Steward of Rebirth

Gu Qianyan went to live in a hotel, which was near the hospital where Yun Xiaole was, and it was convenient for him to visit and take care of Yun Xiaole.

Although Gu Qianyan has been sleeping in the fire scene, he is fine and only slightly scratched, while Yun Xiaole was seriously injured in order to save him. Gu Qianyan went to Yun Xiaole's house and told Aunt Yun Xiaole School organized a trip, and she would only come back after going out for a few days, Yunmeng didn't suspect anything, because Gu Qianyan was trustworthy, so she thought that Yun Xiaole really went on a trip.Gu Qianyan would visit Aunt Yun every day and buy her a lot of delicious food. Even if Yun Xiaole couldn't take care of Aunt Yun, he would still take care of Aunt Yun.

The one-week deadline agreed between Gu Qianyan and Anthony came to an end. On this day, Gu Qianyan received a call from Anthony. This was the first time that Anthony called him in a week.

When Anthony appeared in front of Gu Qianyan, Gu Qianyan could barely recognize Anthony. Anthony was very haggard, with black and blue stubble on his handsome face, and heavy bags under his eyes. I can't find any shadows belonging to youth idols.

Gu Qianyan couldn't help wondering what happened to Anthony.

Gu Qianyan brought Anthony into his room in the hotel. Anthony sat down on the sofa, his body seemed heavy and tired, and he held a simple luggage bag in his hand.

"Have you gone on a trip?" Gu Qianyan asked.

Anthony nodded, "I went to Fengcao Village."

Fengcao Village is the place where Gu Qianyan was born, and it was in this village that he met Anthony.

"Xiaoyan, maybe I don't know you well enough." Anthony's tone was heavy with emotion, as if in pain and regret.

Gu Qianyan didn't speak, but just looked at Anthony calmly, waiting for Anthony to finish speaking.He felt that Anthony seemed to be different. Did he just go to Fengcao Village during this week?Why did I go to Fengcao Village, so many people are haggard?

"I have never considered your feelings. I never knew how much pain you have endured because of me." Anthony held his head, his face was a little painful, "If I didn't go to Fengcao Village this time, I would never know that you were 15 years old. I committed suicide because of me when I was young, and I don’t know that you have lived in such great pain..."

Gu Qianyan frowned.

It turned out that there was a suicide before the age of 17 because of Anthony?

"Why did I commit suicide?" The person who had Gu Qianyan's appearance didn't know anything about Gu Qianyan's past, so he could only ask "why".

"Xiaoyan..." Anthony suddenly raised his head, his brown eyes filled with guilt, "I really hope you will never remember my bad things, but only my good things."

"Anthony..." Gu Qianyan's brows twitched even more, and the tone of his words became a little more serious, with a hint of growling.

Anthony smiled bitterly, "It's ironic. You used to do everything possible to keep me, but now? I do everything possible to establish the best image in your heart. If possible, I really don't want to tell you these things, but I don't want to You live forever in confusion."

"I don't want to, you always look confused when you look at these wounds." Anthony took Gu Qianyan's hand, held it without malice, turned it over, the scar on the wrist was very deep, "Yes, this It's because of me that I stayed."

Anthony frankly admitted everything, and then revealed all Gu Qianyan's unanswered doubts.

"I lied. In fact, when I graduated from high school, I didn't meet you on the first day of going to Fengcao Village. It was on the second day. The village head didn't ask you to come to welcome us. You are not an ordinary child in their eyes, you are squeezed out in your own small room." Anthony looked forward, as if recalling that time, his eyes were a bit complicated, as if pregnant Myanmar, regret again.

"Fengcao Village is so boring. Several of our classmates wanted to escape, but there was nowhere to go in the backcountry, so we just wandered around. At this time, I saw you coming out to fetch water." Anthony's eyes were a little longing, as if I recalled the scene at that time, "You are not tall, you are very thin, you have delicate features, and you look very quiet. You step on the stone with bare feet, and your shadow is reflected on the river. When you see it, you will hide, as if you hate yourself. , However, at that time, you were beautiful under the sun, and I was also in my teens, and I was already tempted when I saw you."

Listening to Anthony's words, Gu Qianyan had already outlined a thin and thin boy in his mind, he was beautiful and slender.

However, in the eyes of everyone in the village, he is a different kind. Even though he is beautiful and good-looking, he is isolated from his life by the ignorant villagers because of the difference in hair color and eye color.

No one pays attention to him, and no child is willing to talk to him. His parents died young, and he can only support himself because he is still young and cannot do any heavy work. It is already very difficult for him to fetch water He had to avoid the villagers, fearing that other children would come to obstruct him if they saw him, and it was even more difficult for him to go out to fetch water and face these people who didn't want to see him.

"Did I see you?" Gu Qianyan asked suddenly.

Anthony smiled, "I saw it, and then you ran away."

"I'm afraid of people." Gu Qianyan said lightly, and sighed calmly.

Gu Qianyan's previous life was too hard, he faced all the difficulties alone, lonely and helpless, if there was someone there at that time, even if it was just to talk to him and help him a little, maybe he would not be so restless childhood.

"I'm sorry." Anthony said suddenly, and Gu Qianyan couldn't help but glance at him, feeling uncomfortable for Anthony's sudden "I'm sorry".

Anthony seemed to have made up his mind to tell the story: "I also went to Fengcao Village to find out that you committed suicide because of this incident. The villagers didn't know why you committed suicide. They only thought that maybe you wanted to kill yourself. I went with my parents, but I know it's all because of me."

"At the time I saw you, I was always thinking about you. There was such a timid and beautiful boy in this poor country. That night, I sneaked into your house and raped you." Anthony looked at Gu Qianyan and lowered his head deeply, " sorry."

"So, then I committed suicide for the first time?" Gu Qianyan was ridiculously calm.

Anthony nodded, "After that time, you fell into a state of uneasiness. Someone heard you crying at home at night and stopped going out during the day. Some people worried that you would starve to death at home, so they would send you something to eat and drink every once in a while. Three months later, suddenly there was no movement in the house, and someone broke in and found you fainted on a hunger strike."

"What about after that?" Gu Qianyan asked.

"When you were 17 years old, I went to Fengcao Village, found you, and took you away quietly. You didn't seem to recognize me, because I was very kind to you at that time, so you followed me willingly and left Fengcao Village. Here comes the big reading."

"So, when I was 17 years old, it was because of you that I left the countryside?" Gu Qianyan does have her own unique charm, which can make a person whom she only met once, long after she leaves, still miss her, even disregarding her. I once made a mistake to him, came back to him, and took him away.

Anthony nodded and continued: "After that, we started living together. In fact, before that, I missed you every day. The picture of the first meeting was lingering in my mind. I found that I was so infatuated with you. , After picking you up, I found that you are different from my ideal Gu Qianyan. Although you are beautiful, you are easy to conquer. Basically, you do what I say, and you will not refuse. Gradually, this relationship deteriorates gone."

"You began to feel that I was in the way, and those things that were taken for granted became inappropriate to you, and you began to reject me, or torment me, because looking at me made you upset, and you couldn't find the perfection in your heart. I can only vent my anger on me, who is not perfect." Gu Qianyan answered, her blue eyes fixed on Anthony, a heartbroken man, and her tone was casual, but in the eyes of Anthony, who felt guilty, it was indifferent. , "You have trained my body to be very sensitive, just like a pet, so I will react just by touching you, so when you suddenly see me, your eyes are contemptuous, playful and cold. "

"In the end, did you kick me away?" Gu Qianyan asked indifferently, her eyes were cold.

"No, you left by yourself, because there are more and more people around me, and your status is getting less and less, and I'm not going to that house anymore."

"I don't live at your house?"

"I bought you a house outside, you occasionally come to my house, you also raised a puppy named 'Snowflake', shortly after you left, it gave birth to a baby and died, Xiao Tianlan took his son Go back and raise it, it will be 'Little Snowflake'."

"Okay, everything is clear, thank you for your confession." Gu Qianyan stood up, looked at Anthony with a flat look, and said coldly.

"Xiaoyan, can we...can we go back to the past? Or, just be friends." Anthony also stood up anxiously.

"Some things are in the past, and they will never return to the past. Some people, in the past, are also in the past, and they will never come back." Can the real Gu Qianyan come back?Can't come back, he has gone to the farthest place.

Gu Qianyan finally understood why the real Gu Qianyan was so determined to become MB, and asked Dong Yun to borrow money again and again, but also paid with flesh.Because the reality is too cruel, he only loves Anthony all his life, but Anthony always gives him despair, he knows how to please men, it was taught by Anthony, and he embraces these tricks on the bed every day, just for Satisfy yourself?No, he regarded every man as Anthony, the Anthony he could never have.

Gu Qianyan undoubtedly lived a miserable life. On the surface, he seemed to have no worries, and lived a chic life. In front of Yun Xiaole, his best and only friend, he would only show the most optimistic side. But, who would have thought that, His heart is gloomy, his mind dark.

He thinks of torturing himself every day, thinking of ending his yearning for Anthony every day. Every time he misses it too painfully, he will try to commit suicide again. There is no way to vent...

Gu Qianyan took out a box of things that belonged to Gu Qianyan from the room, all of which were related to Anthony. Gu Qianyan kept them as treasures, and even if he died, he would destroy them with him. , All are related to Anthony.

It's time to end, all Gu Qianyan's love and hate, worry and sorrow, resentment and joy, should be over.

"Anthony, before I lost my memory, I loved you to the point of not caring about my life. In order not to miss you, in order not to see you being ambiguous with other people and being powerless, I thought about and tried to end my life more than once. And in the end Once, I succeeded, because I lost my memory and was in a coma when I was sent to the hospital. When I woke up, I didn’t remember who you are, Anthony, and you disappeared from my world.” Gu Qianyan stuffed the box into the Anthony's hand, "This is all about you. I will return it to you now. We are not in arrears or in arrears. I accept your apology, and it will have nothing to do with each other in the future."

Gu Qianyan should dream like this, to cut Anthony out of her life forever, and from now on, she can never think or think or feel pain.