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Su Rong waited for Lin Sa for a while, and decided to get her bag back.In his bag is also the handiwork that Mai made for him in kindergarten. Recently, he has been very troubled. As long as things are out of sight, they are easy to break for no reason.This circle is sometimes very naive, and loves to play this kind of exclusionary game of elementary school students.

"We took all the things away." Cheng Man's assistant replied, and greeted him: "I'm playing in the big lounge at the back now, you come over too, there are many people."

Cheng Man's award presentation is at the top, and she recently fell out with Yan Siyun for some reason. She was originally a rival, but now it's more like fighting in a ring. Yan Siyun has always been good at socializing, and the official afterparty is closed by insiders. Playing, it must be her showing off again.So Cheng Man deliberately gathered some people who stepped down first, and played in a big lounge. After the song was played, the wine was almost the same. They were all young people in the circle, lively, at least dozens of people. , Su Rong heard the sound inside before entering the door.

He just cried a lot, and his whole body is a little dehydrated. In fact, he has not always been in a good physique, and he easily feels uncomfortable.Crying a little hypoxic, the whole person is in a daze, but fortunately, as long as he goes in and gets the bag, he can go home and sleep, and Lin Sa will come to him.

He entered quietly from the edge, and saw Cheng Man's assistant waving at him from a distance. In fact, there are good and bad people in this circle. When he passed through the crowd, there were also people who looked at him strangely and whispered to the people around him. Whispering and laughing, he doesn't care about these.

"Do you drink?" The girl asked him, and when he shook his head, he pointed to the other side: "Our bags are all there, go find them."

Su Rong found her bag from the chairs that were put together, checked it, and found that it was still in good condition and had not been touched by anyone.Turning around and preparing to leave, the music was so loud that it gave people a headache. Although most of them changed their clothes and shook there, it was quite boring.

But he saw Adam.

This is such a surprise, since it was rumored that Li Shang had hit him last time, he refused to answer his phone, nor did he see himself.Su Rong called his apprentice to ask. When the apprentice heard that it was him, he was shocked at first, and then hesitated. Su Rong didn't look like he was blaming himself. It seemed that Adam didn't suffer much, so Take it easy.In fact, he also knew that Li Shang would not beat people out of nowhere, and it might be a bit useless to say this now, like being a minion for a tiger, so he didn't say it.

"Senior brother." He ran over happily, Adam was the first among the senior brothers, he came to Vincent earlier than Su Rong, and the two spent the longest time together.There have been bigger things than this before, but Adam has been ignoring him since then, and he can't help but feel a little strange.

Adam was holding a glass of wine and talking to Cheng Man, when Su Rong suddenly appeared beside him. He inherited the style of Vincent when he was young, and he was impeccably dressed everywhere.She was already good-looking, and it wasn't surprising that the male makeup artist put on full makeup. The apprentices next to her were also making fun of her, and she seemed to be more in the limelight than the female stars.

In contrast, Su Rong really doesn't look like a makeup artist. Although she is good-looking, but wearing a big shirt, she looks younger, with fair skin and red eyes. Just call him: "Senior brother."

"Brother, why don't you answer my phone? I asked Lele, and he also said that you are not free..."

"Go away."

Su Rong was stunned. He almost suspected that he had heard it wrong, but Adam's face was indifferent as if looking at a stranger, and the disgust was indeed aimed at him. He instinctively couldn't believe it, and asked wishful thinking. Said: "Is it because of Li Shang? He really hit..."

It was good that he didn't mention Li Shang, but when he mentioned Li Shang, knives almost flew out of Adam's eyes.The apprentices around him are the most capable of observing words and expressions, and there are also people who know the inside story, so they immediately echoed: "Didn't you hear me? I told you to go away."

"Is he and you a brother?" Cheng Man also laughed and mocked: "It doesn't look like a teacher taught him."

"Vincent is dying. Le Zijiao didn't use him in his new play, but our master." The crowd said, who was Adam's apprentice.

And Adam just held the wine and looked at him coldly. It's not like Su Rong can't be fierce. He has been in the circle for so many years, and he has never been bullied by anyone.But this scene really took him by surprise, like being caught off guard by a sneak attack, a punch was punched on the temple, and the whole person was dazed, and he couldn't feel the connected fists and feet, let alone counterattack.

The knife has always been stabbed by the most trusted person, so it makes sense.

In fact, at this time, he didn't understand what was going on, and he didn't have the time to understand. He just wanted to leave here instinctively.He turned around in a daze and was about to leave. He stretched out his foot and tripped hard on his calf. He lost his balance and fell out. He hit the side table, which was originally a temporary folding table. There were glasses full of drinks and drinks, and the table full of drinks fell to the ground together with him. The drinks splashed, and everyone around hurriedly avoided them, making the unique laughter in this circle when they saw people making embarrassments.

Su Rong was so stunned by this fall that she didn't even feel the pain.He fell to the ground alone, and the people around him were standing, looking extremely tall. In fact, the people around them were just common laughing faces, and he could still see Adam at a glance.

His elder brother, with exquisite makeup and a high body, was looking at him coldly with his arms folded. His eyes were neither angry nor indifferent, but outright malicious.No matter how dull Su Rong is, he can still know that it is not caused by Li Shang beating him, it is something far longer than the momentary anger, it is disgust, it is jealousy, it is day after day and night after night, it takes a long time Accumulated over time, naked hatred.

For some reason, Su Rong didn't even feel surprised, but heard a voice in her heart sighing softly: "Oh, so it's you..."

There was an explanation for everything, the joyful return home at age 14, the dead rabbit in the cage, Vincent's deep worry, and the fact that he couldn't borrow any more clothes since he was gone.This circle erected a wall in front of him... except Adam, who has this energy.

Where did it start?And why?Because of Vincent's preference?Because I'm not good enough for him?Why do you have to lie to yourself for so many years when you hate him so much?That's why Master lied to himself that the rabbit was thrown to death by him. Such a scene really makes people lose all hope.

For so many years, I have called my senior brother trustingly, so I am a fool.

Adam obviously also knew that Su Rong understood at this moment, he looked at the face he had hated for more than 20 years.Unexpectedly, he didn't get the gratification he imagined, maybe because the expression on that face was too sad.Su Rong wasn't even angry, but very sad, as if she was about to cry in the next second.But he didn't cry, he just crawled up slowly, the ground was covered with fragments of wine glasses, some scratched his hands, and he even slipped when he got up, which caused another burst of laughter.

"I really don't know what Li Shang likes him." Adam heard Cheng Man laughing and mocking in his ear: "It's really like a mentally handicapped person. Others don't even know that he dislikes him. He is still called a senior brother."

"Yeah." Adam answered him in the same way: "What an idiot."

Lin Sa found Su Rong in the corner of the backstage.

He smelled of alcohol all over his body, his shirt was still wet, and his hands were still wrapped in a new towel. He was quietly curled up in a corner of the corridor, as if he was extremely tired, with his eyes downcast, leaning quietly wall.When he was a child, he used to wait for Vincent to get off work like this, and when he got sleepy, he would sleep there. When he saw him coming, he opened his eyes and called out, "Lin Sa."

He has always been called Senior Brother, just kidding, and he is also called "Daya" by others, this is the first time he called his name, but Lin Sa didn't have time to think why, because he saw the blood on his shirt the first time.

"Is it Li Shang?" His originally calm expression suddenly turned into fury.

"No." Su Rong only said indifferently, he didn't say who it was, as if he was extremely tired, Lin Sa didn't ask, but just untied the towel and checked the wound on his hand.People who grew up on the ninth floor know how to deal with wounds, even Su Rong is no exception, the bleeding has stopped, there are many small wounds, like glass, they may need stitches, at least they need to be cleaned with water.

"I'll take you to the hospital."

"I don't want to go to the hospital."

"Okay, I'll take you home." Lin Sa said, trying to help him up, but he heard him suddenly whisper: "It's Adam."

"what?"

"The rabbit I raised, it was Adam who fell to death." He told Lin Sa softly, "I can't borrow clothes anymore, brother."

His voice was calm, but Lin Sa's eyes were a little hot.

"It's okay, I'm still here." He said.

Su Rong didn't say how sad he was, Lin Sa just pretended that he didn't know how sad he was, and just regarded it as an ordinary professional crisis.Seems like as long as he brings Su Rong home, takes a shower, processes his grief, and lets him sleep, it's no big deal.

But Su Rong said softly again: "Li Shang knew, so he beat Adam up."

Yeah, he knows, but he doesn't tell me.

As smart as Li Shang, how could he beat Adam for no reason?He must have seen the clues, he knew he believed in Adam, but he didn't want to say the reason, he wanted to prove himself that he believed in him more.If he doesn't prove it, he won't say it.Allow yourself to touch.

So I finally met, the naked malice, the hatred accumulated for more than 20 years, like hitting a wall hard, the wine glass shattered to the ground, and the wound caused by the glass was actually very painful.

But what about pain?Li Shang just wanted to hurt himself.Now you know that your brother is not trustworthy, right?Hurry up and apologize to me, Su Rong can almost hear his voice saying this.From the moment he refused to tell himself why, he was waiting for this day, he was not afraid of being hurt by Adam, stabbed or thrown into the glass, so what?He doesn't care, he is Li Shang.

He has to win anyway.

"How did you let go of it?" Lin Sa heard Su Rong ask himself softly, and he called himself like asking something he didn't understand when he was a child: "Senior brother."

He didn't say anything about letting go, but Lin Sa knew what it was.Because his tears also fell hotly.

How do you let go, the person you love doesn't love you, he doesn't even care that you get hurt, he just wants to see you hurt, because he wants to win.That burning pain is enough to make you question your own soul.

"I never let go." He answered Su Rong like this: "I will never let go, and I will never forgive."

Su Rong seemed to want to say something, but his cell phone rang, as if some new news came in, so he explained softly to Lin Sa: "It's Qin Jianjia, she said that Li Shang is in her room, and there are photos As proof. She likes Li Shang so much, so she keeps sending me messages."

He seemed to be telling a story about someone else, as if everyone in the story had nothing to do with him, whether it was Qin Jianjia or Li Shang.

Then he said: "That day at the secret base, you said you would be my insurance, is that moment now? Can I give up? I'm too tired, brother."

"Do you want it now?" Lin Sa asked him softly.

Su Rong nodded.

"Okay, then I'll teach you how to end it." Lin Sa knelt down and told him, "Do you still remember the airline where you and Li Shang went on vacation? I recommended professional charter flights to Li Shang. In fact, as early as five years ago It happened before, and Xiao Su and I took that flight to Quebec. Their style of pilots has always been like this. The landing was as thrilling as a movie, but there were zero accidents. Our oxygen masks fell off and we got off the plane. I went to get the card. You wanted to speed up at that time, so when Li Shang seemed to be running away at the New Year’s Eve dinner, I gave him this business card, and I knew you would follow him. Xiaorong, Have you ever heard of the drawbridge effect?"

"What is the drawbridge effect?"

"People in dangerous scenes, such as suspension bridges, will have many physiological reactions similar to a rapid heartbeat. The human brain will understand this as love, but it is actually just an illusion."

Su Rong laughed.

He should have known earlier that Lin Sa spoiled himself the most. If he wanted to speed up, he would help him speed up. If he wanted to leave, he would help him leave.It turned out that there had never been any epiphanies at [-] feet, and some were just repeating the journey of him and Xiao Su. I always liked to learn from him, and now that I have come to this point, it is time for the end credits.

He was not angry at what Lin Sa said, he was always good-tempered, he just reached out his hand to Lin Sa, like every time in the past.

"I'm tired, brother, let's go home." He said.

Li Shang went back to the Baile Festival and searched the entire venue, but he couldn't find Su Rong. He even searched for Cheng Man's stupid afterparty. He found nothing except the smell of alcohol, and Cheng Man still pestered him with a smile He said drunkenly: "A fool fell here today, that scene was so funny..."

He ignored her and continued to call Su Rong, but he couldn't get through. When he thought that Su Rong had gone home first and wanted to go back and have a look, his phone rang suddenly, it was Su Rong.

In the early morning, there were still many lingering fans around the venue. The area was very bustling, and there was a commercial street outside, which was even a bit noisy. He stood at the side door of the venue to answer the phone, and heard the name "Li Shang" over there.

Probably he was really going to die. After searching for two hours, he must have been angry before, but now that he heard his voice, he couldn't get angry at all.

"Where are you?" He even asked Su Rong calmly.

Don't have any more quarrels, and don't get entangled with master, senior brothers, or even Bo Yan. Li Shang doesn't have to mention it, as if nothing happened. He just wants to go home with Su Rong, under the warm light. Next, say goodnight to him.

But Su Rong didn't answer, he just didn't speak, Li Shang heard his breathing, unexpectedly calm, then he said softly: "I'm leaving, Li Shang."

"Where are you going? Are you going home?"

In fact, he guessed it, because Su Rong's voice was so calm, as if going back to a long, long time ago, when nothing happened.

"Is it because of Qin Jianjia?" Li Shang quickly asked, "I haven't had anything with her, and I won't sleep with anyone else."

I know.But why are you in her room?

It's just that everything is meaningless now, like a long road has come to an end, no matter how painful it is, you can still smile when parting, Su Rong just said softly: "Li Shang, turn to the left."

Li Shang originally thought he was on the left, but there was nothing on the left except a bustling commercial street, and then he understood.

It was Su Rong who wanted to see him, this was his last side.Before Li Shang realized this thought, he had already run out from the side door.

There were some reporters hovering outside the side door, as well as many passers-by and a few fans. They were just picking up some unremarkable second-tier stars, but they didn't expect a Li Shang to come out, and they immediately surrounded them like vultures seeing meat.The commercial street was also attracted, and many voices screamed "Li Shang".But they were just joining in the fun, and the reporters were overjoyed. The interviewees who couldn't get an appointment usually fell from the sky like pies at this moment. They all took out their microphones and recording pens, and the photographer picked up the machine and hit his face .

"Li Shang!" "Li Shang!" Countless voices were noisy, some were polite, called "Mr. Li", they were all reporters, chasing him and asking: "Mr. Li, did you just participate in the Baile Festival?  … Mr. Li, please..."

Su Rong is not on the commercial street, the opposite is an office building, the downstairs is a whole floor of shops, and there is a coffee shop on the terrace above.Li Shang turned his head helplessly in the crowd, and countless complicated pictures rushed in front of him at once, and every light seemed to be making trouble...

Where is Su Rong?

The reporter has never seen such a Li Shang. He is like a dazed and beautiful beast, rushing around in the crowd irritably and at a loss. Who would use this word on Li Shang?But at this moment, he was even flustered, the flawless sculpture showed emotion, and the flash light finally came on. This scene is memorable.

He even started to run suddenly, pushing away the crowd in front of him. He ran very fast, and because of his embarrassment, he looked even better against the formal attire.If he could think of something to say at this moment, maybe he could keep Su Rong.

"You look better in this dress than I imagined." He heard Su Rong whisper on the phone.

"Don't go..."

He couldn't finish, because Su Rong hung up the phone with a calm sound.

The crowd left behind by him chased up again, like hungry piranhas, countless eager eyes looked at him, and the flashlight almost turned into a sea of ​​lights, illuminating the handsome young man standing in it, his expression was so sad, like Some precious things were lost, and the reporter was still shouting eagerly: "Mr. Li, Mr. Li..."

Mr. Li is about to lose the person he loves, who of you can help him.