I love you for the rest of my life

Zhang Juan's wine bottle was snatched by Yan Tong, and he casually picked up one of the bottles on the wine rack and opened it to drink himself.

Yan Tong was furious, and after throwing the wine bottle in his hand to the ground, he kicked towards the wine rack vigorously with his feet, and the movement was done in one go.Before the wine rack fell down, Yan Tong pulled Zhang Ju'an away.

Bang!The wine rack fell to the ground, many wine bottles hit the ground and shattered, and the wine spilled all over the floor.The whole house smelled of wine.

Yan Tong snatched the bottle of wine from Zhang Ju'an's hand, and threw it hard to the ground, his eyes were always fixed on Zhang Ju'an, with red circles around his eyes.

"Zhang Ju'an, I know why you did this. Don't worry, in order to reduce your sense of guilt and make your life a little easier in the future, I will live a good life. Zhang Ju'an, listen, I will Live well."

Zhang Juan, whose eyes were also red, looked at Yan Tong in front of him, Zhang Juan could hear every word he said clearly.

"Now that your goal has been achieved, you can leave. Zhang Ju'an, we're settled."

Yan Tong's sentence, we are clear, pierced Zhang Ju'an's heart hard, but he still looked so calm, even though his heart hurt very much, he couldn't see half of it on the surface.

Zhang Juan didn't leave, he started to clean up the mess on the ground, without looking at Yan Tong again.

Yan Tong felt very suffocated in the smell of alcohol in the room, as if something in his heart was pressing him desperately, sinking bit by bit, sinking to a darker and colder place.

Zhang Ju'an was busy inside and out, after he cleaned up the broken glass slag all over the floor and dragged it several times, he turned into the kitchen and got busy again.

Yan Tongan sat quietly in the living room, listening to Zhang Juan's busy voice, he seemed to be back in the past.Zhang Ju'an still loves to be clean so much, he would not stop until everything was cleaned spotlessly.

The smell of millet porridge wafted from the kitchen. Zhang Juan used to like to cook millet porridge the most. Yan Tong always remembered this taste.After Zhang Juan left, he also learned to cook, but no matter how he cooked, the taste was still not the same.

After a while, Zhang Ju'an walked to the living room with a bowl of porridge and put it in front of Yan Tong.

"Eat, nourish your stomach."

Looking at the steaming bowl of porridge on the table, Yan Tong couldn't feel warm in his heart.

"Zhang Ju'an, can you be more decisive with me? Do you know that it is really difficult for me to forget you. What are you like now?"

"You eat the porridge first."

Yan Tong looked up at Zhang Ju'an, he couldn't understand Zhang Ju'an more and more.

"What exactly do you want to do?"

"You eat the porridge first."

Yan Tong surrendered, he said so much, Zhang Juan acted as if he didn't hear anything, from the beginning to the end, he just let him eat the porridge.

"Okay, I'll eat."

Yan Tong picked up the bowl of porridge and took a sip. Zhang Ju'an was so angry that he accidentally burned his tongue when he took the first bite. Yan Tong endured it and continued to eat.

Zhang Juan sat opposite and watched quietly, his head had already started to feel dizzy, and the bottle of baijiu he drank slowly began to recover at this time, the alcohol was strong enough to make him sleep for a day and a night.

When Yan Tong finished the bowl of porridge and went to see Zhang Ju'an, he was already leaning on the sofa and started to feel drowsy.Looking at Zhang Ju'an's face flushed with alcohol, Yan Tong knew that he was drunk, very drunk.

"Heh, besides persuading me not to drink, came all this way just to cook me a bowl of porridge? Are you afraid that I will starve to death?"

Yan Tong put down the bowl, got up and walked towards Zhang Ju'an, in fact, no matter what time, Yan Tong could not be completely hard-hearted towards Zhang Ju'an, even though he himself was already riddled with holes and broken.

Yan Tong embraced Zhang Juan's head and leaned it on his shoulder. If Zhang Juan was awake, Yan Tong thought that he might push him away.

"Zhang Ju'an, I can promise you not to drink. You don't have to act like you're going to drink to death in front of me. You know, I can't do anything with you. You also know that if you are really forced to die, the only one who hurts is Me. Just like before, you have the final say on whether to leave or stay. But what about me? I have no intention of leaving when I come. "

Yan Tong feels like a stick in his throat, because when he said this, it seemed to be saying goodbye.But saying goodbye and letting go doesn't mean he can let go.What Yan Tong chose was to stop entanglement.

"It's been ten years since I met you when I was 17, and now you're 27. I've loved you for ten years. In the future, I don't know how many decades will be left. Zhang Ju'an, I really want to let you go. From now on , That's all. You and I, we're settled. Zhang Ju'an, you don't owe me anything, so don't make yourself too tired. That way, I will feel bad. "

Yan Tong's tone was full of sadness. He never thought of saying goodbye to Zhang Ju'an in this way, and he never thought about the very long-term future where Zhang Ju'an would never exist again.This is too cruel for him.

Zhang Ju'an listened to Yan Tong's words, he leaned on Yan Tong's shoulder, tears dripped down.He could feel that Yan Tong's heart was very cold now.

"Yan Tong..."

Zhang Juan wanted to say a lot, but in the end he just called Yan Tong's name, he knew that no matter what he said, it seemed useless.Therefore, Zhang Ju'an took the initiative to hug Yan Tong.In this world, Zhang Ju'an felt that hugs are the warmest, and the person in front of him once held his hand.

Years ago, on a rainy morning, Yan Tong hurried out because Zhang Juan couldn't find his way.Zhang Ju'an still remembered the scene that day, Yan Tong's messy hair was soaked by the drizzle, and one side of his collar was folded inside, looking sloppy.

That day was the memorial day of his mother Xu Nuan.That day, it was very cold.However, Yan Tong's hand holding him was very warm.

Suddenly hugged by Zhang Ju'an, Yan Tong was stunned for a moment, he didn't even know where to put his hands.To Yan Tong, this long-lost hug was a mirror image after all.How warm it is now, how sad it will be when I think about it later.

Yan Tong didn't see Zhang Juan's tears, but he heard Zhang Juan's next sentence clearly.

"Yan Tong, you don't want me anymore?"

"Zhang Ju'an, be fair. It's you who don't want me, not I who don't want you."

Zhang Juan straightened up and kissed Yan Tong, this was the first time he took the initiative.

Yan Tong stretched out his hand and pushed Zhang Juan away: "You are drunk."

Zhang Juan kissed him again with red eyes, Yan Tong pushed away again, very hard because he was very angry.

"Zhang Ju'an, I think you are really crazy."

This was also the first time that Yan Tong stretched out his hand to push Zhang Juan away.In the past, even if Zhang Juan just took the initiative to reach out and hug him, he would be as happy as a child and laugh all day long.

Yan Tong's brows were frowning, and when he was angry, his brows would always frown deeply.So far, this has only happened in front of Zhang Juan.

Yan Tong imitated Zhang Juan's tone that day and asked him: "Don't you need to go home to see your child and Xiang Xiu? Zhang Juan, what do you want to do?"

Zhang Juan smiled inexplicably, unexpectedly, it was a little sweet.He also imitated Yan Tong's tone and said: "What? Are you angry?"