Where is Chunsheng

On the last day when He Chunsheng set up a stall in the night market, the girl who had pursued He Chunsheng found his stall.She is a student majoring in preschool teachers, she was an intern in a kindergarten in her last year, and she happened to be in the kindergarten where He Chunsheng worked as a security guard.

In fact, the teachers in the kindergarten did not pay much attention to He Chunsheng. The status of security guards is not very high anywhere. Being a security guard at such a young age means that his education is low and his ability is limited. ", girls who have a little thought will not think too much.

Although He Chunsheng was handsome, tall, and in good shape, no girl who had ever studied in the past had ever pursued him.After this girl came to practice, she worked overtime too late and was afraid to go home. It was He Chunsheng who happened to meet her and gave her a ride.

Probably since then, she often brought some snacks to He Chunsheng, and wrote a letter to him some time ago.

The letter implicitly and warmly expressed his affection for He Chunsheng, and hoped to develop a relationship with him.

He Chunsheng replied her a letter, saying that he has no intention of talking about relationships now.

Soon after that, it was summer vacation, He Chunsheng received Ye Qingqing's invitation and resigned.

The little girl didn't give up, she somehow found out that He Chunsheng was setting up a stall in the night market, and chased him to the stall that night.

The little girl Chen Jie came to the stall, sitting side by side with He Chunsheng, and helped him sell things together.She felt that they were still different. Although He Chunsheng had rejected her, she was not without hope. Maybe he had no idea of ​​a relationship because of the unstable economy.

Chen Jie is fair-skinned, tall and beautiful.For some reason, as soon as He Chunsheng saw her, he thought of that little girlfriend Jiao Yan had talked about before.

Over the years, he hasn't had the feeling that a normal man should have towards any girl, and he probably knows his problem.

Chen Jie didn't speak directly that night, and He Chunsheng felt that he couldn't waste other people's time like this.After closing the stall, Chen Jie suggested that it was too late and hoped that He Chunsheng would take her home.

He Chunsheng pedaled on his bicycle, first put some of the remaining scarves back to his rented house in the city, and then sent Chen Jie home.

When Chen Jie wrapped his arms around He Chunsheng's waist, He Chunsheng braked and stopped the car.

"Do not touch me."

As an adult, he couldn't bear the touch of a young woman, it gave him goosebumps all over his body.

Chen Jie silently moved her hand away, and after a while, there was a small sobbing sound from the back seat.

He Chunsheng did not speak, his heart was very calm.Even if there is a girl crying behind the bicycle, he still doesn't feel anything, no guilt, no pity, not even boredom.

"You don't have to cry. I treat you like this, and I treat others the same way. I'm not used to being touched by others." He Chunsheng took Chen Jie to her door, and said to Chen Jie who was still wiping tears under the street lamp, " I don't like being with other people, I like being alone."

Chen Jie's eyes were full of incomprehension, but He Chunsheng said: "Chen Jie, love is to let me accept a person who is completely different from myself, and marriage is to tie my life and future with an irrelevant person. Together, I don't have the courage, this has nothing to do with you, it's my problem."

Some people in this world need someone to hug and warm them, so that they have the courage to survive; there are also people who fall into endless boredom when they get close to others, and lose all their courage and strength.He Chunsheng understands that he belongs to the latter, and he is unwilling to let others bear the burden of his life, nor does he intend to take over the lives of others.He doesn't believe that he still has enough love and patience to accept a person who will leave him, whether it is life or death.

A girl in her early twenties who has a happy family since childhood and only regards love as a source of happiness and pain for herself will not think about what will happen in the future.He Chunsheng knew that the current Chen Jie had no way of understanding what he was talking about. Maybe in the future, when she got married in a muddleheaded way and finally tasted the hardships of life, she would think of He Chunsheng's words.

That night, Chen Jie kept crying under the street lamp.He Chunsheng thought to himself: He can understand Chen Jie's feelings towards him, it's probably like his mood and impulse towards that boy many years ago.This kind of unexplainable impulse may seem so unbearable in the eyes of the other party - how contemptuous and incomprehensible Jiao Xi must have felt when facing him at that time.

He Chunsheng didn't think Chen Jie was ridiculous, her feelings were so sincere that he couldn't help himself, but he couldn't give any response.He didn't want to meet Chen Jie again, he only hoped that they would never meet again in the future.

So he remembered again that Jiao Yan, who had another girl in his heart at that time, must have felt the same way towards him.

After Chen Jie entered the house, He Chunsheng returned to the rental house on his bicycle.Tomorrow he will quit the rent, leave the city, return to his countryside, and start a new life.He was relieved, maybe on this night, in front of the weeping girl, he finally figured out the anxious oath's mood, and the untouchable pain was a little better.The past mixed with blood and musty smell, I think it is just the absurd impulse of adolescence under the mood of losing everything.Even if he can't see him again for the rest of his life, He Chunsheng feels that it doesn't matter, because as far as Jiao Shi is concerned, He Chunsheng is probably just a stone on the side of the road, and he will soon forget this person, just like all the people whose names and names have been forgotten. The students who look the same.

It doesn't matter, he doesn't need anyone's body temperature, he can live his life well.When a person leaves the mother's birth canal, there are still people who are waiting and looking forward to it; but when it is time to leave, no one can help and support. When everyone lies in his coffin, he is alone.