[Bottle evil] Waiting for the migratory birds to fly back

Chapter 27

The game was coming soon, Wu Xie politely declined the friend who usually took him home after school the day before, and sat on the seat and slowly packed the books.

During this period of time, because of his legs, he had limited mobility, and his hair had not been taken care of for a long time, and it grew a little long.When he lowered his head to tidy up the books on the desk, the broken hair was scattered in front of his eyes.

He was a little annoyed, so he brushed aside casually, then picked up his schoolbag, and walked out of the classroom slowly on crutches.

He looked up and saw Zhang Qiling standing at the door.

At that moment, there was an indescribable feeling in his heart, which was both worrying and warm. He smiled: "Brother, why are you waiting for me here? Didn't you go to training?"

"It's the teacher who dismissed him early, so everyone should have a good rest before the game." The corners of Zhang Qiling's mouth also curved slightly. A cold-hearted person like him almost never smiles miserably towards Wu Xie.

Wu Xie couldn't imagine what it would be like if he knew that he would leave without saying goodbye the next day. He really couldn't laugh.

Zhang Qiling only thought that he regretted not being able to participate in the basketball game. Wu Xie had been in a low mood during this time, and they all saw it and persuaded him.But who knows, in fact, the crux is not here at all.

Wu Xie didn't know what to say, he didn't want to affect everyone's mood because of him.

Will the relationship between boys and boys really have results?He thought sadly, it wasn't that he didn't have confidence in this relationship, his second uncle's attitude was already obvious, if he didn't leave, what would the Zhang family do if they found Zhang Qiling?What should Chen Pi'a do to take revenge on Zhang Qiling four days later?

And when he keeps making excuses for his behavior and seeking weak psychological comfort, he may not realize at all that he is actually subconsciously avoiding this relationship.

In the final analysis, he didn't know how to face Zhang Qiling, or he was afraid to face him.

He's a total coward.downright.

Zhang Qiling took his schoolbag and slowly helped him go downstairs. His second uncle would send someone to pick him up and go to school these days. They saw the car parked at the school gate from a distance, a low-key black sedan It looks very low-key and inconspicuous, but the configuration inside is extremely comprehensive. This is his second uncle's usual style of doing things.

His second uncle is such a person, he is calm, even Xiaozhi moves with emotion and reason, making people obediently obey his arrangements.He couldn't blame his second uncle.

Wu Xie was absent-minded along the way, so he didn't notice that Zhang Qiling next to him also had a hesitant expression. When they finally approached, Zhang Qiling suddenly grasped Wu Xie's arm slightly, listened, and said: "Wu Xie."

Wu Xie's reaction was half a beat slow, and she turned her head to look at him slowly, and asked in a daze, "What's wrong?"

Zhang Qiling looked into his eyes, as if confirming something, "Are you going to watch the game tomorrow?"

"...Well." Wu Xie was startled for a moment, he looked at Zhang Qiling, as if he was thinking about something, and nodded for a while, "I will go."

Zhang Qiling was silent for a while, as if he was considering how to speak, and said slowly: "If you win the game this time, I have something to tell you."...

The driver of the car got down and took Wu Xie's schoolbag from Zhang Qiling. He came to pick up Wu Xie every day and had seen Zhang Qiling many times. He smiled kindly and said, "You and Xiaoxie have a good relationship. Don't you want to come and sit at home?" The driver's idea is very simple, Wu Xie is leaving soon, friends have a good relationship, it's normal to be reluctant, how did he know that Wu Xie didn't tell anyone about such a big thing as going to the United States to study.

Wu Xie panicked, and didn't dare to look at the expression on Zhang Qiling's face, and said, "Forget it uncle, my brother has a game tomorrow, let him go home and have a good rest." The driver didn't think much, smiled Hehe said: "Then go back quickly, thank you for coming to see Xiaoxie off today." Zhang Qiling closed the car door for him, his face was a little blurry through the window, Wu Xie waved to him and said: " Goodbye." Zhang Qiling looked at Wu Xie and nodded slightly.

The car started slowly, and Wu Xie watched him go away silently. At this moment, the driver picked up a phone call. After saying a few words, he hung up the phone, and said to Wu Xie from the rearview mirror with some embarrassment: "Xiao Xie , your second uncle called just now, and the matter of going to the United States has been advanced, we have to rush to the airport now."

Wu Xie was stunned for a moment, his face showed a bewildered expression for a moment, he didn't ask why, his first reaction after hearing the news was to turn around suddenly, throw himself on the rear window, and tried his best to stand out from the crowd. Looking for Zhang Qiling's figure.But no, that person has long been submerged by the vast sea of ​​people and is nowhere to be found.He slumped against the car door and slid down, feeling like a liar.He gritted his teeth tightly, his eye sockets were dry, and he couldn't shed tears. Why should I cry, he thought.

The car turned at the intersection ahead and drove on the road to the airport. While waiting for the red light, the driver looked worriedly at Wu Xie who was huddled in a corner. He stared blankly out of the window. He didn't shed tears, but he looked like he was crying same.

Fate finally made the cruelest verdict for his indecision. Wu Xie gently put his hand on his heart, and when he inhaled and exhaled, even his chest was in pain.

It is said that young people don't know the feeling of sorrow. When Wu Xie was 17 years old, because of a person, he knew the feeling of heartache for the first time. Since then, he has grown from a boy to an adult in advance.

His youth is over.

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Wu Xie took a deep breath and said, "Actually, I have been back to China several times in the past ten years in the United States." "Why didn't you come to see me?" Zhang Qiling asked. "At the beginning, I was afraid of delaying your college entrance examination. After the college entrance examination... I secretly met Xiaohua, and he said that you did well in the exam and hoped to be admitted to a famous university, but it was just a province. I thought, you went to college After that, maybe I won’t come back to work in the future, so why should I provoke you?” After speaking, he peeked at Zhang Qiling, and Zhang Qiling was thoughtful after hearing this, but he didn’t show any angry or surprised expression, it seemed that I already knew it. "Then why didn't you come back after graduation?" Zhang Qiling asked. "My mentor at an American school works in a research institute. After graduating from graduate school, he asked me if I would come down to help him. In addition, I promised my second uncle not to return to China within ten years. At that time, I might I was also angry with my second uncle, thinking, as long as I can survive these ten years, after I return to China, he will have no reason to oppose me." Wu Xie was a little embarrassed, maybe because he felt that he was in his 20s It's naive to be angry with my second uncle even after that.

Zhang Qiling didn't think he was naive, he just felt a little distressed.But no matter how distressed he is, he still has something to say.He wanted Wu Xie to know that a relationship is actually a matter between two people, and any one person's concealment and deception would ruin this fragile relationship. He wanted Wu Xie to try to trust him and rely on him instead of being indifferent to him. confidence.

He said the cruelest words in the gentlest tone: "Have you ever thought about it, when you come back ten years later, what if I'm no longer there?" Wu Xie muttered: "I haven't thought about it."

In fact, it's not that he didn't think about it, he also thought about it, ten years later, he might be different, and Zhang Qiling might have lived a normal life in other provinces, already had a girlfriend, and might even get married.What should he do then?

What he thought at that time was that if he was still single, he would take the initiative to approach Zhang Qiling, even if he refused to forgive himself, it didn't matter, anyway, as long as he was for Zhang Qiling, he could do anything.If Zhang Qiling is not single anymore, he can just be friends with him.

It would be nice to see him anyway.That's what he thinks.

But is he really right to think that way?" Wu Xie, let's put aside the past, I know you were under a lot of pressure at that time, you were young, so you left without saying goodbye, I don't blame you. But why didn't you contact me later? Your second uncle didn't let you meet me, but he said that you can't even call me?" Zhang Qiling asked.

Wu Xie's head drooped deeply, "I..."

During that time in the United States, Wu Xie didn't want to contact him. During countless sleepless nights, he wanted to dial the number he knew so well, even if it was just to ask "how are you lately?" Very satisfied.

But even he himself has no hope for this fruitless and hopeless relationship. When he first arrived in the United States, the same-sex marriage law had not been officially promulgated and implemented. He was full of expectations for this, but until he returned to China, same-sex It has been five years since marriage became legal, and the acceptance of same-sex groups in society is still lower than he imagined.Deep-rooted beliefs in society are not so easily changed.

It would be a good thing if Zhang Qiling could marry a wife and have children normally.

So he never called Zhang Qiling, nor did he get to know him in any way. He still had a glimmer of hope in his subconscious, and he clearly knew that this would be unfair to Zhang Qiling.

If you blindly deny yourself, you will make a decision for this relationship without authorization. Such self-righteous consideration for the other party is nothing but a selfish expression.He is actually a person who only cares about his own feelings.

He had never properly asked Zhang Qiling what he thought.But now that Zhang Qiling is right in front of him, he knows that he can't keep silent any longer. Silence can't solve any problems. If you don't speak out about some things, how can the other party understand? At this moment, it can be regarded as truly growing up from the throes of youth and becoming an adult.

One of the most basic requirements for becoming an adult is to learn to be responsible to yourself and others.

He said: "Zhang Qiling, after so many years, I found that I still... can't forget you at all." Zhang Qiling stared at him, Wu Xie's heart was pounding, he felt that he could hardly hear what he said, but he I still want to finish this sentence, "I like you, can you tell me what was the sentence you were going to say to me ten years ago?" Hugging his arms into his arms, Zhang Qiling's breath sprayed on his neck, and he said firmly to Wu Xie in a gentle and deep voice: "I love you, Wu Xie."