[Pride and Prejudice] Becoming Katherine Bennett

Elizabeth's mind was occupied with Catherine and Darcy when they set off from Hansford.She thought that except Mr. Darcy's marriage proposal to Catherine was rejected, nothing else would surprise her, but Jane's feelings suddenly came to a dilemma.

In Elizabeth's impression, Jane was still trapped in the lovelorn and pain that Bingley brought her. Who would have thought that she had only been separated from her sisters for less than a month, and a strange gentleman and Jane had already reached the point of marriage. and Mr. Bingley turned back to beseech Jane's favor.

Elizabeth was eager to learn the details.However, due to Maria's presence, she endured it until the evening when everyone separated, and immediately knocked on the door of Catherine's bedroom, asking Catherine to tell her carefully what happened.Catherine told her sister all about Jane and Mr. Walker since they met.

Elizabeth smiled for a while, frowned for a while, nodded for a while, and finally commented: "It seems that Mr. Walker is a companion no less than Mr. Bingley."

Catherine said: "I have a different opinion from you. I think that Mr. Walker is obviously better than Mr. Bingley. Although he is not as rich as him, he is not as handsome as him. But he is far stronger than Bingley in terms of character and ability. Bingley is really impressive. Disappointed."

Elizabeth also didn't agree that Bingley was easily manipulated by others, especially that person was such a gentleman: "You are right. Mr. Bingley is indeed too lacking in confidence, and he has a problem with making friends."

Elizabeth meant something.She looked at Catherine as she spoke, and the latter understood what she meant, and Catherine said helplessly, "I don't think it's Mr. Darcy's fault, Lizzie."

"Is that Jane's fault?"

"It's more of a Bentley problem."

"Ha, anyway, it's not Mr. Darcy's problem." Elizabeth's tone was a little excited, "Kitty, you chose to trust him between him and Wickham before, I have nothing to say, we don't know the truth of the matter But it is a fact that he broke up Jane and Bingley, and he himself admitted it! What's even worse is that he is not ashamed and shows off everywhere. Doesn't this prove his character is corrupt in your heart?"

"From his point of view, what's wrong with him blocking a friend from entering into a marriage he thinks is not suitable? Just like I think Wickham is bad and I don't want you to trust him too much."

Elizabeth couldn't believe it, she stared at Catherine: "Why do you always think about what Darcy did and said from a good angle, and believe him unconditionally? If you hadn't told me that you rejected his marriage proposal, I would have thought you were going to be The mistress of Pemberley Manor. If there is such a day, you can rest assured that as one of your relatives whom Mr. Darcy looks down on, I will never visit and shame you."

"Lizzie..." Catherine didn't expect Elizabeth to be so angry. She blinked and chose to be quiet instead of adding fuel to the fire.She understood why the original book was called "Pride and Prejudice". Elizabeth's tinted glasses for Darcy were about five thousand degrees thick.

Catherine pursed her lips.In fact, if she told her sister about Wickham and Georgiana, her sister would definitely change her impression of Mr. Darcy and Wickham, but she couldn't tell.Catherine thought over and over again, and could only say: "Mr. Darcy came to the house the day before yesterday."

"It's really condescending." Elizabeth said disdainfully. "Come to Grace Hall Street is probably the most adventurous thing he has ever done. Did he wrap himself tightly in cotton cloth to prevent being polluted by the dirty air?"

Catherine smiled slightly: "That's a good suggestion. It's a pity that he doesn't have the wisdom of my sister, so he couldn't think of it. I was invited by his sister Georgiana to be a guest the day before yesterday, and it happened that Mr. Darcy came back from Losings. He sent I went home and explained to me what happened to Jane and Bingley. He said a lot, I won't repeat them all, but in summary he admitted that he influenced Bingley, but he made this judgment because he thought Jane was not Love Bentley."

"A bunch of nonsense."

"Lizzie, do you remember that Charlotte said something similar to you, and you told me?"

Elizabeth was silent for a moment.She remembered that Charlotte had indeed said that Charlotte said that Jane was almost gentle with everyone, and this kind of behavior could not make people see her heart for Bingley at all.Elizabeth had retorted at the time that it was understandable if people didn't see it, but if Bingley didn't see it, he was just an idiot.Mr. Bingley was such a fool, it now appeared.

Thinking of this, Elizabeth was not so angry.She looked at her sister.Catherine is wearing a goose-yellow long dress. The bright color sets off her girlish beauty and softness, and she exudes a quiet and beautiful temperament. Her maturity and wisdom far surpass her peers, eye-catching and unique.

Elizabeth remembered that when he was a guest at Mr. Collins's house, he was very angry when he found out that the servant was secretly reading "Blood" and went on for a long time that it was not a good thing.Elizabeth was tempted to condemn his hypocrisy, but held back.She thought that the servant secretly read his sister's book even though he knew the character of his master, Mr. Collins. Doesn't this just show Catherine's success?The pride and pride in Elizabeth's heart needless to say.She wished she could tell everyone that her sister was an excellent writer and promote her achievements.

Elizabeth recalled that when the sisters had disagreements in the past, it seemed that Catherine was right most of the time.Although she is too partial to Darcy, her words are not unreasonable.

Elizabeth said: "I don't care what Darcy's judgment is, but he shouldn't break up Jane and Bingley, and he shouldn't spread it around proudly."

"He seems to be telling Colonel Fitzwilliam. We don't care if telling close family members counts as 'spreading', just say the word break up, Lizzie, whatever Mr. Darcy said to Bingley, as long as it doesn't end up being Darcy Bentley was tied away with a rope, and Bentley himself made the final decision. I've been speaking ill of Wickham to you, but have you cut him off?"

Elizabeth made no objection.Catherine knew she was listening.

"The problem is with Bingley. Although Mr. Darcy has made mistakes, I think that if Bingley has always had such a character, I can't trust him to bring Jane a lifetime of happiness. Mr. Darcy is upright and reliable by nature, and he can only be influenced by him." It's a pity. Once Bentley encounters an insidious and cunning person who has deceived his trust and encourages him to do evil, what will happen then?"

Elizabeth is a clever and intelligent girl.Putting aside her prejudice against Darcy, she is mostly right and sensible in other things: "Well, to hear you say it, I also agree that Bentley is not a good match, but..."

A hesitant expression appeared on Elizabeth's face.This is almost Elizabeth's fixed expression when she wants to talk to Catherine about Darcy's heart.

Catherine felt amused: "Lizzie, is there anything we can't talk about?"

Elizabeth said angrily: "I think other topics can be discussed casually except for Mr. Darcy. But let me wink for a while, let's talk about him with you again. To be honest, I only received your reply yesterday. I was stunned at the time, and it is not an exaggeration to say that I was sleepwalking the whole day, and even packed my luggage in a panic before going to bed at night."

Elizabeth could not describe to Catherine exactly how she felt when she saw the letter.She once suspected that the letter was fake, and compared it with the handwriting of Catherine's previous letter for a long time.

"Then let me share with you a piece of comforting news. My aunt and Jane said it was impossible eight hundred times. I thought you wouldn't be so surprised." Catherine said.

Elizabeth was amused by Catherine's exaggerated words: "Oh, I'm fine, I just shouted 790 nine times in my heart. I did find that Mr. Darcy had a crush on you, but I couldn't imagine it anyway. Mr. Darcy would actually propose to you. From this point of view, although he is arrogant, pretentious and inconsiderate of other people's feelings, he is not useless, at least he has good eyesight."

Catherine couldn't help laughing, her sister was so cute: "Lizzie, I think you're going to disagree with everyone again. Anyone but you will think he has bad eyesight."

"That's because they don't appreciate it. Apart from being rich and having such a bad personality, Darcy is not worthy of you? He is just a favor from his ancestors. Kitty, does he know what you wrote?"

Catherine shook her head: "I don't know, I didn't tell him."

Elizabeth was very surprised: "What? I thought you said you wrote it, and he couldn't accept it, so you rejected him."

Catherine was also surprised: "We didn't talk about that. Why do you think I will agree to his marriage proposal, just like your aunt?"

"Of course not. I don't want to judge him again, after all, every sentence sounds bad. But I will tell you the truth, I can't think of a reason for you to refuse. If you hate him as much as I do, and think he is a bad character, it is absolutely right. Accident. But in your eyes, he is a gentleman with excellent moral character, and you trust and appreciate him, I am a little puzzled."

Aunt Gardner said something similar.

Catherine frowned and said, "He doesn't know me, I'm not sure if he likes the real me."

Elizabeth didn't understand: "It's not the real you? Is there any misunderstanding?"

"No, I mean he doesn't know many things about me. What he likes is what he sees of me, but how much can he see of me? Once he knows what I really look like, but he can't accept it, then I will ..."

Catherine's worries made the brave and lively Elizabeth completely incomprehensible: "Just because of this reason? Because you suspect that he may not accept the real you, so why did you reject him without telling him?"

Probably because Elizabeth's expression was too disapproving. After hearing what she said, Catherine also felt that her thoughts seemed strange, but what else would she do: "Do I have to wait until he rejects me and I feel sad? I am like this At least not sad."

"But you don't know if he can't accept it?"

"Then what do you say I should do?"

Elizabeth felt that the answer to this question was too simple: "Why don't you tell him? Tell him that you are writing a book and let him buy it and read it by himself! If you can accept it, you are all happy. If you can't accept it, there is no loss. Anyway, you I was going to reject him."

that's it?

Catherine always felt that something was wrong.Is it that simple to deal with the matter that she has been thinking about for a long time?But she really didn't find out what was wrong.She stared blankly at Elizabeth, not knowing what to say for a moment.

Elizabeth said: "If he came back the day before yesterday, we had a dispute before that. When Colonel Fitzwilliam said goodbye to me, he said that they had planned to stay for a few more days, but Darcy suddenly wanted to leave. I thought he was arrested I felt ashamed after I broke it. But I will think about it, how could such a brazen person like him feel ashamed? He just hurried back to explain to you. He doesn't care about our evaluation and opinion, but..."

Catherine was silent.

Elizabeth frowned: "Why do I sound like he is tall? This is really annoying. If I am an unjust person, then I can make up things to say that he is not good. But from your point of view After thinking about it, I found that he really can’t use bad words to describe you. Presumably his sister must be in contact with you because of him. I decided not to talk about this gentleman anymore, otherwise every sentence Words are trying to win your favor for him."

"Let's change the subject. How's Mr. Gordon? Mr. Gordon is a good candidate, in your opinion. He knows your writing and your career, and he's very appreciative. Don't say he doesn't care about you. I'm in Losing this time." The Lady Catherine I met was far less dignified than Mr. Gordon, but she was full of style. If he didn't care about you, the ball could have been sent by servants at that time."

Catherine shook her head: "No, it's absolutely impossible for me and him."

"why?"

"It's a long explanation, but it can be summed up in one sentence. Our personalities are not suitable. Although I can't say what I want, I know what I don't want."

After hearing this, Elizabeth looked at her quietly, and said word by word: "So, Mr. Darcy is in the range you can't figure out."

Catherine opened her mouth slightly, speechless.

Lying in bed at night, Catherine was so sad that she couldn't sleep.She tossed and turned, her heart was like a mess, and she couldn't untangle it no matter what.

She seems to have really stepped into a strange circle.

She was afraid of being hurt, so she first armed herself layer by layer, rejected other people's temptations and good intentions, and pretended that she didn't care and didn't care.When the others really walked away, she seemed to have expected it, look, fortunately I am smart, otherwise I must be very sad at this moment.

But does she really not care at all?Is she really as strong and courageous as she thought, and doesn't need anyone's care and protection?

Then why is she longing for it, and why is she full of envy?What is she longing for, and what is she envious of?

Is she acting bravely or cowardly?

Do you really not know the answer?Catherine asked silently in her heart.

no you know.You can fool others, but you cannot fool yourself.

Darcy proposes to you, why is there emotion and tenderness in your heart?

You are relieved that Mr. Darcy left after being rejected, but isn't it more disappointing and sad?

Georgiana suddenly appeared to visit. Apart from being surprised, are you a little bit happy that Mr. Darcy may be behind this?

You go to his house as a guest, although you are afraid of meeting him, but when you do meet him, are you panicking or shy?

He offered to send you off, and explained Jane's matter to you, in case you misunderstood, and apologized to you, have you ever been tempted for a moment?

You are always avoiding, pretending not to know the deep meaning behind this longing, this fear, this uneasiness, this beating heart.

There was a fire burning in Catherine's heart, and another voice kept echoing.

Now, you know.There was a lot of joy in there.