mountain and river oath

Good news came from the palace, the crown princess was happy, the emperor was overjoyed, and ordered the crown prince to lift the ban, the gods in the crown prince's womb counted for the child who had not yet arrived, the crown princess's birth is a boy, and the future will be extremely honorable, the prince was overjoyed Zhao Jing was invited to attend the banquet in the mansion. Zhao Jing didn't want to go, but he thought, maybe Zhao Chong would bring Shu Zilan there. Talking happily with the prince, there was no sign of malice, Shu Zilan stood aside disgruntledly, looking at the people around him boredly, when he saw Zhao Jing coming, his eyes lit up, and then he turned around, as if there was nothing wrong with him. Seeing Zhao Jing is normal.

Zhao Jing walked over, Shu Zilan turned and left, Zhao Jing followed, Shu Zilan stood still in a hidden corner

"Let's not communicate anymore." Shu Zilan turned around and looked at Zhao Jing who was following up.

"Why?" Zhao Jing looked at Shu Zilan and asked.

"There's no reason, I don't want to be friends with you anymore," Shu Zilan said coldly.

"Okay." Zhao Jing looked at Shu Zilan, his clear eyes seemed to cry, he took a deep breath, forced a smile, and said, "A man is straightforward, and he will never act like a daughter crying. See you?" Zhao Jing turned around and left without hesitation, but his tall figure seemed lonely.

Shu Zilan watched Zhao Jing leave, feeling extremely sad for a moment.

Zhao Jing didn't go back to the banquet, and left directly. Shu Zilan returned to the banquet. Zhao Chong saw Shu Zilan coming back alone, walked over, and said with a smile, "Tell him clearly?"

Shu Zilan looked desolate and lonely, and said, "I'm tired, I'll go back first."

"I don't want to stay anymore, let's leave together," Zhao Chong said.

Shu Zilan ignored Zhao Chong,

"You've been staying in Huanhua Courtyard these days, and you don't come out for a walk. You're getting bored. I'll take you out for a walk." Zhao Chong went up and said.

Shu Zilan said nothing, he felt uncomfortable.

"Rong Qing, let's talk," Zhao Chong said anxiously.

Shu Zilan ignored it.

"You are the long history of Prince Yu's Mansion, the mansion is busy these days, you might as well come and help," Zhao Chongdao.

"Is there still a place for me in the mansion?" Shu Zilan said coldly.

Zhao Chong was embarrassed to hear that, indeed, Shu Zilan had been away for a long time, and his affairs were basically replaced by Sun Yi, but now Shu Zilan was like an outsider, unable to integrate into Prince Yu's Mansion.

Shu Zilan turned around and left, Zhao Chong stood there looking at Shu Zilan who was far away, regretting in his heart, did he push Shu Zilan too fast, Shu Zilan had almost nothing left, and his only friend also left , but he turned to think, he can give Shu Zilan everything, so what is lost is nothing.

Shu Zilan returned to Huanhua Xiaozhu, the place was still the same as before, Shu Zilan was in it, but always felt that the small courtyard had become bigger, he stayed in the courtyard every day, feeling lonely in his heart, lonely like weeds This spring is growing crazily, outside the grass grows and warblers fly, full of vitality, but he grows lonely in this small isolated courtyard.

Shu Zilan picked up a book, and then lazily threw it down. He lay on the couch, looking at the world full of vitality outside the courtyard. In his bones, he felt like an outsider in this world, unable to blend in anywhere. With all his skills, there is no use for him. Prince Yu's Mansion, the home he used to devote so much attention to, now after he left, there is no place for him. He is full of ambitions, what is the use of all his skills?He was the number one scholar of Emperor Jingdi for ten years, the youngest number one scholar of the Great Wei Dynasty, the genius boy who once made a sensation in the world, and it was also that year that he was dubbed the number one son of the capital. Now six years have passed, and all his former classmates are gone. Working hard in their respective positions and contributing to the country, only he is trapped between heaven and earth, struggling, alone and independent, what is the use of learning more?Shu Zilan was deeply puzzled and depressed.

"Master" Shu Ting came over and saw Shu Zilan lying on the couch, lazily, listless and lonely.

He took out a piece of brocade quilt to cover Shu Zilan, Shu Zilan didn't make a sound, Shu Ting retreated quietly.

Shu Zilan fell asleep on the couch, opened her eyes in the evening, and the Huanhua courtyard was rendered in colorful colors by a rotten cloud, the whole yard seemed to be shrouded in this cloud, Shu Zilan was lazy and didn't want to wake up , He looked at the clouds, his thoughts were confused, thinking of those carefree and happy times in the past, and now thinking of having nowhere to stay, being alone, with an unknown future, and nowhere to display his ambitions, he only felt depressed.

Shu Zilan stood up, spread out the pen and ink on the table, and drew stroke by stroke. Time flew by at the tip of his pen.

"What time is it?" Shu Zilan asked.

"It's three o'clock, my lord," said the book boy.

"It's so late." Shu Zilan was surprised,

"My son's painting is integrated into it, and it is natural to feel that time flies," Shutong said.

Shu Zilan looked at Tong'er Haqie with a troubled look, and said

"You can go to sleep"

The book boy hurriedly retreated.

Shu Zilan lit up the candles, staring at the candles in a daze, she had slept a lot in the afternoon, but now she couldn't sleep anymore, he lay on the bed tossing and turning, got up after a long time

Zhi Geng's servant said outside the door, "My lord, what's wrong with you?"

"Blanch a pot of wine for me," Shu Zilan said.

"Yes" the servant said.

After a while, a jug of wine was brought up, and there were some snacks. Shu Zilan waved away the servants and drank alone in the room. He didn't like to drink, but at this time, he wanted to drink, and when he was drunk, he could forget all the unsatisfactory things. Just drinking alone, the more she drank, the more lonely she felt. Shu Zilan took the wine gu, and drank cup by cup, the more she drank, the more awake she became, and the depths of her brain became clear.

At dawn, Shu Ting pushed the door open and came in, smelling a fragrant smell of wine, Shu Zilan sat on the ground with wine gu in his hand, his eyes were red and his face was tired.

"My lord, you haven't slept all night?" Shu Ting said.

"Come here, drink with me," Shu Zilan said.

"Master" Shu Ting didn't know how to comfort Shu Zilan.

"Forget it, you go out, I'll sleep," Shu Zilan said.

Shu Ting helped Shu Zilan up, Shu Zilan staggered to the side of the bed, fell asleep with the pillow on her head.

Shu Zilan stayed in Huanhua Courtyard day and night, falling in the morning and evening, day and night, painting, playing the piano and drinking. In a few months, his drinking capacity grew rapidly.

"He didn't walk out of Huanhua Courtyard?" Yu Wang asked.

"No, my subordinates have sent people to monitor Huanhua Courtyard at all times," Sun Yi said.

"Oh..." Zhao Chong's nervous heart relaxed.

"Zhao Jing didn't come?" Zhao Chong said.

"No," Sun Yi said.

"What does he do every day?" Zhao Chong asked.

"Playing the piano, painting and drinking, I think Mr. Shu is living a good life," Sun Yi said.

"He just loves these elegant things." Zhao Chong felt relieved.

"My lord, are you going to hide it from him like this? If you can hide it for a while, you can't hide it forever," Sun Yi said.

"It's only a matter of time to hide it for a while," Zhao Chong said worriedly, "Rong Qing has a strong temper, and is especially true in his feelings. I really don't know what to do with him?" Zhao Chong said.

"What if he finds out?" Sun Yi said.

"I don't know, keep it a secret for now, no one is allowed to reveal to him, if you let me know who leaked the news, let him come to see me first," Zhao Chong said sternly.

"Subordinates understand," Sun Yi said.

The footsteps of spring are gradually approaching. The bamboo reeds in the Huanhua courtyard are verdant and green, and the breeze blows, and the melodious sound of bamboo and wood colliding gently, and the wind pierces the bamboo forest. The begonias in the Huanhua courtyard are in full bloom. Butterflies fluttered busily on the huge flowers. Shu Zilan was quietly painting in the yard wearing a thin green shirt. He was so engrossed in the painting that he didn't notice when someone approached him. The pen in his hand was suddenly taken away by someone. After leaving, Shu Zilan raised her head in displeasure, ready to reprimand which bold servant it was, but when she looked up, it was Zhao Jing who hadn't seen each other for two months. His character will never mess around.

"Why are you here?" Shu Zilan asked calmly.

Zhao Jing took a painting brush and looked at Shu Zilan. They hadn't seen each other for two months. Shu Zilan looked more and more cold, like an orchid in an empty valley. As for the matter, Zhao Chong has good means, and such a big matter is kept secret.

"Let's go for a walk." Zhao Jing looked at Shu Zilan and said.

"You go, I'm not going," Shu Zilan said.

"Just today," Zhao Jing said.

"Is there any difference between today and tomorrow? Since we're not friends, don't get involved," Shu Zilan said.

"Does it have to be so unfeeling?" Zhao Jing said a little hurt. He gave up his dignity and came here, but Shu Zilan had such an attitude.

"We are people from two camps. If we continue to communicate, we will only harm others and ourselves. We might as well stop it completely," Shu Zilan said.

"We haven't started fighting yet," Zhao Jing said.

"One day, I will understand your ambition," Shu Zilan said.

"What about you, Shu Zilan, yourself? You gave up everything for one person, and trapped yourself in a small courtyard to paint and play the piano. What about your ambition? Your talents are wasted like this? To be a man for the country and the people A useless person," Zhao Jing lamented.

"What else can a person like me do?" Shu Zilan asked in confusion.

"Emotions are important, but they are not the whole of life, you should be more sober," Zhao Jing said.

"I" Shu Zilan didn't know what to say,

Zhao Jing looked at Shu Zilan,

Shu Zilan looked at the shining white sun for a long time, making his eyes stingy. He closed his eyes, trying to hide his helplessness and sadness

"We grew up together, and I have been with him for 20 years, how can we let him go?" Shu Zilan said.

"Some feelings are worth protecting and worth sacrificing, but some feelings are not suitable no matter how long they last. No matter how much you try to keep them, you won't be able to keep them. Do you understand? You and him are destined to be in two worlds Man, you don’t understand his pursuit of ambition, and he doesn’t understand your pursuit, so why are you forced to be together? If this kind of relationship continues, it will only harm others and yourself,” Zhao Jing said.

"I understand, I understand, but I..." Shu Zilan closed her eyes, tears streaming down her cheeks, crystal clear, just like Shu Zilan's clear and selfless love.

"Forget what he said, how about today, go out with me for a walk, two months, you have sealed yourself in Huanhua small courtyard, are you giving up on yourself or punishing yourself?" Zhao Jing said.

"Stop talking, since I've made a decision, I won't go back on my word, you go back," Shu Zilan said resolutely.

"You..." Zhao Jing really didn't know what to do. He struck Shu Zilan on the back of his head suddenly.