unobtainable warmth

After returning to the classroom, what happened just now appeared in front of Qiu Yan's eyes one after another: there was silence, the breeze blew through the curtains, the curtains swayed slightly, and the sunlight slanted into the classroom, Xu Zhou slept on the table, and the breeze blew Passing through the hair, blowing it to the right cheek, Yang Shan brushed the hair down, and kissed Xu Zhou's cheek lightly, like a butterfly gently falling on a petal, like a fallen leaf falling into still water, startled There was a ripple.

Qiu Yan didn't dare to think about it any more, he just waited until he could find a chance to ask Yang Shan after the evening self-study, although he already knew everything, he had to confirm it again.

Einstein's theory of relativity mentions that time develops relatively. Sometimes it will pass quickly inadvertently, but when you notice it, it will pass slowly. Qiu Yan passed the day absent-mindedly, only feeling that time is so The snail crawls at an average speed.Finally, when school was over at night, he rushed into the next class, grabbed Yang Shan and left.Xu Zhou was taken aback, and murmured, "Qiu Yan is so strange today, I've never seen him so flustered before." Then he went back to the dormitory first.

Yang Shan was caught off guard by Qiu Yan, and she suddenly woke up when she was dragged to the stairs.

"Qiu Yan, what's the matter, didn't you take your medicine today?" Half-jokingly said to Qiu Yan.

Qiu Yan ignored him, pulled him straight downstairs, and dragged him to a corner with a serious expression on his face.Only then did Yang Shan realize that there might be something really going on, and she also became serious.

"Is something wrong with Xu Zhou?" Yang Shan instantly became nervous.

"Xu Zhou is fine, it's your business." Qiu Yan remained expressionless.

"Oh, you scared me to death." Yang Shan let go of the heart that was raised in his throat.

"Tell me, what's the matter, I don't remember you as a person who would take the initiative to chat with me."

"You... do you... like... like Xu Zhou?" After finishing speaking, he looked into Yang Shan's eyes again.

"..." Yang Shan didn't speak, just remained silent.After a long silence, he replied, "Does Xu Zhou already know?"

Qiu Yan seemed surprised yet calm, and replied lightly, "He doesn't know yet, I just want to ask you what you think."

Yang Shan breathed a sigh of relief, "I don't know what I think, but I know that I like him, and I like Xu Zhou."

"Then have you ever thought about it, you two are men, what do you ask Xu Zhou to do?" Qiu Yan shouted, as if he wanted to vent all the depressed emotions these days.

"I have thought about such a question, but I still can't understand why two boys can't love each other. I don't understand these things. I only know that I like Xu Zhou, like a lover in the world. I also want Xu Zhou Falling in love with me, I want to give him warmth and make him less lonely. Yang Shan said calmly.

"I don't know if I should let Xu Zhou know. If it wasn't for you, I don't think I would ever say it, but now I want to know Xu Zhou's mind. Maybe we will be together, maybe he will be afraid, Will run away, but I want to give it a try now."

"What if he escapes?"

"Then I'll chase him back. For a long time, I will always impress him. I don't care about time. I only recognize him in my life. You may find it ridiculous, but there is a kind of person who will know when you meet him." Whether I want to protect the person for the rest of my life, Xu Zhou is the person I decide to protect for the rest of my life."

Qiu Yan suddenly lost the strength to argue with him, what else could he say, Yang Shan was already so determined.

"Then when are you going to tell Xu Zhou?"

"It should be soon, before I'm ready to be rejected by him." Yang Shan's voice dropped.

The day before Yang Shan was going to confess, the three of them went out for another meal, which might be the last meal for Yang Shan and Xu Zhou.During this meal, Xu Zhou ate happily, Qiu Yan was upset, Yang Shan raised his head to look at Xu Qing from time to time, as if it was an extravagant wish to see more.

The next day, Yang Shan invited Xu Zhou to the school pond.Yang Shan came early, watching the breeze blowing through the trees, listening to the rustling of the leaves, and the water reflecting the setting sun, I felt extremely calm.Seeing Xu Zhou walking towards here from a distance, when Xu Zhou was still two meters away from him, he called out "Xu Zhou", as if exhausting all his affection.

Without giving Xu Zhou a chance to speak, Yang Shan said to himself, "Xu Zhou, I like you, and I want to spend my whole life with you. Maybe you will think I'm disgusting, but I really like you. I've said it many times. I don’t like it enough, I don’t know if you like me or not, and I don’t know what your thoughts are.” After saying this, Yang Shan seemed to have exhausted all her strength.Finally, he whispered, "Xu Zhou, can you like me?"

Xu Zhou was stunned on the opposite side for a long time, as if he had said something, but also seemed to have said nothing, turned around and left quickly, Yang Shan didn't catch up, just stood there blankly.

It wasn't until Yang Shan returned to the classroom for evening self-study that he found out that Xu Zhou had asked for leave until the first monthly exam.

After school, he went to Qiu Yan and asked Qiu Yan if he had seen Xu Zhou for the last time, Qiu Yan said, "I saw it, it was like losing my soul." Yang Shan could only smile wryly, it seemed that this time he messed up.

"Do you regret it?" Qiu Yan asked Yang Shan.

"I don't regret it, I just feel guilty and scared him, but if I don't ask, I will regret it again." Yang Shan's face no longer had the usual smile, and the corners of his mouth were drawn into a line.

"Xu Zhou completely rejected it?"

"No, he didn't say anything, he just left."

"This should be his answer. He didn't want to hurt my friend, so he chose to leave."

Both Yang Shan and Qiu Yan were silent, and went back to their dorms.

It wasn't until the monthly exam that Yang Shan saw Xu Zhou again. He seemed to have lost weight again, and the flesh he had raised when eating with them these days was gone.

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Another chapter this afternoon