long head song

Snowing.

Chen Wangzhi stretched out his hand to touch the delicate patterns of the bluestone floor tiles in the dark.

Chang An ran over quietly yesterday, his little face was flushed red from the cold.She said that Chang Ping was ill and could not see anyone.It is also said that the wet nurse tells stories that if the child is disobedient, he will freeze to death in the snow.Before they die, they will see their deceased relatives, but they are the incarnations of evil spirits. If they go with them, they will fall into hell and cannot be reborn forever.

"I have to go back." Chang An took a few pieces of broken pastries and threw them through the gap of the window pane, "It's too late to go back, the wet nurse said, the evil spirits are coming to eat me!"

Chen Wangzhi's fingertips trembled.Those pieces of cakes were as cold as frozen stones, he stroked the lines of the lotus, unknowingly, he could no longer feel the cold, instead a strange heat gushed out from his body.It was a warm spring day, and he was sitting by the lotus pond, with the warm spring light shining on his hands and feet.The swallows are back.Two big swallows chirped around him.A woman walked slowly through the peach grove on fallen flowers. She was wearing a palace dress, her face was blurred, but her voice was extremely gentle.

"Moon slave..."

"Mother?" There was a burst of ecstasy suddenly, and his heart was pounding, "Mother!" Chen Wangzhi shouted, "Mother——"

The woman held him in her arms and stroked the back of his neck, "Yuenu."

"Mother," Chen Wangzhi fell into her warm arms, tears streaming down his face, "Mother, why..."

"This is fate," the woman whispered, "Yue Nu, this is fate."

"This is fate, fate." Chen Wangzhi woke up suddenly, sweating profusely.The wind was shrill, and a lamp was like a bean.He curled up into a ball, propping up his shoulders.Lobor's face flashed in front of his eyes—the man was dying, his eyes were staring blankly, his head was rolling in the dust, blood flew out of his cavity, and splattered everywhere.

"Wake up." Squeezing the back of Chen Wangzhi's neck with one hand, he heard Yu Wenche whisper, "Just wake up..."

Chen Wangzhi couldn't remember clearly what happened after the imperial edict.He struggled desperately to pick up the dagger.However, Yu Wenche wrapped him in a cloak and held him firmly in front of his chest. "Let's go," Yu Wenche's agarwood fragrance was upright, he smelled that smell, suddenly his eyes went dark, and he lost consciousness.

"Are you having a nightmare?" Yu Wenche's palms were rough, and the scar on his mouth was still there, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

"I," Chen Wangzhi wanted to escape from this embrace, and as soon as he moved, Yu Wenche let out a hiss, "Don't move," he couldn't see his face clearly, but he could hear his wry smile, "You were kicking and beating me like that before!" , hit the wound on my chest..."

Chen Wangzhi froze immediately, and Yu Wenche said, "There was some blood seeping out, and it was bandaged just now. But it's nothing serious. You still remember who I am, right?"

"You are Yu Wenche."

"Okay." Yu Wenche squeezed the back of Chen Wang's neck, with neither light nor heavy force, "You seem to have forgotten me just now...you don't know me anymore, I'm very scared, do you know that?"

Chen Wangzhi remained silent, his forehead resting on Yu Wenche's heart.The heartbeat was heavy and clear, "Look, let's talk."

What can I say?That warm dream appeared before Chen Wangzhi's eyes.He was dying, and the mother stood in the light.In the dream, he tried countless times to see her face clearly, but none of them succeeded.That's right, how could he see his mother clearly?His mother died of dystocia, and he killed his own relatives as soon as he was born.

"You heard it and you saw it."

"Hear what? See what?"

Chen Wangzhi laughed, "You see me killing people...you must be very annoyed."

Yu Wenche said, "He deserves to die."

"When I killed people in Taizhou, you hated me to death." Chen Wangzhi shook hands, the palms were cool, and it was obvious that he had applied wound medicine. "You had fantasies before, hoping that I would be soft and still be that moon slave. However, I killed someone, and you finally found out that I am not him at all, not the... moon slave you like."

"I was angry when I—"

"How could Yue Nu kill people? He can only sit obediently, obediently, in the tent, sitting in front of the window, waiting for the king's blessing." Chen Wangzhi said to himself, "He is a useless person."

Yu Wenche snapped his fingers, "Don't say that about yourself."

"He is a useless person, and I am a useless person. We..." Chen Wangzhi was extremely cold, and in a daze, he was in the palace again, and it was snowing, and he was about to die.

"He can't write. The characters he writes are all crooked. He has forgotten how to ride a horse and bend a bow, how to use military strategy, how to kill and fight... It's useless. A useless person, like a woman in the harem, relies on, relies on the child in her belly , in exchange for a little sympathy from others...it's so pathetic."

"I love Yue Nu." Yu Wenche said.

"You love Yuenu...you love Yuenu..." Chen Wangzhi smiled bitterly, "Love him? He is just your plaything. A useless person, do you love him? You clearly, clearly despise him...a useless person, a monster, a monster."

Chen Wangzhi lay on the ground, and a sneer sounded in his ear.

"Your Highness," Yu Chong squeezed his voice sharply and sharply. He is Chen Xuan's most intimate eunuch, "Why bother? Just put it on in the cold weather."

"Don't wear it," the dress and hairpins were thrown all over the floor in a mess, Chen Wangzhi gritted his teeth, "Get lost."

"If Your Highness doesn't wear it, I will be very embarrassed." Yu Chong leaned down, with a fake smile, "Your Highness always disobeys His Majesty, even if His Majesty is displeased, but for the sake of human relations and family affection, I still look forward to wearing it." Let Your Highness improve."

"Get out," Chen Wangzhi shook his head a few times, turning his head, without looking at the gorgeous embroidered jacket, "tell Father, I will never wear it even if I die."

"Your Highness, why bother?" Yu Chong said with a grin, "Your Highness's body, you can't force it even if you study literature and martial arts. It's better to be a princess. Anyway, His Highness's name is not recorded on the jade certificate. In this way, it is impossible for this dynasty to There is no Ninth Prince at all. Even though," covered his mouth and rolled his eyes, "Although His Highness is born with a handicap, she is still the Eldest Princess. Maybe she can enjoy both male and female conveniences. It's just that I thought about it, and His Highness still complied with His Majesty's wishes." , An Sheng will be a princess, and when she is 16 years old, she will find a husband-in-law, and maybe she will be able to have children—”

"Get out," Chen Wangzhi finally sat up, and stared at Yu Chong viciously, "I'll kill you sooner or later, as an eunuch who misled the country."

"You!" Yu Chong raised his eyes, "You, you—" he turned around and said to the young eunuch who was following him, "Cheng Qing! Why are you waiting for dinner! Why don't you change your clothes for His Highness!" Cheng Qing trembled Walking forward, he called out the word "Dian" in a low voice, and Yu Chong raised his voice and said loudly, "A monster who is neither male nor female!"

"I am a monster," Chen Wangzhi murmured in a low voice, "The monster... killed my mother, killed stone slaves, and killed many people. I was born to suffer. I suffer because I killed them ——This is my life...no one can save me."