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The cheerful Ren Yang couldn't care about why Xu Ruxin was in a bad mood at the moment, so he dropped his phone and found a sketchbook and started drawing.He was so happy that only drawing with a brush could calm him down.

Gao Weitao was still fighting in the game, so he didn't pay much attention to him.It was not until Li Shangshui came back that Gao Weitao took off the earphones and asked, "How is it going? I thought you won't be coming back tonight, is everything going well?"

Niu Junzi, who had come back a long time ago, also leaned over to ask what happened.Li Shangshui glanced at Ren Yang who was still immersed in painting, and said flatly: "It's nothing, I just rejected her. I went to the library at night."

Gao Weitao said "Oops": "I thought you could develop and develop, why didn't you know how to seize the right time? Can a university be considered a university if you don't fall in love?"

Li Shangshui sat down noncommittal and went about his own business.Only Niu Junzi asked Gao Weitao the whole story without knowing the truth. At the end, he also sighed: "I quite agree with Ah Shui's approach. If you don't like it, you don't like it. How can you deceive people's feelings? Pure and beautiful."

Gao Weitao provoked him deliberately: "Is it as pure as you were in high school?"

Niu Junzi gave him a fist, sat back in his seat with a sigh, and said, "I hope next year, no, this year's Qixi Festival, everyone can get out of the order."

"Fate can't be forced." Gao Weitao thought about it at this time.

"Whose fate?" Ren Yang, who came back to his senses from the painting, only heard the last sentence, and asked without thinking.Turning around to see that Li Shangshui had returned, he immediately rolled his eyes and said with a smile, "Ah Shui, are you back?"

Gao Weitao, who was turning around to talk to Ren Yang, saw his obsequious smile, and felt really blind. Ren Yang was exuding a sour smell of love all over his body, so angry that he couldn't help saying viciously: "Ren Yangyang, you This day is not a small harvest, right? See if you are proud, have you fallen in love? Tell the truth, or I will beat you to death!"

Li Shangshui wanted to laugh when he heard that.Ren Yang knew from his expression that he was having fun, so he didn't even type out the manuscript, and said, "So what? You can still rob my wife?"

Gao Weitao choked: "Are you promising? Tell me who it is, and I'll sow discord tomorrow, saying that you won't come home tonight, and you'll be out whoring/prostitution all night."

"Go, go, I'll lose if the provocation is successful," Ren Yang waved his hand generously, and leaned in front of Li Shangshui and said, "Is that right, Ah Shui?"

"Your uncle's Ren Yangyang!"

Ren Yang, who is in love with his head, still feels emotional until he turns off the lights and goes to sleep. He lies on the bed and looks at the mottled shadows on the curtains, so happy that he can't sleep.He turned over on the bed, looked at Li Shangshui who was his opponent, and reached out to touch his face.

Of course Li Shangshui didn't fall asleep either, he could hear the sound of Ren Yang turning over, and felt Ren Yang's hands caressing his face, so he reached out and pressed his paw unbearably.Ren Yang took advantage of the situation to hold back, and folded his hands on Li Shangshui's pillow.

"Ah Shui, I can't sleep." Ren Yang whispered in Li Shangshui's ear in a very soft voice.

Li Shangshui opened his eyes and looked at him for a while, then mouthed, "Close your eyes."

Ren Yang: "I want to kiss you."

His breath brushed Li Shangshui's ears lightly, like a feather, which made Li Shangshui feel itchy.So he turned his head to avoid it a little, broke free from the hands of the two people, turned over, pulled the quilt over his shoulders, and signaled Ren Yang not to talk nonsense, and went to bed quickly.

Ren Yang: "..."

Doesn't this seem to be the same as what is said in the book?But he could only withdraw his hand in resignation, but suddenly, he quietly got up again, listened to the breathing sound around him, and made sure that everyone was fast asleep, then leaned over to Li Shangshui's side, and walked over to Li Shangshui without a trace. A kiss was printed on her lips, and she whispered, "Good night, Ah Shui."

But Li Shangshui was terrified by his kiss—he couldn't say frankly that he was in a relationship like Ren Yang, and he was afraid of showing his difference to Ren Yang in front of his roommate, and he was even more afraid that his roommate would catch him on the spot. He didn't dare to think about the consequences if this matter was exposed, and what criticism Ren Yang would suffer.In the eyes of others, he is useless except for studying, and he doesn't want Ren Yang to face the same situation as him.

However, Ren Yang was more unscrupulous than he imagined.

When running in the morning, Ren Yang will definitely get up to keep up, and even take advantage of the lack of people on the playground, he will touch him.When I was in class, I would even find a hidden corner, and it would be fine if I didn’t listen to the class well, and I would always hold his left hand and touch it around, which was very indecent.Li Shangshui was very dissatisfied with this, but Ren Yang saw that he was angry and just kept saying that he would never do it next time, but next time, his hand would still be stretched out, and whenever this happened, he would say innocently : "My right hand is used to your left hand, it's out of my control! Next time, why don't you sit on my left?"

The most outrageous thing is that Li Shangshui has never been to the reading room of the new library since then.When they went to the old library, they would definitely be dragged by Ren Yang to the library where they made love for each other to have a good time.He deliberately refused, but every time he became soft-hearted under Ren Yang's kiss.

In Li Shangshui's view, this is not normal, at least it does not meet the definition of first love.In his little knowledge, first love is bound to be accompanied by shyness, and the relationship between two people should be gradual, instead of being so enthusiastic at the beginning, it may not be sustainable for a long time.After making out in the library one day, it was rare that Li Shangshui didn't take his bag and leave immediately, and sat on the ground and told Ren Yang what he thought.

"That's a trick played by middle school students." Ren Yang stretched his legs, leaning against the bookshelf with a lazy look, "We are adults, do you dare to admit that you have no desire for me?"

Li Shangshui was silent.

"Besides, I don't think it's abnormal. I like you, and I want to be by your side all the time. Kissing is also a way of expressing love." Ren Yang simply lay down on Li Shangshui's lap, reaching out to caress Li Shangshui's face , "What's more, there is no chance in the dormitory. You always ignore me in class, and you can only tell each other your heart in the library."

Li Shangshui pushed his hand away, thoughtful.

"Also," Ren Yang grabbed his hand, "Obviously you feel a lot when I kiss you, so can you not just turn around and leave every time after kissing you? I'm very sad. Yes, Ah Shui."

Li Shangshui was taken aback for a moment, and then his ears turned red: "Yes, yes?"

"I guarantee my character, absolutely." As he said that, he put his hand into Li Shangshui's clothes along the waistline honestly: "So, do you want to give me compensation?"

"Don't make trouble, I have to go to study." Li Shangshui pressed his hands, "I have to make up lessons for Su Mian tomorrow, I can't be unprepared."

Ren Yang withdrew his hand resentfully, watched him push the door out, wondering if he was a little too clingy.

It's not that Li Shangshui dislikes too much intimacy, he subconsciously believes that a long-lasting relationship is the best.For him, not to mention love, even ordinary close friendship does not exist, the better others treat him, the more he is afraid of losing.

It's just that once the tutoring work started, Li Shangshui found that he didn't have that much time to spend alone with Ren Yang.

Su Mian was undoubtedly an obedient and well-behaved child, and even prepared some drinks and snacks for Li Shangshui before he left.Due to her basic deviation, Li Shangshui only strengthened what she learned every day, transferred the knowledge points to the textbooks of lower grades, and explained them in a loop.She listened very carefully, and she was not as coquettish and lazy as Li Shangshui imagined.

During the break, he tried to communicate with Su Mian: "What do you usually do at school?"

"Well," Su Mian tilted her head and thought for a while, "Except for going to the toilet, school activities, and physical education classes, I spend most of my time sitting in my seat."

Li Shangshui was a little surprised. The curricula of primary schools in cities are now very scientific and reasonable. They will not arrange the time for students to study textbooks. Instead, they will encourage students to do more extracurricular activities.Even in their hometown in the countryside, elementary school children don't sit in classrooms all day to study, and more often go out to play after class.Why did Su Mian do this?

He tentatively asked: "Sit and study all the time? Is it too much pressure to study?"

"No, brother," Su Mian's big eyes were full of doubts, "Does every child have a father and a mother? Why do my classmates say that it is wrong for me to have two fathers? They always say that my father is dirty If you say I'm dirty, you won't play with me. I can only play by myself."

Li Shangshui was shocked again, not knowing how to answer for a moment.

At this time, the door of Su Mian's small study was knocked twice, Su Mian immediately regained her cheerful look, and shouted: "Come in, Dad."

Lou Yu came in with two plates of cut fruits, and said with a smile, "Take a rest when you're tired, don't force yourself to study, it won't be efficient."

Li Shangshui nodded: "She is serious and smart."

Su Mian smiled obediently beside her.Lou Yu stepped forward and rubbed her hair, and said, "Our Xiao Mian has always been very smart, but she didn't meet the right teacher, right?"

Su Mian squinted her eyes to enjoy the softness of Lou Yu's big hands, and nodded seriously: "Yes!"

Lou Yu smiled: "I really don't feel ashamed. Well, you guys go on, if you need anything, you can find me next door."

After Lou Yu left, Su Mian's smile disappeared, and she spread her hands in a big way: "Look, my father is so gentle and kind, why would someone speak ill of him?"

"Are you lonely, at school?" Li Shangshui asked.

Su Mian shook her head: "No, I am very satisfied with the present, but my grades are not very good. However, there is a girl playing with me in the class next door. We have physical education together, so she plays with me."

Li Shangshui also rubbed her hair: "In the future, if someone speaks ill of your father, you should come back and tell your father. Your father will find a solution."

"No." Su Mian still shook her head, "Fathers are very busy and tired. I don't want them to frown for me anymore."

Li Shangshui smiled bleakly, understanding the maturity of Lord Su Mian, but he didn't have a good suggestion for it.

For the first time, he knew that homosexuality is dirty and unbearable in the eyes of the world. No matter how loving two people are, no matter how good they are, once they are labeled as "gay", they will be regarded as out of place. heterogeneous.Even innocent children are not immune to the sword of others' tongue.

After he went back, he secretly contacted Su Yue and told about this matter. Su Yue felt distressed and shocked when he heard it, but there is no good way at present. It is very easy for him to transfer schools, but for such a sensitive Su Mian, I am afraid it is not. The best way.I can only let her solve it by herself, and the situation may improve when she enters junior high school, high school, and even university.

Li Shangshui could only sigh in his heart, the road of homosexuality is not easy.

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