Shangshui's pajamas, the tip of his tongue wandered from his lips to his neck, and then to two spots on his chest.Then came the waist. There was a mole on the side of Li Shangshui's waist. The tip of his tongue rolled over there, and Li Shangshui trembled all over.Then go down...

Li Shangshui lay powerlessly, his body felt a strange pleasure, which made his mind go berserk, but he still had a sense of consciousness, knowing what Ren Yang was doing at the moment.He bent his legs, took Ren Yang's hand, and said in a trembling voice, "Don't lick it, it's dirty..."

Ren Yang intertwined his fingers, ignored his refusal, and then swallowed Li Shangshui in one mouthful.

The strange pleasure hit, Li Shangshui could hardly hold it back, he could no longer say any words of rejection, he could only feel Ren Yang Ren Yang's damp and hot mouth with all his heart.

……

"Ah Shui, I, this is my first time, if I didn't do well, don't hold back."

"Ah Shui, does it hurt?"

"Ah Shui, if it hurts, I won't do it."

"Ah Shui, I want to move."

"Ah Shui, are you comfortable?"

"Ah Shui Ah Shui Ah Shui Ah Shui..."

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