Hunting down the Northwest Wilderness

Our life is always entangled with intricate destiny. From the day of birth, destiny is like the blood vessels intertwined in our body, like our hair that keeps spreading, like the air that flows in and out all year round—it Enveloping our heart, it keeps cutting and messing up. From birth to death, it seems to never stop when it starts, and it seems to be irreversible when it stops.

It is so impossible to choose, life is always chosen by fate, and life is always powerless to choose fate.

But fate is so charming. It is like a flourishing spring flower, which likes to bloom in the wild, and like a chirping oriole, which likes to hide in the shade.It always gives us a little sweet hope when we are most disappointed, and also gives a little light guidance in our darkest moment.

Yes, fate is so elusive, but hard to give up.There are always some things that cannot be left behind, reluctant to part with, inseparable from, and unforgettable. They are like swallows that will return in spring, and will definitely return with spring, and like geese that go to array in autumn, they will leave with time.

No matter how difficult and insignificant your life is, fate will extend its hand to you affectionately and ruthlessly, holding the miracle in your life in that hand, and fate will use this miracle to tempt you and tell you that you have to go on.

Go down.

For Liang Xu, Liang Xiaobing, or Zhang Xiaobing, the moment when fate once again performed a miracle on him was probably the day when he met Luo Xiaoning.

He was born in a county known for its poverty. Because of remoteness and lack of education, his mother could not become an actress or model based on her beauty, and his father had no chance to become an Internet celebrity, but they were a very loving couple. People, this is recognized in the county.Like many young people in remote areas, they got married early and were eager to pass on the family line. Zhang Xiaobing's birth was of course a joy because he was a boy.

On the second day of his birth, his grandfather passed away, which made everyone feel unlucky.So his grandmother took it for granted to make a fortune for the grandson.

"This child is a lone star, and his life is too hard. Hugh said that he can control his father and his mother. He married his wife and had children against his children. Anyone who is close to him in his life will have a narrow escape." The fortune-teller said: "If there is someone A younger sister, with the harmony of yin and yang, may be able to resolve the hostility."

The result of the divination shocked the whole family. After scolding for a while, they thought it was not credible, but half-believing, the mother-in-law still urged the daughter-in-law to conceive another one.

It was an unplanned birth, and they moved to the countryside to avoid fines.Zhang Xiaobing really had a hard life, his first sister was crushed to death in his belly.

Not reconciled, they simply built a self-built house in the village, tried their best, and conceived a second one.

The second child was also miscarried, and upon closer inspection, it was still a girl.

Now no one doubted Zhang Xiaobing's fate, his parents were afraid of him, and his grandmother couldn't love him sincerely.But they still have family affection and hope, and they are reluctant to part with the only male lilac, so they make persistent efforts and never give up.Until Zhang Xiaobing was 11 years old, his mother who had been farming for many years finally became pregnant with a third child.

The grandmother warned him sternly: "Stay away from your old mother, if she doesn't have this in her belly, don't stay at home!"

At that time, Zhang Xiaobing's favorite and only game was hide and seek.

His hide-and-seek is different from others. He can squat in one place for a long time, wait patiently, and when it is time to eat, he will happily run out.

His game can always be won, because no one comes to him.

He will never forget that last hide-and-seek, where he was beaten for touching his mother's belly, where the baby was six months old.Zhang Xiaobing was very bored. After dinner, he hid in the cabinet—a low cabinet that no one could think of, where old shoes were kept.

In this cabinet, he witnessed the murder of the whole family, everyone, died.

Throughout his life, he could not forget the back view of the murderer in the room. He laughed at the corpse. It was a crazy laugh, as if he was extremely happy and extremely painful.

He was completely frightened, as if a piece of ice had frozen him, and he curled up in the cabinet motionless like that, feeling like he was in a dream.

When he woke up, a policeman touched his forehead anxiously, tears fell on his face, and the policeman said in a trembling voice, "Son, it's a miracle that you survived."

No, Zhang Xiaobing thought, they were all dead—I killed them all.

It was a child's unbearable self-blame and pain, but no one could understand his pain.When Fang Zhengjun led Liang Feng to meet him, Zhang Xiaobing thought, he is so fat, I don't like him, and if he is my new father, I will kill him too.

Dislike is secondary, and fear of killing others is primary.

Liang Feng is ugly, but his eyes are very kind, Zhang Xiaobing only likes his eyes, they are so honest and gentle.

Fang Zhengjun put his hand in Liang Feng's, and Liang Feng immediately held his hand tightly.

This hand is too warm.

Zhang Xiaobing was reluctant to let go of it.

He didn't even dare to tell Liang Feng how dangerous he was, he was really greedy at that moment, because he had rarely been held by his parents like this in the past 11 years, and it seemed to make up for all his desires and fantasies about family affection.

He met Liang Feng's wife. It turns out that only similar people can become husband and wife. His adoptive mother has the same tough and kind eyes as his adoptive father. The difference is that his adoptive mother is really beautiful. She and Liang Feng are the so-called "" Flowers on cow dung".

"Xiaoxu, mom has never taken care of a child before, but mom will give you whatever you want, and you can treat me as your own mother, okay?"

Well, of course, Liang Xu thought, since they are not his biological parents, maybe they won't die.

His new family has followed the consistent education of a strict father and a loving mother. The mother is completely doting, and the father tries his best to be strict with the child for fear that the child will grow crooked.At the beginning, the couple remained cautious as adoptive parents, but later they began to bicker with each other over education.

The adoptive mother is beautiful and arrogant, and the adoptive father can only bow his head. Obviously, their love is the love of a knight and a princess, and when they quarrel, they are like throwing dog food.They were arguing over there, while Liang Xu hid beside him and laughed.

Because no matter how noisy they are, they will definitely reconcile in the end.

"Did you teach him how to shoot a gun at such a young age?" His adoptive mother, Ru Yuzhi, would hold her son in her arms after the fight: "You want him to learn martial arts? Are you crazy?! My son is so beautiful and he will You want to be a heartthrob! You want to be a movie star! Are you out of your mind?"

She is a Shanghainese woman, who speaks with a stingy and delicate voice, she loves all literature and art, and is full of girlish hobbies and fantasies. As for what the hell her knight is thinking, Ru Yuzhi doesn't care.

Liang Feng looked at his wife and son with a wry smile: "Alas! Alas! A pair of torturers!"

Regardless of doting or being strict, Liang Xu enjoys it. All the pampering and restraint are like stolen candy. He licks it every day, hoping to steal another one tomorrow.

After all, his fate was still too hard, and the evil of fate still affected his adoptive parents. In the fourth year after he came to this new family, his adoptive mother contracted lymphoma, and passed away without delay for half a year.

"Xiao Xu." Ru Yuzhi took his hand: "Mom is going to be a fairy because she is so beautiful. Don't cry, even tell your father not to cry."

She still treats him like a child, and she will lie to him coquettishly until she dies.

"Son." She grabbed Liang Xu's hand tightly: "Mom will bear all your hardships for you in the future, and you will never suffer again in the future."

Yes, Liang Xu thought, he shouldn't get close to anyone, he was born with death.

He gradually grew up, and looked more and more like his biological mother, dignified and handsome-outsiders looked like his adoptive mother, in short, she was beautiful-many girls blushed to play with him, and boys also liked it Get close to him, but Liang Xu refused all of them.

I have to stay away from them, Liang Xu thought, they are very friendly to me.

No one could understand his panic. From birth to 15 years old, he watched his relatives leave one after another.His life seems to be to bid farewell to all dear existences.Just like broadcasting a TV series, every so often, someone has to say goodbye to him forever.

When the play broke up, they left, and he stayed on the stage alone, and the others never came back.

He was afraid, and also complained, afraid that Liang Feng would leave him again, complaining about why people's lives were so different.Fortunately, perhaps because Liang Feng was extraordinarily strict with him, he was actually healthy.

Liang Xu would often run nervously to pick up Liang Feng from get off work. He stood at the intersection, worried that his father would die in a sudden car accident.

It was a period of adolescence in the dark, and Liang Xu kept thinking, where did his tangled life start to go wrong?

Everything seemed to start because of the Jinchuan case. If there was no Jinchuan case and A Ling case, then maybe his mother would give birth to a baby girl smoothly, and nothing would happen.

Ru Yuzhi will not die either.

He remembered Fang Zhengjun's promise to him many years ago, and he waited helplessly for Fang Zhengjun and the heroic Guanzhong police to crack the murder case.However, four years have passed, five years have passed, and no one mentions these things.

As if nothing happened.

At that time, everyone had learned how to use the Internet. He searched for news about the Jinchuan case on the Internet. The result was disappointing. It turned out that there was a suspect in the Jinchuan case.

The one who let him go was Fang Zhengjun who had sworn to him back then.

The mood of waiting for a long time and longing for relief, under disappointment, naturally turns into anger, and after silent anger, there is suppressed despair and bewilderment.

But he has to learn to manage himself, my life may not be too bad, Liang Xu thought, it is already a miracle that I escaped from death, and meeting Liang Feng and Ru Yuzhi is also a miracle.How many miracles can there be in life?

So I have to live and cherish this hard-won life.

He loves and respects life more than anyone else. He is willing and hoping that others will live.On the eve of the college entrance examination, Liang Feng hoped that he would apply for a police academy, or, as Ru Yuzhi expected, to go to an art academy.Liang Xu wanted to go to medical university.

"I want to study medicine." He looked at his father expectantly: "Heal the sick and save the sick."

Liang Feng was silent for a moment: "That's good." He nodded: "It's better to be a doctor, Dad supports you."

He is a smart man, he studies hard, and of course he went well in the college entrance examination.Liang Feng was reluctant for him to stay away from home—in fact, he was also worried about him being away alone, so he applied to the local Chang'an Medical University.

He was extremely looking forward to the day when he was on the operating table, looking forward to the day when he could see someone come back alive from his hands.

It’s just that when you study medicine, of course you won’t be able to cure diseases and save lives as soon as you come up. At the beginning, it’s all boring professional courses.

In the first year of university, he was keen to participate in various charity activities. In order to cultivate the professionalism of the students in the school, the freshman student union organized to go to the hospital to study—it was said to be study, but in fact it was to do odd jobs as a volunteer.One is to cultivate team spirit, and the other is to feel the atmosphere of the hospital and understand your future working environment.This is a bit close to an internship, but much more relaxed than an internship.

That was five years ago, in the spring of the first half of the semester, they went to Qindu Hospital to visit and study-don't even think about public hospitals, who are so busy who have time to care about you.Private hospitals plan to recruit several medical university graduates, so they are especially welcome.They help clumsily in the hospital, basically doing the work of nurses. Seriously ill patients have no chance to touch it, that is, turning over the urinals for the old, weak, sick and disabled.

Of course, if you are a bit of a chicken thief, you can also be lazy and wander around each floor twice, anyway, the final activity records are all together.

Liang Xu wasn't lazy, but he was quick to work. The bed he assigned was an old man, but there was an old lady accompanying him next to him—the two were not husband and wife, but sunset lovers.Unfortunately, Liang Xu has become an old light bulb, and standing there is an eyesore anyway.

The old lady was embarrassed to talk, so the old man said: "Young man, can you go out, let us talk for a while."

This Liang Xu understood, he smiled shyly and withdrew.

He looked back and forth on each floor, even if he had nothing to do, he was reluctant to leave—he just liked the hospital, and liked the smell of its Laisol water, 84 disinfectant, and alcohol. He always felt that these smells were inherently life-saving. of.

There was an open door to a ward, Liang Xu wanted to close it, but found no one to take care of it.

The person on the hospital bed was a young boy who was connected to a ventilator, was infused with drips, and was connected to a urinary catheter. He must have been unconscious.This situation does not match the grade of the ward, Liang Xu became more and more curious the more he looked at it, and couldn't help but walked in.

The boy was lying on the bed, pale, eyes closed, motionless.His eyelashes were astonishingly long, Liang Xu saw a transparent flying insect land on them, and those eyelashes didn't tremble at all. He lay there, as if he was asleep, more like dead.

sleeping Beauty.

This word suddenly popped up in Liang Xu's mind.

Then he saw the light red scar on the boy's forehead. It was a pity, but it also contained a kind of strange beauty. It was carved on the boy's face, as if it was a mark of life. If he wanted to tell others, he would still Alive and still bleeding.

This may have hit his head, Liang Xu secretly evaluated in his heart, he didn't know how long he had been lying down, it didn't look like a day or two.

He walked out of the ward, and called a few times, "Where are the family members in this house?" No one came, so he had to walk back, maybe because the boy looked too thin and pale, and his whole body seemed to be on the verge of life and death. .

Liang Xu saw that there was secretion in the corner of his eye, and there were gauze and clean water beside him. He couldn't help but pick up the gauze with tweezers, and wiped the face of the unconscious patient.

Out of the troubled mood of just being a doctor, he secretly lifted the patient's quilt, tried to check the patient's thigh, looked at the thigh, even looked at the buttocks, and checked the back—fortunately, No bed sores, which means he is still receiving good care, but where are the family members and nurses?

After the examination, he felt even more sympathetic, because the young patient was so thin that only a handful of bones remained.

Hope you wake up soon.

Holding the patient's hand, Liang Xu said to himself, "I can do a lot of things when I wake up. It's a pity to lie down."

——At this moment, as if responding to his call, the patient's hand suddenly grabbed Liang Xu's fingers.

Liang Xu was taken aback. For a moment, he couldn't tell whether it was the patient's awakening or just a physiological reflex. He shook his fingers carefully, trying to get out of the patient's hand, but the other party was holding it like a steel bucket, unable to break free at all.

Then, from under the mask, the boy opened his mouth with difficulty, only opened and closed extremely weakly, but obviously, he woke up.

Liang Xu yelled loudly: "Patient 8622 is awake! Is there anyone! Is there anyone!" He rang the nurse's bell beside the bed: "Is the nurse station? Patient 8622 is awake!"

——I don’t know if you have seen that special desert plant, which is often withered and curled up on weekdays, but as long as it is put into the water, it will stretch out as a whole, and even turn verdant in an instant, and then It even blooms.

Just as he was yelling, the patient was like a plant that sees water. First, he clenched Liang Xu's hand, one finger, two fingers. They were all clenched tightly, his mouth was opened, and his eyes were also opened - he had not woken up for a long time, and he would not move his eyes when he opened them. He was like a newborn chick, for a long time, he He stared at Liang Xu for a long time.

He looked at him, in the spring light, there was light dust floating in the air, all the cells in his body became active due to the sudden recovery, saliva oozes from the corners of his mouth, and tears seem to ooze from his eyes.

Liang Xu stared at him blankly. He saw a life come alive before his eyes—indeed, it had nothing to do with him, but it was the first time he had such a feeling—it wasn’t that others died because of him, but Others are born of him.

This moment negates all his superstitions about fate, because he feels the revival of life so vividly, in his hand, their fingertips touching, so clearly revived.

Liang Xu even heard his heartbeat gradually vibrate, it was a powerful pulse from deep sleep to waking.

Two nurses rushed into the ward, and they were dumbfounded: "My God, will he really wake up?"

Then asked: "Are you a family member? Where is the family member?"

Liang Xu couldn't say a word, the indescribable excitement pounded back and forth in his heart, and the boy on the hospital bed also looked at him in a daze.

Many people nearby were asking him, "Who are you? Which one are you, young man?"

Liang Xu didn't want to look at it, and in a daze, he saw the man on the hospital bed, looking at him, moving his lips under the mask.

So it seems that he is also asking.

"--Who are you?"

yeah who am i

He held that thin hand back, and felt in a daze that thousands of words rushed to his heart.

"My name is Liang—"

For some unknown reason, he blurted out: "Liang Xiaobing."

Fate has tortured him for 18 years. On that day, it seemed to change its mind. It seemed that it wanted to make up for the rough first half of the young man's life. Therefore, it smiled and sent the purest and sweetest miracle to him. to him.