paper idol

The author has something to say: I have been rewriting this chapter all day today, and finally I can see it well...

The topic was suddenly diverted to the outline, and there was no chance to talk about film and television contacts afterwards.

Qu Lebai thought about finding another time to talk, but during this gap, she received a call.

The incoming call showed an unfamiliar number, Qu Lebai thought it was a sales call, and answered, "No need, thank you."

After a brief embarrassing silence, the other side spoke in a trembling local accent: "Lele, have you...how have you been in recent years?"

Qu Lebai was stunned: "...Dad?"

She hadn't heard this voice for a long time, and she even had to ask rhetorical questions to confirm it.

After getting an affirmative answer from there, he made an appointment with the other party for a time and place to meet.

The dialogue is too fast for reason to keep up with emotion.Qu Lebai hasn't had time to recall what happened back then.

It's like an eternity.

……

If he wants to recall the past, Qu Lebai doesn't know where to start.

In Daxie's mind, this incident may be a rebellion against paternalism. After the volcano erupted, the magma burst, and then gradually subsided.

The boss and Qu Lebai share the same hobbies and dreams, so they naturally stand by Qu Lebai's side.But after the matter was over, the boss couldn't help but persuade him: "Your family should also look away..."

She knew the subtext: Do you want to reconcile with your parents?

The music is white and stubborn, but who is it inherited from?

It's just that she didn't expect that after a few years, stubbornness as hard as a black rock can be boiled into soy sauce dregs.

Her parents are old teachers.It is said that they are teachers, but they have not received much education. In those days, those who were willing to go to teach in small towns became "teachers".He said he was uneducated, and he was very high-minded. He persistently defended the "three educations and nine streams" grading system of "scholars, farmers, businessmen, and businessmen", and insisted that Qu Lebai should go to the civil service examination.

In their eyes, the best thing is an iron rice bowl.

Qu Lebai was aggrieved, and asked them: "Is writing a book a career so hard to do? Isn't it also a proficiency?"

The parents frowned and shook their heads, as if they had heard some unpleasant remarks: "Can what you write be called a book, can it teach and educate people! At best it is just a script! In ancient times, it was written for actors to sing! Even if you No matter how much money you make, your waist is not right, so you might as well come back and farm!"

Mother chimed in: "Even if you really like to write novels, can't you write novels as an amateur? Can you rely on this for a lifetime?"

That's when Qu Lebai realized she couldn't communicate with her parents.

Perhaps there is indeed a systematic difference between young people and middle-aged people, or maybe the whole family is stubborn. Even if it is only 49% and 51% of the differences in opinion at first, once there is an opposition, it will be incompatible.

Everyone wants to prove themselves right.

Therefore, the idea of ​​"running away" is like a net that wraps her tightly, waiting for her to break out of the cocoon and become a butterfly; it is also like a small sapling, a look or a phrase from the opposite party makes it stronger.

The reason why this seed breaks through the ground may not be so noble, and it is so desperate for the ideal.

It's just that relatives who have never been in contact with each other usually introduced a nephew of seven aunts and eight aunts.

Before seeing the above, the man asked Qu Lebai to change his profile picture into a selfie, asked her how much savings she had, asked her to maintain her womb from now on, and even asked her if she was a virgin.

"If it's not a virgin, then we don't need to meet. Broken shoes are very annoying and like to make trouble." These were the man's original words.

Qu Lebai felt disgusted and explained the truth to her parents.The mother also felt that it was not appropriate to have a close friendship, but she still advised her to meet.

"It's just a meal, there won't be a piece of meat missing. At that time, it's fine to say that you don't like it, and it can be regarded as giving face to the introducer."

Qu Le was very angry.

——What kind of face, face is more important than your own feelings? !Besides, when introducing this kind of man, the introducer himself didn't care much about face.

Then Qu Lebai ran away, especially for performing arts, and ran away on the day of her brother's wedding - because I heard that the man was coming to "inspect the goods".

At that time, Qu Lebai felt that what he did was showing resistance.

But she never expected that her brother had a car accident in order to find her, and she was trying to find a way to connect with the boss at that time.

She hated and regretted her parents, felt guilty for her brother, and felt sorry for her sister-in-law.

For myself, but only loathing.

……

After the actual meeting, the atmosphere was a bit heavy.Perhaps because they haven't seen each other for so long, the family has forgotten how to start a conversation.

Qu Lebai poured everyone a glass of water, and the water glass knocked on the table, making a crashing sound.

Her father asked her, "Are you still writing novels? Are more and more people liking you? What's that word called, 'fan'?"

A few years ago, parents who didn't understand this culture at all and scoffed at it are now willing to ask about it.Qu Lebai thought of the sentence her mother asked before, "Can I write for a lifetime", and compared it with the current situation, she only felt ironic, her nose sore, and she almost shed tears.

She said, "I didn't write it."

She still wants to say a lot: I can't write, I have passed the civil service exam, I am still not in a relationship or married...

But there were too many words, and she couldn't speak.

Mother said: "Why didn't you write it? Don't you like this very much?"

Qu Lebai looked at her mother's watery eyes, and was about to tell the whole story.Fortunately, I endured it for a while, forced a smile and said, "I'm too busy."

The sister-in-law said: "Don't ask, Lele has her own ideas."

"Well, right..."

The sister-in-law was holding the child in her arms. For some reason, the child looked a little tired and rubbed his eyes.

"Rongrong, call aunt quickly." The sister-in-law grabbed the child's hand and waved at Qu Lebai.The kid looked a little dull, but he still grinned and called, "Auntie!"

"Drool!" The sister-in-law rubbed the corner of the child's mouth with a piece of toilet paper.

Qu Lebai touched the child's head and said with a smile, "It's so cute."

The child reached out and grabbed Qu Lebai's fingers.

With the little friend Rongrong as the starting point for the topic, the meal finally became a little more harmonious, but they still couldn't talk to each other.Qu Lebai asked them why they came to Shanghai suddenly, but his father hesitated for a while, and finally just said "come to play".

Qu Lebai felt wrong in his heart, but he didn't dare to guess.

If even the long-lost warmth has to be analyzed and suspected, it's really meaningless for that person to live.

……

After dinner, Qu Lebai said that he would take the family to the hotel.On the way, my sister-in-law walked with Qu Lebai, and Qu Lebai asked, "Sister-in-law, how old are you this year?"

The sister-in-law was gentle, lifted Rongrong up, and said, "Two years older than you."

Qu Lebai hesitated for a moment, but still said: "Sister-in-law, have you ever thought about getting married? My brother...didn't get the certificate yet, right?"

At that time, my brother and his sister-in-law were deeply in love, and because of the messy things about the household registration, they decided to get married first and then get a certificate.But no one thought that there would be an accident on the wedding day.

Qu Lebai also did not expect that his sister-in-law had already had a child at that time, and she hadn't left in the past few years.

For Qu Lebai, this state is incredible.Obviously legally independent and free, but the sister-in-law is bound by a child until now.

Maybe she can try to understand the greatness of love, but she can't imagine that she is bound by this kind of emptiness, and becomes complacent and self-sufficient.

The sister-in-law shook her head and said, "I still have Rongrong, and my parents. If you are not with them, what will they do if I leave too?"

"But they are not your responsibility..." Qu Lebai opened his mouth to say a few words, suddenly powerless.

She realized that she and her sister-in-law were two different people.One will persist for the sake of responsibility until the end of time, even if the responsibility does not belong to her in the first place; the other will do selfish things under the banner of "self".

Maybe it's all self-indulgence.

Qu Lebai shook her head helplessly, pulling the corners of her mouth. She admired her sister-in-law, but she didn't want to be her.

After marching for a long time, the family was finally sent to the residence.As soon as Qu Lebai arrived at the location, he was confused, pointing to the not far away and said: "Why do you live here? The accommodation fee here is quite expensive."

Not far away is a hospital, which is famous all over the country and specializes in treating some difficult and miscellaneous diseases.Although Qu Lebai didn't know about its business scope, he also knew that this location was absolutely impossible to be cheap.

The sister-in-law hesitated for a while, and said, "Rongrong is sick, and the city can't cure it. Only Shanghai can cure it, so we..."

Qu Lebai then understood why her parents and family came here this time, and even contacted her.

"Sister-in-law, what surgery is Rongrong doing? Is there any money left?"

The sister-in-law was stunned for a moment, her eyes turned red instantly, she lowered her head, and said with some shame: "No... I didn't ask for a lot of money... I still have money..."

My father rushed over from behind, coughed heavily, and said, "It's already here, so I won't say polite words. Lele, it's like this. Rongrong's illness needs a lot of money, and there is no hospital in the town to treat it, so I just came to Shanghai. In terms of money... Lele, can you borrow some?"

The long-lost family relationship has just ignited some flames, and it has been extinguished.

Qu Lebai had already guessed this direction, but she still couldn't help but feel a little pain in her heart.

The family members who have not been in touch for a long time asked "Are you still writing" as soon as they opened their mouths, and their attitudes changed 180 degrees.

What could it be for?For money, for medical treatment.

Qu Lebai pondered for a while, then asked, "How much money do you need?"

She feels guilty towards her sister-in-law, even though it can be said that her sister-in-law chose this path herself.

The sister-in-law rubbed her eyes and said a number, a number that made Qu Lebai very embarrassed.

But Qu Lebai sighed and said, "I'll think of a way."