long head song

Cui Fayan mentioned it several times in his letters, and Chen Wangzhi asked him when Yu Wenche would do it. "It's not impossible for me to kill you if you want me to. It's not without precedent to slaughter the royal family of the previous dynasty." Yu Wenche sat up and took off a long gown to drape over his shoulders, "However, before killing you, I have something to ask. "

Chen Wangzhi said, "Just ask."

Yu Wenche said, "Before you left the palace, you went to Ziji Hall to visit the raccoon slave. I remember that you were carrying the raccoon slave and your arms were shaking all the time. Chen Wangzhi, did you really want to kill him at that time?"

Chen Wangzhi said hoarsely, "If you think I want to kill him, then I want to kill him."

Yu Wenche glanced at the candlelight and said with a wry smile, "I saw you were carrying a swaddling baby, and he was crumbling in your hands... I thought you were going to kill him, so I pushed you so hard that you were injured, I But I don’t know it.” Turning my gaze, I looked at Chen Wangzhi’s thin side face, “At that time, I hated you so much that I almost wanted to kill you. ——Ask yourself, what am I not doing well? Or is the raccoon slave not good enough? Cute? He's just full moon, what could he do wrong? You are heartless to me, why do you want to be so cruel to him? I really don't understand. However," he paused, and said slowly, "Now, I can more or less Understand, even if you really have the intention of killing him and me, it shouldn't be called a fault. I was opportunistic, and I deceived you while you were amnesiac and ignorant. Moreover, I was also to Yue Nu...I was to him..." said Up to this point, Yu Wenche's words were already choked with sobs, "In the past year, whenever the night was quiet, I would think of his appearance, and think of him standing by the stove in Boshan, sleepy, but he refused to go to sleep. Wait for me to come back. I didn't heal his hands and feet, and watched him sad. How regretful I am..."

"You always say that you are not him. I know that no one in this world knows better than me that you are not the moon slave, and the moon slave is not you." Yu Wenche turned his back and quietly wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, "You blame me , hate me, I admit that I made a big mistake. But if you say that I hate Yue Nu, I will never bear this crime."

"That moon slave, he can't come back." Chen Wangzhi was silent for a long time, and said, "You should go find someone else as soon as possible."

"Others?" Yu Wenche sighed, "You said just now that these words will not be uttered tomorrow. Then I will tell you what I have to say to you tonight. After you left the palace, I and Li Nu both fell ill. For a period of time. Li Nu was just a baby, crying and screaming every day, and the medicine juice couldn’t go down. He was my flesh and blood left by Yue Nu. How could I survive? I was sick and anxious, but you were wandering around Taizhou Arbitrary, I don't care about me. I was cold-hearted, thinking that since there is a clean break, then each will go its own way. I moved the idea of ​​​​choosing a concubine, and you must have heard the wind."

Chen Wangzhi gave a soft "hmm", and Yu Wenche said, "But I thought about it, and finally gave up. No one can compare to Yue Nu... In my heart, in my eyes, there is only one him."

"The love that the emperor talks about comes and goes quickly." Chen Wangzhi said, "The world is so big, no matter men or women, they can always find someone better than him."

Yu Wenche said firmly, "There will never be any more."

"Okay, there won't be any more." Chen Wangzhi brushed away the broken hair in front of his eyes, "You just think that he has transcended reincarnation and gone to the Western Paradise, where he will enjoy peace forever. But I, after I die, will enter the endless hell and suffer Mountains of swords and seas of fire, also, will not be reincarnated to be a human being." He said, his teeth trembling slightly, "It's too hard to be a human being. Yu Wenche, please do a good job, do a good job..." The more he begged, the more desperate he felt, because he She can see her own heart more clearly than anyone in the world, that cowardly, cowardly, Yue slave who loves Yu Wenche deeply has never really left.

Yue Nu lingers like a ghost, entrenched in his grotesque body, as long as he relaxes a little, he will quietly gain the upper hand.He must be full of hatred.How can you not hate it?Yu Wenche lied to him privately, and became pregnant because of adultery; Yu Gong, invaded the Chen family's imperial property, thousands of miles of splendor, and fell into the hands of barbarians... But gradually, he discovered that reality is far more complicated than hatred.The smile on Wanmin's face couldn't be faked: Is Yu Wenche ineffective in governing the country?Is Yu Wenche ungrateful?Did Yu Wenche kill innocent people indiscriminately?The rumor of massacre of the city was finally proved to be a lie of Lobor.Chen Wangzhi couldn't face Yu Wenche directly, he wanted to stay in Taizhou and never meet again.However, he went to see him again in Xie Yuan's name.Yu Wenche was so thin that he was startled, his eyes were still gentle, "Qing." Yu Wenche called him, and from that moment on, Chen Wangzhi realized in despair that he would never be the Su King he was before.

He finally chose to help Yu Wenche for countless reasons.But the most important one—the one he ached and anxious about and tossed and turned over—could never be said.

"I," Chen Wangzhi closed his eyes tightly, "I, I want to die."

"It doesn't matter if you die, go to hell, or go to the world of bliss, you will be at ease, and all the complicated disputes in this world will be left to me." The lamp suddenly went out, Yu Wenche lit it again, and sat in a daze Knowing God, "You are dead, what should I do? You said you are not a moon slave, and I know you are not a moon slave, but I—"

He loves Chen Wangzhi, whether he is the young man who concentrated on studying under the window, or the moon slave who gently relied on him, or the Marquis of Guangling who has twists and turns of fate and tears silently behind him, he loves him deeply.Within a year, he got to know Chen Wangzhi again.He is impressed by Chen Wangzhi's courage, tact, and strategy, even though Chen Wangzhi doesn't love him at all.However, Yu Wenche doesn't want to continue entanglement, so what if Chen Wangzhi doesn't love him?As long as he lives well, he only hopes that he can live well.

"Do you...do you have anything else to say?" Yu Wenche whispered, "It's almost dawn." He lay down, "If you have nothing to say to me, then have a good sleep. Wake up, If you still want to die, I will never stop you. It's just that I don't want you to die...I hope..."

In the haze, there seemed to be swallows chirping and chirping.The skirt behind him was pulled tightly, Yu Wenche's heart throbbed, maybe he came back?

He turned over and hugged the man. Gradually, a vague cry sounded, and his chest was wet, cold and hot.

"Don't cry, I'm here. I'm here, you can sleep peacefully." Yu Wenche was sad and happy at the same time.He wanted to open his eyes and comfort him softly, but he was really too tired. When he was half asleep and half awake, his fingertips suddenly brushed across the teeth, causing a slight pain.