My life in another world is up to me

Do not!

Absolutely can't just let Su Ziyi leave like this!

Subconsciously, Bian Qing lifted the quilt and wanted to run out to stop Su Ziyi and speak clearly to him.But unexpectedly, as soon as he exerted force on his arm propped on the bed, the bend of his arm seemed to be stabbed by something sharp, which instantly made him lose strength, his arm could not help but bend, and half of his body fell back on the bed.

However, this drop made him sober up.

No, it was because he was too scared and had too many scruples in his heart, so he didn't understand Su Ziyi's words completely.

At this time, his whole body was collapsed on the bed, the quilt was only half covered, and most of his body, which was only wearing thin underwear, was exposed to the chill of the night, causing little goose bumps to form on his skin .But Bian Qing didn't care about this, he didn't even have the thought of picking up the quilt to cover his body, and let the coolness wash away the anxiety in his heart.

What exactly does Su Ziyi mean?

Bian Qing was flustered in his heart, he turned his head sideways, put his head on his arm, curled up a little bit, his palms tightened weakly, and then he was stung by the edges and corners of the thing he held in his hand up.He looked over reflexively, and saw the white ball in his hand clearly by the dim candlelight, and the astringency in his heart deepened.

I have what I have been asking for for so many years, and now I hold it in my hands, but why am I not as happy as I want?

At this time, the light printed on the wall flickered violently, and then disappeared without a sound, pushing the darkness outside into the room immediately.And Bian Qing didn't care about the extinguished candles, he had already calmed down a bit, he stuffed the contract under the pillow, and retracted his body into the quilt, because he was worried that Su Yulang would be cold, so he closed the quilt with his hands, Even if the quilt is big and thick, it won't let the cold air reach Su Yulang at all.

After finishing these things, Bian Qing put his head on the pillow, closed his eyes and prepared to fall asleep.

No matter what, he would not let Su Ziyi leave him and A-Lang alone.

Here, Su Ziyi, who consciously resolved the important matter on his mind, went back to the room relaxed, but he didn't go to sleep either.Because with the growth of cultivation base, his desire for sleep is much smaller, so he would rather spend this night time in meditation.And he felt that since he had spoken to Bian Qing today, he should work harder. What if Bian Qing chose to leave with him?

Thinking of this possibility, Su Ziyi felt even more oppressed.After all, in this world where strength is the most important thing, if he wants to protect himself and others, he can only use strength to speak, and since he agreed to Bian Qing, then he should also take responsibility. Before he can do it, he must ensure the safety of Bian Qing and Su Yulang, instead of taking them out and leaving them alone.

If that's the case, it's better to leave the other party in the village to live a peaceful life.

The sun rose late in winter, so when Bian Qing and Su Yulang got up, all the roosters in the village had already let up their breath and were silent.But when he just opened the door, he saw Su Yulang had just finished training, closing his eyes and raising his hand to close his gesture, and after letting out a breath of foul breath, he turned his head and met his gaze, his eyes were calm , without any emotional fluctuations, as if he was the only one tossing and turning about what happened last night.

"Did you sleep well?" In fact, looking at the blue and black under Bian Qing's eyes, Su Ziyi knew without thinking that he must not have slept well, but when the two faced each other, he didn't know what to say. .

"It's okay." Bian Qing staggered his gaze, perfunctory casually.At this time, the sequelae of insomnia had already come up, making him dizzy for a while, but he was thinking about something in his heart, and these uncomfortable feelings were directly ignored by him. He just had a calm face and was a little confused. Su Yulang went to fetch hot water to wash up.

For breakfast, because the two adults were hiding something in their hearts, they were both silent and did not speak, so compared to the past, the dinner table was much quieter.

However, the problem that should be solved still needs to be solved.

After breakfast, Su Ziyi took Su Yulang into the study, and after teaching him the homework for today, he withdrew.And just as he closed the door, Bian Qing, who had already been unable to suppress the anxiety in his heart, appeared behind him. Before Su Ziyi could ask any questions, he grabbed Su Ziyi's sleeve and walked towards the bedroom.And Su Ziyi looked at his posture, and guessed that Bian Qing should have a final decision, so he didn't resist, and followed his strength.

As soon as he entered, Bian Qing turned around and locked the door firmly.

It's just that when he turned around, the irritable emotions in his heart could no longer be suppressed, and all of them were displayed on his face. Such a situation was rare in Su Ziyi's view, after all, he had never seen such a look before. Bian Qing, so when Bian Qing looked over, he even took a few extra glances.

"You—" Bian Qing had a lot of questions to ask Su Ziyi, but there were so many questions that he really didn't know which one to ask.So, after hesitating for a long time, he took a deep breath, raised his head and looked directly at Su Ziyi: "Why did you give me the contract yesterday?" After holding back for a long time, he just said this?Su Ziyi raised his eyebrows, met Bian Qing's uneasy expression, and nodded: "The reason is what you think."

Su Ziyi didn't like standing and chatting, so he sat sideways on the square stool next to him, then raised his head slightly to look at Bian Qing, who was facing the window against the light: "As I told you yesterday, sooner or later I will I'm going to leave here." This time, the same words made Bian Qing's heart come true, and he was no longer so high.

"I don't know what you think." Su Ziyi put his hands on his thighs, his face and tone were very serious: "Actually, no matter what the choice you made in the end, I will still return your contract." Here it is for you." He was quite looking forward to Bian Qing's choice, because he could see that although Bian Qing had always resisted the outside world, in fact, he was not so succumbing to the reality in his heart.

Therefore, he believes that once a person like Bian Qing breaks through the shackles of his heart and has the opportunity, he will definitely be able to create his own world, and he also hopes to see this day.

As soon as he said this, Bian Qing's heart was full of sourness. So Su Ziyi had already planned everything?If he didn't force him to tell his plan, wouldn't he tell him only when he was ready to leave?At this moment, even Bian Qing, who knew in his heart that Su Ziyi would not be content with the status quo, felt grief and indignation.

But he didn't show his grief and indignation, instead he said calmly: "Then do you know what this means?"

"Of course I know." Su Ziyi smiled lightly: "I never thought of manipulating anyone's life in the past, especially in this way." Looking at the young man in front of him who he had a crush on, Su Ziyi was a little soft-hearted after all: "You Over the past twenty years, I have lived too much for survival and for Yulang, so it is time to live for myself."

Live for yourself once?

In an instant, these few short words stabbed Bian Qing's soft heart like a sharp knife, and immediately burst into tears, Su Ziyi was so shocked that he didn't know what to say, but in fact, he didn't wait for Su Ziyi's reaction. Bian Qing said with a trembling voice: "Live for...for yourself?" Hearing his trembling, Su Ziyi thought that Bian Qing was crying because of feeling, so he was relieved.

"Can I?"

Hearing Bian Qing's question, Su Ziyi hurriedly answered: "Of course!" After he finished speaking, he realized that what he said was too arbitrary, so he coughed a little embarrassedly before softly saying: "It's like I saw yesterday that you will learn to read characters from Yulang, which shows that you still have hope in your heart. People, as long as you have ideas in your heart, you can always make something different."

His words moved Bian Qing a little, and even stopped the tears on his face.

Why did I learn to read characters from Yulang?

He knows the answer better than anyone.He has been a servant living in the lowest level of the Liu Mansion since he was a child. He knows that servants who can read and write are often more likely to be valued by their masters than illiterate servants like them, and live a better life. Difficult things have something to look forward to.

However, he is a twin.

Among the servants, Shuang'er and women are worthless and not valued, so until he left the mansion, he didn't know a few words.And after coming to Luoshan Village, the poor family background and the harsh Su Ziyi made him give up this dream even more.But he didn't want to live this way, but when he least expected it came to him once.

Since then, the family's conditions have improved, Su Ziyi has been generous to him, and he has also begun to release his heart a little bit, especially when Su Ziyi read the scriptures to Su Yulang, the desire that had been dormant in his heart since he was a child became even stronger. It was so strong that he couldn't even suppress it.And, on top of that—

Thinking of this, Bian Qing subconsciously looked at Su Ziyi who was still waiting for his answer with questioning eyes, and couldn't help but smile bitterly in his heart.

How much of my desire to read is not because of the man in front of me?

In fact, less than a year has passed, but Bian Qing can hardly remember the past days.He only knew that the former Su Ziyi looked down on him because of his identity, and he also despised the young master in his heart because he couldn't recognize the present world and only knew how to spend time and money. Especially after being beaten and scolded by Su Ziyi, a dark feeling would grow in his heart. Emotions, cursing each other.

It's just that when he was cursing the other party, he was not cursing himself, because he knew very well that he might go on like this for the rest of his life. b★☆y★y

But he didn't expect it, he was caught off guard - Su Ziyi changed, he became another person.

This Su Ziyi is different, he works hard, he is motivated, in order to achieve his goal, he will choose to work hard and learn, instead of complaining about himself.It is precisely because of his hard work that he has grown up at a speed that surprises everyone, and he has driven the people around him to work together, and unconsciously fell into the atmosphere of fighting for life and for the future.

Therefore, in the inner circle of this kind of atmosphere, Bian Qing was undoubtedly infected and attracted by Su Ziyi's attitude. What kind of situation, what kind of achievements.

However, because he had seen too much and observed too little, he knew more than others, and the panic in his heart also rose crazily.

Especially seeing that Su Ziyi jumped from the fourth floor of Qi Refining to the sixth floor of Qi Refining in less than a few months, and continued to move towards the seventh floor of Qi Refining at a not slow speed with the same firm determination. The fear in my heart couldn't be stopped.He knew that if he still chose to just watch from the sidelines instead of changing himself and trying to catch up with the other party, sooner or later he would be abandoned because the distance between the two was too far away.

So, he acted.

For a long time, he who chose to sit on the sidelines finally panicked. He desperately hoped to do something to change the status quo, instead of being forgotten by this man in a corner and becoming a not very deep memory in this man's memory after a few years.

He wants to see.

He wanted to know.

He wanted to know what kind of path this Su Ziyi could walk out.

Moreover, if possible, he also hopes that he can be like Su Ziyi, not confused in his heart, have a firm goal, and be able to support himself to go on.

This time, Su Ziyi, who was unable to get Bian Qing's reaction for a long time, thought that his own words had hit Bian Qing's sore spot. After all, other people even secretly learned about literacy, and he would be embarrassed if he directly exposed it .So, after thinking about it, he decided to say a few more words to give both sides a step down, but before he could speak, Bian Qing, who had stood stupidly like a wooden stake for a long time, made a sound.

"Then what can I dare?"

Although he has no love for Bian Qing, hearing the confusion in his voice, Su Ziyi still feels heartbroken for him. After all, such a good young man should have a bright future, but because of his family background and system, he ended up like this now. general dilemma.

Therefore, he said sincerely: "It's really hard to find long-term goals, so it's better to find what you want to do most now." When he said this, he probably understood Bian Qing's choice—— This young man has already taken the most important step, but because his life is too blank, he doesn't know where the road is going.

But, it doesn't matter.

Su Ziyi looked at Bian Qing with kind eyes. Although he couldn't treat Bian Qing as his other half, he would still take Bian Qing to heart and care about him. After all, Bian Qing was the one he was most familiar with in this world and also the one who treated him best. one of the people.Therefore, no matter what choice Bian Qing makes, he will definitely support him.

After listening to his words, Bian Qing finally showed a stretched smile, and he said as if he was relieved: "Yes—"

He no longer stood there dumbfounded, took a few steps back, and sat down on the bed, his delicate face was separated into black and white because of the cover of the bed curtain, and the emotions in his eyes were completely shrouded, making it impossible for outsiders to pry.

"I want to take Yulang and go with you."

"it is good."

"If you can—" When he said this, Bian Qing seemed to bet his courage all his life, and he closed his eyes: "Can you teach me how to practice?"