Ye Lan

I opened my eyes.The light outside was very strong, and tears flowed out.In the blurred halo, he could vaguely feel that his arms and legs ached to death.what's going on?I wanted to rub my eyes, but my hands were too heavy to lift.

Everything in front of me gradually became clear.I see the dusty ceiling and that familiar, squashed mark of a mosquito.I was still lying in the dormitory, and I heard a certain soft snoring sound in my ears.I didn't participate in the finals, I just slept well in the dormitory.Our days are no different than they were before, now and in the future.I sat up with difficulty and saw that my right arm was wrapped with thick gauze.I suddenly remembered that last night a certain Zhang held Feng Huhu with one hand, carried me on his back, got off the train, and moved slowly towards the bus station.His posture of carrying people was too unique, and the injury under the gauze on his right hand was rubbed by his shoulder, causing heart-piercing pain.Injury to the right arm—I remember, it was my mistake.When the third-order guidance is about to be completed...

My headache started.The girl's face was distorted by the residual speed of the teleportation, and then I was hit by the air wave, flew several meters high, and hit the ground again.I miscalculated the trajectory of the girl's target and only knocked down one person.I think we lost the game, but my point of view got out of the body, suspended in mid-air, saw Feng Huo shouting my name and rushed over, and slapped the girl hard on the face fist.She fell next to me, her face was mixed with blood and snot, and she was beyond recognition.My memory after that is blurred.

Maybe I got up and made some noise, the snoring of a certain sheet stopped.After a while, he also sat up with his eyes half-closed, and smirked at me. "What are you laughing at?" "I'm laughing that you were beaten badly by that woman yesterday." "Fuck." "It's not that you missed the shot."

I think he has a point.

"So what place did we get?"

"No ranking, I lost that match."

"Didn't you win?"

"The idiot Guo Da judge seriously stated that beating people on the field is violent, it is wrong, and it is against the honor of superpowers. We should completely ban physical violence on the field. Then he was very angry Well, then we lost. Feng Laohu wanted to fight with him, but he had no energy after the fight, so you two asked the staff to pull you down. There is no ranking, but there is a certificate of participation, but ~ yes ~ , Comrade Feng Huohu, our captain, felt that such a judgment was violent, wrong, and against the honor of a person with superpowers, so he didn't go to receive it."

I looked at the wounds on my arms and legs.When the shirt was unbuttoned, there were also two huge bruises on the chest, like the territory of our country and the enemy country.The scene of being bounced was spinning in my mind like a revolving lantern.I suddenly remembered something - about the woman opposite, I seem to have seen her somewhere... By the way, it should be in Professor Guo's office.Although I only saw the side face at that time, I should not admit my mistake.

"I see!"

"Why is this so?"

I tried to imitate the tone of a certain piece:

"I think we may have accidentally hurt the beloved member of Judge Guo."

"what?!"

It was a rest day, and Feng Huhu also came in the afternoon.He also had injuries on his hands and face, which were covered with tape, but they were much lighter than mine.He brought a newspaper over and said, "Look, there has been a lot of noise in the media." It turned out that in the middle of the front page was a large photo of the girl with a bruised nose and pear blossoms in the rain: She claimed that Professor Guo, one of the judges, could not Threatened to enter the semi-finals, she had sex with her forcibly. Unexpectedly, she was disfigured in the first round of the final. Professor Guo saw that she had lost her appearance and could not win the ranking in the selection of "the most beautiful person with superpowers", so she did not hesitate. Tell her to stop in the quarterfinals.I asked Feng Huo: "They didn't hold you accountable, did they?" Feng Huo threw the newspaper on the bed: "What responsibility do I have! I signed an agreement to participate in the competition, even if I was killed, it is my own business!  … ...Although I was angry for a while, and the shot was a bit harsh, but she hit you first." I picked up the newspaper and continued to read, and Professor Guo issued a statement through the college, saying that the first thing was purely fabricated, and the second They've got a lawyer and they're going to file a lawsuit.On the sidebar, there are several interviews with contestants and judges, with various viewpoints contradicting each other, and it is very lively.Some contestants said that this ugly phenomenon of unspoken rules happens every competition, and it is not surprising; Professor Guo is just a typical example.The son of the chief of the garrison also accepted an interview, saying that although he didn't know the ins and outs, he had a good impression of Mr. Guo and so on.However, after looking around, there was not a single word mentioned about our group.I turned on my phone and searched online, but apart from the steady reports in the newspaper, there were probably only gossip about Professor Guo’s daily sex behavior, and a small video link of "Courage Cup □□ Yimen".A certain Zhang lay lazily on the bed and said: "Well... If there is any real transaction video, send me one..." Feng Huo sat down silently, showing a very decadent look, which was still in his head. Once.

I didn't know what to say. After a while, Feng Huhu said: "Anyway, I rushed to the gate of the top eight. Let's buy something to celebrate. I will make you suffer, and I will pay for it. No one will talk to me." Grab." That day we bought 200 yuan of roast duck and a lot of beer.The roast duck was very well cooked, and a certain Zhang took a knife and shaved off the meat one by one, and used it as an appetizer.Because my whole body was injured, I didn't dare to drink too much; Feng Huhu and a certain Zhang were both drunk.A certain wine was very good, and he lay on the table after drinking it. I thought he was falling asleep, but he suddenly raised his head and said, "Well, hiccup, the video of □ □ Yi..." I said, "I'm still looking for it, I found it and sent it to you ’” He lay down again and really fell asleep.Feng Huhu held the wine bottle in his hand, staring at the electric light in a daze.After a while, he turned around and said: "Now you know it." "Know what?" "We are just the most, the most ordinary ordinary people. Hit, hit that ceiling." I supported him:

"you're drunk."

"I bumped, I pretended that I wouldn't hurt, I pretended that I didn't have a ceiling. I didn't have that much strength, my fucking head was smashed, and the blood hit it, and you know what, it's not even entertaining, even , not even qualified to entertain people!"

"Okay, you put down the bottle first."

"I ask you, you, you, are you looking at my joke? Isn't it? Did you know this a long time ago, are you playing with me? I hate being played by others the most, you know? I'm working hard! Say it again, I have worked very hard, you know!"

I persuaded him for a long time, and finally he sobered up, and said regretfully, "I'm sorry, I drank too much." I let him sleep on a certain bed.I drank a little wine and got hot.At this time, there was still some time before the dormitory closed, so I went out for a walk to cool off my sweat.It was pitch black, with only sparse street lights dimly smearing the road ahead.I want to walk down the road in front of the dormitory to the training ground and sit in the place where we "opened a small stove" to prepare for the game.Not for anything else, but for Feng Huhu's drunken talk just now.

Qiu Chong had already silenced, only the night wind was left playing the dead branches.I was walking alone on the narrow road, and I heard the trickle from the well beside the road.I remembered the first time Feng Huo came to the dormitory.How fast time flies, life is like a dead leaf, flying in countless "moments".In a blink of an eye we became friends, in a blink of an eye we broke the drive left by our grandfather, in a blink of an eye we met Assistant Professor Li, and in a blink of an eye our mother passed away.The days passed like this-the days are ruthless, but people are sentient, and those who are sentient are ruthlessly played with.Is human struggle meaningful?I can't help but think so.If we don't struggle, what are we left with?But struggle itself, is it not a cowardly escape?With one hand on my shoulder, Assistant Professor Li said from behind me, "Come out for a walk?" I said yes, and he wanted to walk with me.We were silent for a long time, and I said:

"Feng Yaozhi was just too anxious at the time."

"I can understand. He's a good comrade."

I don't know why Assistant Professor Li used the word "comrade-in-arms", but the little thorn on the fingertip started to hurt again.I always have to ask this question.I said:

"Professor Li, someone said that you reported on your classmates in the past. Is it true?"

He didn't answer right away.I watched the shadows of the two of us shorten and lengthen under the street lamps.He said: "After walking for a long time, don't you sit down?" We sat down next to the training ground.

"It's true." Assistant Professor Li said. "They are going to launch a coup, I know it, and reported it to the Super Power Security Association. They were all killed."

I looked at him, and he looked at me with almost pity.

"Aren't you going to ask me why?"

"..."

"I think the reason... probably you understand more or less. They have their beliefs, and I happen to be different from them. Then, we encountered a time when people with different beliefs will die."

"So you betrayed them."

"Yes. Betrayed, including my friends. It's like the relationship between the three of you. We won No.4 in the national competition together——I killed them."

"But you're still alive."

"That morning, I went to the downtown square and saw their charred bodies."

I silently looked at Assistant Professor Li's profile.He didn't look at me at all, just staring at a point in the void.

"Among them are my friends, my opponents, the squad leader who once took care of me, and the girl who has a crush on me. They are displayed in the square, they are all black coke, and the facial features and even the body shape can no longer be seen. Only a white sign was placed under the charcoal, indicating who this is, a photo of him before he was alive, and what crime he committed.”

"Before I went to the square, I thought about suicide. We just have different ideas. They are dead, so I should go with them. I want to see them one last time. I went to the square, saw the charcoal, saw the side station There were many heavily armed soldiers, superpowers, and chariots. I was suddenly scared."

"We have received four years of superpower combat training, and we regard political differences, combat, and death as very romantic things. However, the fact is that we are the most ordinary people. It is contrary to the right way They will be slaughtered and burnt without human form. If they commit suicide, they will just die in obscurity, and even their existence will be obliterated. The so-called superpower fighting skills are like a mantis in front of the entire state machine. I am afraid, in the original I was shaking. I never thought about suicide again."

"20 years later, I don't know if the choice was correct, because the society is no longer what I imagined, and naturally it is not what they imagined. Our original ideals and persistence are just a joke now. I do know What's more, I'm a coward who is afraid of death. I shouldn't be among them in the first place."

Such a statement just makes me feel contemptuous.Yet I could understand him and see myself in him.At this moment, he is not the young elite, nor is he a despicable informer, he is just the most ordinary person, perhaps once had ideals, a little boyish romance, and then sucked and cried like an ugly newborn, bleeding bright red blood.I think he probably also saw it from me, no, maybe he just wanted to see his own shadow.The night wind was very cold, I hugged him as if to comfort him, but maybe it was just to comfort myself.He froze for a moment, but did not refuse such a hug.I was probably possessed at that moment.We cuddled for a while, I began to seek his lips with my lips, and then things started to fly to an unforeseen end.I saw Assistant Professor Li's face, he seemed to have lost his mind, he just bumped and twisted helplessly and confused, and penetrated deep into my body time and time again.

And in such a cold wind, it was extremely stupid to be invaded naked in his coat.Funny thoughts flashed through my mind for some reason, and at the same time I saw four fighter planes flying south in a group in the night sky.In the end, he helped me put on my clothes, and he said: "My drive...you can use it first, and treat it as a gift from me." But I insisted on returning it.I knew in my heart that I would never look for him again, and it would be inappropriate to keep some unrealistic thoughts.He finally stopped insisting, bowed his head and agreed.We parted at a fork in the road back, and each went our own way.