[Pride and Prejudice] Becoming Katherine Bennett

Catherine put down her pen and looked at the ink-soaked letter paper in front of her with a melancholy expression.

She wrote the letter as planned, detailing in the letter that she was not planning to continue writing, expressing her wish that the pseudonym Addison Fitch be declared dead.

Writing this letter was not easy, and I have been writing it off and on for a long time.The whole thing is actually very simple, but what is difficult is the reluctance in Catherine's heart.She always felt that this was the cruelest torture in the world, and she actually let a person who loves her career bid farewell to these words with her own hands.

Catherine was sad.She considers herself to be a decisive and resolute person, and she made a decision on this matter early on, but she felt wronged and uncomfortable in carrying it out.Every time she wrote a word, she felt as if someone was gently scratching her heart with a small blade.This kind of long-term torture may not make people die, but the process will be very painful after all.

What made her even more depressed was that after thinking about the whole thing, she couldn't think of a right or wrong.Presumably everyone has had this kind of life experience. If one thing can blame others for the mistakes that lead to bad consequences, then the pain in the heart must be reduced a lot.But this method does not apply to this case.

It looks like the person she's most to blame is Willard Gordon.If he hadn't bluntly pierced through this layer of paper, she wouldn't have been in such a mess, and even had to overthrow her life plan and start over.

But can this be his fault?

Catherine rested her chin in one hand, her thoughts drifting away.

She remembered Willard's words that day.Although those words were not pleasant to listen to, and there was a sense of threat between them, Catherine was still unable to express her anger towards this gentleman.

What Willard was telling was the truth, and she couldn't vent her anger on the person who revealed the truth just because things didn't go her way.Could it be that if Willard didn't make it clear, the development of the matter would not be as cruel as he said?In this patriarchal society where nobles enjoy supreme rights, it's fine if she doesn't join the game, but she has already entered Vanity Fair, and everyone lives under this rule. She has no power and power, so how can she be alone?

Catherine is not the protagonist of Mary Sue, and she would not think that the world is only flowers and applause.She only saw that in this society where entertainment resources are scarce, writers can get huge attention and profits with a book, far exceeding the benefits of the Internet age, but she didn't see the other side that comes with huge gains, which is that everyone in the age of kingship Every writer spends a lot of time socializing with nobles.Willard, familiar with the underlying rules, anticipated this from the start.

If she insisted on telling him what was wrong, she could only blame him for not telling herself immediately.But why should he point her out?They are clearly strangers.

Catherine folded the letter neatly and put it in the envelope.

She thought of that gentleman, and her heart was full of conflicting and complicated emotions.His character made her fear and fear, but at the same time, the other party helped her in her most difficult time and gave her hope.Although he personally annihilated the faint fire, but at least for a long time, his appreciation and support became the motivation for Catherine to live hard.

It was a difficult letter for her to write, and besides saying goodbye to Addison Fitch, it was also her answer to Willard's marriage proposal.She chose to respond to him in this way, telling him that she could use her own way to solve future problems with a decisive break.

She is not a silk flower, and she never needs to depend on anyone to grow up.Since the nobles care about Addison Fitch, let the gentleman who never really existed disappear completely.

Catherine couldn't guess what Willard's reaction would be when she read the letter. After much deliberation, she thought that the other party would be very angry.But after getting angry, the matter will stop here.Maybe he will be lost and sad for a few days, but he will surely forget her soon.According to his conditions, what kind of lady can't get it?

Catherine never worried that Willard would push her.The trust came out of nowhere, and she couldn't explain why she was sure that the slave trader would treat her softly.

She doesn't trust his feelings so much, though, as she trusts humanity.She decided that people who were truly proud and valued themselves would have no disdain for a forced relationship.

Willard and Darcy have very different personalities, but they are equally reserved and proud.If Willard wanted a relationship with no emotion but only hatred, then he would directly imprison her by means, and the Bennett family had nothing to do.He is a smart man, and he obviously understands that what is needed in a relationship is your willingness, not persecution and threats.

After many days of deliberation, Catherine finally wrote the letter.She specially chose a bright spring day to send the letter to Mr. Ben.After the postman left, she didn't enter the house, but stood where she was, looking at the postman's leaving back, feeling a lot of emotion in her heart.

In the bright spring and warm spring breeze, some things came to an end quietly, and some things ushered in a new beginning.

Goodbye, Addison Fitch.Goodbye, Willard Gordon.

Because of this incident, Catherine has been in a low mood these days, but soon she has no mood to worry.

Things have to start with Lydia.

The news that the militia was leaving Meryton in a few days was terribly sad for Lydia and Mrs. Bennett, and very happy for Catherine, but she was still too young for reality to hit her hard at once.

The young girl who has just become Mrs. Foster is good friends with Lydia, and she is reluctant to part with her friends, so she invites Lydia to Brighton, the next destination of the militia.Brighton is a famous seaside resort in England. With Lydia's frivolity and absurdity, one can imagine how "suitable" it would be.

Overjoyed at the invitation, Lydia laughed at home, and imagined aloud all the merriments of her Brighton days, and spoke more freely than ever.

When Catherine and Elizabeth chatted in private, they were very opposed to Lydia going with them.Mrs. Foster and Lydia were very much in the same style, and that was why they quickly became best friends.Let Lydia go to a seaside resort with such a person and a large group of officers, and it is impossible to predict what will happen.

Together they went to Mr. Bennet and begged him not to allow Lydia to go.Catherine didn't speak at first, hoping that Mr. Bennett could listen to what Elizabeth said.It's a pity that the latter is worthy of her selfish evaluation. Mr. Bennet thinks that Lydia will definitely make a fuss at home, and there will be no market for her even if she is flirtatious in that kind of place, so don't worry about the two of them. ②

Disappointed and regretful, Elizabeth looked at Catherine feebly.Catherine said angrily, "Father, I don't understand why you don't want to take care of anything."

Mr. Bennett opened the newspaper and didn't care much: "Kitty, I told you before, of course I know she needs to be disciplined, if I would have taken action ten years ago, but now what do you want me to do? She has already Now, am I going to lock her up? I don't think we have that right."

"But, father, it is precisely because you did not take any action ten years ago that Lydia became the wild and arrogant character she is now. She is already 16 years old, and if she continues like this, she will definitely cause a scandal Becoming a prostitute is a disgrace to the whole family. I'm afraid you don't know that Jane and Bingley have nothing to do with each other, and Lydia has to contribute more than half of her efforts. It is because she made Bingley's relatives and friends think that our family is out of education, so she will stop it They tied the knot. Now that Jane has a happy marriage, there is no need to mention these past events. Even if our unmarried daughters will be affected, it is 'lucky' within a limited range."

"But the question is what will Lydia do in the future? She has a bad reputation now, how will she get married? She can laugh loudly with men under our noses. Will she do anything there? Do you dare to assert or deny the excessive things. She is young and ignorant, and does not know the consequences. Are we going to watch her jump into the fire pit and let her future fend for herself? She cannot marry, has no property, and has no source of livelihood. You say she How will we survive? Should we just do nothing so that she will not make a fuss now? "

"Or do you think that for children, they only need to be born and have food and clothing, and they don't need to be responsible for discipline?"

Catherine became more and more angry, and her words became more and more serious. When the last sentence fell, Elizabeth let out a small exclamation.

Mr. Bennet stopped flipping through the newspaper. He maintained the posture of holding up the newspaper, frowned, and looked up at Catherine.

"Kitty..." Elizabeth began anxiously.She didn't want to blame Catherine, and even thought her words were right, but she didn't want her beloved father to hear her daughter say such heavy words.She blinked at Catherine desperately, hoping that the other party would apologize before her father lost his temper and strive for forgiveness from the other party.

But to her surprise, Mr. Bennett did not lose his temper.He put down the newspaper, took off his glasses, and leaned back on the seat slumped, his face engraved with years of scars was rarely exhausted in front of his daughters.

"I really wanted to ask you before, Kitty, do you look down on me very much?" Mr. Bennett said.

"I haven't, father."

"Really. I thought that when you would rather write books to make money and save money than ask me to save some money for your sister's planning in advance, you would have given up hope for me as a father."

Catherine moved her lips: "I just don't want to ask you. Of course it's fine if you want to. If you don't want to, I can't force you."

"Kitty, I used to think you were stupid, almost as stupid as Lydia. But you have always surprised me for more than a year. I still love Lizzie the most, but I have to admit that you are now the family. The smartest girl. I should be proud to have a daughter like you," Mr. Bennett took out a soft cloth, wiped off the fog from the lens, and put it on his ear again, "You are right, I really I have not given much discipline to any of you, including Jane, and after my marriage to your mother has deprived me of all expectations, I have lost all enthusiasm for family happiness." ③

Catherine feels a little guilty about Mr. Bennett's unexpected response.She has always been soft but not hard. Looking at her white-haired father, she felt apologetic in her heart: "I'm sorry father, my words are a bit harsh."

"But it's not wrong. Well, although I still think I shouldn't discipline Lydia, and the consequences of discipline may not be as good as you think. But this time, I will listen to your persuasion and not allow her to go to Bray Dun, as for the effect, we can only wait for time to give us the answer."

"Father!" Elizabeth, who had been afraid to speak just now, exclaimed in a low voice when she heard Mr. Bennett say this.

"I can't let my most valued and beloved daughter down on me again. I hope you are prepared, the next days will be a bit difficult, but it will be over when the militia completely leaves."

Mr. Bennet caused an uproar in the house by announcing at dinner that Lydia would not be allowed to go to Brighton.

Mrs. Bennet and Lydia were transfixed at first, and could not believe their ears.A few minutes later, they came back to their senses and chased after Mr. Bennett, asking him to take back the order.After receiving a clear rejection, the two of them were like madmen, one broke down and cried, and the other sighed full of resentment.

Catherine is very grateful to Mr. Bennett for not confessing her, but for bearing the pressure alone.And although she had expected that Mrs. Bennett and Lydia would make a big fuss, what she never expected was that their protest lasted for many days.Lydia yelled about the house every day, begging her father to let her go to Brighton.She had already imagined that the streets and alleys of tourist attractions were full of young officers who favored her, and she had a wonderful dream.Seeing that everything was about to become a reality, but was ruthlessly blocked by her father, she could not accept this blow at all. ④

Mrs. Bennett was even more lethal. In addition to screeching to trouble everyone in the room and telling them to let their nerves go, she always said something that made the brain bloodshot at the first hearing.What Mr. Bennett wants to kill her and then Lydia, what if she has a son, she can fight his father at this time.

Although Catherine did not say it in the past, she would inevitably feel that Mr. Bennett's behavior of making fun of his wife was very immoral.But now, in Mrs. Bennett's ferocious and powerless state of communication, she can only reconfirm that an inappropriate marriage is a painful torture for both parties.

Amid Lydia's and Mrs. Bennet's clamor for protest, Catherine received a letter from Mr. Ben.In the letter, the other party implored her to go to London in person to discuss the whole matter in person.