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Chen Jingrong knew about Su Chen at work. It was rumored that he was the illegitimate son of Lin Mo, the boss of the Well Group. He had just come to this city recently.Chen Jingrong had met Su Chen a few times at the regular local business circle banquets, she looked unexpectedly young and very good-looking for men - but if it turned out to be an illegitimate child, the average mother would be very beautiful.Is it normal to be so long and good-looking?Originally, I thought it would be someone who looked more gloomy and fierce.That's all the impression I had of him when I first met him.Later, Chen Jingrong didn't expect that Su Chen would come here specially to chat with her. It was very strange that she couldn't tell the purpose at all, and she seemed to know herself very well, as if she just wanted to chat with someone who had been waiting for a long time.Later, Chen Jingrong often ran into this person by chance, sometimes even when he went out for a meal.Su Chen'ai stared at him silently, and sometimes asked concerned questions that were difficult to answer, such as "Did you feel tired just now?" There was always no expression in the dark eyes on her face.

Su Chen is really weird.More than half a year passed peacefully. Su Chen always appeared beside Chen Jingrong like a lingering ghost, but he was also as quiet as a ghost, as if he had no sense of existence, and never took the initiative to disturb the young man who was still gentle with others. Life.

Su Chen is used to staying in Su's house quietly, and he has also felt this kind of quiet company from the cat, and felt the warmth from this company. Su Chen really wants to see that person again, showing that even he can Infected by the warm smile, he wondered if that person would be happier.

After a long time, Chen Jingrong noticed this person. He thought about Su Chen, and remembered the thing about being pursued by a homosexual confession in a foreign country. He felt that Su Chen really felt like that. good.

Most of the time, he kept a normal and polite distance from this weirdo, and after a long time, he occasionally chatted casually like ordinary friends, asking him casually, "Why do you always eat so little?"

Su Chen replied: "Keep in shape."

Chen Jingrong: "As a man who is already so beautiful, do you still care about your figure?"

A gleam of joy flashed across the face of the other party who had been covering up all his emotions like a paralyzed face, and asked, "Do you think I'm good-looking?"

Chen Jingrong: "... Objectively speaking, it is. It's even a little cute."

The weird man tried his best to hide his joy and said, "Well, thank you."

Having known Su Chen for a long time, Chen Jingrong felt that this was a bit uncomfortable. When they ran into each other again in a big hotel, Chen Jingrong asked this person to meet alone, and asked this weird person straight to the point: "What do you think of me?"

Su Chen remained silent.

Chen Jingrong continued: "Then I will ask bluntly. I have also thought about it for a long time. It is better to clarify some things. Are you gay? Do you like me? Don't worry, although I am not a minority group, I respect Minorities, also think their feelings are normal, I just wanted to make that clear to you."

Su Chen smiled slightly, and the short-lived smile was a little touching in an instant. Even Chen Jingrong, who is a straight man, thought Su Chen was really good-looking: "I know you don't like the same sex. I've thought about it for a long time. In the end, I don't think it's worth it. relationship, because there is no other way for feelings. There is no way for me to help you. Don’t feel guilty about it, on the contrary, I hope you can use me for your own benefit.”

Chen Jingrong asked: "Even if there is no response, it doesn't matter if the result won't change?" But in his heart, he was doubting the authenticity of what Su Chen just said, thinking about whether this person had any purpose, and what aspects he should pay attention to.

Su Chen: "Well. I won't lie to you. I feel that you have been sad since your parents passed away. There is a feeling that you can't be happy without someone close enough. I don't want to continue to see you like this."

The sudden mention of her dead parents, Chen Jingrong, still had some concerns in her heart, but she didn't show it: "You investigated me specifically? Did you know me before?"

Su Chen: "Well. I used to be in the same city as you, but you probably...don't know me. I met once before."

Chen Jingrong thought for a while and said: "I'm very sorry, I don't have any impression. I think you are really good, and I think that a person like you will definitely attract many people, but it is impossible for me to like you. I am very sure that I am the opposite sex Love, and I don’t think that a person’s sexual orientation can change after adulthood. So, why not spend your time on someone who is more worthy.”

Su Chen: "I know. But feelings don't stop when you know there is no result. You don't have to accept it, but I haven't changed myself. Maybe one day I will change all this. Before that, let me wishful thinking Let’s pay. Or let’s move yourself. But if it troubles you, you must tell me.”

This conversation ended like this.Although Su Chen said that he moved him, he almost never did anything that Chen Jingrong would find annoying, and he always supported what he wanted to do, and knew to keep his distance. Su Chen really thought about him.Chen Jingrong felt that it was a bit of a pity, for someone who was so good to the person he liked and was not bad in himself, why he had to hang himself on a tree that was destined to have no rewards, and felt that Su Chen was really a weirdo .

"You can use me as much as you want for your own happiness." This is what Mr. Su Chen said to Chen Jingrong, so affectionate that it is hard to understand.

Su Chen is definitely an unconventional existence, not all different from the people Chen Jingrong has met before, but after all, there are all kinds of people in the world.

Chen Jingrong couldn't hate Su Chen, and he couldn't like Su Chen, but he felt that although he was not very kind, he could indeed use Su Chen.In today's world, how many people have started their careers are all clean.He now understands why his aunt, who is a Christian, always opposes his business.But it is my father's last wish to inherit his father's career.This is the path I chose, even if it is not good, I have to go on.He started to use Su Chen.Su Chen is a weirdo, as long as Chen Jingrong wants to do something, he will support him, and he will follow him without complaint for a long time.

Chen Jingrong seriously felt that he and Su Chen must be people living in two worlds.But after getting to know each other for a long time, they felt like they were friends with Su Chen.He often chats casually, and when chatting with Su Chen, he really has a pleasant feeling, like a friend who has known him for a long time. By the way, Su Chen is right, he does not have many close people.Even when Chen Jingrong can be with Su Chen, it is like being with friends, a little bit happy.

He asked this person: "A lot of times I just don't know why you can still laugh, are you easily satisfied?"

Su Chen: "Maybe, isn't it about contentment and happiness?"

Chen Jingrong: "I wonder why you are so easily satisfied."

Su Chen: "I don't really understand either. Maybe it's because there is a lot that I lack that I long to be satisfied, and because it is difficult to satisfy, I will change myself, so that I can only be satisfied with some tiny things."

Chen Jingrong: "That's it. It's a good thing if you can really be satisfied by tiny things."

Su Chen: "Not really, I think people who are easy to be satisfied sometimes are easy to be stressed in places that others don't expect."

Chen Jingrong: "Maybe, I am not such a person who is easily satisfied."

Su Chen: "Why?"

Chen Jingrong: "No, it's just that I have always felt bad and not bad. Isn't it the same for ordinary people? There are only a few people who always feel happy. I asked why. It's like a group of young boys thinking about life and having a heart-to-heart conversation."

Su Chen: "There's nothing wrong with that. Many childhood problems have not been solved even if you become a person who can take care of yourself. They are just suppressed and hidden. Me too, some things have never changed. For you, if you Wouldn’t it be nice to never forget the mentality of being young?”

Chen Jingrong thought for a while: "It makes sense. But I think you are the kind of person who will probably look like a teenager in some way for the rest of his life."

Su Chen: "Is that how other people see me? But I think you should relax more. You were the happiest before you were 20 years old. It would be great if you could go back to that time. I think you are too old now. I have worked hard. I couldn’t help it before, but now I can be the shopkeeper, it would be better to give myself more time.”

Chen Jingrong said noncommittally: "If you want to talk about relaxation, there is nothing special you want to do."

Su Chen: "It would be great if all the good times lost due to sudden disasters could be made up for. Do you have this idea? There will always be regretful wishes from the past. Find them again and see if they can It’s come true, shouldn’t we enjoy life now?”

Chen Jingrong: "Well..."

Su Chen: "If you think of something you want to do and there is no one, remember to call me. Anything is fine."

Chen Jingrong: "For example... Go to the game hall to play games, go to the snack street to drink beer at night? Walk around the Chinese specialty snack street? Go to the Yellowstone Park in the United States to be an adventurer?"

The sun shone on his fair skin, making Su Chen's whole body look a little shimmering, blending in the light softly. He smiled and said, "Okay, let's make an appointment to go together."

Although Su Chen is indeed a good person, Chen Jingrong feels that after getting to know Su Chen, life is much more interesting, but he still can't understand that this person is real, people always have a subconscious rejection of incomprehensible existence, but Chen Jingrong accepts this as much as possible. It is a habit formed by the open education he received in foreign countries when he was young.But he was a little curious about what kind of experience and what kind of life he lived to cultivate such a weirdo.He also went to investigate. This person seems to be extremely nostalgic. He grew up in his uncle's family when he was a child. Now he has no contact with his uncle's family. Su's old house.The villas in the suburbs are chosen in the most remote and lush places.He has always been kind to strangers, seems to be willing to chat with strangers, helpful, but keeps a distance from others, rarely has close relationship with people, has always been a little withdrawn, likes a quiet environment, has many casual acquaintances, many seem Relationships are okay, but close relationships aren't.Got an ugly cat.Because of many strange things, they are often discussed by subordinates, but they don't seem to care.Although it seems unreliable to always help Chen Jingrong by "using power for personal gain" at work, he is actually good at handling things.The more Chen Jingrong got to know Su Chen, the more he felt that Su Chen was like a person from another world. He and he must be people living in two worlds.

Once Chen Jingrong said to the strange person: "Have you seen the recent popular movie "The Great Gatsby"?"

Su Chen: "No. Is it good? I'm not interested in movies."

Chen Jingrong: "It's best not to watch it. It's just one sentence that left a deep impression on me. And the protagonist is quite interesting, a bit like you."

Su Chen: "Yes"

Chen Jingrong: "Honestly speaking, I admire a person like you, who really seems to be very happy to accompany me to do so many boring things."

Su Chen: "I don't feel bored. Whether it's when we're having fun or when we're in trouble, those are all important memories of getting along with each other."

Chen Jingrong: "That's why I say I admire you." The life that was originally boring has become more interesting.How nice it would be to be friends with you all the time.But after all, if you are gay, you shouldn't be able to, right?

Sometimes between people, it is as warm as the sun.If there is enough luck, maybe in a parallel world, Su Chen and Chen Jingrong will always be friends without disturbing each other and warming each other like they are now. The obsession with the past, being able to escape from the past sadness, being able to take it up and let it go, and then meet your own lover, and then live a happy life in the world.The same is true for Chen Jingrong, who encourages him as a friend and has his own lover by his side.Then everyone smiled together and walked through the long years of life until the end of life.At that time, Su Chen would occasionally think of the past, and in such a beautiful life that seemed illusory, he would sigh what would happen if it was a more realistic ending. He just hoped that through direct efforts, he could get it one day. That's all there is to happiness.