unobtainable warmth

When Yang Shan came home, his parents were sitting in the living room seriously.Yang Shan casually greeted him with a smile, but his parents seriously asked him to stay and talk about it. Yang Shan only thought that his parents wanted to talk about his academic performance, and didn't have much reaction. sit down.

"Who is that person downstairs today?" Yang Shan's mother asked anxiously.The father didn't speak, but just looked at Yang Shan blankly beside his mother.

Yang Shan's mind was buzzing like thunder.He thought about telling his parents about Xu Zhou before, but he didn't think it would be when he was unprepared.

"It's my classmate." Yang Shan said.

"Don't you tell the truth, do you think I didn't see the nasty things you did this afternoon!" Yang Shan's mother stood up from the sofa angrily, and Yang Shan's father patted her hand and motioned her to sit down. Shan's mother put away her anger and resumed her serious expression.

Seeing that her mother already knew, Yang Shan had no choice but to tell the truth, "He is my boyfriend."

"How long has it been?" Father raised his head and looked into Yang Shan's eyes and asked calmly.

"It's been a year." Yang Shan also looked into his father's eyes.

"Then have you thought about your future?" Father asked

"Not yet, but we will continue to do so in the future." Yang Shan said firmly.

"Then have you thought about how you will be viewed by others in society in the future?"

"Neither Xu Zhou nor I pay attention to other people's gaze."

"You are messing around!" The father who knew Yang Shan's thoughts only said this to Yang Shan.

"Don't go out these days, stay at home." The father's voice could not be denied.

"why?"

"There is no reason." After speaking, Yang Shan's parents went back to the bedroom, and did not listen to Yang Shan's explanation.

Yang Shan was angry and helpless, as if he had a thorn in his body, but he couldn't find where he was.Yang Shan turned around and went back to her bedroom, lying on the bed quietly looking at the ceiling, wondering what was going on in her mind.

Xu Zhou didn't know what happened after Yang Shan came home, and before he fell asleep, he was still recalling what he had gone to play with Yang Shan today.

The next afternoon, when Xu Zhou went to eat, he found that Xu Nuo was not at home. His parents were sitting on the dining table in the living room. stopped him.Xu Zhou was surprised, since he made the promise, he was not allowed to eat together, and he took the meal back to his room to eat every day.

Although Xu Zhou was surprised, he turned around and walked to the dining table.

"Put the plates on the dining table." Xu Zhou's mother said.

Only then did Xu Zhou dare to put his dinner plate on the table.

"It's not enough for you to be like this at home, and you go to other people's homes to disgust others! The parents of the people called, saying that you are in love with their son, are you mentally ill?!" Xu Zhou's mother asked him.

Xu Zhou seemed not to stand still, his body swayed slightly, he wanted to say something, but he couldn't think of what to say, what could he refute beside his parents, he could only stand and listen to his mother say a lot, father He just said, "How could I have a child like you, what a crime!" Then he went back to the bedroom with his mother.

Father's last words were like the last straw that broke the camel's back, crushing Xu Zhou.When Xu Zhou returned to his room, he felt helpless. He wanted to look up at the warm sun in the sky, only to realize that it was raining heavily outside at some point.He suddenly rushed into the living room again, trying to call Yang Shan and listen to Yang Shan's voice, but he couldn't get through. He reconfirmed the phone number again, and the call was correct, but he still couldn't get through.

Xu Zhou only knew that he and Yang Shan were abnormal, and Qiu Yan didn't look at them with strange eyes, so Xu Zhou didn't expect such resistance between the same sex.He didn't know what was going on with Yang Shan, and he didn't dare to think about it. He just thought that the rain would stop soon, and he wanted to see Yang Shan.

It rained heavily for several days.When the rain stopped, Xu Zhou went downstairs to Yang Shan's house. He went upstairs and knocked on the door of Yang Shan's house, but it was not Yang Shan who came out.Xu Zhou asked if Yang Shan was there, the man asked if he was Xu Zhou, Xu Zhou nodded and said yes.The man said that Yang Shan is not here, come in, I am Yang Shan's mother, and my aunt wants to tell you something.

Xu Zhou entered Yang Shan's house and found that his house was empty, as if no one lived there.

Yang Shan's mother asked Xu Zhou to sit on the sofa, and Xu Zhou sat down obediently.

"Auntie knows about Yang Shan and you, and Auntie has told your parents. Auntie thinks you and Yang Shan are both good boys, and you can't go on the road of no return. We have already told him about Yang Shan. I also hope that you will stop looking for Yang Shan." Yang Shan's mother said earnestly.

Xu Zhou just lowered his head and listened to her silently. After a moment of silence, he raised his head and asked, "How is Yang Shan now? Is he okay?"

"Very good." Yang Shan's mother's voice lowered. In fact, Yang Shan is not well at all now. Since she said it last time, Yang Shan has lost weight rapidly in the past few days. Although she still eats well, she still thin.

"Ah That's good."

Yang Shan's mother looked up at Xu Zhou, her eyes softened, if Xu Zhou wasn't a boy, he and Yang Shan were on good terms.

"Auntie hopes that you can break up with Yang Shan. Since you like Yang Shan, you must not be willing to see him suffer such social pressure. I think you also know how much homosexuality is discriminated against in society."

Xu Zhou bowed his head and remained silent for a long time, as if he had thought about it for a long time, and only said "OK".

Yang Shan's mother looked at Xu Zhou gratefully, and said, "Then I will let Yang Shan wait for you at home tomorrow, and you tell him to break up, so that he will die."

Xu Zhou just said, "Auntie, I know, then I'll go first." Then he left Yang Shan's house.

Xu Zhou walked aimlessly among the crowd. He often thought about what kind of people walking on this road, what kind of families they had, and what kind of stories they had experienced.Now he was walking on the bustling street, not thinking about anything, just walking aimlessly. When he came back to his senses, he realized that tears were streaming down his face. Xu Zhou silently walked to a corner, squatted down and hugged himself.After an unknown amount of time, he stood up, with no tears left on his face, only red and swollen eyes, and walked to the busy street again, finally disappearing into the sea of ​​people.

The author has something to say:

When I just wrote this chapter, I was in a particularly depressed mood. After writing this, I felt like I was back in the past.