lost spark

When Ye Ting saw the news that Liang Jieyun and his wife had returned to China, he had just finished a French class. In the message, Liang Jieyun wanted to have a meal with him, and she was waiting for Ye Ting outside the school gate.

The light rain has been pattering for half a day, the breeze is blowing, the wild swallows are busy sheltering from the rain on the eaves, the salesmen close the stalls, and the cars on the street are honking.

Stopping in front of a corner coffee shop, Ye Ting took the umbrella and gave it to the waiter, through the glass window she could see the middle-aged woman sitting inside.He went in and sat down opposite her, Liang Jieyun then looked away from the window and stopped looking around.

The past few years of staying abroad has made Liang Jieyun change a lot. The years have left marks on her face. Her hair, which she used to like to coil up, is cut short. The black loose printed dress brings out her decent and graceful appearance.

"You're here, son." Liang Jieyun smiled. She hadn't seen Ye Ting for nearly a year, and there was no response to her phone calls or messages. Now that they met, the backlog of emotions in her heart dissipated a bit recently. "I ordered the mocha you like to drink."

"When did you come back? Did you find a place to live?" Ye Ting asked.

"I arrived last night. Your father chose a villa in the south of the city. We live there, which happens to be close to your school. You can come back to live. It's always more convenient at home."

Ye Ting had expected that his confession in just a few words was not a small shock. It can be said that it broke Liang Jieyun's faith for more than ten years. It took so long to find her. She must have done well and never went abroad. Prepare.

Adding a spoonful of sugar to her coffee, Ye Ting said, "No, don't keep treating me like a child."

"In the eyes of a mother, a child will never grow up." Liang Jieyun rolled her ears and hair, folded her hands on her lap, in a negotiating posture, and then cut to the point: "I have something to ask you. Here, what you said..."

"It's true." Ye Ting interrupted her. Facing Liang Jieyun, he was unexpectedly calm. He had complained about Liang Jieyun's cruelty, but when he saw the shock and sadness in her eyes, he felt that this woman was a bit pitiful. What she knew could never happen.

But the truth must be revealed. Ye Ting has imagined a day of countless showdowns. He and Liang Jieyun have their own answers to whether it is wrong to fall in love with a man. The wrong choice can be exposed with a fluffy "I'm sorry", but In no case should they be evened out.

The waiter who came to serve made Liang Jieyun try her best to restrain herself, her voice was low and trembling: "Did you feel unhappy when I took you away without saying a word, that's why you made up this joke to revenge me, did you take me with you?" Did dad pay attention to it?"

"Mom, that's not the problem." Ye Ting said, "There's nothing wrong with you lying to me. I'm just stating a fact. I know you can't accept the fact. Today, the biggest fault lies with me, not you. I'm sorry for keeping it a secret for so long, I hope you can calm down and support me rather than staying in a stalemate with you all the time."

Liang Jieyun's face was blue and white, two cups of coffee were just a gimmick, no matter how much sugar was put in, it would be bitter, no one could really drink it, she suddenly understood something: "Are you with him now?"

"Yes."

Liang Jieyun leaned back in her chair as if discouraged, pondered for a long time, and said, "I see. I want to meet him."

Ye Ting said seriously: "No, Mom, I'm not stupid."

At the beginning, Qu Yixiao didn't say anything to keep him, but put Ye family and Liang Jieyun in his eyes.Hatred and passion can hardly coexist, and Qu Yixiao never holds grudges, which is what Ye Ting fears the most.

In a group of kind people, regardless of age, men are always softer than women.

"Do you know what you are doing?"

Liang Jieyun's anger finally exploded. In the open environment abroad, she has seen many homosexuals, both men and women. Although she no longer rejects them as before, she still cannot accept it when it is her child's turn.

Abandoning Qu Yixiao just wanted Ye Ting to stay away from this kind of person as much as possible, but time passed, and Ye Ting came to tell her that he was this kind of person, and the nausea and disappointment of knowing that Qu Yixiao liked men returned. On Ye Ting, Liang Jieyun couldn't cry.

Her emotions turned from anger to fear, and then to paleness: "This will destroy you."

"Mom, I know you're sad."

"so what?"

"I used to be so sad. I think Qu Yixiao was like us. You see, fate is fair. It's just a matter of time. You think you're doing it for my own good, but in my opinion, you're doing it for me." Good’ reasons, do something that hurts me, you must be very sad when I say this, but I still want to say it, and if I say it, my heart will not be troubled.”

Liang Jieyun's face was particularly ugly, and she maintained the last bit of reserve: "What good will happen to the two men? Even if it's legal, you can't have children. When you become a father and have your own family, you will think how stupid you are now. Ignorance, you need to be quiet, and we can talk after you think it through."

"You have traveled thousands of miles to ask me for an explanation. This is what I say. Don't try to separate us. It's useless. I won't listen to you or him. This time I will listen My own." Ye Ting thought for a while, but decided to say: "I am married to him, he is my family, I am very happy."

"What did you say?!" Liang Jieyun stood up abruptly, knocked over the cold coffee in front of her, the brown liquid flowed on the wooden table, and part of it dripped to the ground along the edge of the table, Ye Ting heard the sound of ticking, The waiter not far away quickly came to clean with clean towels.

In contrast, Ye Ting was much calmer: "So...will you leave me too? Mom."

Every time I think of this, Ye Ting is the first to die of pain.

The sad thing is that he left the person who could save him in the same place. Thoughts are dead things, they can't pass through mountains and seas, they can't fly through clouds, rain, wind and moon, but a body depends on it to live.

Looking back, it wasn't that they abandoned Qu Yixiao, but Qu Yixiao abandoned them. From another perspective, loneliness was to throw people away, and he chased Qu Yixiao very hard.

A few drops of coffee were splashed on Liang Jieyun's exquisite and expensive dress, she had no time to take care of her demeanor, her chest heaved violently, she stared and glared, as if she was going to raise her hand to slap Ye Ting in the next second, but she didn't do that, she just moved She moved her lips, didn't even answer Ye Ting's question, picked up her bag and turned to leave.

Coming out of the coffee shop, the rain stopped and the dark clouds were quiet.

Ye Ting got on the bus, there were only three or five people on board, and he sat in the last row by the window.

The bus passes through the tidy street, forming a long shot. Young parents on the side of the road are feeding their children cotton candy. The restaurant is booming, the flower garden is painted with eye-catching yellow paint, and a couple comes up when they stop.

This is a good position to see clearly every face that can be seen in and out of the car, from the couples returning home with full hands after shopping in the mall, the students returning home together after class, to the homeless passing by on the street corner.

It was like this when he first returned to China. Ye Ting took buses of different routes when he had nothing to do, from the west of the city to the east of the city, from one end to the other.

He can spend a lot of time in a daze, and can use his memory to peel off countless faces in the crowd with his eyes wide open.

Sometimes he just sits for a whole day, blinks his eyes when similar eyebrows flash across, and he doesn't know that person again. Now that he thinks about it, that kind of mood is about the same as that of Qu Yixiao who sells couplets.

He didn't dare to bet that the person he was looking for was still in this city.

Restaurants, shopping malls, a street, to a bustling station, hillsides, streams and lakes, every time he casually walks through is like a purgatory, every part of his body is painless, his flesh is rotten to death, but his eyes must be alive, he must Use your eyes to trace the outline of the other person.

At this time, the heavy hope will spread in the heart time after time, and the futile emotions will grow and climb like a strong vine. People who are passively waiting will always be sad and happy. The beginning of a sunny day.

Ye Ting thought about Qu Yixiao, he was afraid of this kind of waiting.

When he came back to his senses, the bus had already reached the terminal, and he was the only one left on the bus.He got out of the car.

Leaving that position, Ye Ting seemed to withdraw from the panic. He clearly realized that he didn't need to look for Qu Yixiao anymore, he just needed to wait for someone to come back in their common home. Such comforting thoughts effectively dispelled the gloom in his heart. .