The beauty of fast wearing

At night in Shanghai, the lights are dim, and even though it is already three o'clock in the morning, there are still many excited men and women walking together on the side of the road.

Once again waking up from sleep, Xue Ru turned on the bedside lamp, and a dim warm yellow light hit from above his head. He got out of bed and took out a glass of cold water from the refrigerator and drank it all in one gulp. people shudder.

He turned on the phone, and there was a missed text message in it, which was sent to him by his new boyfriend-{Happy birthday to my dearest Mr. Xue Daru, love you. }

Only then did Xue Ru realize that he was already 35 years old.

Twelve years have passed since the boy left.

He suddenly wanted to visit him, and the thought came violently and unexpectedly.Xue Ru took out his best suit from the closet, and carefully styled his hair.When he went out, he happened to meet Mr. Neighbor returning from fooling around outside.

Mr. Neighbor smiled at him, "It's so late, where are you going?"

Xue Ru raised a doting and gentle smile, and said, "I'm going to see my lover."

"Oh!" Mr. Neighbor nodded. He has lived here for more than ten years, and he is familiar with Xue Ru, but over the years, he has seen people coming and going around the other party, and no one has ever let him show such a look. Smile, could it be that I met true love this time?

His brain was paralyzed by alcohol, and he swayed into the villa next door.

Xue Ru drove all the way to the east, the boy was buried in the ancestral grave of the Zhou family, and there were special guards. He has been a regular customer here for many years. The security guard opened the door for him with a yawn, and asked a strange question , "Mr. Xue, why did you come here at this point!"

Xue Ru didn't know what was wrong with him?He didn't answer, picked up the decorative lilies he had brought from the living room and walked straight in.

The lilies have been placed for two days, and the edges have begun to turn yellow. In the photo of the tombstone, the boy's face is green and indifferent, his eyes are lifeless, as numb as a puppet.Xue Ru looked back at the past with the same eyes.

When Xia Zhihua just passed away, Xue Ru frantically looked for him, as if as long as he was willing to put his heart into it, this young man would return to him sooner or later.

Year after year passed, he finally accepted the boy's departure, he told himself - time heals everything.

He started to have new boyfriends, who were either glamorous or delicate.Xue Ru talks and laughs with them, travels with them...does everything they want to do with them, but every time the other party tactfully proposes that they can share the same bed together, Xue Ru can't avoid it and run away.

After a long time, it was rumored outside that he was inhumane.

Only he himself knew that his heart was empty.He is only 35 years old now, which is a prime age for a man, but his hair has white strands emerging. Recently, he is like an old man in his twilight years, dreaming every night.

The boy in the dream had a clear and shining smile. The golden sun shone on him, covering him with a layer of warm gold. They walked through the streets and alleys hand in hand, kissed in the silent park, and Arguing over the color of a curtain...

Everything in the dream is so beautiful, there is no haze, no harm, so everyone is warm and kind.

It is precisely because of this that the cruelty of reality is highlighted.

Xue Ru sat here for a long time, until the sun rose and morning dew stained his temples, then he slowly got up and left.

The Xue family has now been completely handed over to him. Decades ago, the Xue family was hit by Xingyao. He thought he would never recover from it. Who knew that the situation would turn around, and Xia Zhihua's death made his little uncle go crazy. of

He set his sights on Zhou Pei, which gave Xue Shi a chance to breathe.

Zhou Pei was finally sentenced to life imprisonment for drug abuse and intentional homicide.

Xue Ru heard that he had a very hard life after entering prison, and a group of people came to find fault with him. In the end, Zhou Pei couldn't bear it, sharpened his toothbrush, pointed it at his throat, and committed suicide. It was the first time he was found. The next morning, the body was cold.

After Zhou Pei's death, Xue Ru met Xue Yan once, at the restaurant where they had their first meal with Xia Zhihua. He was smoking a cigarette with a decadent expression, but there was an indescribable excitement.

He said to him: "I'm going, I'm going to find him."

That was the last time they communicated. Since then, Xue Yan seemed to have disappeared from the world, and all the properties under his name were donated by him.

Probably dead!Xue Ru thought.

The entanglement of four people, three of them have already left, leaving him alone, wandering in place.

Xue Ru had dinner with his current boyfriend that day.

His boyfriend is a top student in Beiqing, he is funny and well-spoken, when his eyes widen, he is like an innocent little milk dog, which makes him want to pet his head.

"Did you listen to me?" The person opposite seemed a little displeased.

Xue Ru smiled apologetically, "I'm sorry, I was a little distracted."

The face of the person on the other side became better when he heard this.

Three rounds of wine.

The young man was a little drunk, so Xue Ru called the driver, he stuffed the young man into the car, and gave the driver the address of the young man's residence.

"No." He said, "I don't want to go back." His hand tentatively touched the man's cock, "Today... let's go where you are!"

Xue Ru was silent for a few seconds before speaking, "You are drunk."

"I didn't. Go! Go to your house! Or a hotel," he said.

"Stop the car." Xue Ru called, and he opened the car door, "I'm sorry." He said to the young man, "I think... let's finish it! The car is parked downstairs at your house, and I will ask someone to pick it up. "

The young man's eyes widened and his lips trembled, as if he couldn't believe what he said, "You bastard." He screamed, "We've been dating for a year, what happened to the last bed? Didn't force you to marry me?"

"Feel sorry."

The young man blinked, tears suddenly fell, "You still can't forget him, right? I thought I could, but now it seems that I still think highly of myself."

In their circle, those who are well-informed know that Xue Ru once had a very good lover, and in the end that person died, and Xue Ru remained insane for several years.

Xue Ru did not answer, with a tacit gesture.

The young man nodded and smiled miserably, "I understand. People like you shouldn't find a partner, bastard. Driver, let's go."

"No more, never again."

He can no longer find the boy he wanted.

The car left quickly, leaving only a blurry rear in sight.

Xue Ru was walking unsteadily on the side of the road, when his father called, it seemed very lively there, his ten-year-old younger brother shouted loudly, "Happy birthday, brother." Xue Ru and the other side After chatting for a while, he rejected his father's proposal to ask him to go back and live.

He counted the time to live, and in another ten years, he would be able to hand over his estate to his younger brother.

In another ten years, he will be able to find him.

The street lights on the side of the road were dim as usual, the cold wind was blowing, the withered yellow leaves swirled and fell, and the dead winter dragged its tail when people didn't realize it.

He built a castle in his heart, it has thick walls and hard gates, people outside can't get in, people inside can't get out.

The owner of the castle is always waiting for someone, someone who will never come.