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The kitten that a lonely teenager once adopted has become a big fat cat.Su Chen was worried that the cute Fluffy who lost one eye and couldn't change his appearance would have difficulty surviving after his death and would have no shelter.He deliberately prepared to take Fluffy to its favorite place for a few days, bought the favorite things for Fluffy, and stayed with it for a whole day, and then he took Fluffy to the place where they stayed on the day they met for the first time. home.He took out a shining knife and gave Fluffy a choice. Years of tacit understanding made him understand the cat's mood in an instant, and he understood that sometimes it would be more painful to give a choice.So he cut the knife neatly, and finally the cat greeted death docilely and motionlessly. The blood spread on the floor, and the big fat cat slept quietly in it. The lonely young man covered in blood asked: "I'm going to the same place soon, why do I feel so sad when I see important beings leave and be left behind?" The voice quietly echoed and then disappeared quietly, He has many questions like this that no one can answer, only Chen Jingrong has listened carefully and answered him.

After that, Su Chen waited quietly, waiting for the time when that person was having a good time, waiting for the right time.The process of waiting is very painful, but he is used to suffering silently. After all, he grew up under the fence of others, and Su Chen is also a person who will work hard to complete it once he makes up his mind.

Chen Jingrong recently wanted to go back to England for a visit, and then he left all his work to Su Chen, who was already his subordinate, and went on vacation willfully.Grandma Chen's tomb is in England. He wants to visit grandma. He misses the blue sky and cloudy sky there. He also wants to see the coast of England. He used to like to go to the sea in England.The last time I came here was to hold a funeral for my grandma, and it was inevitable that I would feel a little sad occasionally when my grandma left, but now I feel a lot calmer in my heart.Facing the former residence is more of a comfortable feeling of nostalgia.Chen Jingrong's views and feelings about things are indeed much better now than before, and it can even be said that she is very happy recently.

He often goes for a walk by the seaside recently. One day when the afternoon was approaching dusk, he came to a secluded but beautiful coast by himself. It happened to be empty at the moment. He saw Su Chen walking suddenly from a distance, thinking that he must be in a hurry. I came to see him after finishing my business.Extremely suddenly he heard gunshots and smelled blood.The gunshot came from a position not too far away from him, and the smell of blood came from his body.

The severe pain made people's consciousness about to collapse and fall into darkness, but he opened his eyes hard because of the doubt, and saw Su Chen's face covered with tears. It was really strange, how could someone cry like this?Looking at this expression, it seems that even the pain is not so strong.He heard Su Chen say sadly and panickedly: "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... I didn't intend to make you suffer. My hand was shaking and I missed it. It hurts. I'm going to make another shot right away. ..."

Chen Jingrong vomited blood and struggled to speak: "I am the one who is going to die... why are you crying like this... Did I cause you a lot of harm but didn't realize it ...that's why it pushed you to this point..."

Su Chen originally thought that he would be hated and hated, but he didn't expect that person to react like this, and said: "You..." Before he had time to ask the question, the person had already started to shut down slowly. The upper eye gradually stops breathing.

After the gentle young man slowly fell into an eternal slumber, Su Chen gently hugged him, maintaining the same posture quietly and gently hugging the blood dripping person in his arms, as if staying here with that person's soul The last moment in the body is waiting for that person to rest completely.Finally, it seems that only a cold exorcism shell has been dropped here.Su Chen said gently and cautiously: "Jing Rong, are you already asleep? Then, is it okay for me to do something that annoys you?"

Finally, his lips kissed the person he had always loved in his heart.The passion/desire that had been suppressed in order not to be hated was finally released for a moment.He was so afraid of destroying that tiny warmth.The desire to be one with the one he loves is obviously so strong, so he desecrates the cold corpse, and finally even eats the flesh and blood.Sometimes if you are too eager for a person, you will want to know the taste of that person's blood and flesh. If you are too eager for a person, you will want to connect with that person in a more extreme way.But if that person can live, in the final analysis, these are the vents of losers.But even that doesn't matter.

The body was bitten and incomplete, and even the heart was dug out and eaten directly.Feeling the weird smell of blood in his mouth, and forcing himself to swallow, Su Chen wondered if he could understand that person better?The way he looks now must be terrible, no wonder the family of his uncle who raised him since he was a child said he was abnormal, and then he thought of Rong Rong and what Chen Jingrong said to him before he died, and for some reason his heart warmed What is this strange feeling that is warm but can't help but cry?

When his stomach finally couldn't eat anymore, he saw hallucinations, and it was that lonely and gloomy boy again, standing in the middle of the sea, the loose hem of his clothes and hair fluttering with the sea breeze, staring at him faintly, with tears on his delicate face never disappeared.

Su Chen looked at the young man calmly, then held the broken remains in his arms with some difficulty, and walked towards the young man step by step.

The cold sea water hit Su Chen's body wave after wave, each time covering his body more and more. While walking, he said to the young man, "I finally know why you are crying."

"It's no longer necessary to cry. Even if we feel nothing at first, we can still be loved by important people by virtue of our own efforts. We can still be loved. Even happiness, maybe we can also Obtained. So, be happy. I keep my promise and come to help you."

Finally, Su Chen saw the boy smile for the first time, and the boy's smile turned out to be so pretty.Su Chen thought: That's great, this last can barely be considered a happy ending.

The blood, the figures of the two young men, and the entanglement between them, which is as blue as the sky, swallowed all of them.The sea water that was once dyed red also slowly turned back to blue. The sea surface seemed to remain calm forever as if nothing had happened. The sea breeze seemed to always remember what happened, sometimes gentle, sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes Blowing low.

When people walk by the seaside, they suddenly become sentimental, maybe it's just because the sea breeze is secretly telling the stories it has seen in the past.

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Three years later, Su Mingyuan stood silently beside Su Chen's tomb, not knowing what to say but wanting to say something.The outside world doesn't know what happened between Su Chen and Chen Jingrong in the past. They only know that they disappeared suddenly. They found guns and bloodstains on the seashore. They have never been alive or dead, but there are signs that they should all be dead.

With the regret of not being able to reconcile, Su Mingyuan built an empty tomb for Su Chen.Now the willful and naughty child has grown up, but he has no chance of reconciliation with the person he once hurt.He and Su Chen also had happy memories when they were young. After all, they were also people who lived together for more than ten years. When they recalled the past, they would think of this person who is no longer there, and they would think of the time when they were not forgiven. Painful and guilty, remembering the emptiness and sadness of parting.

Su Mingyuan finally opened his mouth and said to the empty tombstone: "After you left, I realized that family is really important. As long as a person can have a warm home and family, it is enough to feel happy." .I think back on the past, and found that we really neglected you a little on purpose, but my dad later said that it was only because every time he saw you, he would think of your mother, his dead sister, and your father who killed your sister. , so I don’t know how to face you. He always let me stay with you before because he wanted us to be good friends, but unfortunately I used to bully you at that time. But you are only in the room where we burned you When you are angry with us, maybe you have been enduring for the previous family. But we thought you were doing well because of your calmness. We really don’t understand you, but even those who don’t understand can communicate with each other. Be warm, if there is an afterlife, I hope you can have a truly warm home."

For the rest of his life, Su Mingyuan will live with this regret for his brother. He will come here often, remember this incident, and then think about it, learn how to cherish the people around him, and then when he has a child, he will I will teach you the meaning and method of cherishing.This is what I learned in life, and then I started to grow continuously.I hope everyone can be happy, it's okay if you fail, human beings often keep failing and growing.

In the end, in the end, in the end, at the end of his life, Su Ming would like to understand a little bit about the meaning of understanding, warmth and loneliness-people can understand each other, but they can never fully understand each other. Individual experiences and feelings are not exactly the same, and this inability to understand each other is a testament to the richness of this world, which is why human beings can never avoid loneliness, and the beauty and wonder of this world is exactly All kinds of human beings and species of all kinds can always coexist harmoniously, warming each other, helping each other and supporting each other from time to time, sometimes hurting each other, sometimes repenting, warming each other, sometimes separating and sometimes reuniting, and so on in a blink of an eye. After a lifetime.And death is a peaceful long sleep after this long trekking life, unloading the burden of this world and going to another unknown world brand new.I don't know what will happen in that unknown world?Looking forward to it.

What is happiness?

Wandering and confused looking for this answer.

What is happiness?

I have never understood the meaning of this.

What is right?

The search left traces of twists and turns.

When will it end?

In fact, I have been looking for it all my life.

Different people can understand each other.

Does the world know?

How insane it is to be alone.

Does the world know?

Humans are desperate to escape the void.

Sometimes humans walk side by side,

It's like living in two worlds.

when i stand by your side,

Subtle actions reveal the heart.

Behind the crazy weird love,

This is my longing to be loved.

something unexplainable,

I also hope someone will understand.

These feelings cannot be named,

I hope you understand too.