How to Save a Failed Farm

Ye Qun looked down, they were already very close, but he still moved closer.Their bodies were stuck together, with only two layers of fabric separating their skin.

"People are always like this. After drinking, they will sleep together." Ye Qun commented, with a look of lack of interest.

"But we don't, we're friends," Lance said. "Friends don't sleep."

"Yes, we won't sleep with friends." Ye Qun seriously echoed.

They pretended to be serious about watching TV, but neither was thinking about the movie.

"There are exceptions," Lance said in a candid tone. "My ex-girlfriend and I were friends at first. But we slept."

"Tsk, you actually slept with your friend." Ye Qun raised his eyebrows and condemned, then changed the topic, "Well, it's nothing, who wasn't a friend in the first place?"

"We're friends," Lance nodded in agreement. They both looked straight ahead, determined not to look at each other's expressions.

After a while he said, "What if we had sex? Well, I'm just asking."

"What will happen, no one will know, except ourselves." Ye Qun thought for a while.

"Our bedroom is upstairs." Lance stared at the screen, Ye Qun was the same as him, although he had no idea where the movie was going.

"There is a sofa here." Ye Qun said affirmatively, "But we won't go to bed."

"We just kept talking about going to bed." The atmosphere became more and more subtle, Ye Qun felt Lance's body temperature coming through the two layers of fabric, and he himself was also hot all over, and he couldn't tell who was hotter.

"Yeah, we've been talking about sex."

……

They lay side by side on the bed, breathing steadily.

I am a straight man.Leaf Qun 100% sure.He entered the time of the sage, and began to think with complicated emotions, how did I bend? ? ?He felt that he was in desperate need of a cigarette.

But Ye Qun never smoked, so he had to ask Lance, "Do you have any cigarettes?"

"No, I don't smoke." Lance shook his head, then became nervous, "Do you regret it?"

"I have no regrets."

"I don't regret it either."

Lance put an arm around him, and Ye Qun lay down again. In the quiet farm, the heartbeats of the two people pulsated clearly in their ears.

"This is really a great experience." Lance turned his head and looked at Ye Qun, his eyes were shining.

"It's a great experience." Ye Qun repeated, except that his waist and butt are hurting now.

The next day, Ye Qun opened his eyes tiredly. He first saw the sheets with unfamiliar patterns. He rubbed against the pillow unconsciously like a cat, and then saw Lance's peaceful sleeping face. At the same time, His long eyelashes trembled, and his hazy brown eyes opened slowly.

There was a buzzing sound in Ye Qun's head.

"Good morning," Lance said sleepily.He woke up suddenly, and a blush appeared on his face.

"...Good morning." Ye Qun struggled to control his frightened expression, and said dryly.He can't wait to turn on his phone and post now: What should I say when I wake up in the morning with my one-night stand?Wait online, hurry up! ! !

Ye Qun was a little thankful that they all changed into pajamas after taking a shower last night, otherwise the current situation would be a hundred times more embarrassing.

It's nothing, Ye Qun comforted himself in his heart.He and Lance had a crush on each other and rolled together under the influence of alcohol and adrenaline.It's just a one-night stand, just a fling between two dudes who see each other, and he's dying, what's wrong with carpe diem?

But that doesn't mean he can say hello to Lance calmly, Ye Qun took a deep breath, they liked each other, and then they went to bed, in order to avoid big trouble, he should leave as soon as possible.

They lay silently on the bed for a minute, Lance quietly approached Ye Qun, he blushed and said, "Would you like to stay here?" Lance swallowed nervously, "I mean, the air in the farm is very good……"

As a buddy with benefits?Ye Qun thought to himself, interrupting Lance: "We are all straight men, right?"

Lance's expression immediately became a little pitiful, he wondered a little desperately, did Ye Qun only regard yesterday as a one-night stand?But don't we go to bed because we like each other?Does he not like me?But why would he sleep with a man if he doesn't like me?Does he regret it?Coming out is something that takes time to get used to...

His expression made Ye Qun feel like a bad guy who kicked a puppy, alarm bells were ringing in his heart, Lance didn't regard this as a one-night stand, he wanted to seek a long-term relationship.

"You can forget about that, no, I mean, don't make it a burden to you." Lance worded his words carefully, "We're still friends." Also, I'm not so straight now, he added mentally explain.

Would you sleep with a straight boyfriend?Ye Qun felt that he was about to no longer recognize the word friend.

They all knew last night was no accident.None of them was drunk, the alcohol just made them more courageous to face reality.They rolled together sanely knowing exactly what each other wanted.This is enough to show that they not only have a good impression of each other, but it is impossible for two straight men of steel to have sex just by having a good impression.

They like each other.

Perhaps in TV series and novels, they should go through a series of misunderstandings before realizing their inner feelings.But life is rough, and going to bed takes them straight through all the tangled steps and confronting their desire for each other.

If he's healthy, it'll be an adventure.Ye Qun felt the trick of fate, and felt a bit of sadness in his heart.He put away his smile and put on an indifferent attitude: "I have to leave, I'm traveling around the world."

"I understand, but can we keep in touch?" Lance clenched his fist nervously and said with courage, "I like you very much. Qun, I know coming out is not an easy thing, but I will always Waiting for you at the farm."

Ye Qun's heart began to ache. He also liked Lance. Although they had only known each other for a few days, their feelings were real.Lance is so genuine and kind that he can't help being drawn to his warmth.

He didn't want to leave at all, he was fascinated by the breath on Lance that was as clear as the Texas sunshine, it was like a large cornfield spreading into the distance, burning with blazing vitality under the blue sky.

But he can't be so selfish, he's dying, and he doesn't deserve a relationship.

Ye Qun couldn't look Lance in the eyes and reject him, because it wasn't his intention.He lowered his head and said against his will: "Sorry, we can't go any further."

Lance didn't show the expression he expected like a lost big dog. He was extraordinarily calm at the moment: "Why don't you look at me and talk? You like me too, so why reject me?"

He didn't miss Ye Qun's tangled expression. People who really love each other don't need to say it, he can feel that Ye Qun must like him too.If it's concerns about same-sex love, Lance doesn't think it's a problem: "You don't have to rush to decide, we have a lot of time..."

"But I don't have time!" Ye Qun blurted out, wanting to bite off his tongue immediately.

"What do you mean? Don't you..." Lance's expression turned serious.This sentence was shocking enough, and he still retained the most basic sensitivity of a journalist. In an instant, he thought of that box of medicine bottles that was abnormally large.

"It's just what you think." In the suffocating silence, Ye Qun forced a smile, "I have cancer and am dying. I gave up the treatment and spent my last time traveling around the world."

All of a sudden everything was quiet, and there was a sad look on Lance's face. He was always overly optimistic, but now he felt that he didn't have the energy to mobilize the muscles in his face.He silently grabbed Ye Qun's hand: "How bad is the situation?" He said eagerly, "I saved a doctor on the battlefield. He is very accomplished in cancer. I will contact him immediately, Qun, don't give up."

"It doesn't make sense, Lance. Chemotherapy may allow me to live for a few more months, but I will be in pain. What's the use of those few months of insanity?" Ye Qun said calmly, speaking very slowly , as if such indigestible pain could slip through the gap.

On the day he was diagnosed with liver cancer, he sat alone on a bench in the hospital garden all day.He is only 28 years old, but he is not so surprised, both parents died of cancer, maybe this is genetic.He checked a lot of information and cases, and finally chose to give up treatment.He is a little thankful that he has nothing to worry about in this world, which makes him less nostalgic for life.But now he stared at Lance's eyes, a pair of amber eyes reflected in the morning light, his slightly curly hair, his lips and the bridge of his nose, and never felt such strong reluctance in his heart.

"Let's have another check, okay?" Lance begged. "Anyway, America's medical care is better. I know him, Dr. Minnis, and he's done a lot of medical miracles."

Ye Qun looked at him and shook his head firmly: "Don't feel sorry for me, please. Lance, I'm glad I met you."

"I will be by your side," Lance didn't need to think about it at all, "I will always be with you."

Ye Qun withdrew his hand in shock: "I won't let you do this, it's not fair to you."

Their relationship didn't reach this level, Lance was just too kind.Watching the person he loves suffer from cancer, gradually haggard, emaciated, unconscious, coma, vomiting blood, and death, he experienced it twice, and both times were nightmares.

Ye Qun can still recall that before her mother passed away, the cancer invaded her internal organs, and the dosage of painkillers allowed by the doctor could not allow her to spend her final days peacefully.She cries for pain every day, and she is so thin that she has no human shape.During that time, Ye Qun couldn't help tears in his eyes every time he heard her humming in pain.

He couldn't put Lance through this.They don't have deep feelings for each other now, but their feelings are not accidental. The throbbing and tenderness in his heart when he looks at Lance has never been there before. Maybe Lance is his destined soul mate.It was only a matter of time, if they continued to be together, they would gradually become dependent on each other, inseparable, and when he passed away, it would be an extremely painful torture for both of them.

He's gone now, Lance will forget him, maybe it will take some time, but Lance will forget him.