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Jiang Shiyan pressed on him, looked at him coldly, and said harshly, "Don't provoke me."

Lin Zhou looked at him for a long while, then parted his thin lips lightly, "Jiang Shiyan, let's break up."

"What did you say?" Jiang Shiyan's eyes turned red all of a sudden, the hand holding Lin Zhou's shoulder tightened suddenly, and his voice was torn out of rage, "Don't even think about it."

"Do you think it's interesting for us to be together like this?" Lin Zhou lay on the ground and looked at him quietly.

"Why is it not interesting?"

"I don't even love you, how can we still be together."

"You said you love me." Jiang Shiyan gritted his teeth.

"But you don't believe me." Lin Zhou sneered.

Jiang Shiyan looked at him for a long time, "Whether you love me or not, you can only stay by my side and don't even think about going anywhere."

"Why, do you want to threaten me again like that time? Will the same thing happen again? Do you think I'm a fool?"

Lin Zhou was aggressive, Jiang Shiyan retreated steadily, but refused to let go.

Lin Zhou raised his hand and pushed Jiang Shiyan, but Jiang Shiyan remained motionless.

"I said break up, or not?" Lin Zhou raised his leg and pushed his knee against his thigh. Jiang Shiyan's body shook, and the hand holding Lin Zhou's shoulder tightened a little.

"It doesn't matter, don't even think about it." Jiang Shiyan suddenly lowered his head and kissed Lin Zhou's lips.

Grinding and tearing, Jiang Shiyan's movements were extremely irritable and eager.

But the people below him didn't respond and didn't move.

Jiang Shiyan kissed for a long time, then stopped suddenly, begging him in a suppressed and low voice, "I'm sorry, I promise I will never do this again, please forgive me?"

Hearing Jiang Shiyan's almost helpless voice, Lin Zhou felt an unspeakable pain in his heart, but Lin Zhou restrained himself, turned his head away from his lips, and said two words lightly, "Break up."

Jiang Shiyan held him tightly in his arms, his arms trembled, and his voice trembled, "It doesn't matter, don't even think about it."

Lin Zhou was in a better mood, and seemed quite determined.

Lin Zhou pushed his head out of his neck, met Jiang Shiyan's red eyes, and a singing voice sounded in Lin Zhou's mind: I am always too soft-hearted, too soft-hearted...

"It's fine if you don't break up." Lin Zhou looked at him.

"Okay, as long as we don't break up, I'll promise you whatever you say." Jiang Shiyan relaxed.

"Jiang Shiyan, let's get married."

It didn't know when it started to rain outside, the sound of wind and rain mixed with Lin Zhou's clear and shallow breathing, Jiang Shiyan froze there.

In the kitchen, Jiang Shiyan was standing there in an apron kneading noodles and preparing to make hand-rolled noodles, while Lin Zhou was leaning against the door with a can of beer and drinking.

"By the way, send out some noodles, steam a few buns, and eat them for breakfast tomorrow."

"Okay." Jiang Shiyan lowered his head and face, his side face was cold under the light, but Lin Zhou felt that he saw a large dog who was wronged.

After laughing, he didn't bully him, he was wronged.

He proposed to Jiang Shiyan, but Jiang Shiyan didn't respond to him. The more Lin Zhou thought about it, the more angry he became, and he turned and left the kitchen.

There were a few more pots of flowers and plants on the balcony, which should have been bought by Jiang Shiyan during Lin Zhou's absence.

Jiang Shiyan is quite interested in flowers and plants, but Lin Zhou is not good enough, he will die whatever he raises.

Lin Zhou nestled himself on the recliner on the balcony, thinking about what happened today, and finally felt that he was the most wronged one, okay?

It was Jiang Shiyan who forced himself to stay by his side back then, and it was Jiang Shiyan who didn't believe him today.

It's a stupid thing, just piss him off.

What's next?

Let Jiang Shiyan see a doctor?

Jiang Shiyan must have disliked the doctor, otherwise he would have gone there long ago.

Such a proud person, Lin Zhou can't imagine what kind of scene he will face when he faces his weakest place.

Lin Zhou felt distressed just thinking about uncovering his own scars for an outsider to see.

The sound of closing the door from inside interrupted Lin Zhou's thoughts. Lin Zhou's position on the balcony was half blocked by the door. Looking from his position, he could see Jiang Shiyan running around in the living room like a headless fly. After looking for each room, I opened the anti-theft door and walked out without changing my shoes.

"Why are you going?" Lin Zhou shouted.

Jiang Shiyan froze suddenly, turned around, walked a few steps forward in the direction of the voice, and saw Lin Zhou on the balcony.

"I... throw out the trash..."

Lin Zhou looked at his empty hands, "tsk", "throw yourself?"

Jiang Shiyan looked at him for a few seconds before whispering, "I thought you were gone."

"I'm just kidding." Lin Zhou sneered, "I own the house, and you have to leave if you want to leave. Do you really think I'm stupid?" Brother Dazhou has always had a high IQ when it comes to money.

Jiang Shiyan took a deep look at him without saying a word, then turned and walked to the kitchen.

"Do you want me to cook with you?" Lin Zhou asked.

Jiang Shiyan's eyes lit up, but then dimmed again, "No need."

"Stop." Lin Zhou got up, walked up to him with his slippers on, and stared at him, "You obviously want me to accompany you, why say no? Why don't you say it?"

Jiang Shiyan looked at him, "I'm afraid you don't want to."

"You didn't ask how you know if I'm willing or not?" Lin Zhou looked at him, his soft voice sounded like a strange coaxing a child, "Ask me."

Jiang Shiyan was silent for a long time before he said with difficulty: "Can you go into the kitchen and help me cook?"

"No." Lin Zhou refused without hesitation, and before Jiang Shiyan's expression dimmed, he said, "I can only watch, I don't know how to do it."

Jiang Shiyan couldn't help laughing, although the smile flashed by, but Lin Zhou felt that he relaxed a lot.

Lin Zhou also felt relieved.

Jiang Shiyan and Haomian began to roll with a rolling pin. In fact, Lin Zhou didn't like noodles very much, but he just wanted to toss Jiang Shiyan.

Lin Zhou felt tired from standing, so he hooked up a small stool and sat down in the kitchen.

The kitchen is not small, but it's not as big as running a train. Lin Zhou, a [-]-foot man with long legs, sat there and stretched his legs out for comfort, occupying more than half of the kitchen's walking space.

After being tripped by him a few times, Jiang Shiyan kicked him helplessly, "Take it easy."

Lin Zhou glanced at him, reluctantly shrank back.

Seeing that the atmosphere was good, Lin Zhou felt that he could try to talk.

"Little hammer..."

"What?" Jiang Shiyan frowned at him.

"It's just the pet name of Iron Hammer." Lin Zhou motioned him to be calm and calm, "Xiao Hammer, in fact, you can just say what you want me to do, don't hold it in your heart, if you don't say it, how would I know What am I going to do, right? Just like you don’t want me to go to the bar to see Shen Mo, you just say it, then I won’t go..."

"I didn't mean to ask you not to go." Jiang Shiyan stopped his hands and looked down at Lin Zhou, "Lin Zhou, I didn't mean to interfere with your life, I just... I was wrong..."

"Are you out of your mind?" Lin Zhou turned cold, "Haven't you realized what's wrong with you yet?"

Jiang Shiyan was a little taken aback.

"Jiang Shiyan, what is my relationship with you?" Lin Zhou asked him.

Jiang Shiyan didn't speak, and Lin Zhou didn't want him to answer, so he said to himself: "A couple, do you understand what a couple is? A couple is two people."

Lin Zhou stretched out two fingers and gestured, "It's a voluntary partner, and it's mutual. In other words, you can interfere in my life. This is a couple. Why can't you interfere in my life?"

"……I think……"

"You don't think so." Lin Zhou interrupted him, "What do you think, you have to say it, don't sacrifice yourself in the name of my good, understand?"

"I'm sorry." Jiang Shiyan

Hearing his apology again, Lin Zhou became even more irritable, why couldn't he explain it.

Lin Zhou roared, "Can you stop apologizing, you don't owe me..."

"I'm afraid I'm asking too much of you, and you can't stand it and will leave." Jiang Shiyan's sudden words interrupted Lin Zhou's temper.

Jiang Shiyan smiled at him, and there was unspeakable bitterness in the smile.

Lin Zhou got stuck all of a sudden, Jiang Shiyan's every move and every expression today made him feel distressed.

Jiang Shiyan sat down beside Lin Zhou, leaning side by side with Lin Zhou.

The sleeves were rolled up, and the marks on the forearm appeared in front of Lin Zhou.

Lin Zhou has been pretending not to know about it for so many years, so even if he sees these scars occasionally, he won't look at them too much.

"The first time was in the fourth grade of elementary school." Jiang Shiyan hooked Lin Zhou's shoulder, tapping his fingers on his shoulder repeatedly.

"My parents are not at home all year round, I miss them very much, I want them to be by my side, but every time they come and go in a hurry, I don't even have time to say a few words to them, as time goes by, many things will be overwhelmed In my heart, it has been suppressed for a long time, like a balloon has swelled to a critical point, and I want to release it."

"Pain...it's quite decompression..." Jiang Shiyan laughed at himself, "Since then, it's like an addiction. When I'm scared at home, when I miss my parents, when I'm in a bad mood..." Maybe it was back to that suffocating childhood, Jiang Shiyan took a deep breath.

He didn't speak for a long time, and Lin Zhou didn't urge him. Jiang Shiyan suddenly took the initiative to talk about this matter. Lin Zhou was caught off guard, and he also needed to slow down.

After a long time, Jiang Shiyan spoke again, "...and, when I realized that I fell in love with a boy."

Lin Zhou kicked the small bench out, sat next to Jiang Shiyan, held his hand, and intertwined his fingers.

"It's the first time for a teenage boy to experience heartbeat. All his thoughts were devoted to it, and it was quite peaceful during that time." Lin Zhou was like a ray of sunshine, illuminating his life.

The endless night is no longer a fear, but a hope. Every day, he looks forward to the coming of the next day, so that he can see Lin Zhou.

"As time and age grow, the boy I like gradually grows up, more and more handsome, more and more girls like him, he also likes girls, and plays well with them... "

"I haven't." Lin Zhou hurriedly defended himself, "It's not as popular as you said. I haven't received a few love letters in junior high school."

"I received it." Jiang Shiyan glanced at him, "Except for the ones delivered face to face, I took away the others like stuffing table holes and schoolbags."

Lin Zhou: "..."

Come on, Jiang Shiyan, you are awesome.

He said that such an attractive person like him should be lined up to pursue him.

"At that time, when I saw you laughing and playing with other girls, I felt very uncomfortable, and I also..."

"After I went to high school, I shared a dormitory with you. In order to prevent you from finding out, I began to adjust myself, and the frequency became less and less. Until we bought a house and lived together, we couldn't control ourselves more and more, and began to become irritable and depressed. ..."

"Lin Zhou." Jiang Shiyan gently rubbed his hair, "I never doubted that you would do something outrageous behind my back, even if you had this idea, you would only do it after we completely ended our relationship Yes, I have never doubted this. What I have always been most afraid of is that you will get farther and farther away from me after you have more friends and meet more people. It is a very...perverted idea, I've been trying to restrain myself, but sometimes...it's hard...sorry."

This is the first time for Lin Zhou to hear Jiang Shiyan say these things in full. In fact, Jiang Shiyan is not the only one who has been avoiding, he has also been avoiding.

This is Jiang Shiyan's scar, and it hurts every time it is uncovered, and it hurts Lin Zhou when he hurts it.

"...Then do uncles and aunts still have a big influence on you now?" Lin Zhou asked cautiously.

Jiang Shiyan smiled and shook his head, "No, it's all about my childhood..." Jiang Shiyan paused for a moment, then looked at Lin Zhou, "Actually, later on, I put a lot of feelings that I couldn't get on you. In me, from childhood to adulthood, you are the only one who has been with me." He always thought that it would be difficult to bring up this past, but speaking of it in front of Lin Zhou was not as unbearable as imagined.

Lin Zhou thought for a while, then patted Jiang Shiyan on the shoulder, "If you want to recognize me as a father, I can barely accept it. After all, I will never have my own children in this life. Having a son as big as you is considered a profit." .”

Jiang Shiyan: "...do you want to fight?"

Lin Zhou probed into his lips and kissed him tenderly, "Call me Dad."

Jiang Shiyan clasped his waist, pulled him back, and kissed him an extremely tender kiss.

After speaking, both of them felt a little empty, and the question that was entwined between the two of them that they were avoiding was finally released.

Jiang Shiyan looked at the range hood in a daze, and said softly after a long time, "I'll go see a doctor after I've been busy for a few days."

"Huh?" Lin Zhou frowned.

Jiang Shiyan stretched his legs, took out a pack of cigarettes from his trousers pocket, opened it, and bit one into his mouth, "Actually, after being with you, I haven't hurt myself anymore, but I'm always scared, scared You will suddenly leave one day, after all, during the two years when we broke up, you were quite happy without me."

Lin Zhou frowned, this guy actually turned over the old score?

How did he have the nerve to turn over old accounts?

"Oh." Lin Zhou sneered, "I think you didn't have any major problems without me in those two years. Don't talk about each other."

"Lin Zhou, I'm going to see a doctor, can you accompany me?" Jiang Shiyan held Lin Zhou's hand tightly.

"not good."

After chatting, Lin Zhou also found the crux of the matter. Jiang Shiyan's family and parents are the origin of everything, but the final foothold is on him.

When Jiang Shiyan grew up, his parents' influence on him became less and less, and all his feelings over the years were devoted to Lin Zhou.

Lin Zhou breathed a sigh of relief, it was easy for him to say.

Lin Zhou stood up, looked down at the person sitting on the ground condescendingly, and said flamboyantly, "See a doctor, you don't need to see a doctor, I'm a fucking panacea."

"Lick and lick when you feel bad, the kind that you don't need to spend money on for a lifetime."

The light rain that had been pattering outside the window for half the night suddenly seemed to be turned on and poured down.

Jiang Shiyan's throat trembled slightly, he turned off the kitchen light without opening his eyes.

The house was plunged into darkness, only the living room was lit with the sepak takraw nightlight that Lin Zhou bought for Valentine's Day last time.

Before Jiang Shiyan could react, Lin Zhou slapped the light away, and when the light appeared, Jiang Shiyan hurriedly looked away.

Lin Zhou didn't even look at him, and said lightly: "I haven't finished talking just now, let's continue now."

"Can we talk about it later?" Jiang Shiyan said in a hoarse voice, "I want to be quiet first."

"No." Lin Zhou reached out and took out the unlit cigarette from his mouth and bit it in his own mouth, "This matter must be resolved now."

Lin Zhou looked at him and asked him, "Jiang Shiyan, can't you see everything I've done for you?"

"What?" Jiang Shiyan was startled.

Lin Zhou stared at him, "In the past half a year, from the time we reconciled to being together, have you never thought about everything I have done for you and everything I have changed? Do you question whether I love you or not? I fucking kicked a person, and I have done so much to change such a question?"

"I..." Facing Lin Zhou's questioning, Jiang Shiyan didn't know what to say for a while, he really didn't think about it...

Lin Zhou kicked his legs, bit his cigarette and lifted his chin, "Light it up for me."

Jiang Shiyan took out the lighter and wanted to get up, but found that his legs were numb, and he couldn't get up for a while, so he could only wave to him, "Bend down."

Lin Zhou bent down in disgust, and asked Jiang Shiyan to light a cigarette for him, while complaining: "I have to condescend to light a cigarette, so what's the use of you."

Jiang Shiyan: "..."

I really wanted to say a few words to him, but I was wronged first, so it's better not to speak now.

Lin Zhou leaned on the sink, took a puff of cigarette, and then continued: "I'm almost thirty, and I've never been in a relationship. You said it was the first time I was in a relationship, so you may have mistakenly thought it was love? You fucking This is age discrimination. What happened to my first relationship at the age of 28? Did I provoke you? Are you discriminating against my brain? No matter how fucking abnormal I am, I won’t stop dating for more than 20 years. Just find a man to fall in love with..."

"...You don't seem to be normal." Jiang Shiyan couldn't help but say something.

"..." Lin Zhou was surprised, "How dare you refute me?"

"Your words are contradictory and illogical." Jiang Shiyan leaned against the wall and sighed. His mind was so messed up that he couldn't think.

"You don't contradict what you say, you are awesome, you are organized, and you are a fool."

Lin Zhou was cursing, and took a puff of cigarette, "Mr. Jiang, I am in the entertainment industry. I am locked at home and do not leave the door. There are too many Yingyingyanyans around me. If I think about it, I will soon I just thought about it, and I can wait until now for you to cut off my beard."

Lin Zhou put out the cigarette butt on the countertop of the sink, threw it into the trash can, knelt down and knelt down in front of Jiang Shiyan, held his face so that he could look directly into his eyes, "Think about it, if you understand it, why not?" Dad cooks."

After Lin Zhou finished speaking, he slipped out of the kitchen, not forgetting to turn off the light in the kitchen before going out.

The room became quiet, and the sound of rain falling outside the window could be heard. Jiang Shiyan leaned against the wall, unable to explain what he felt, but felt that a certain place in his heart that was tightly pressed by boulders seemed to have found an exit. People saw some light.

"Jiang Shiyan, I love you only because I want to love you." Lin Zhou's clear and firm voice came from outside the kitchen.

Jiang Shiyan closed his eyes.

The little Lin Zhou who kissed him carelessly on his face, the Lin Zhou who appeared at the door of his house in the wind and snow, the Lin Zhou who stayed by his side even though he didn't love him, the one who later said "Jiang Shiyan" , I love you" Lin Zhou...

Like a bodhisattva who saves suffering...forget it, it's still an angel...

Jiang Shiyan couldn't help but let out a low laugh.

I didn't know that Lin Zhou, who was crowned with an angel halo, walked out of the kitchen and slowly came back to it. He was the one who was chased, but he was the one who confessed repeatedly, he was the one who gave the ring, and he was the one who proposed ...

When the question was asked, it seemed that his marriage proposal was declined?Doesn't it mean rejection if you don't agree?

"Day..." Lin Zhou vicissitudes of life lit a cigarette. This plot doesn't seem quite right. In the TV series, he is posting backwards. According to the normal plot, now he should go to the crematorium and chase his wife to be cremated. field……

Bah... chasing husband crematorium... bah, chasing dad crematorium.

Lin Zhou leaned on the sofa and finished smoking a cigarette, but there was still no movement in the kitchen. Finally, Lin Zhou couldn't bear it any longer. He came to the kitchen door and knocked on the door, "Since I came back yesterday, you haven't let me have a meal. A normal meal, are you going to starve me to death?"

Jiang Shiyan came back to his senses, hurriedly got up from the ground, turned on the light, "I'll cook right now."

Lin Zhou glanced at him quickly, seeing that he looked normal, and he didn't look like he was crying, so he felt a little uneasy. After such a mess today, shouldn't he cry a lot to vent it?

Does not crying mean that he deliberately made this scene useless today?

"I'm already 30 years old, and I don't cry at every turn." Jiang Shiyan seemed to see through his thoughts, and said lightly.

Lin Zhou: "..."

When you should be smart, you are really smart.

Lin Zhou ate the hand-rolled noodles with tomatoes and eggs very well, but Jiang Shiyan barely moved.

After being silent for a while, Jiang Shiyan said cautiously: "You just said you were married?"

"You heard it wrong." Lin Zhou did not hesitate.

"I heard that right."

"I said we broke up." Lin Zhou sneered.

Jiang Shiyan tightened his hand holding the chopsticks, "I am an adult, I have the right to choose, I choose to get married."

Lin Zhou glanced at him, "Everything I say has a time limit, and it won't wait until it expires."

The first marriage proposal was rejected, do you think you don't want to lose face?

The author has something to say: I changed it for most of the night, but I didn't save it in the end, and I did it again, and I wanted to die.

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