Obsessed with Qin

,It will be fine. "

Gao Yuanfeng raised his hand and touched Qin Jin's head: "Take good care of yourself."

Did he take poor care of himself?

After seeing off Gao Yuanfeng, Qin Jin got into the bathroom and grinned at the mirror.

The teeth are still the same white, the stature is still the same height, and the face is still the same good-looking.

Why does everyone think he's having a bad day?

Qin Jin stared at himself in the mirror for a long time, and when all the expressions faded away, revealing the real facial features, Qin Jin understood what the problem was.

are the eyes.

It was so dark that there was no light at all.

There is only a deep and hopeless black, and there is deep yearning for someone.

That Qin Jin, who was a bit ruffian and a bit mean, with a sunny smile on his face, was gradually disappearing and gradually becoming a memory.

Did you grow up?

Qin Jin stroked his face through the mirror.

Or, a more appropriate word would be "old".

I'm already getting old, the day I parted from you.

It was still early, and Qin Jin didn't want to go home and stare awkwardly at his parents, so he simply scanned the QR code of a shared bicycle and wandered around leisurely.When passing by a tattoo shop, the posters hanging outside the shop caught Qin Jin's attention.Qin Jin straddled the bicycle with one foot on the ground, staring at the poster for a while, then locked the car and walked into the tattoo parlor.

Two hours later, a curvy black English letter "z" appeared on the inside of Qin Jin's wrist. The Caesar collar was changed into a leather bracelet to cover it. No one could see it, only he knew it.

Qin Jin raised his wrist and kissed the English letter that still smelled of blood through the bracelet.

Qin Zhao, I really miss you.

When she got home, Qin's mother had already prepared dinner, and there was a big steaming table. It was obvious that she had carefully studied the recipes, and it also had the meaning of "color and fragrance".Seeing Qin Jin walk in, Qin's father put away the newspaper and told him to wash his hands and eat. Qin Jin was stunned for a while at the entrance, always thinking that Qin Zhao would come out of a certain room and ask him where he went to get wild again. soil.

At the dinner table, Qin Jin deliberated and expressed his intention to drop out of school and retake the college entrance examination. Qin's father stopped eating, and Qin's mother smoothed things over and said that you can figure it out yourself, you are all grown-ups.

Since Qin Zhao left, Qin Jin clearly felt that his parents seemed to be more tolerant of him. Even Qin's mother, who had always been strong, became gentle, and the contrast was so sharp that it seemed to have changed her personal settings.

Qin Jin knew that Qin's mother wanted to get back to the happy and harmonious appearance in the past, even if it was a false appearance, she hoped it could be more real.Qin Jin can understand her state of mind and is willing to cooperate, but some things cannot be covered up so easily.

As long as he sat down at the dining table, he couldn't help but look at the vacant seat, which originally belonged to Qin Zhao.Sometimes he would even stare blankly at each other in a daze. He didn't realize it until the food was cold, and Qin's father dropped the tableware and got up to leave.

I really didn't mean to, I just couldn't control it.

Qin Jin sighed, said I'm full, got up and walked upstairs.

Qin's mother stood behind him and asked, "Xiao Jin, do you hate me... us?"

Qin Jin didn't turn around, but shook his head with his back to Qin's mother: "You are all my relatives, how could I hate you."

How can I hate, how can I hate, because I can't even have hatred, so I feel even more sad.

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At the beginning of November, halfway through the rehabilitation course, the temperature began to drop drastically. Qin Jin added a dark brown knee-length windbreaker over his shirt, paired it with black slacks and ankle boots, and his already thin figure became even more apparent. Chiseled and downright handsome.

During the recovery process, the little nurse often stuffed him with fruits and snacks, sometimes beautifully packaged chocolates, and sometimes imported candies that are not very common in China.The doctor in charge of the rehabilitation room knew Qin Jin well, jokingly said that every one of the nurses in the department was taken away by him, and he couldn't take care of the work at hand.Qin Jin pursed his lips and smiled quietly, with a faint trace of wind and frost on his brows.

Gao Yuanfeng put his hands in the pockets of his white coat, looked at Qin Jin's back and sighed softly, even he couldn't remember what that Qin Jin who loved to laugh and play tricks was like.Qin Zhao's leaving without saying goodbye and not hearing from him made him grow up in an instant and grow old in an instant.

The ligaments are almost maintained, and the matter of reviewing and preparing for the exam is put on the agenda.Liu Xianghua has always acted quickly, but within three or four days, he helped Qin Jin get his academic status, and even kindly helped him get a new set of science textbooks, including Chinese, English, Physiology, and Chemistry. Qin Jin caressed the textbooks with the smell of ink On the cover, his eyes became very empty, and he said to Liu Xianghua: "When I took the college entrance examination for the first time, I couldn't sleep at all the night before, so I ran to Qin Zhao's bedroom with the quilt in my arms and crawled into his arms. Although Qin Zhao He said he hated me so much, but he didn't really push me out. I asked him, brother, what do you think if I don't pass the exam? How embarrassing! Qin Zhao scolded me for being worthless and said He can still support his younger brother. I felt relieved instantly, and fell asleep after a while. During the exam, I played too long. I confused a lot of money, and I even ran into a first-class scholarship. I received the notice On the day of the book, I was very happy. I grabbed Qin Zhao's hand and played tricks on him, saying brother, look, I passed the exam, so please praise me. I remember Qin Zhao smiled at that time, very gentle, and touched my hair Say I'm great. I especially like to see Qin Zhao smile, he smiles at me, and I can be happy for a long time."

Liu Xianghua sighed, bit the smoke and said, "He really dotes on you."

Qin Jin sniffed, his voice was still a little hoarse, and said, "I was spoiled by him, and I don't know how to live without him."

Liu Xianghua didn't speak any more, but just patted Qin Jin on the shoulder.

No matter what, life still has to go on. Counting with your fingers, it won't be long before the college entrance examination.

Qin Jin never thought that one day he would study culture and forget to eat and sleep.Chinese and English are fairly easy to speak, and for languages, you can memorize ancient Chinese words well and brush up the tactics of the sea of ​​questions, so you don't need too much professional guidance.The remaining four subjects required basic skills, especially physics. When Qin Jin was in high school, his grades in physics were unimaginably poor. If Mr. Newton Niu was alive, he would have to hit him on the head with an apple.

Qin Jin contacted four tutors who graduated from graduate school, one person was in charge of one subject, each subject took two hours a day, half an hour sorted out the knowledge points, and the rest of the time was spent doing lectures, holding the back of his hand while eating. The small slips of paper used for vocabulary are really to the point where you don’t hear anything outside the window and only read the books of sages.

Liu Xianghua felt scared even looking at it from the sidelines. He tried too hard, and he was in a desperate posture. He advised Qin Jin to slow down.Qin Jin shook his head holding the detailed explanation of the brick-thick math problem, he said: "I can't let myself be idle, once I am idle, Qin Zhao is all over my mind."

I wondered crazily where he had gone, and wondered crazily when he would be back.

Miss him crazily.

Crazy to the point where I'm afraid I'll hate.

Liu Xianghua could only sigh.

After entering the review period, Qin Jin's life became very regular. He got up on time at six o'clock, jogged for an hour, washed and ate, and tutored at eight o'clock, and started cramming teaching.Qin's mother cooks three meals a day extremely delicately. Although the taste is still not good, but the appearance is much better. She tried to talk to Qin Jin, but found that her youngest son had shut her out of his heart long ago. .

In other words, Qin Jin shut himself up, he became less talkative and calm, no longer impulsive and irritable, no longer energetic.

At ten o'clock sharp, the alarm clock rang, reminding him that it was time to rest.Qin Jin turned off the desk lamp and changed into pajamas, lying on the big bed that once belonged to Qin Zhao, and began to suffer from insomnia for a long night.

He has counted tens of thousands of sheep, listened to countless hypnotic stories and audio, swallowed the maximum dose of sleeping pills within the safety line, tossed until he was exhausted before he could sleep for two or three hours, and then he would be awakened by nightmares and wake up. Cen Cen was in a cold sweat.

If you can't sleep, get up and continue doing the questions.

After finishing a set of simulation questions, the sky just appeared a faint fish-belly white, like thin silk.Qin Jin slumped on the chair, feeling physically and mentally exhausted, but still not sleepy.

The insomnia caused intense nervous headaches and loss of appetite. When the pain was the worst, the painkillers were no longer effective. Qin Jin could only bang his head against the wall, his skull seemed to be cracked, and cold sweat dripped from the tip of his nose. down.

Qin's mother knocked on the door and asked him what's wrong. Qin Jin took a deep breath and said in a hoarse voice that he accidentally knocked down the bookshelf.

Qin's mother was silent for a while, and said, it's getting late, you go to bed early.

Qin Jin was speechless, he had no strength to speak.

He went to the hospital for an examination without telling Gao Yuanfeng, and the examination report showed that everything was normal.The doctor advised him to do acupuncture and moxibustion. Qin Jin had a slight phobia of sharpness. When he saw something like a needle point, his scalp would tingle.

Qin Jin's life is divided into three modules, eating, doing questions, and having headaches.

When hitting the wall didn't work, Qin Jin used the sharpest blade to cut the skin, leaving a row of neat wounds on the inner thigh.Faint bloodshots floated in the bathtub, Qin Jin buried himself in the warm water, the black "z" tattoo on his wrist gleamed in the sparkling water.

The sun rises every day, but the sun does not shine into my heart.

On the way, Gao Yuanfeng went on a business trip for a while, and when he came back, he was taken aback by Qin Jin's appearance. He lost weight again, and his waist was so thin that he could hold it in his hands.Gao Tiantian finally got angry, kicked Qin Jin's ass, and asked him if he was playing slow suicide, if he lost weight like this, he would die sooner or later.

Qin Jin was Gao Yuan