life without fabrication

I don't know when it started, but my mother's spirit gradually became a little unstable.

After the drama theater gave them a sum of money and helped them apply for a grant, they fired their mother.The mother and son moved into a cheaper flat house from the original residential building.

While Fu Rongji was working hard to get the scholarship, he was doing scattered part-time jobs to subsidize his family.He is a loner, alone, afraid to make friends or participate in activities, because he can't pay for any of the social needs.

Aloof, eccentric, such a marginalized character is originally extremely unpleasant, but Fu Rongji has a good skin, with a strange attitude but always polite, and occasionally a friendly smile, which makes people hate it no matter what stand up.

"Hey, you can buy a box of water and move it to the playground later, and the rest of the money will be used as your errand expenses." A classmate handed over a red ticket.

Fu Rongji took over. It didn't take too much time to buy water, and the part-time job after class could also catch up.

Today is the school's basketball game, and the playground is full of people.

Fu Rongji moved the water to the logistics department, and looked at the young players in the competition with some expectation.

On the playground, there was enthusiasm that even the bright sunshine could not match, and the hoarse and exhausted chirping of the cicadas was also covered by the shouts of the crowd.

Someone broke through the defense and jumped high. The basketball in his hand drew a perfect arc and fell steadily into the basket.

"Three points!"

"Win, win!"

The crowd cheered and congratulated the young man. He laughed cheerfully, took off his jersey and threw it into the air, and there were loud shouts one after another.

Many later Fu Rongji no longer remembered the boy's appearance, he only remembered the boy's sweaty and healthy body, the lines were tight and perfect, without a trace of excess fat, and it seemed to be shining brightly under the sun.

Fu Rongji just watched in a daze, and swallowed unconsciously in his throat.

That night, he dreamed of ghosts.

It was not his father who was under the weight of the ghost, but himself.

The sky and the earth are spinning, the stars are falling from the sky one by one, splashing thousands of flames, the unbearable desire spurts out violently from the flames, stabs into Fu Rongji's body with the help of ghosts, and ignites layer by layer The most secret and unspeakable things, aroused dense joy.

When Fu Rongji woke up, he found that the quilt under his body was wet.

He sat up blankly, thinking for a long time, then leaned over and started to vomit, but he couldn't vomit anything.He raised his hand to wipe the corner of his mouth, but wiped the tears all over his face.

He hugged himself tightly and curled up, choking and weeping uncontrollably, his clenched fingers pierced the flesh and blood, but the pain couldn't cover up the despair in his heart.

It's not that he doesn't know anything.

He was just afraid that he knew everything.

"Homosexuality was removed from the list of mental illnesses in China in 2001. It does not belong to the category of mental illness." Dr. Liu looked at the boy in front of him kindly and said, "So you don't need any psychological treatment."

Fu Rongji's face was a little pale, and he muttered without speaking.

"What you need is to know yourself correctly." Dr. Liu said, "You have the right to choose the person you like."

"Then am I a normal person?" Fu Rongji asked.

"You are, of course you are."

Doctor Liu's determined attitude made Fu Rongji slightly relieved.

"One day, you will meet someone who is worth loving for the rest of your life. Even if he has the same gender as you, it will not prevent you from holding hands. Before that, please live positively." Dr. Liu added.

Fu Rongji nodded.

"Here is my personal phone number." Dr. Liu handed over a business card: "If you have any unresolved depression, you can talk to me."

"Thank you."

Fu Rongji carefully put away the business card and put it close to him.

On the way home from the hospital, it began to rain lightly, and the sound of the rain was pattering, washing everything.Fu Rongji sat on the bus and watched the continuous raindrops fall, and Tagore's poem rang out for no reason——

"The world kisses me bitterly and asks me to sing in return."

Fu Rongji's face was vaguely reflected on the glass of the car window, and he smiled softly at himself.

Mother's illness seemed to be getting worse and worse, and sometimes she couldn't even figure out who Fu Rongji was.

His high school studies also brought a lot of pressure to Fu Rongji. He carefully calculated and planned the remaining savings, and coordinated the time period for part-time jobs.

All the hardships have tempered this young man and honed his mind to become more mature.

After the college entrance examination, he hid the admission letter from a top domestic university, asked Dr. Liu about the cost and procedures of hospitalization for mentally ill patients, and started working to save money.

On his birthday, he was legally recognized as a citizen.As a family member, he signed the hospital's confirmation letter and sent his mother to receive regular treatment.

He got a formal sales job. He travels around during the day, sets up a stall to sell supper at night, and manages accounts in small restaurants on weekends to earn some extra money. Everything is developing in a good direction.

Then, Fu Rongji met Du Ruofei.

The trajectory of life seems to deviate a little bit uncontrollably to the unexpected.

Du Ruofei said to him: "Thousands of miles to go to the military plane, Guan Shan Du Ruofei. You and I are a perfect match!"

Du Ruofei asked him: "My company's finance department is just short of people these days, so I want to ask if you can come to help?"

Du Ruofei comforted him: "Auntie, the play she sang today is the episode of "The Spring and Autumn Pavilion" in "Suo Lin Nang" to shelter from the rain. Although the plot is full of ups and downs, the ending is a comedy."

Du Ruofei's occasional tough attitude: "Now pack up your things and follow me, I'll wait for you in the car."

Finally, Du Ruofei said: "Why don't you treat me as your home?"

Fu Rongji suddenly opened his eyes wide, and his fingertips trembled imperceptibly. He suddenly remembered the day he met Du Ruofei.

On that day, the sun was shining slightly, and there was no wind or rain. At that time, he thought that that day was just the most ordinary day in his life.

Before meeting Du Ruofei, he had been walking alone for a long, long time, and even made plans to be lonely in his old age.

In fact, it's not that being alone can't survive. After a long time, you get used to it.

But if someone is willing to give him a home, that would be really great.

Fu Rongji heard his own voice was a bit ethereal, it seemed to come from far away, and even the end was trembling.

"Okay." He said.

The next moment, Du Ruofei smiled brightly like the sun.

After dinner, Du Ruofei happily took out a bottle of wine from the wine cabinet, took out a goblet, poured it out like a treasure, and handed it to Fu Rongji: "Riesling's white wine, try it?"

Fu Rongji did not refuse, took the cup and took a sip.

Du Ruofei asked, "How is it?"

Fu Rongji couldn't figure out why he drank it, so he could only say, "It's pretty good."

Du Ruofei smiled and clinked glasses with Fu Rongji, watching him finish the whole glass slowly.

But Fu Rongji had only drank home-made rice wine with low alcohol content since he was a child. After drinking this glass of wine, he began to feel dizzy within a few minutes.

"President Du, I..."

Fu Rongji murmured, he wanted to tell Du Ruofei that he was a little drunk, but before he finished speaking, he fell down with a bang.

Du Ruofei dropped the cup in his hand in shock, and hurried forward to help him: "Are you okay?"

Fu Rongji's cheeks were slightly red, his eyes were a little distracted, and he muttered without answering.

"No, are you drunk? Didn't you just have a drink..."

Du Ruofei helplessly helped Fu Rongji up and asked him to sit on the sofa, then half-kneeled in front of Fu Rongji and asked him, "Do you want to drink some water, or do you want to sleep for a while?"

But Fu Rongji said: "Do you want to drink some water or go to sleep for a while..."

"Why are you repeating it?" Du Ruofei didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

Fu Rongji said slowly: "You repeat what, what are you doing..."

……

Could Fu Rongji become a repeater when he was drunk? ?

Du Ruofei probed: "Mr. Du is extremely miserable."

"General Manager Du is utterly miserable." Fu Rongji repeated honestly.

Du Ruofei couldn't hold back, burst out laughing, and then went to tease Fu Rongji: "Chemical fertilizers will volatilize, black fertilizers will turn gray fertilizers black, black fertilizers will turn gray and volatilize, gray fertilizers volatilize black fertilizers Volatile ashes will fly!"

Fu Rongji was stunned for a moment, and stubbornly wanted to repeat: "Chemical fertilizers will volatilize, black fertilizers will turn gray, chemical fertilizers will turn gray, gray, gray, gray, gray flowers, flying, flying, flying..."

Du Ruofei was delighted to be knocked down.

Fu Rongji's eyes were full of water, and he reached out his hand slightly annoyed to cover Du Ruofei's mouth, but Du Ruofei grabbed his wrist.

Du Ruofei took Fu Rongji's hand and took him into his arms, breath blending, the person he loved was close at hand, Du Ruofei opened his lips, and said word by word: "I like you."

Hearing this, Fu Rongji laughed suddenly, he exhaled like blue, his voice was small but extremely clear: "I like you too."

Du Ruofei was stunned.

Fu Rongji seemed to be repeating what he just said, but he didn't seem to be.

Du Ruofei wanted to ask again, but saw that the man had already nestled into the sofa and fell asleep with a satisfied look.

"Tsk..." Du Ruofei resigned himself to going to the house and took a blanket to cover Fu Rongji.

Xiaobai jumped out of the back room and strolled to Du Ruofei's side, rubbing his ankle, Du Ruofei hugged Xiaobai into his arms and touched its ears.

"Woof!" Ah Huang ran over and barked.

"Shh, don't disturb anyone." Du Ruofei leaned over and returned Xiaobai to it: "Ah Huang, is your possessiveness too strong?"

Ah Huang whimpered and wagged his tail happily.

"No, I'm not complimenting you..."