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Hearing Alex's request of "give me one too", Li Yan was taken aback, and subconsciously wanted to push his hand away: "This... can't..."

Alex paused and asked, "Why not?"

Li Yan felt numb behind his ears: "So suddenly..." He racked his brains desperately and finally came up with a reason, "Maimai is still young..."

"It's none of his business," Alex said.

"..." Li Yan hurriedly explained, "Guan, I can't take care of two children..."

Alex said, "I'll take care of the little ones."

Li Yan said: "...No, you don't know, it's really difficult to take care of children. It was difficult to take care of Maimai before. You have to coax them all day long. It's not that easy..."

Alex said: "It's difficult to take him because he is too noisy. We have a quiet one. That's easy to take."

"..." Li Yan felt extremely embarrassed, he almost finished his year's share of rejections, "No way, how can you be so casual about having a child..."

Unable to convince people with reasoning, Alex changed his strategy and continued to act coquettishly: "I want it."

He reached under the hem of Li Yan's shirt, gently stroking the soft skin above his abdomen and ribs, and kept repeating this request. Li Yan felt more and more tense all over his body, and his voice of refusal became more and more intense. The smaller, the more emboldened.Even though he was lying on the bed, he felt shaky and suddenly lost his balance from the void.The weightlessness of falling into the clouds enveloped him, and he couldn't help but want to retreat, but the warm fragrance of his lover tested his determination.Once disarmed, the outsider is allowed to explore, to stroke the quivering feather-tips of his own wings.The explorer's hand crosses the peaks and valleys of texture and bones, and draws even and gentle curves extending below the navel. In the warm inland seas, there is a whole new world waiting to be discovered, until the moist fertile soil is reclaimed and dug deep.A part of me in shyness wants to stop, but finds itself still buried in the other's neck with nostalgia. Alex looked down at him, winking when he looked up.It is impossible to use artificial paint to describe the color in his eyes, and it is also impossible to clarify his all-encompassing charm, whether it lies in the outline shape divided by light and dark, the messy panting of broken hair scattered in front of the eyelashes, or the sparkling fireflies in the eyes. love.

Unable to think, like walking into a hurricane full of dandelions.

So when Alex repeated the request of "give me one too", Li Yan hummed distractedly.

He was in a mess, shaking with the invasion of the Velvet.As if being slowly roasted to death, there were electric sparks flying up from the spine to the back of the head, his breathing was fragmented, his thinking was disintegrating, his hands were shaking, and his fingertips couldn't help scratching on the bed sheet.There was an empty echo in his heart, wanting to be entered until he felt the deepest pain and pulse.If the glass is burned on the flame until it turns red and melts, and then falls naturally into the icy water by gravity, it will cool down into tadpole-shaped teardrops with long tails.The teardrop itself was indestructible, like a fiery thrust and mesh, and he was the glass tail drawn to the filament, gasping for breath as best it could without snapping and collapsing. Alex stroked his back like a frightened animal, but his heart didn't stop.Li Yan raised his head, managed to coordinate an angle to kiss him clumsily, and breathed the trembling air that was the same as the movement inside his body.

But amidst the feeble haze, he gradually realized that something was wrong.The sourness was mixed with a strange feeling of swelling that became clearer and clearer. He suddenly panicked for no reason, pushed Alex, and asked in a voice hoarse from the aftershock, "...what are you doing?"

Alex didn't seem to understand why he asked such a question, and replied in a sleepy manner: "Tie a knot."

"..." Li Yan knew about the knot, but Alex had never done it before.The sense of swelling is getting stronger and stronger, and there is pleasure buzzing under the skin. The pleasure extends from the axons of the touch, proprioception, and shock induction pathways in the back to the medulla and then crosses and jumps up to the cortex, like spinal anesthesia The drugs infiltrated and intoxicated the nerves of the brain and spinal cord as if they were diffused.Li Yan tried to get rid of that rushing feeling in his body, but it was just a cruel and suppressed fantasy.His red irises were burning with hellfire, and all he could do was pray that the imminent urgency wouldn't suffocate him.When he hit the hotbed, he snapped like a slender glass teardrop tail, and everything exploded and shattered.

In the cooling of the shivering, when Alex turned sideways and kissed him tenderly, Li Yan realized from afar that there were still voices of shame and panic in his internal organs.He rubbed his belly, apprehensive, and a wave of old fear and deep guilt welled up.

Will you be pregnant?

He was really not ready, not mentally prepared at all.

He always thought that he would never get pregnant again in this life.

The time when Li Yan was pregnant was not a pleasant memory.Before he had time to accept what the doctor said, he was already caught in the endless interrogation and questioning of his father and elder brother. Beta is no better than Omega, the whole pregnancy process is very hard, he reacts heavily, can hardly eat in the first few months, and the family lacks an elder who can play the role of mother, no one tells him what will happen, he doesn't understand anything, Most of the time I was in fear and restlessness.In order to avoid people's eyes and ears, Li Yan stayed at home for more than half a year and never went out, and the atmosphere at home was not good.

Dad and elder brother quarreled every three days, mainly about the children's fate.The eldest brother insisted that the child could not be kept, but the father said that he was a child of the Li family after all, and he must not be beaten; while the younger sister was still young at that time, she cried when she heard them quarreling, and Li Yan was required to comfort her.Li Yan didn't want this child very much at first, but when Mai Mai started kicking him, he softened his heart and started to worry about whether the child would be lost. At that time, the elder brother still insisted on wanting him to have an abortion, so He lost even his last reliable ally.

When he was in labor, because he was worried about being followed by tabloid reporters, no one in his family followed him to the hospital. He wore a hat and mask, and was completely wrapped up. He was only accompanied by the driver and a strange steward.Behind the frosted glass of the delivery room, there were no partners or family members waiting. It was quiet, and even the midwives expressed sympathy in their words. He felt very lonely at that time.

Because he was too young to do anything, he passed those extremely difficult months in a ignorant manner; if he was given a chance to choose now, he probably wouldn't have the courage to go back and face it again.

The memory fragments of the past turned back and forth in his mind, Li Yan snuggled up to Alex, but when he recalled the feeling of being trapped in the discomfort of the body and the fear of the storm, his heart couldn't help but tremble .

In the end, he couldn't help but ask: "...Isn't she really pregnant..."

Alex realized that his tone was wrong, looked at him carefully, and found that he was tearful, and was immediately startled: "...what's wrong?"

"It's nothing," Li Yan said with effort to keep his tone steady, "...I'm just a little worried..."

Alex hesitated for a while and asked, "...you don't want to?"

"No, I'm just a little scared..."

"Why are you afraid?"

Li Yan's mouth is stupid, he doesn't know how to describe his uneasiness, it took a long time to squeeze out a few words: "...I am alone..."

"Why are you alone," Alex said, "I'm here too."

"No, I'm not talking about you, I'm talking about the past..." Li Yanyue whispered, "...I was always alone before."

Alex was silent for a moment: "...Didn't he accompany you?"

Li Yan asked: "Who?"

"... Mai Mai's biological father."

Li Yan's voice became very low: "...Of course not..."

"Why?" Alex asked, "...he won't take responsibility?"

"No...he didn't know at all. My father drove him away." Li Yan thought for a while, and decided to confess to Alex that he had a dark past of whoring brother duck, "...he...he actually did that business of."

Alex asked: "...is it Mu Xiao?"

Li Yan said "hmm": "Yes... You are so smart to guess so quickly, is it because Pei Yi said last time that he is Brother Duck..."

When he finally told the truth, he finally breathed a sigh of relief.

But Alex has a different understanding of his confession.

If Alex still had a little doubt about Mai Mai's words, then all his doubts disappeared at this time.Mai Mai's sources are indeed reliable.It was mentioned in the magazine that Mu Xiao offended someone back then and was driven out of town, but it didn't write in detail how he offended someone.Because Mai Mai said that Li Yan became very melancholy when he mentioned Mu Xiao, and the two of them must have been very unforgettable, so Alex preconceived that Li Yan's father was dissatisfied with Mu Xiao's gender and occupation and beat them up. .Calculated in this way, maybe they did not voluntarily split their hands at that time.No wonder when I saw Mu Xiao at the theater, I felt that the atmosphere between them was not right.

He hugged Li Yan: "...then he still doesn't know?"

Li Yan shook his head and said, "I don't know."

"So are you going to tell him?"

"Don't... don't bother him," Li Yan said, "I have already caused him enough... I didn't tell Mai Mai who he is. Because if I told Mai Mai, he might not be able to bear it." live to find him..."

Alex sighed inwardly.Mai Mai already knew it.

But he has no position to intervene in the matter of the family of three.In the end, he could only say: "Forget it, you won't have a baby if you don't want to."

"..." Li Yan thought for a while, but was still very uneasy, "...What if I accidentally conceived just now... I heard that it is easier to conceive again after a beta is born..."

There is indeed such a saying, but it would only be like this if it was the same father. Alex comforted him and said, "No, it's not that easy..."

"..." Li Yan felt relieved after hearing these words, and began to explain, "It's not that I don't want to...I just don't want to go so fast...I don't know how to tell my family..."

Alex asked: "Afraid they scold you?"

"No..." Li Yan denied it subconsciously, and said, "I admit that I am a little afraid that they will criticize me, but not all... I am afraid that they will be laughed at."

Alex said: "It's their fault if someone laughs at their words, not your fault."

Li Yan said: "...But I still caused them to be laughed at. My elder brother has to go out to do business with people. If he is laughed at, he will lose face." Now it is not the same as back then, when he was just a student. As long as he suspends school, he can stay at home without going out, but his current social relationship is much more complicated.He has a job, a colleague and a boss. Even if he is determined to resign and stay at home, and wants to enter the workplace again in the future, he will inevitably be asked what he was doing during the half-year blank period.Moreover, there are often parents meetings at Maimai School, and there are neighbors who meet from time to time. It is impossible for him to hide in isolation for ten months like before.

Alex sighed again, not sure how to change his self-blame habit.

Li Yan heard him sigh, and quickly explained again: "It's not that I don't want to, I'm just not mentally prepared..."

Alex said, "...it's okay, take your time."

Li Yan finally calmed down, and thought of something after a while: "... By the way, there is one more thing, Peiyi is not my girlfriend, and I don't have two boats with one foot."

Alex: "...?"

Li Yan said: "Pei Yi is just pretending to be my girlfriend... because I am afraid that people at school will know that I like men."

Alex hummed, said "I see", and then quietly tendered with him.In his meditation, Alex thought of Mu Xiao, and thought of Fang Peiyi's liking for Mu Xiao that Maimai had said, so he took it for granted that Fang Peiyi was covering for this real card.How did Li Yan's obedient brand match up with Mu Xiao, who is engaged in a special industry?Good kids seem to be attracted to bad guys.He thought that a lot of things might have happened that year, recalled Mu Xiao's confident look, and thought it would not be surprising if Li Yan was dazed by him back then.It is very likely that Mai Mai will really go to Mu Xiao.If Mu Xiao knew the truth, would he want to reunite?

The author says:

Let Mai Mai go to see Mu Xiao tomorrow!Mu Xiao:? ? ?none of my business

ps Ling Mao and Xiao Yuan will also meet tomorrow!