if this is also love

#Write to Miaoge's Letter# Miaoge: How are you?Suddenly I miss you very much and want to talk to you, just like when I was a child, pass a note and tell you all my thoughts.Recently, I often recall that when I was a child, we spent many happy days together, maybe that is already the most beautiful time in my life!Today, the wind is blowing and the weather is getting colder. I feel a little uncomfortable.I think the winter in Shenzhen is about to come...

#写唯歌的信# Miao Song: Did you know?Before I met you, I didn't know girls could be so handsome; after I met you, I almost forgot your gender, and even regarded you as... In short, you are different from me.I am sensitive and sentimental, but you are generous and free and easy. We are people from two worlds, but we have become best friends.But, Miao Ge, I adore you so much, rely on you so much, yet fear you so much...

#写唯歌的信# Miao Song: Did you know?Until now, at this moment, I still clearly remember that you put your hands on my shoulders, sighed and said, it is very sad for a beautiful girl to be unprotected.That sentence inexplicably hit the tears, and I shed tears in panic.Then, you said softly, let me protect you!Many, many years later, that is, now, I realize that it is the most beautiful love story I have ever heard, bar none!

#写唯歌的信# Miao Song: Did you know?If time can be turned back, I hope to go back to when I was 17 years old, and when I faced your bold confession, I said fearlessly like you, I like you!Yes, I like you, have always liked you.But, I can't go back, I can't go back to the past!Now, when I come home from get off work every day, I eat alone, watch TV alone, and sleep alone... Miao Ge, I'm so lonely!

#写向歌歌的信# Miaoge: Do you still remember the first time we met?I think I will never forget that day!You suddenly appeared like a heroine, driving away the bad classmates blocking my door for me, and I, ungrateful, hostile to you, a bad girl...I admit, I knew you before you knew me, Because you are too flamboyant, not only the first of the "Five Great Witches", but also the "Big Brother's Woman".

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: Everyone is afraid of you, and I am also afraid of you.So, at the beginning, I was prejudiced against you, and your "drawing swords to help" seemed to me to be malicious.You passed my gaze and said obediently to my grandma, grandma, don't be angry... Grandma doesn't know what you are, when she heard your voice, she immediately beckoned you to go over, then took your hand and kept saying, It turned out to be a girl, you have a sense of justice...

#写向奇歌的信# Miaoge: My grandma likes you very much. Even after we stopped seeing each other, she always mentioned you and praised you full of praise.I know you'd love her without me because she's the best grandma in the world!It's a pity that she left... That day, at the request of grandma, I walked with you for a while, and you suddenly said to me, in fact, I have been paying attention to you for a long time!Immediately, my hairs stood on end, and I said in a trembling voice, what do you want to do?

#写唯歌的信话# Miao Song: Good morning!Today is colder than yesterday, but the sun is shining brightly, the blue sky and white clouds make people feel very comfortable.This is probably why I fell in love with this city.Yesterday was Thanksgiving, my aunt called me and asked me to go to her house to celebrate the New Year this year.Let me think about it, how many years have you not celebrated the New Year with others?One year, three years, five years... yes, seven years, I have been alone, no relatives, no friends...

#写向奇歌的信# Miaoge: You are right, it is very sad for a beautiful girl to be unprotected, but I don’t want to just find a flower protector just because there is no one to protect her.In the past, I was able to protect myself, but now, I'm getting weaker and weaker. I feel sorry for myself at every turn, and let the big boss take advantage of me. I almost... Miao Ge, if only you were here, I know, you must The one that can protect me... Unfortunately, if you miss it, you miss it!

#写向奇歌的信# Miaoge: You said you’ve been paying attention to me for a long time, I was really scared at the time, being noticed by you is actually not a good thing.I've heard about your deeds, smoking, drinking, skipping classes, fighting, all the characteristics of a bad girl, you have it.I once saw from a distance that other witches surrounded a girl, pushing and bullying her, while you were smoking cigarettes as if nothing had happened... To be honest, you look pretty when you smoke, but I don't like it!

#写向歌歌的信# Miaoge: At this moment, I am sitting in a noodle restaurant, waiting for a bowl of steaming dumplings.I often don't know what to eat, and I often eat whatever I see.Especially these days, I have a poor appetite, and three meals a day have become a big problem.Miao Ge, do you know?When I was lonely and helpless, the first thing I thought of was you.Although these years, we have not been in touch, and I have never missed you, but you are always in my heart.

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: You said, actually, I’ve been paying attention to you for a long time.I asked, what do you want to do?You laugh, are you afraid of me?I answer, who is not afraid of you?You stopped suddenly, looked at me, and still smiled, you are the most beautiful girl in Cheshui Town, that's what the elder brother and the others said.I was terrified, lowered my head, and didn't speak.Suddenly, you put your hand on my shoulder and said with a sigh, it's sad that a beautiful girl is left unprotected.

#写向歌歌的信# Miaoge: When you said "Let me protect you", I suddenly stopped being afraid of you, because your eyes are very sincere, which makes me feel at ease.Also, there's a strange charm about you that boys like and girls like too.Of course, I only found out after I got to know you; the more I know you, the more I like you.You know, when I make friends with you, I just want to live safe and sound under your protection.

#写唯歌的信# Miao Song: Did you know?Actually, I am not a good girl either.I am well-behaved and docile on the surface, but I am selfish and indifferent in my heart; I always accept your kindness to me with peace of mind, but I never appreciate or return it.Besides, you like to give and enjoy giving, don't you?I am a special existence around you, I never flatter you or cater to you, so I am very surprised, so you are more willing to play with me!

#写向妙歌的信话# Miaoge: Think about those years, I have arrogance, but no backbone; I obviously don’t like your circle, but I try my best to blend in.I remember that on the second day after we dated, you introduced your buddies and sisters to me, and then put your arms around my shoulders and announced to them: from now on, Li You will be my good friend, whoever bullies me? She bullied me!I forced a smile on my face, but said lightly, please take care of me!

#写向歌歌的信# Miaoge: I’m sorry, I caught a cold last weekend and was groggy all the time. I’ll continue writing to you now that I’m better.To be honest, I don't like that "big brother". Although I didn't like you at the time, I really don't think he is good enough for you.When we were alone together, I actually said what was on my mind.Fortunately, you are not angry, you just shrugged your shoulders indifferently, he is not a bad person, he is just a bit ugly.

#写唯歌的信# Miaoge: We have known each other for 17 years, right?Time urges people to grow old, and they will be three years old without knowing it.Are you...alone now?Or... already married?I think, if I can live to old age, I will die alone!do you know?It's not that no one likes me or that I don't like them, it's that I'm terrified of ending a relationship before it even begins.And you?Are you as brave as ever?

#写向妙歌的信息# Miaoge: Tell me, why do people become more lonely as they get older?Why do you want to go back as you move forward?Of course, the "person" here is probably, maybe only me!Although I had a hard time as a child, I will still miss it. At least at that time, I still had my grandma by my side, and later you.Some people say that those who are unfortunate in childhood will become even more unfortunate when they grow up, because they can't forget the past...

#写向奇歌的信息# Miaoge: I suddenly remembered a sentence in #后会无期#, I have heard a lot of truths, but I still can’t live this life well.I think, maybe everyone's life is doomed!Because I came into this world alone, I am destined to leave alone... well, let's change the subject!The year we separated was 2005, right?At that time, we sang #六月的雨#, and neither of us looked back...

#写唯歌歌的信# Miaoge: Do you still remember the #胡歌# we chased together in those years?No, the only one we chased after was Li Xiaoyao!And after Xiaoyao, we never chased him together again... Today, I finally started to watch #岜风首# starring him. Seeing the familiar yet unfamiliar face in it, I couldn't help but burst into tears.That was our youth, but, from Xiaoyao to Lin Shu, we can't go back after all...

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: Last night, I dreamed of you, at our alma mater, Yunxia Primary School.The campus in September is filled with the scent of sweet-scented osmanthus. You quietly open the back door of Class [-], hand the small notes to the students in the back row, and let them pass them one by one to the third row of the third group, where I sit. .At that time, the whole class was reading the text aloud, when suddenly someone poked my back, I turned my face slightly to the right and saw your note.

#写向奇歌的信# Miaoge: There are two villains in my heart, one is a good girl and the other is a bad girl.The good girl said, it’s fine to play with you all the time, and you must not skip class with her.The bad girl said, as long as the academic performance can keep up, what is skipping class?They've been arguing and fighting and it bothers me a bit.So, every time I see your little note, I feel very uncomfortable, and I always feel that my life has been disturbed by you.

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: Once the gate of memory is opened, all the good, happy, bad, and painful things will come like a flood, and people will be caught off guard.I often laugh out loud just thinking about it, or cry just thinking about it.Fortunately, I am not so busy these days, otherwise I will be in big trouble... If I have time, I would like to write down our story and keep it as a souvenir.what do you think?

#写向妙歌的信#Miaoge: I’m watching #岜风首#, have you seen it?It would be great if you were by my side, we can talk about #胡歌#, talk about #那遥哥哥#, and talk about #林书哥哥#.It's a pity that #六月的雨# fell that year, but I left you in the wind and rain.Sorry, ten years late apology, would you accept it?I heard that #仙剑# is going to make a movie, and the original cast is still there, can we watch it together?

#写向歌歌的信# Miao Song: You know, I have a bad deck of cards; but what you don’t know is that my playing skills are even worse.One second, one minute, one hour, one day, one month, one year... Time goes faster and faster, and my days are getting less and less. What I fear is that on the day I leave, I will always be a loser, without Family, no career, no friends, no lover; I have nothing, no one thinks about it, and no one misses it.

#写向歌歌的信话# Miaoge: I am homesick and want to go back to the place where I was born and raised. It used to be the place I wanted to escape the most but also missed the most... My hometown is in Yunxia Village , there is a beautiful river there, my grandma told me that there is river water under the clouds, and life is worry-free.White clouds float in the blue sky, and fish jump on the clear river; carriages pass by the bridge, and cars stop here.Where are the happy days?It's in our Yunxia Village!

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: I don’t know when, everyone has become more and more tolerant and accepting of things like “homosexuality”.Of course, we all know that no matter which male god "Brother Xiaoyao" stands with, he only has a sense of CP, and his beloved will always be "Zhao Linger"!But, for this result, I like it very much; even if it is just CP, it is very beautiful, and you can also receive blessings, isn't it?

#写向妙歌的信息# Miaoge: I have a cold again, my throat hurts, and my nose is blocked.I think, if you were by my side, you would definitely scold me for not being able to take care of yourself when you are so old!In fact, it's not that I don't know how to take care of myself, but that I can't help myself.Today ushers in the heavy snow solar term, which means that the weather is colder and the possibility of snowfall is greater.Uh, speaking of snowfall... that's someone else's season of heavy snowfall, and the most we can do is get cold hands and feet.

#写向妙歌的信话# Miao Ge: I’m so uncomfortable. I’ve been coughing for a whole day today, and taking medicine doesn’t help. I feel like I’m going to die...Ge, you know?I often talk about the word "death", but in fact I am terribly afraid of death!I'm still young, I haven't enjoyed love well, I haven't had children, I haven't raised children, I haven't fulfilled my dream of traveling around the world... Song, please tell me, what should I do?

#写唯歌的信话# Miao Song: I’m sorry, but my cold seems to be getting worse.I also want to take good care of myself, but things backfire, what can I do!So, don't scold me, okay?I was so miserable that I had to go to the hospital, but, you know... the two people I fear the most now, one is a doctor and the other is a nurse, they are both in the hospital, when they appear at the same time, you can imagine , how broken my heart is!

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: Do you still remember the dream we made in the first year of junior high school?When the time comes, we will go to the prairie together, ride horses under the blue sky and white clouds, and sing to wine when night falls... At that time, we were lying on the Chase bunk in the dormitory, hiding in the quilt and whispering, when we talked about the excitement Still hugging each other tightly, full of infinite imagination and longing for the future.In the end, though, the savannah was just a dream.

#写唯奇歌的信# Miaoge: I accidentally played #17年岁年的雨届#, and then I remembered our 17-year-old.I heard that you studied in England that year, and you often shed tears; I heard that you walked across Cambridge in that year, and you were always silent.Our 17-year-old is destined to be a rainy season.That year, I walked the road we walked together, and when I saw the scenery we saw together, I couldn't help but think of you, and then my heart ached.

#写唯歌的信话# Miao Song: My mood is terrible!Others cough and drink plenty of water, and it will be better in a day or two; but I have not recovered until the fourth day after taking injections and medicines, and I still cough badly, as if I want to cough up my heart, liver, kidneys and lungs... At this moment, I feel Very fragile, I really want to find a shoulder to lean on, I really want to hide in a certain embrace, and sleep quietly for a while... Song, I don’t want to pretend to be strong anymore, I was originally a fragile person.

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: I’m sorry, I know, if I was so pessimistic and depressed in the past, I would definitely worry you.You have always been careless and don't know what sorrow is, but because of me, you have sighed and sighed; I have also felt sorry for this, but you said that I made your life more fulfilling and rich.I always ask myself, is it your luck or misfortune to know me?But I never doubt that it is my great luck to know you!

#写向奇歌的信# Miaoge: I suddenly thought of a question: If one day I die, who will remember me?And who will miss me?I think, my sense of existence is too weak, even if I leave one day, no one will know.Thinking of it this way, sadness comes from it.It turns out that I am such a superfluous person, whether I exist or not, it has no effect on anyone.Alas, long-term illness is easy to be sad, this cold is so long!

#写向妙歌的信格# Miaoge: When people are sick, don’t they become irritable and unreasonable?They didn't know where I was, and they called me kindly, but I ridiculed them... Song, I didn't tell you, but my grandma picked me up on the bridge.I remember that back then, you joked about me, saying that I picked it up from under the bridge, and then I made a big fuss at you...

#写向奇歌的信# Miaoge: It’s been a while since I wrote to you, are you worried about me, always talking about me?Well, how do I know, you ask?Ha, you know, my senses are always right!I'm sorry, I accidentally got sick and stayed in the hospital for a while...don't worry, I'm fine and out of the hospital.Song, I miss you so much!At this moment, I just want to ask you, can we go back to the past?

#写唯奇歌的信# Miaoge: Today is #冬至# Oh, have you eaten dumplings yet?I, I ate a lot, and I am very full.However, I was full, but tasteless, because I have no festive atmosphere alone; and because... I miss the dumplings made by my grandma.Do you still remember, in the past, you also liked to eat dumplings made by grandma, and devoured them voraciously, for fear that I would snatch them from you!You also coaxed grandma to say that when you earn a lot of money, you should be filial to her.

#写向妙歌的信# Miaoge: If I go back to the past, I will definitely cherish the fate, the fate that belongs to us!When you greet me enthusiastically, I will respond with the same enthusiasm; when you joke with me heartlessly, I will fight back mercilessly; Sometimes, I will honestly express my feelings... Whether it is love or friendship, at least we must treat each other kindly!

#写向歌歌的信# Miaoge: It is now December 2015, 12, after today is the new year.I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, recalling the gains and losses of this year, feeling uneasy in my heart. In 31, I did not meet a better self. On the contrary, I often felt confused and overwhelmed.I know that life cannot be smooth sailing, but I hope that in 2015, I will be happy and live the way I want! #Goodbye 2016, Hello 2015#