I miss you

On the third day of the first lunar month, it snowed heavily.

Shen Yiqiong got up early and went downstairs with Xiaozhi in his arms.

Today's breakfast was made by the invited chef. Originally, outsiders were not allowed to enter the place where they lived, but because of Zhou Jiayu's health, they broke this rule.

The breakfast tasted very good, Shen Yiqiong muttered, saying that the Chinese New Year is coming soon, and he has to make some new clothes for Xiaozhi.

The other people at the table didn't say much, and they all had dull expressions, as if they were worried about something.In fact, Shen Yiqiong was also worried, but he didn't want to say that Zhou Jiayu once said that he had opened his mouth, so he was afraid that his words would come true.

"There are a lot of people coming outside today, don't wait at the door." Shen Yiqiong touched Xiaozhi's head, "It will scare people if they see it."

Ever since Zhou Jiayu sneaked away, Xiaozhi would wait for him at the door every day, but it happened to be Chinese New Year a few days ago, and there were a lot of people at the door, Xiaozhi would easily cause panic if someone saw him.

Xiaozhi nodded slowly when she heard the words, as a response to Shen Yiqiong's words.

Suddenly there was the sound of a car driving in outside the door, everyone was taken aback for a moment, then got up in a tacit understanding and ran towards the door.

They saw Lin Zhushui's driver driving the car, and vaguely saw another figure from the car window - Lin Zhushui.

"Sir! Sir!" The moment he saw Lin Zhushui's figure, Shen Yiqiong smiled immediately. He thought that Lin Zhushui had come back, and Zhou Jiayu would definitely be with him. Both of them must be fine...

The others reacted similarly to him, probably thinking that Zhou Jiayu must be back too.

This kind of reaction didn't happen until Lin Zhushui got off the car with Lin Jue who was sitting in the co-pilot, they didn't see Zhou Jiayu.

Lin Jue's face was extremely haggard, her eyes were red and swollen, her complexion was pale, it looked like she had cried many times.Lin Zhushui stood beside her with no expression on his face, and his long black hair turned gray.There was a burst of coldness on him - Shen Yiqiong realized the first time he saw it, the trace of popularity that Zhou Jiayu had brought to Lin Zhushui had disappeared again.

This made Shen Yiqiong panic, and even the hand holding Xiaozhi began to tremble.

No one dared to ask what happened to Zhou Jiayu, and everyone felt a certain ominous atmosphere.

There was another car behind Lin Zhushui and the others that also drove into the yard. After seeing that car, everyone fell into a deeper silence—it was a hearse used to hold coffins.

Xiaozhi was ignorant, tugging at Yiqiong's sleeves and asking where is Dad, where is Dad.

Shen Yiqiong's lips trembled and he couldn't speak. He wanted to laugh and make jokes, but after working hard for a long time, he found that he couldn't get a word out of his mouth even though he tried his best.

It was the first time he was so afraid to speak.

The hearse stopped, Lin Zhushui walked over, opened the door bolt, and carefully pulled out an ice coffin from inside, then he bent down slowly, put his face on it, and said softly: "Jiayu, we back home."

Xiaozhi called blankly: "Dad." It struggled to jump out of Shen Yiqiong's arms, Shen Yiqiong didn't want to let go, but its strength was too great.

Xiaozhi ran and jumped all the way, and soon arrived at Lin Zhushui's side. It called Dad, Dad, and climbed up the ice coffin.

"Dad." Through the glass, Xiaozhi saw Zhou Jiayu. It had no clear concept of death at this time, and thought that Zhou Jiayu was asleep, so it stretched out its small flat hand and patted it gently. "Dad, wake up, Dad, wake up, it's Xiaozhi..." Zhou Jiayu didn't respond.

Xiaozhi turned her head blankly and looked at Lin Zhushui: "Big Daddy, why did Daddy ignore me? I want him to hug Xiaozhi..."

Lin Zhushui touched Xiaozhi, and said, "I'm sorry, Xiaozhi, I lost him."

Xiaozhi stood there dumbfounded, as if she didn't understand the meaning of Lin Zhushui's words.

But it doesn't understand, but the people around it do.

The first one who couldn't hold back was Lin Jue. Her waist began to bend, as if she couldn't bear the weight of her body, and the sobbing sound overflowed from her throat, like weeping blood.

Shen Yiqiong also started to cry, he walked slowly to the side of the ice coffin, and saw Zhou Jiayu lying inside.

Zhou Jiayu's body was well preserved, as if he was only half asleep. He lay there quietly, his long eyelashes cast black shadows, his lips lost their color, and his skin became as transparent as ever.

Shen Yiqiong suddenly hated himself a little. Why did he call Zhou Jia Yuguan'er? This was originally a joking title, but at this time it became a stinging title.

Tears fell drop by drop, and Shen Yiqiong sobbed.

He has experienced too much life and death, but he has never experienced parting.

"You're back." Shen Yiqiong said in a low voice, "Why did you come back..."

Everyone was extremely quiet, and the air seemed to be stagnant.

After that, Shen Yiqiong was in a trance. He watched Lin Zhushui bring Zhou Jiayu back to his residence, but he still felt unreal.He always felt that Zhou Jiayu would come back, would smile and call him Hei Zai, would put on an apron and wash his hands to make soup, would hug Xiao Huang and stroke him slowly.

But everything was gone, Xiao Huang sat on the sofa silently, leaning against Xiao Zhi, no one spoke or moved in the room,

Everyone is digesting the unpalatable truth.

"Why, it's gone if you say it's gone." Shen Musi murmured.

Shen Yiqiong sat quietly on the sofa cushion, unable to say a word.

A few days later, Lin Zhushui personally handled Zhou Jiayu's funeral.Shen Yiqiong originally thought that Lin Zhushui would not be able to bear it, but he did not expect that from the beginning to the end, Lin Zhushui seemed very calm, even this kind of calm made people feel frightened, and Shen Yiqiong began to be afraid of Lin Zhushui's subsequent outbreak.

Everything about Zhou Jiayu was handled by Lin Zhushui. He personally changed Zhou Jiayu's shroud, put on makeup, lit the fire, and even sent Zhou Jiayu to the incinerator.

When taking the last step, Lin Zhushui opened his eyes, revealing a pair of black pupils.

This was the first time Shen Yiqiong saw Lin Zhushui open his eyes. He saw boundless tenderness in Lin Zhushui's eyes. Lin Zhushui kissed Zhou Jiayu's lips, and whispered in his ear. He muttered a few words, then actually laughed.

Looking at Lin Zhushui's smile, Shen Yiqiong felt chills all over his body, he walked slowly to Lin Jue's side, and said softly, "Master, are you all right..."

Lin Jue wore a plain white long dress with a white flower on her hair. After this incident, she seemed to have faded, the smile on her face faded a lot, and she didn't even say a word. Love said it.

"Yeah." Lin Jue said, "It's okay." Her eyes were light, and her eyes stayed in the burning furnace, "I have experienced it too, haven't I survived this too?"

But her eyes were red again, "Besides, Zhushui's temperament, he really made up his mind, can I persuade him?"

When she said this, Xiao Jinlong was standing beside her with a downcast expression, but she didn't know how to comfort Lin Jue.It's just that the weather outside was still sunny, and it started to snow again.

The tombstone was also personally selected by Lin Zhushui for Zhou Jiayu. The feng shui is very good. Shen Yiqiong watched Lin Zhushui slowly put the jar containing the ashes into the tomb with an extremely gentle expression.

Shen Yiqiong noticed that the names of Lin Zhushui and Zhou Jiayu had been engraved on the tombstone. It seemed that Lin Zhushui had made up his mind to be buried with Zhou Jiayu.

However, Shen Yiqiong noticed a detail that made him feel panic-the two names on the tombstone were inlaid with gold, which was only done by buried people.

Lin Jue was not surprised at all, her expression was indifferent, and she looked at the unknown scene through Lin Zhushui.When she buried her lover back then, she didn't know what kind of thoughts she had in mind, and no one knew what she relied on to survive.

The whole funeral was very quiet, no one talked, and the atmosphere was eerily silent.

The little paper was hidden in Shen Yiqiong's pocket, and it finally understood the meaning of death.That is, the person who is thinking in the heart will not come back, but go to another world

Never see each other again.

After everything was over, everyone went home.

Lin Zhushui spoke in the room and gave them some instructions.

Shen Yiqiong felt panicked when he heard this, he said: "Sir..."

Lin Zhushui seemed to know what he wanted to say, and waved him to signal him not to speak.

Shen Yiqiong could only shut up, his hands were clenched into fists, his nails cut his palms, he was not Zhou Jiayu, he couldn't change Lin Zhushui's mind, he could only watch the situation worsen little by little.

Zhou Jiayu's sudden departure took away most of the energy in the room.The atmosphere in the room became extremely lifeless.

Shen Yiqiong also started to get busy. He has been a teacher for several years, and it's time to go out and practice alone.

Lin Zhushui's whereabouts began to become erratic, and it was almost difficult to see him at home. He seemed to be looking for something, but no one knew what it was.

Shen Yiqiong was worried about hearing the news of Lin Zhushui's death every day, but one day, when he saw Lin Zhushui whom he hadn't seen for a long time, he really had the illusion that death was Lin Zhushui's relief.

Lin Zhushui's hair was almost completely white. He was sitting on a chair in the living room with a cup of steaming tea in his hand.Hearing Shen Yiqiong's voice coming in, he raised his eyes and glanced at him casually.

Those were a pair of black eyes, which should have been very beautiful, but at this moment, the inside was like a frozen lake, and only the deadly cold could be seen coming from inside.

He saw Shen Yiqiong, but he didn't seem to see him. After looking away indifferently, he asked, "What's the matter."

Shen Yiqiong's heart sank, it was the first time that he felt the changes in Lin Zhushui so clearly.Lin Zhushui in the past, although it was cold outside, his soul was warm.But the person in front of him was already cold to the bone.

"Sir, I plan to travel." Shen Yiqiong said, "Maybe I will go for a few years..."

Lin Zhushui hummed and said you can go.

Shen Yiqiong said, "Sir..."

Lin Zhushui took a sip of tea slowly, and said lightly: "If you want to persuade me, you don't need to say any more, I know exactly what I'm doing."

Shen Yiqiong was speechless and could only turn around with a wry smile.

Fish without water cannot live, and water without fish is stagnant water.He was there, but he didn't seem to be there anymore.

Shen Yiqiong left the Lin family and started a solo trip.If possible, he also wants to be a child for the rest of his life, but people must grow up, no matter how painful the process is.

Shen Yiqiong always thought that the next time he received news from his senior brothers would be about Lin Zhushui's death, he had even made countless preparations in his heart.

But when he just escaped from a bad place and received a call from his senior brother, he heard his senior brother say on the phone: "We found Zhou Jiayu!"

"What??" Shen Yiqiong was stunned, "Did you find Zhou Jiayu?"

"It literally means, come back quickly." The senior brother was very excited.

Shen Yiqiong didn't understand what the senior brother meant at all, but he said so, and he wouldn't make fun of Zhou Jiayu, so Shen Yiqiong hurried home overnight.

Then, he really met Zhou Jiayu.

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Once upon a time, Zhou Jiayu was a materialist who firmly believed that death was an endless sleep.But later, he met Lin Zhushui and encountered those things, so he began to think about what the legendary Meng Po looked like, whether the Meng Po soup was good, and whether he would really forget the past after crossing the Naihe Bridge. edge.

So when he opened his eyes and saw the light, he was stunned.

"Wake up, wake up!" An excited voice sounded, Zhou Jiayu's mind was numb, unable to think at all, he felt like a solid piece of wood, lying stiff on the bed, no part of his body could move .

The white roof, the white walls, and the smell of disinfectant in the air all told Zhou Jiayu the fact that he was lying in the hospital.

A doctor rushed over, and Zhou Jiayu heard the voice almost crying with joy again: "Wake up, wake up—"

Zhou Jiayu turned his head and saw a girl with a big belly sitting next to his bed. The girl was full of tears and looked at him with surprised eyes.

"Who are you..." Zhou Jiayu spoke with difficulty, his voice was thin and weak.

"Zhou Jiayu, it's me." Fortunately, the girl heard him clearly, leaned into his ear and said, "You wake up, our baby is about to be born."

Zhou Jiayu: "..." He was stunned for a while before he realized, "Child? Is it our child?" His mind was in a mess, as if it had been poured with glue.

"That's right." The girl said, "Do you want to touch it?"

Zhou Jiayu stretched out his hand and touched it slowly in a daze.

The girl said, "Are you happy?"

Zhou Jiayu nodded foolishly.

"Hahahahahaha, idiot, you really don't remember anything." Seeing Zhou Jiayu like this, the girl burst out laughing, with tears all over her face, "I'm not your girlfriend, Besides, you have been in a coma for more than three years, where did the child come from?"

Zhou Jiayu's mind was still dull, and he couldn't fully process what the girl in front of him said. He only knew the fact that the child was indeed not his own. He seemed a little disappointed, and muttered that he thought he should have a child...

The girl laughed again, and said where did your child come from? Maybe it was born in a dream.

Zhou Jiayu was inexplicably wronged.

Because of sleeping for too long, Zhou Jiayu's body and memory are very bad.After being reminded by several people, I realized that I was in a car accident three years ago, and I have been in a deep sleep ever since.Originally, the doctor said that the chance of recovery was very slim, but I didn't expect that after lying down for so long, I actually woke up.

But Zhou Jiayu couldn't remember the past at all, and his mind was very confused. He always felt as if he had forgotten something very important, and he wanted to try hard to remember it.But his friend said that there is no need to be so anxious, he is a single dog with no worries, forget it and forget it, anyway, you can start again.

There are three friends in total, two men and one woman, one of them is a couple, and the girl is just pregnant.They have known each other since childhood and their relationship has always been very good.After Zhou Jiayu encountered such a thing, he never thought of giving up on him.

Zhou Jiayu was naturally very grateful,

However, after lying on the bed for so long, Zhou Jiayu's body was indeed seriously affected.First of all, his body is weak, his limbs are very slender, and he can't even stand up.

"Rehabilitation will be more troublesome." The doctor said, "It requires the patient's strong willpower."

Although the doctor said so, Zhou Jiayu still gritted his teeth and persisted, wanting to quickly recover his physical condition and retrieve his lost memories. He always felt that he had missed something very important.

Rehabilitation was indeed very painful. Zhou Jiayu had to spend tens of minutes on a journey that others could cover in tens of seconds.The worst thing is that my body can't get used to exercise at all, and I'm sweating profusely after a little movement.

His legs have also shrunk, and there is a huge scar left by the car accident on his spine, which looks extremely hideous.

Those friends were all married and had their own families, but they still came to visit Zhou Jiayu every three or four days. It can be said that the relationship between them was very good.

Zhou Jiayu learned from them that they both came from the same orphanage and regarded each other as brothers and sisters, and that Zhou Jiayu had always taken care of them, so after Zhou Jiayu had a car accident, they chose to be silent. guard.

In that car accident that year, a total of three people died, all from Zhou Jiayu's work unit. Zhou Jiayu was seriously injured, so at least he escaped.

"Then I'm really lucky." Zhou Jiayu said, "Do I really not have a girlfriend?"

The pregnant girl laughed: "Why do you always ask this question? Could it be that you had some strange dream? Of course you don't have a girlfriend anymore. You like boys, so how can you have a girlfriend?"

Zhou Jiayu: "..." He was startled.

His friend said it so firmly, obviously he wasn't lying, so Zhou Jiayu began to think about his own sexuality, wondering if he really liked cute boys?

This doubt lasted for a while until one day.

It happened to be sunny that day, and Zhou Jiayu happened to be pushed out for a walk by a friend after finishing his rehabilitation.

The friend said he was going to the bathroom, so he left him alone in the garden.

Zhou Jiayu sat under the shade of a tree, took a nap with half-closed eyes, and slowly fell asleep listening to the rustling sound of the wind blowing through the treetops.

He didn't open his eyes until he heard footsteps beside him, and muttered, "Are you back?"

"I'm back." It wasn't a friend who answered him, but a husky male voice. Zhou Jiayu opened his eyes and saw a beautiful man.

The man has picturesque features, long white hair tied behind his head, and a fresh scent of sandalwood exuding from his body. He is gazing at him gently with black eyes.Zhou Jiayu's heart jumped uncontrollably in an instant. Before his friend said that he liked men, he only took it as a joke. Until this moment, Zhou Jiayu was convinced that he really did like men, and fell in love with them the person in front of you.

"Hello." Zhou Jiayu stammered, "I, have I met you somewhere?"

The man raised his eyebrows, showing an intriguing expression.

Zhou Jiayu felt a little scared for some reason, and slowly pushed the wheelchair back a little, but he couldn't bear to go back too much, so he could only raise his head and continue to whisper: "May I ask what's the matter?" ...Why are you...looking at me like that.

The man suddenly bent down and hugged him tightly. The strength of the man was extremely strong, as if he wanted to crush his body.Zhou Jiayu was too scared to move, like a quail.

At this moment, he saw a white piece of paper slowly popping out from the man's pocket.At first, Zhou Jiayu thought that the paper was just a blur to him, but who knew that the paper crawled along the man's back to the top of his head, and excitedly pulled up his hair: "Dad, Dad!"

The paper was screaming in a high-pitched voice.

Zhou Jiayu felt the shattering of his three views, and he even began to wonder if he hadn't woken up from the dream at all.

"Too thin." The man put his chin on Zhou Jiayu's shoulder and said in a low voice, "I need to gain weight in the future."

Zhou Jiayu didn't move, and asked cautiously if you had identified the wrong person.

I don't know where this sentence touched the man, his breath became irritable all of a sudden, he pinched Zhou Jiayu's chin and said, do you know how long I've been looking for you?

Zhou Jiayu was at a loss.

The man kissed it directly.

The two touched lips and tongue, and Zhou Jiayu involuntarily grabbed the man's shoulder. This feeling was so familiar that he even had the feeling that he had been in love with the man for a long time.

"I've been looking for you for a long time." The man said, "I only know that your name is Zhou Jiayu. I don't know if you are male or female, old or young, whether you are still alive or not—"

Zhou Jiayu's breath from being kissed was uneven, and his eyes even started to glisten with tears due to the lack of oxygen. He panted heavily, and was frightened by the man's extremely ferocious eyes.

"But anyway, let me find it." The man said, "I will not be able to hold on."

After he finished speaking, he immediately picked up Zhou Jiayu, and when Zhou Jiayu exclaimed, he led him out of the hospital.

Zhou Jiayu struggled vigorously and even tried to call for help, but under the man's fierce eyes, he suddenly turned into a quail.

Did I do something to be sorry for others?Zhou Jiayu secretly thought in his heart, why did he make people like this, and why he was so thin, could it have something to do with him?

The car roared out of the hospital, Zhou Jiayu politely asked if he could call his friend.

The man threw the phone to him casually, and Zhou Jiayu said the password.

The man said a number, and Zhou Jiayu said, "Hey, why is it my birthday?"

The man sneered: "We have children, why can't we use your birthday?"

Zhou Jiayu: "..." He looked up silently, and saw a blank piece of paper on top of his head that was still obsessed with pulling out his hair, "This?"

The man said: "You still despise it?"

The white paper on the head suddenly stopped and bent down: "Dad, do you dislike Xiao Zhi?"

Facing the accusatory stare of blank paper, Zhou Jiayu hesitated in three seconds: "No, no, I feel too happy."

The man and the blank paper showed a satisfied expression.