today for you

I confessed my somewhat fantastic two-life experience, but Lanlan's reaction was rather subtle. He looked at me for a while, but didn't say a word.I didn't understand what it meant, so I had to ask questions nervously.

"So, what do you think?"

Lanlan regained her composure and squinted her eyes: "So, you are already forty?"

I was suddenly stuck, unable to utter a single word.Lanlan's question spun around vigorously in my mind, like Zidane Marseille dribbled the ball to break through, and made a flying shot in front of our goal, but the ball hit the crossbar and bounced back. It's like knocking over 22 people on the field, which is earth-shattering.

Lanlan thinks I'm old!Tears of sadness flowed from the bottom of my heart in an instant. At this moment, it seemed that Oedipus, the king of tragedy, possessed himself. I realized the purest malice in the universe.My heart is bitter, but I don't say it, not only I don't say it, but I also keep smiling.

"Actually, it's not that serious. At least I'm only in my early twenties." The only thing that can save the situation is this young body!Lanlan, look at me, the body I inherited from the original owner is still so young, the flame of my soul is burning fiercely and never dying, and my heart is beating powerfully for you!

All kinds of reasons were fighting in my mind, but I still couldn't help feeling suddenly guilty, like the guilty conscience of a middle-aged man who hides his actual age and is close to a young woman in the marriage market.I also feel that I am so hypocritical, that I fall in love with others with a youthful appearance that does not belong to me, as long as I think of this, it is like being forced to swallow a thousand needles alive, my soul will fly away, and my liver and gallbladder will be torn.Suddenly, she didn't dare to look directly at Feng Xiaolan in front of her.

I quickly fell down, like a plant that is accelerating decay, and I drooped my head and said: "If you really can't accept it, then I won't pester you anymore." Despite despair, there is still a humble expectation in my heart, I hope that this despicable person like me can be forgiven by this person in front of me.

"What are you thinking about?" Lanlan suddenly approached me, even reached out to lift my chin, and looked down at me, "It's so dirty!" He scolded me viciously, but gently wiped my roll with his cuff. And out of tears.

tears?Am I actually crying?I reached out and touched it, and I was surprised that the water stains felt so real.

"Why are you crying, as if I want to abandon you." Lanlan muttered angrily.

"I didn't say I won't be with you anymore, although I was really surprised," he said looking into my eyes, "but you like me as Yue Jianye, right?"

I nodded reflexively.

Lanlan reached out and touched the top of my head: "So, I like Yue Jianye."

"!" I was so surprised that I lost my voice for a moment. After a while, I squeezed out a sentence, "But, the original me is not like this. Don't you feel awkward?"

"You are stupid!" Lanlan patted my head like a ball, "If you were still your original appearance, you would have been buried in the ground long ago, where did I meet you? I like Yue Jianye who came to Dayin, Not the civil servant of Lao Shizi who died at forty!"

"However, are civil servants the same thing as officials in Dayin?" Lanlan asked me with her head tilted, and the topic was off by a thousand miles.

"It's about the same. They all do the same thing." I nodded slightly, and followed suit.

At this moment, I forgot the anxiety I had just had in a hurry, and my heart escaped from the ice and snow. The confusion of thoughts after great joy and sorrow was soothed by Lanlan's warm smile.I looked at him, and I laughed too. The two looked at each other, grinning silly, really a stupid couple.

The long and simple sounds sounded for the first time. This is a New Year's gift presented by several bell towers in the city to the people of the capital.The New Year's Eve fireworks exploded in the sky accompanied by the endless bells, and the bright fireworks bloomed. The crackling of firecrackers was dotted with the excitement of the New Year. Not only the capital city, but the entire palace was alive at this moment up.

I took Feng Xiaolan's hand and stepped out of the palace gate to watch the grand sight of Kyoto, which is only once a year.

Unknowingly, I have crossed the first year of cold and summer with my beloved, and will soon usher in the next season of reincarnation. The surging joy and satisfaction overflow from the bottom of my heart, soaking the whole me and the whole him, as if soaked in The sweet fruit in the honey water will only become more ripe and rotten under the fermentation of time.

"It's snowing." Lanlan stretched out her hand, and the fine snowflakes fell on his palm.

"Going alone, coming alone to the silver millet field, one step at a time, the sound of jade sand." I couldn't help holding his hand, and read out a poem that I heard by accident many years ago, but was deeply touched.At that time, I was out alone not long after my divorce, and the only thing I could taste was loneliness.

"Your poem?" Lanlan turned to look at me.

"I don't have such good knowledge," I said with a smile, "This is the world of my last life, written by a famous poet. I can't remember the whole poem, but this sentence is so lonely and desolate. Jing hurts, let me remember."

"Are you lonely? I really think that the person who wrote this poem should be at ease. There are only him and the snow left in the world, so it should be very peaceful." Lanlan clasped her palms tightly, and then opened them again, "The snow has melted." After finishing speaking I put my snow-stained palm on my face and let out a happy smile.

"Still lonely?" he asked me.

How to describe this feeling?Walking alone in the snow, I suddenly picked up a bright yellow winter jasmine, and then stepped into the spring. In an instant, I got rid of the heavy and bloated long coat and thick quilt, and I could fly to the blue sky with one jump. The sky is as happy as a bird... Maybe I really am a sentimental man, because at this moment, I am so satisfied that I want to cry.

The night is deep, the tent is warm in the spring night, and the clouds and rain in Wushan make each other feel comfortable.Together with Feng Xiaolan, I marked a hot end to this year that I couldn't help myself.

When I open my eyes, there is a white ceiling and a simple copper lily chandelier. This is my bedroom.I got up in a daze, and followed my instinct to go into the bathroom next door to wash up. The newly grown stubble was picked off, and the smell of aftershave stimulated my sanity, and I became a little sober in a daze.I saw a thin man in the mirror in front of me.

In the mirror, the browbones and cheekbones of the man are obvious, and the mandible line is stretched, but the angle is clear.This is a face with a straight and serious face. When the face is expressionless, it always seems to have some deep thoughts. The addition of eye lines and nasolabial folds adds majesty to this face.It was the face of my previous life, and my brain couldn't function for a while after accepting this fact, but at this time there was a fierce knock on the door.

"Here, who is it?" I walked to open the door as if sleepwalking, but the moment the door was unlocked, the big iron door was pushed hard inward and slammed into the wall, and it was crushed into a plan with a snap. Can't get it off.

"Yue Jianye! You bastard!" The old father, who was fit like a bell, stood in front of the paper-shaped me with his hips on his hips, "You are an old and disrespectful bastard! Your leader calls you a youth party member all day long, so you really Do you think you are a teenager? People in their 40s still hook up with boys in their teens! Do you still feel ashamed!"

After being scolded, I quickly gained motivation, and my excitement kept inflating me. I didn't pull out my arms and legs from the wall until my head was round.

"Dad, what are you talking about? As a party member, I have always kept myself clean and strict with myself. Who is slandering me!" I widened my eyes and shouted angrily.

"You still don't admit it! Come here! Bring your certification!" The old man waved his hand, turned around and sat under the plaque hanging high in the mirror, with the waves and the sunrise behind him.

"Wei——wu——" The 200-member yamen servants shouted loudly, and they stood in two rows in black.

"Who is in the hall, report your name!" The old man slapped the gavel and shouted loudly.

"Feng Xiaolan, a grassroots man, is from Tianshan, the prefecture of Ganzhou in the Great Yin. There is no father or mother in the Ji family, and her life experience is strong and miserable." Suddenly a crying man knelt beside me.

"Then what are you doing, Feng Xiaolan?"

"Caomin is pregnant with Yue Jianye's child, but he doesn't want me! Even though he is half my age, he dares to touch me, and then he will abandon me!" The man burst into tears.

"Yeah, my good daughter-in-law is about to give birth, why are you running here? Go to the delivery room with mom!" The old lady in the water-red dress took the man's hand and ran away. As the man ran, his stomach seemed to be inflated. The same bulged up.

The man and my mother gradually ran away, I turned around and sat on the family chair outside the delivery room, a nurse whose face could not be seen called my name, and then put a strong baby in my arms: "Your wife gave birth to a white flower Fat jasmine, congratulations, it will be a beautiful big jasmine in the future."

I looked down and saw a face full of creases that belonged to my father bared its teeth in the swaddling baby and shouted, "I will let you eat young grass, let you eat young grass, let you eat young grass, let you eat young grass, Call you……"

"Ah!" I sat up in horror, sweating coldly.

"Huh? What's the matter?" Someone beside him asked vaguely.

I turned my head sharply, under my gaze, Feng Xiaolan crawled out of the quilt with her chest bare, rubbing her eyes.In the dim light, I gasped for a long time in shock before calming down.

"No, it's okay, I just had a nightmare." I said tremblingly.

"What kind of dream is that?" Lanlan pressed my arm and asked in a daze.

"I don't remember." I was about to recall, but my mind went blank, but the remaining feeling told me what a wonderful dream it was, but I couldn't remember anything.

"I don't remember, forget it, you lie down quickly, I'm so cold." Lanlan didn't force her, only murmured dissatisfied.

With a beautiful cloth bag, I hurriedly lay down, and the quilt that covered both of us was tucked tightly again by me, so that there was no air at all.I closed my eyes and fell asleep again.

The author has something to say:

This age difference still affects Jianye, hahahaha.