My life in another world is up to me

——"Rustling." The sound of the wind blowing and brushing the leaves.

a long time--

Xia Zhengcai said, "I am a human being." He looked very solemn, staring at Zelong closely, every word, as if promising something precious: "I——is—human—"

Because we are human, we have to live and die in a human way.

Zelong blinked, looking a little innocent. After a while, a few beards on his face were raised, revealing his fangs, full of malicious intentions: "I thought it was because of other reasons. See Come on, in fact, you are very clear in your heart... That guy Su Ziyi is still sharpening his head and thinking, he probably doesn't know until now, but in fact, you know that you have the blood of a monster in your body." It gloated.

"No!"

"I do not have!"

Without any hesitation, Xia Zheng blurted out his rebuttal, but it was too deliberate, coupled with the paleness of his face and the panic in his eyes, it seemed to be trying to cover up.

However, who is Zelong?

Whoever it wants to look good in the entire Kingdom of the Night, it will definitely not make anyone feel better.

As long as it wants to do, there is nothing it can't do.

Therefore, its mind was set, and it decided that it was right, and began to circle Xia Zheng with great interest, and said in an understatement: "It's true." Xia Zheng wanted to refute, but the next second he was caught Ze Long was stuck in his mouth: "So, you must know what will happen to you if you use the Nine Leaf Chasing Dark Grass to activate the blood of the monster beast."

Xia Zheng simply stopped talking.

He had discovered that no matter what he said, it was of no use.

This monster is too mysterious, the background behind it must be quite big, maybe...

There was a twinkle in his eyes.

Zelong jumped and landed on the tree again. It raised its front paws, licked its fur with its tongue, and then looked at Xia Zheng and said, "This is all retribution." Its tone was full of teasing, not like Xia Zheng's imagined anger.

This made Xia Zheng heave a sigh of relief, but at the same time, his heart was full of complications.

Zelong didn't care if he said or not, confronted each other, and said by himself: "Although I only heard about it, but thousands of years ago, your human cultivators were really rampant... the only time there were human cultivators It was at that time that the invasion into the country of the evening happened. At that time, many monsters at the peak of the ninth level, and even the monsters of the tenth level were taken away by your tricks, which is really quite powerful." Its tone is really It was a simple exclamation, without any trace of hatred or complaints, which made Xia Zheng feel even more confused when he heard it, and didn't know what the monster was thinking.

"We monsters hunt the same kind, and basically eat them directly, so that we can absorb enough spiritual power."

"But you humans are really interesting." Zelong blinked: "Spiritual grasses are used to refine medicine, spirit mines are used to refine weapons, and the corpses of monsters can also be extracted by you using secret methods to produce blood essence, which can be fused with yourselves." In one."

"Aren't you worried that you will explode yourself?" It asked curiously.

"The blood of the monster, you human race can't bear it at all?"

Xia Zheng didn't speak, but the shock in his eyes had already betrayed everything.

He does know who he really is.

It's just that what he knows is definitely not as much as what Zelong said.

His throat was a little sore, and he said dryly, "I don't know what you're talking about." As a younger generation, he can't blame what his predecessors did, and he can't change it. He can only accept it and pretend to be deaf and dumb as everything is wrong. I don't know.Because only in this way can he forget the pain that he has been suppressing in his heart all the time, and allow him to face up to his own identity.

He is alone.

An absolute.

Thinking of this, his eyes became firm again without any wavering.Seeing this, Zelong felt a little bored, waggled his tail and was about to leave: "Even if you don't plan to use the Nine Leaf Chasing Dark Grass, your body won't be able to handle it at all." There was a sly light in its eyes: "When your strength reaches a certain level and the meridians and sea of ​​energy in your body can no longer bear it, your sealed monster blood may take the opportunity to wake up and take control of your body."

"It's not up to you when the time comes." After saying this, it shook its head and left.

Before reaching behind him, Xia Zheng was in a cold sweat.

These days, Su Ziyi has not been idle. Even though the matter has developed to this point, he still tries his best to find a way to heal Xia Zheng.

However, the more he researched, the more frustrated he became.

Many times, when I was alone in the pharmacy, looking at the moonlight shining through the window onto the floor, I would inevitably think that it would be great if Xia Zheng used the Nine Leaf Chasing Dark Grass.

So, on this day, when Xia Zheng came to talk to him about the Nine Leaves Chasing Dark Grass, he was quite surprised.

"How much do you know about Nine Leaves Zhuming Grass?" Xia Zheng asked straight to the point when they met.

Su Ziyi was taken aback for a moment, thought for a while, and then said: "If you eat it directly, it will have the effect of activating the blood of monsters. But if you match it with other spirit herbs, you can refine other medicines, which can heal many monsters. Bloodline and cultivation issues."

Hearing this, Xia Zheng showed a wry smile on his face: "But you must not know that it can actually annihilate human nature and stimulate animal nature!"

what?

Su Ziyi felt that he didn't understand just now.

Maybe it was because the horror in his eyes was too heavy, or maybe Xia Zheng himself felt a little tired, his eyelids drooped, and he directly revealed the answer: "For monsters, it really has the effect of bringing the dead back to life. But once it is taken, rationality will be replaced by animalism, and it will become increasingly impossible to control emotions and behaviors."

"Even in the end, it will become no different from ordinary monsters."

"You said, if this is the case, should I still use it for treatment?"

Su Ziyi was really stupid.

He didn't expect that there was such a mystery in it, his eyes were empty and his mind was full of chaos.After a while, when his eyes fell on Xia Zheng, he managed to wake up with a quick wit, and then realized a problem - why did Xia Zheng know the Nine Leaves Zhuming Grass so well?He is not an alchemist.

"That monster you raised is not simple, is it?"

While Su Ziyi was still thinking about that question, Xia Zheng suddenly started talking about Zelong again: "Although I know that there are monsters that can speak human words in this world, this is the first time See." He suddenly went down and remembered something, and added: "Last time, Su Yulang brought the one that caused a big commotion in Xuan Cangzong, right?" Strange things can be thought clearly.

"The suzerain also knows about this, right?"

Now, the Xia Zheng sitting in front of Su Ziyi is really completely different from the always proud and domineering Xia Zheng in Su Ziyi's memory.It's not that the character inside it has changed, but that the thick layer of edges and corners on his body, the protective layer used to prevent the outside world and outsiders from harming him, just disappeared inexplicably. Automatically expose the fragility inside.

Thinking about Xia Zheng's attitude towards him all the time, and the other party's extremely jealous temperament, Su Ziyi felt that he should know something.

"Ah."

"Sure enough..." After hearing Xu Zhique's words, Xia Zheng's expression didn't change.The atmosphere between the two was so awkward. After a while, Xia Zheng said, "I said... In the days of your research... Is there such a possibility... I won't say much, One percent, oh, no, one thousandth, even one ten thousandth... Is there any other way to help me?" He looked at Su Ziyi earnestly, like a drowning man, Looked like the last straw.

Being watched by such eyes, Su Ziyi's heart felt indescribably heavy.

He opened his mouth and tried to say something, but found that he had nothing to say at all.

And his appearance just showed his attitude.

Immediately, Xia Zheng fell silent.After a while, he laughed softly.Su Ziyi looked over and found that his smile was full of self-abandonment and mockery of himself. When he saw Su Ziyi looking over, he raised his eyes and said, "That's it."

"That's it." He stretched out his hand to cover half of his face, his eyes were full of struggle and pain: "There are some things that I don't have the courage to say, because as soon as I think about it, I feel like a knife is twisting my heart."

"However, if I want to destroy this discomfort by destroying my own beliefs, I am not willing."

"Even if I die, I will die with this pain."

"Because it will wake me up, let me always remember those things that shouldn't be forgotten, and clearly realize that I am still a person, not some other monster..." He murmured: "And this way enough."

"I've lived for so many years, I'm already good enough..." Although he said this, Su Ziyi still heard a trace of resignation from it.But what can you do even if you are not reconciled?Sometimes the difference between reality and ideal is so cruel, especially for people like him.

After a while, Xia Zheng's emotions calmed down.

He didn't go to see Su Ziyi either, but just lowered his head and said listlessly: "There are some things that I haven't had the courage to say yet. But I always feel that that day is not far away."

"so--"

"So if one day, I want to talk to someone about these things, please take some time and listen to me."