Eating chicken starts with one step

The fans pretended not to see the words "leave temporarily".To be honest, they really hoped that Qianli would take advantage of this time to rest for a while, otherwise Wu Jiu's painstaking efforts would be in vain.

"Sorry, everyone wait a moment." Wu Jiu said, took off the helmet by himself, and the character also left temporarily.

"Qianli." Wu Jiu walked up to Qianli, held his neck and carefully helped him remove the helmet, patted his shoulder, and called softly.

no respond.

"Qianli." Wu Jiu's voice was still so soft, obviously wanting to wake him up, but afraid of waking him up.

no respond.

Looking at Qianli's sleeping face with no other distractions, Wu Jiu was a little lost in thought.

He squatted down, leaned against Qianli's seat, and looked at him silently. The air conditioner in the room was running silently, and the cool air lingered around them peacefully. The night was sparse and the world was so silent.

Wu Jiu couldn't say that familiar name anymore, he really didn't want to disturb his short sweet dream.

Just look at it like this.he thinks.Give him another 3 minutes... no, even 1 minute is fine.

May time flow slower, and slower.

Just like so many late nights in that year, he was also like this, quietly looking at Qianli's sleeping face.

Exuding exhaustion, but there is a faint sense of tranquility and serenity like a baby.

This picture warms his soul and burns his heart, bathing in pain and satisfaction.

In fact, as early as the second half of the world stage of the first LDM professional league, Wugui's state began to show abnormalities.

Why he was hospitalized in the past, what diseases he had, what surgery he had, and what sequelae he would have, he never told Qianli in detail, and Qianli couldn't understand him, if he asked, he would just make a few random questions. Difficult technical terms can fool him, Qianli can only be stunned when he hears it, and Baidu can't figure out why.

He only told Qianli roughly that his body was fine, as long as he followed the doctor's advice, paid attention to his work, rest and diet, and kept exercising, he would be like a normal person in the future.

It’s not like he didn’t realize this when he planned to join the professional league. Even if he didn’t expect it, his parents wouldn’t miss it. During that Spring Festival, after the first generation members of my team met offline for the first time, it was the first time they went home without blame. One thing is to discuss this issue with his parents straight to the point, and specifically consult his attending doctor.The doctor's conclusion is that although the theory is feasible, he does not recommend to engage in such a profession that is extremely physically and mentally taxing without blame, and there are always risks.It is true that the blameless operation was a success, but his biggest hidden danger is not the disease itself, but a series of chain reactions caused by illness and surgery since he was a child, which has led to the continuous weakening of his physique and immunity.In the third year of high school, after the operation, Wu Jiu was like a porcelain doll, which seemed to be broken if touched with a little force, at least in the eyes of his parents.For a long time, they lived in fear every day. They couldn't figure it out anyway. How could their son, who was once healthy and superior to others in every aspect, suddenly be bruised all over his body?

This is why Wu Jiu was suddenly discouraged at that time. The doctor told his parents that it would be good for him to recover smoothly in the future, but he must be mentally prepared. If the recovery is not smooth, he can only take good care of him. Even, it has to be raised for a lifetime.

This is nothing to the parents, who are confident in providing such financial conditions, and this is their only child.But there is no blame, this sentence is equivalent to God stamping the three characters "defective product" on him with the seal in his hand.What career, what future, has nothing to do with him, right?Except for his parents, who would be willing to drag him as a burden?Who would want to take care of him for the rest of his life?

He is grateful for his parents' love, but this kind of love will only remind him over and over again that he is a loser who has been eliminated by nature.

Hearing what the doctor said, the parents also meant that they were firmly against it. They didn’t want to stop playing games without blame, but there was no need to play a job. Their family didn’t lack the money, let alone that kind of insignificant honor. It's good to be happy and happy, why do you take it seriously?

Not to blame is to take it seriously.He looked at his parents with a calm face but was extremely determined. He said that he had decided that he was going to participate in the professional league.

He's going to throw himself into his career.Impulsive, perhaps, but a deliberate impulse.

Parents were surprised.After Wu Jiu's health collapsed, his temper hardened instead. When he was a child, he did as his parents arranged for him, because he believed that his parents were successful models in all aspects of life, and their wisdom was worth following.But now, Wu Jiu has his own ideas. Instead of listening to his parents, he has to follow his own wishes.

From childhood to adolescence, although he has always believed that his future is bright, he does not know exactly what this future will look like.He doesn't know what it means to be successful and have a bright future.Anyway, he is the proud son of heaven, and he is destined to have smooth sailing.

And just when he thought he had lost all hope, he suddenly found something that he strongly wanted to do.

Success may not be successful, the future may not be bright, investment may not be rewarded, everything is unknown.

Everything has to be done before you can see the results.

Facing his incomprehensible parents, he said that the doctor judged that he might not be able to recover smoothly, but he recovered smoothly, which is his fate, whether he is destined to be knocked down or destined to get up, who knows which One is the original trajectory?He doesn't know, he just has to keep going.

Since it is theoretically possible to participate in professional leagues, who can say that he will fail?

He didn't want any safety, he didn't want any security. Before the operation, he lay in the hospital bed and recalled his short life, and found that it was so boring, so mediocre, so worthless, except for an instinctive desire to survive, Even I can't find any unique shining points.

Enough, enough, he only hopes that when he is about to face the possible end of his life next time, what will surge from his heart will be tears of burning passion and a smile of satisfaction without regret, instead of emptiness and regret. remorse.

let me do it.

Wu Jiu knew that this journey would be very difficult, however, the degree of difficulty still exceeded his expectations time and time again.

In the second half of the points match, the unexpected conflict between him and Qianli affected not only themselves, but also the entire team.

He has tried his best to control himself, he eats and sleeps on time and exercises on time, but his mood does not get better just by saying he is good.

Fortunately, the matter was finally resolved, and our team got back on track in time. With the last Jedi counterattack, it successfully broke through the tight siege of the points competition, ranked eighth, and narrowly squeezed into the playoffs at the tail end.

Since the playoffs are the rules of the bubbling match, under this competition system, the higher the ranking in the points match, the safer the team is, which protects the high-level teams with stable performance to the greatest extent. Duan can't lose even a game, and if he loses once, he has to pack up and leave.

The pressure they are under is unprecedented. This is the result of improper handling of emergencies before. When the top teams are leisurely adjusting their state and taking a break, my team can't relax for a moment. Others just need to study Two or three or even one or two opponents, but they have to study five or six opponents, and the interval between games is so dense, they can't afford to waste even one minute, the schedule is tight, and the mentality is even more tense.

Vaguely, Wu Jiu felt powerless day by day, but under the fast-paced operation of the team, he couldn't say a word, he couldn't say a word, their morale could no longer withstand any blows, and they couldn't tolerate any mistakes and accidents.With his strong perseverance and tenacity, Wu Jiu stubbornly persisted in one game after another, until my team entered the top three, went abroad and stepped onto the world stage.

Later, even if they didn't stop at the semi-finals, Wu Jiu probably wouldn't make it to the finals.On the night of the last match, Wugui fell ill.

They returned to China as quickly as possible and were admitted to the hospital for no reason. After a while, my team had to announce that they would take a year off for no reason.

One year is the best expectation, and the doctor has not given absolute guarantees as always—if the situation is not optimistic, you need to rest for a longer period of time.

However, one year is the maximum time limit you can give yourself.

At this moment, Wu Jiu and Qian Li had a second dispute.

It was also the most serious dispute since they had known each other for so many years.

Qianli had to face a dilemma - Wugui on one side, and the professional league on the other.

Qianli didn't struggle with it for too long, and his decision even seemed a bit like a quick cut.He wants to announce a break at the same time as Wu Jiu, to accompany him to recuperate from his illness.

No blame refused.

very firm.

That day, in the cold ward, Wu Jiu was sitting on the bed, and Qian Li was standing in front of him, the two insisted on their opinions, neither of them would back down a step.

Can't back down.

"You're also off, what about the team? What about the game?" Wu Jiu asked sonorously.

Qianli looked at him, speechless.

"What about your career?" Wugui said.

A year off?Do not make jokes.The career of an e-sports player can be said to be fleeting, and the golden peak period is the key. If you can't get the highest honor at this stage, you may not have to think about it in your life.Qianli is now between the ages of 21 and [-]. If you have to talk about the peak period, he is the last train of the peak period. What is the difference between him taking a break at this time and ruining his career?

Silence, suffocating silence.

The question of innocence can't be answered by thousands of miles, not even one of them.

How to do?

He didn't know what to do either.

he does not know.

This is the team they created alone, and they don't have the freedom to leave at will.How is leaving at this time different from abandoning?

He wants to win the championship, really wants to, maybe more than anyone else, how many nights, even his dreams are the scene of the game, e-sports has been deeply embedded in his life and has become a part of his soul.

However, this person in front of him is another part of his soul.

"If you were me," Qianli said softly, "what would you do?"

Wugui paused.

His question can't be answered by thousands of miles, so can he answer the question of thousands of miles?

For a moment, Wu Jiu smiled, the bitterness in the smile flashed past, "If you were me, what would you do?"

Qianli's clear eyes stared at him without saying a word.

Yeah, what would you do if you were me?

Who can tell me a perfect answer?

If I were you, I would be by your side no matter what, because I know how the anxiety and loneliness will erode your heart day after day, I understand the suffering and torture, fear and worry... the deep The powerlessness and despair in the depths of darkness, I can understand how much you need support and companionship.

I really, really don't want to be alone.

If I were you, I would definitely encourage you to chase your dreams, because I know it is the light in your life, the meaning of all your struggles and unyielding, the energy that burns the fire in your heart, and what makes you who you are root cause.I know how important it is for you to understand the weight of this dream.

I can't give up unless my life burns out.

But I am not you.

Qianli's dilemma is also a dilemma of no blame. He forced Qianli to make a choice like that, and even he himself felt cruel.But he had to be cruel.

No matter how Qianli chooses, he will definitely disappoint a certain party.When he chooses to play, he wants to live up to Wuzu, and if he chooses to be innocent, he wants to let down the team, the fans, and even more himself.That kind of burden is heavy...can he bear it?

Wugui regretted his impulsiveness at the beginning.If he could foresee today's situation, let go of that ridiculous attachment, and didn't take the last step... Maybe, today's Qianli would not be so painful.

That dispute ended with the silence of both sides. They were stubborn and stubborn without blame. Neither of them could come up with a strong enough argument to convince the other.

They both think very thoroughly about each other, and they both know that they will not waver, and neither will the other party.

Seems like a dead end.

Facts once again proved that there are always more ways than difficulties. A few days later, Qianli proposed a plan.

Move the team's base near Wugui Hospital.

There are endless races, but he can't let Wu Jiu stay alone this year.

This is the best plan to get the best of both worlds, and even Wu Jiu has no confidence to refuse.

The actual implementation will inevitably involve many troubles, such as the relocation of the entire team base, the hospital where Wu Jiu is located belongs to the best hospital in S City in terms of related subjects, it has a long history, it is basically located in the city center, surrounded by old houses Regardless of the area, the house price is still very expensive.I am a team with game equipment, and has high requirements for the network. It is not something that can be accommodated by just a house. It is impossible to escape by spending several times more than before. Lilac Kiss and the others learned about this situation, back and forth There is no shortage of help, but outsiders are outsiders after all, and in the end they have to rely on themselves.

Then there is the time allocation for Qianli. The other members of the team agreed to visit Wujiu every week. Qianli also said the same, but others once a week, he... seven times a week.

Training during the day and going to the hospital at night, this was the daily life of Qianli during that year.

No fault is gone, the workload of the team has increased greatly, new players have to be recruited, and new players have to be adjusted. Many tactics used before can no longer be used. On the premise of Wu Jiu recuperating from his illness, give him appropriate tutoring, so that Wu Jiu will not look confused when he returns to the battlefield after a year.All aspects must be considered.

Whenever he goes to the hospital, Qianli will bring a laptop. In the hospital, he is not allowed to play games or even make loud noises. Qianli can only use the laptop to study materials and tactics, and sometimes he has to write and draw with a pen and paper.When Wu Jiu was awake, he would discuss and discuss with Wu Jiu. Many things were clear to the authorities, even if Wu Jiu didn't play, he still had a clear mind, which could enlighten thousands of miles.When Wu Jiu fell asleep, Qian Li put on his earphones and studied silently by himself.

The first few days were fine, Qianli strictly controlled her schedule, and everything was in order.

After entering the competition period, this schedule becomes more and more difficult.Recalling, throughout the season, Qianli could almost fall asleep on the way to and from the hospital every day.

But no matter what Wu Jiu said, Qianli was unmoved. Not being able to go to the hospital on the game day was his bottom line. In normal times, he arrived at Wu Jiu's ward on time at dinner time regardless of the weather.

What's more, sometimes even on match days, he would sneak over after the match... just to have a word or two with Wu Jiu, or to take a sneak look at him.

I can't remember how many times, when Wu Jiu woke up in the middle of the night, under the cold light, a person was pillowed beside his bed, breathing softly and evenly.

The laptop on the side had entered sleep mode due to long-term inactivity, and the earphones were still plugged into Qianli's ears. He just lay there and fell into a deep sleep.

The night was so quiet and still, something stuck in Wu Jiu's throat, and he couldn't make any sound.

He remembered a very popular lyrics.

The night I miss you, I wish you were by my side.

How much I wish you weren't by my side.

One night, when Wu Jiu woke up again, Qian Li was still lying beside his bed like that.

However, this time, there was a strange feeling in Wu Jiu's hand.

Wu Jiu stood up slowly, only to realize that Qianli was holding his hand tightly.

Involuntary movements, but very hard.

Is there something going on in the dream?

Wu Jiu looked at Qianli for a long, long time.

He didn't want to drive away thousands of miles, he couldn't bear to drive away thousands of miles.

The world of thousands of miles has collapsed once, and he watched the first man he loved most in his life leave in front of him. His unrivaled hero didn't say a word to him, and silently closed his eyes... Forever closed his eyes.

Qianli didn't say it, and Wu Jiu didn't ask, but Wu Jiu thought that Qianli subconsciously believed that he was responsible for his father's death...it was his own fault.

This time, will he also blame himself uncontrollably deep in his heart?

One thing is for sure, he couldn't bear the pain a second time.

Don't leave me again.

He was afraid, he was very afraid, afraid that one day after he stepped out of this ward, he would never see that person again.

He used to be so strong, so calmly accepting that he will go through the future alone, all the suffering and loneliness are not as unbearable as imagined, his life is full of motivation, so why not fight alone?

But who knows, his strength was captured, he fell into the trap of gentleness, he gradually indulged in the warmth and comfort, he was used to opening his eyes every day, knowing that today that person would walk side by side with him in the rivers and lakes, And tomorrow too, and the day after tomorrow, and every day in the future.

This game, without you, I feel dull.

You said, what should I do?

It was the first time for Qianli to accompany someone to the hospital. He deeply felt that he really knew nothing about many things. Many things were arranged by Lilac Kiss and Shura. He didn't even know how to register. how to operate.

He knows, he doesn't take care of people like Wujiu, doesn't know how to get along with people like Wujiu, doesn't know what to do when the other person is sick, doesn't like Wujiu can always pay attention to many details , All he can do is simply and persistently accompany Wu Jiu, look at Wu Jiu, hold Wu Jiu's hand, and let Wu Jiu know that he is always there.

you come back soon, okay?

Definitely come back.

It's okay, I'm back.

If you are tired, take a break.

Wu Jiu gripped the wrist for thousands of miles, it was not much different from the first time I saw him, white, thin, slender, with well-defined joints.I don't know if it's an illusion, no matter what his hands do, even if it's just holding a cup, they are so clean and neat, without any redundant movements.

It seems that I lost weight again.Wu Jiu weighed his wrist carefully, yes, he lost weight again.No matter how subtle the change is, Wu Jiu can feel it.

After living in the team base, Qianli's food is undoubtedly better than before. The strange thing is that no matter how much he has been fed these years, he has not gained weight.

He also said that he is easy to raise, he is easy to raise, and he doesn't admit it after eating, which is really worrying.

"Get up." Wugui called out.

"Hmm..." After a long while, Qianli answered vaguely in a low voice, opened his eyelids with difficulty, stared blankly at Wujiu for a while, then suddenly thought of something, propped himself up on the chair and sat up, left and right After taking a look, seeing the pitch-black sky outside the window, he said in amazement, "What time is it?"