Where is Chunsheng

On the day Chen Qian gave birth, Jiao Qingshan was about to enter the hospital for the fourth chemotherapy.Yang Liu couldn't take care of Chen Qian, so Chen Qian had to ask her mother to come from Yancheng to take care of the mother and baby.Jiao Qingshan went to see the newborn baby girl, Jiao Jiao swore: "The little girl was born in spring, so beautiful, let's call her Jiao Chunshui."

Spring water?Jiao Xi's life has been difficult recently, and his dreams are no longer there. This name reminds him of He Chunsheng who frequently dreams.On the night when his daughter was born, he saw He Chunsheng standing quietly by the old door, his eyes were clean and clear, full of sadness.

When I woke up in the hospital nursing bed, the pillowcase was soaked.

Chen Qian was too tired and fell asleep very deeply. The newborn baby was also very stable. After taking a sip of milk, she continued to fall asleep without making any noise.Jiao swore got up, looked at his wife and children, looked at the night sky outside the window, there were no stars, no moon, only endless dark clouds.

The 14-year-old Jiao Yan is about to face what the [-]-year-old He Chunsheng has already faced.What kind of mood He Chunsheng embraced Jiao Yao back then, Jiao Yao finally understood.In desperation, what He Chunsheng could only catch was a sliver of warmth, which was brutally cut off by Jiao Yan.

How is He Chunsheng?

He thought he would feel better after waking up, but just thinking about those eyes made him feel as if he had put his heart into a bed of needles and was pierced with blood holes one after another.Jiao Yan examines his feelings, and gradually has some clues.

He thought that love must bring laughter and sweetness. With such a cognition, isn't he as ignorant as Chen Qian?Uneasiness, anxiety, fear, sadness, in the original real emotions, these are not missing.

Three days after Jiao Chunshui was born, Jiao Qingshan suddenly said that she was very uncomfortable during chemotherapy, and her face suddenly became very pale. Yang Liu hurriedly called Jiao Yan, who rushed from the maternity ward to the oncology ward. Rescue is in progress.

Jiao Qingshan's body was covered with fine sweat, his face was extremely ugly, and his expression was very indifferent. When Jiao Yan called him, although he was awake, he didn't respond.

"Shock." The doctor said after measuring the blood pressure.

But the cause of the shock was not found immediately. While waiting for the routine blood test, Jiao Qingshan suffered a cardiac arrest. The doctor took Jiao Yan and Yang Liu out of the ward and performed heart compressions on the spot. Yang Liu kept shaking outside the ward. Unable to speak, Jiao swore took her mother's hand, her eyes were out of focus.

The heart compressions and electric shocks that lasted for half an hour did not make Jiao Qingshan's heart beat again. Yang Liu pulled the doctor who came out to pronounce the death sentence by the hem of his clothes and said tremblingly, "Please, please, doctor, please help me." Save him, please."

"We're trying our best, but we don't have much hope." The doctor said, "It's been half an hour, and theoretically it can't be saved."

The theory is refined after many times of practice. God has no mercy, and miracles have not happened.When human beings are about to die, there is simply no power that can contend with fate.All their efforts should be so ridiculous in the eyes of God.After the doctor worked hard for an hour to press the heart, the electrocardiogram machine pulled out a straight line, and the heart lost its electrical activity. Medically, Jiao Qingshan was declared dead.Without a word of farewell, he just left.

Yang Liu fainted outside the ward.The doctor asked Jiao Yan to carry her to the hospital bed, and the nurse measured her blood pressure and blood sugar, and performed an electrocardiogram, reporting to the doctor: "Blood pressure is normal, blood sugar 18."

Jiao swears that the six gods have no master.Yang Liu woke up gradually under the doctor's call, tears poured out, Jiao Yao grabbed her hand, her hand was cold, without a trace of strength.The doctor said to Jiao Yao: "Take care of her, she is agitated. Did your mother have diabetes?"

Jiao Yan shook his head: "No, she didn't mention it, she has a physical examination every year."

"The blood sugar is very high. She may have diabetes. It is recommended to check it in detail."

The doctor and Jiao Yan explained his father's situation and told him that the blood test results just came out showed that his father's hemoglobin was very low, only 3g. Since the hemoglobin was basically normal on the first day of admission, they initially suspected a sudden gastrointestinal bleeding , Due to the excessive amount of bleeding, he went into shock in an instant, causing circulatory failure.

Jiao Xi listened to the doctor's explanation, but what meaning did this explanation mean to him?Jiao Yan saw that all the people around Jiao Qingshan disappeared at once, as if what they were repairing just now was just a machine, not a human being.After changing wards several times, this time, outside the window of the room I stayed in, I could see the icy sunset again. It shone into the hospital bed, but the person lying on the hospital bed was no longer his father, what was lying there was just a shell.

Jiao Yan saw some blood on the corner of Jiao Qingshan's mouth, he wiped it with his sleeve, but it couldn't be wiped off.

The blood has coagulated.Father's eyes were closed, as if he was asleep.

Yang Liu, who was lying on the bed next door, began to cry. She didn't have the courage to get out of bed, so she came here to have a look.

After Jiao Qingshan's funeral was over at the funeral home, the colleagues and leaders who came to see him off for the last time comforted Yang Liu and Jiao Shi, telling them to look away. Yang Liu stopped crying and politely sent Jiao Qingshan's colleagues away.

Chen Qian did not participate in Jiao Qingshan's funeral.Chen Qian followed her mother back to Yancheng for confinement, where she said she planned to take maternity leave.Jiao vowed to send them back to Yancheng, hurried back to Xiacheng, and took a few days off to take care of Yangliu at home.Yang Liu looks the same as before, but the time of sitting in a daze has become longer.

Jiao vowed to take her to the hospital for an examination, and she was diagnosed with diabetes. According to the doctor's consultation, Yang Liu had checked her fasting blood sugar during physical examinations for more than ten years, and a doctor told her "a little higher" ten years ago, suggesting that she go further. , but she didn't have any symptoms, and the word "a little bit" didn't take her seriously.After a long time, she also thought that there was no major problem.In the past two or three years, her symptoms of polyuria and polydipsia have actually appeared, but she did not associate it with blood sugar, and the weight loss began after Jiao Qingshan fell ill. She thought it was caused by being too tired and in a bad mood.

She answered whatever the doctor asked, and she seemed very cooperative.The doctor suggested that it would be best for her to be hospitalized for a period of intensive insulin treatment in this situation, but she refused, saying that she didn't want to take insulin and just wanted to take medicine.

Jiao vowed to persuade her, but she didn't listen.She said she didn't want to stay in the inpatient department anymore, and the house was busy, and she didn't want to add to the chaos.

What's the fuss at home?Jiao Xi couldn't figure it out, nothing happened at home, every day when they came home, the mother and son turned on the TV, had a meal, watched news and documentaries that they didn't understand for a while, and then went back to their rooms to sleep.

At the most difficult time for Chen Qian after giving birth, Jiao Yao couldn't help her.At the most painful moment of Yang Liu's life, although Jiao Xi was with her, she couldn't comfort her at all.On weekends, Jiao vowed to drive to Yancheng to see Chen Qian.After giving birth, Chen Qian seemed to be a different person. She was no longer self-willed, and she no longer brought up those topics. She seemed to love Jiao Chunshui very much.The way Jiao vowed to hold the baby was wrong, she had to correct it, and the way to change the diaper was wrong, she had to correct it too.

That's it.Jiao oath thought to himself.

Every time he returned to Yancheng, he would think, maybe he could meet He Chunsheng when walking on the road, how is He Chunsheng doing now?But he had never met He Chunsheng on the road, but met a few old classmates—and even met Chen Chen, a good friend from back then.

About half a year later, Chen Qian's maternity leave should have ended, but Jiao Jiao swore that she wanted to continue to take leave, and she didn't want to go back to Xiamen City. She felt that Yang Liu's mental state was not good, and she might not be able to take care of Jiao Chunshui.

Chen Qian's mother could not follow them to Xiacheng either. Although she had retired, Chen Qian's father hadn't. The family needed someone to take care of her, so she couldn't leave.

Jiao Yan and Yang Liu are still living in the rented house. After Jiao Qingshan's medical treatment, the remaining 80 million yuan is left. Xiamen's housing prices are very high, and they have no way to buy a suitable house in a suitable place.What Chen Qian said is true: he has no money, he is poor, he chose a major he likes, but it does not bring any economic value, his life is leisurely, but it is only enough for food and clothing, if it is not for his parents to have a house, he will marry Sometimes I couldn't even afford a house.

But he has no skills, so he can only keep his job. He is less eager for money than most people, but needs money like most people.

When Chen Qian was in Jiao Chunshui for more than 8 months, she resigned from the school.She wanted to bring Jiao Chunshui to her mother and start her own business in Yancheng.Jiao Yao didn't object, but just wanted Chen Qian to tell her about her plan.Chen Qian said that she actually doesn't like teaching at all. Although she is not busy, she earns too little money. Now that Jiao Qingshan has left, the family only relies on Jiao Yan to earn money. Their life is likely to be in trouble. She has always She really wants to start a clothing business, the cost will not be too high, and she is confident that she can do it well.But she doesn't want to do business in Xiacheng, because the rent of shops in Xiacheng is high, the cost is high, and the nouveau riche in Yancheng are richer and bolder than the people in Xiacheng.She needed a start-up money and she didn't have enough of her own.

Jiao vowed that he didn't want to live in two places, the key was that he didn't want to live in two places with his daughter. After thinking about it carefully, he told Yang Liu about their plans, and said that he wanted to go back to Yancheng to buy a house—the house price was relatively low, and they could use the remaining money to buy a house. buy.

"Okay." Maybe Xiacheng is a sad place after all, Yang Liu didn't raise any objection to their decision.

The transfer procedures for Jiao Shi were completed when Jiao Chunshui was one year and three months old. Yang Liu gave Chen Qian 20 yuan as a start-up fund, and used the remaining money to buy a second-hand dormitory for school staff.

Life settles down.After Yang Liu and Jiao Xi returned to Yancheng, Jiao Chunshui returned to Jiao Xi's house, usually with Yang Liu, and Jiao Chun took with him on weekends and holidays.Chen Qian has become very busy. She goes home very late every day and does not rest on holidays. She only has three days off during the Chinese New Year.Her store opened on a pedestrian street, and she couldn't afford to hire staff in the early days, so she purchased goods and looked after the store by herself. When she went to buy goods, she occasionally asked her cousin to help look after the store, but she never asked Jiao Shi to help.But Jiao Xi felt that his mother Yang Liu was not in good health, so whenever she had free time, she would take care of Jiao Chunshui, and the couple could not talk for a maximum of ten days and a half months.

And since Chen Qian gave birth to a child, they have never had sex again—at the beginning, they were separated in two places, and Chen Qian didn't take the initiative to propose it. Later, she was busy and had no time to have sex with Jiao Yan, and because of her parents' affairs, Jiao Yan didn't. that mood.The only time, when Chunshui was one and a half years old, Chen Qian came back in the middle of the night with that intention, awakening Jiao Yan from her sleep.

Jiao Yan heard Chen Qian click his tongue, and lay back on his side.He wanted to explain, but felt that there was nothing to explain.How should he explain it?He himself is doubting himself, he even feels that he doesn't need sex anymore, like an old man.