paper idol

At about twelve o'clock, Qu Lebai said that he was going to go offline, Rou Jiang yawned, and also went offline, but both of them agreed tacitly and did not quit YY.

Carry the computer back to the room.After all, the living room is considered a public area, so it would be inappropriate if it was too late.

Whether it's reviewing or coding, Fu Qinfeng should take a rest.

Fu Qinfeng was working on the exercise set with his head down, when he saw Qu Lebai coming in, he quickly came over with the exercise set and asked questions.While Qu Lebai was answering, she heard Rou Jiang softly said in the earphones: "Tuting the children homework? Could it be that you are already a mother?"

Qu Le smiled and spat, "Do I look so old?"

Rou Jiang said aggrievedly: "I haven't seen it before."

Fu Qinfeng originally kept his head down, but when he heard the words, he raised his head and said, "You're not old."

Qu Lebai shook her head lightly at her, tapped on the headset and said, "I'm chatting with someone else by voice."

Fu Qinfeng's expression suddenly became very subtle, and at the same time he took the exercise set back.

Qu Lebai hurriedly said: "What's wrong?"

Fu Qinfeng said: "Let me think about it myself."

Qu Lebai vaguely knew Fu Qinfeng's state of mind.She is already mature and has strong self-esteem. Her academic qualifications have always been a thorn in her heart.I feel ashamed when I know that I am talking to people, and I don't want to be known about the content of the exercise set.

Look, how similar it is to me a few years ago...

Qu Lebai sighed, hesitated between the two, and finally did not take off the earphones.

I still can't protect myself, I can only rely on Rou Jiang's voice to indulge temporarily, and forget some pain that goes deep into the bone marrow.How dare you rashly lend a helping hand to others?

It's not easy for everyone, and everyone has their own calamity.

Rou Jiang didn't know anything about the affairs here, and she was still teasing her: "Take a video with me, I want to see what you look like."

The excitement contained in her tone seemed to be too much, Qu Lebai couldn't help being curious, why did she want to see herself so much?Is it purely out of curiosity, or is there another reason?

Qu Lebai struggled, one sentence can analyze [-] motives, and list [-] consequences.

Qu Lebai is very clear about what Roujiang means to him at this stage.

I am escaping from reality, and Rou Jiang is a safe haven that can temporarily accept me.She is a reader and a fan, but she has her own domain and arrogance, so she doesn't get too far apart when getting along, and her eyes are too yearning - just like Fu Qinfeng.His own clumsiness in the game made up for this gap, making the relationship between the two in a delicate balance.

Rou Jiang's performance is not obvious, so Qu Lebai doesn't know how much the other party likes a stroke of love; and being taken to the game is not a big favor, and Rou Jiang will not know that all this means a lot to him , is salvation.

What's more, Roujiang has read two articles, but she didn't say anything before asking for comments, she has a deep personality.She can still see which article hides her heart...

Qu Lebai looked back at everything and realized that Rou Jiang was so special, so she was even more afraid to agree to the video.It is too easy to see the light and die, and fantasy is beautiful, especially the fantasy with a little regret.

Immediately denied: "No, I'm ugly."

Rou Jiang smiled lightly and said, "I don't believe it."

"Why don't you believe it?"

"It's born from the heart."

Qu Lebai was stunned for a moment before he realized the meaning of this sentence. For a moment, his heart felt like being thrown into a warm stone road and rolled around, suffering and joy.

So he said, "Then I dare not show up!"

Rou Jiang smiled again, and said, "Then I'm relieved. You say that because you have expectations for yourself. Having expectations means you have confidence, and having confidence means you have good looks. The future will be long, and I look forward to seeing you one day!"

Qu Lebai complained, "What kind of logic is this..."

Rou Jiang's tone calmed down, and she said, "It's like this. I used to be very ugly, and I was never afraid to show my face. After plastic surgery, I still feel a little apprehensive every time I meet people."

"You've had plastic surgery?!" Qu Lebai was a little surprised, and said, "It's totally unexpected!"

At the same time, what I didn't expect was that Rou Jiang didn't care about her own affairs at all.

"I'll show you my old photos, and you'll know how ugly I am!" Rou Jiang didn't answer the question, but changed the subject.Qu Lebai didn't know if he was rushing to talk, or if he deliberately changed the topic.

I received a photo on YY, it was Rou Jiang's photo when she first debuted, she was fat and dark, she was wearing a team uniform, and she didn't dare to look at the camera.Where is half of her glamorous and confident appearance today?

Rou Jiang grinned, and said, "To be honest, this is not the bottom of my appearance, and the rest hurt my eyes, so I dare not let it out."

Qu Lebai said: "The difference is quite big, which plastic surgery shop, I will see you after I get my hair done."

"It's not fixed," Rou Jiang repeated again: "It's not done. I just accepted my original appearance. My facial features are so good-looking, why do I have to cover them up? It's better to be exposed, and fewer people scold me Some."

"Who scolded you?" Qu Le said quickly, but only after she finished speaking did she realize that she had said the wrong thing.

Yes, it was that time.

"Before I retired, I was always scolded by people. You may not know it. Although there are people who are rhythmic and dirty in live broadcasts, they scolded harder before, and they couldn't mute it. It was annoying. Then Sometimes I can't wait to feed them shit, it's really annoying, very annoying."

"In the beginning, they said that I made my debut with my face, and I thought, I am so awesome, I want to slap them in the face—whether it is face or technology. The result is this photo, alas, what a black history, listen It is said that there are still people who use this to blackmail me and say that I have plastic surgery. Tsk, I am so good-looking, it is the same as if I have not had plastic surgery!"

Speaking of this, Rou Jiang's tone was a little smug, as if she was extremely confident in her appearance.Of course, she does have capital.

"I like to play games and I like to win. It's a pity that I can't live up to my expectations, and I can't win. Heizi summed up my winning percentage in official competitions, 39%. Isn't this percentage low?" Rou Jiang smiled softly and said: "At that time, when I was young, I always felt that I was too powerful, but every time I was beaten, I didn't want to be beaten."

"At that time, I liked competitions the most, and I was most afraid of competitions. If you win, you can get your name right, and if you lose, you will be GG. I look forward to the competition because I have confidence in my own strength at that time, and I think I can win, but I am afraid that if I lose. If that When you recognize your own ability, there will be no big troubles in the future."

From the tone of her voice, Qu Lebai could almost imagine Rou Jiang shaking her head with a sense of wistfulness, maybe there was regret in those dark eyes, and a slight mockery of herself.

Rou Jiang didn't say what "a big mess in the back" was, but Qu Lebai guessed it was retirement.Thinking of Roujiang's defeat, Qu Lebai felt distressed.

Everyone has their own kalpa.

It doesn't have to be the limit of ability, it's just something that I couldn't do at that time anyway.

"You have strength, but you didn't perform well at that time! Don't you also rank second in the national server now?! It's not wrong to be afraid of failure and have expectations for yourself!"

Rou Jiang said: "Yes, they are exactly the same. So if you don't look good, don't worry at all. Admit it, you must be good-looking."

Qu Lebai was at a loss for words, remained silent for a long time, and finally spit out: "...you are too cunning."

This analogy is not right. Rou Jiang's strength and Qu Lebai's appearance are combined. If you want to comfort Rou Jiang, you have to admit that you are good-looking; if you want to humble yourself, you have to belittle it. The strength of soft sauce.The harm between the two powers is the lesser, so Qu Lebai had no choice but to choose the third way, silence.

Rou Jiang refused to let her get what she wanted, and asked: "You just say, am I right?"

"Yes, yes, what you said is correct!" Qu Lebai fought it out.

"Then, send me a photo." Rou Jiang said with a smile, "Otherwise you're talking about me!"

Qu Lebai's heart tightened, she was waiting for me here.

But when the conversation came here, there was no way to refuse it, so I could only pick and choose in the photo album for a while, and finally found the one I was most satisfied with and sent it to me.

There are actually quite a few good-looking photos, but just posting them will become the first impression.Qu Lebai's idol burden is so heavy that she doesn't even dare to lower her appearance.

Even if the photo is photoshopped, it is not the real self at all.

"Lele is really beautiful!" Rou Jiang made a strange "chirp" sound, "It's very late, so I'll go to bed with the photo in my arms! See you tomorrow! Good night!"

As usual, Rou Jiang simply said "goodbye" and went down to YY without giving anyone any time to react.Facing the empty channel, Qu Lebai thought to himself: If you get the photos and quit, is it another form of dying at the sight of light?

After thinking about it, she finally came to a conclusion: Seeing Roujiang's performance tomorrow, she would know if she had been "dumped".

On the other hand, she couldn't help thinking about Rou Jiang.

For Rou Jiang, where does her pride stand?Technology, or looks?

I said something like "recognize the limit of my ability", but today it doesn't look like a complete compromise-if I really compromised, I wouldn't make this comparison.

Although she has been boasting about her good looks today, she did dislike her appearance and even "abandoned" it.

It's just a photo of me lying to myself, and I have to open the wound. Have you put the past in your eyes?Is that wound really a wound?

Perhaps from a certain point of view, Rou Jiang is very similar to herself.She also cares about the eyes of others, but in different ways.

The more Qu Lebai thought about it, the more confused he became, so he could only take off the earphones and put the phone on the bedside table to charge.

Turning over, he heard Fu Qinfeng speak.

"Sister, I want to write a novel."

Qu Lebai was taken aback for a while, and then replied, "I know a few editors, and I can introduce them to you."

Write a novel...

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