looking away

【simple】

Diesel, rice, oil and salt, simple and simple

The more calm, the less turbulent

Joy from a thought, optimism from a view

No law, self-control, happiness with you

57. Power

In the bathroom, Xiao Fan hugged Liu Tong and sat in the bathtub, listening to her talking about her unhappiness. "I know, you are not like that, and I also know that they don't want to do something to you, but I don't know why, I just keep getting angry..."

"Xiao Tong," Xiao Fan interrupted her, "This is not anger."

"what is that?"

Xiao Fan kissed her forehead, said with a smile: "Fool, it's jealousy. It's jealousy, it's a possessive desire born of love."

"Jealous?"

Xiao Fan nodded, and continued: "That's right, you've never been jealous of anyone, have you?"

Liu Tong thought about it seriously, and then said affirmatively: "No, I really don't have it in my memory."

"Impossible," Xiao Fan didn't believe it. "From childhood to adulthood, jealousy is almost like a shadow. The emotion you have for things that you like but don't belong to you is jealousy. When you were young, you saw that other people had toys that were better than you. Students who study better than you in the class, and when they grow up, the object of their crush and being close to others will make people jealous, not to mention good family background, smart mind, good looks, superior figure, etc., these may become the object of envy ah."

"Wait, wait, isn't the premise you said these things belonged to? But you are mine, why should I be jealous?"

Xiao Fan smiled: "Emotional jealousy is different from this kind of jealousy. What is jealousy? Vinegar is a kind of flavoring agent. Sometimes people have an illusion that they are loved by others. The illusion of contamination. At this time, the more you love it, the purer the vinegar will be. Even just a drop, for the world of two people, can make a cup of thick sour juice. Little fool, you just drink I drank the cup of vinegar I brewed myself, so I feel sour and uncomfortable. Girl, you love me very much."

"Is this also love? I'll go! That's no fun, I'll have to be in such pain in the future?" Liu Tong pushed Xiao Fan's arms away, sat up straight, and his face was full of frustration. "I can't tie you up at home and keep you out of contact with the outside world. I can't control myself to make vinegar. I torture myself with trivial things every day. I have to die a few years earlier. What kind of fucking theory is this? , How could there be this kind of love? Forget it, forget it, forget it." While speaking, Liu Tong stood up and stepped out of the bathtub to dry his body.

Xiao Fan didn't expect that she would make such a wonderful thing jump like this, he watched her walk out of the bathroom in a daze.Xiao Fan then came out and asked, "What's the matter?"

"Forget it! It's over!" Liu Tong put on his pajamas and sat on the bed, staring at each word with big eyes.

"No, are you together?" Xiao Fan was stunned.

"Yes, it's yellow and yellow. What kind of broken love is this. I won't talk about it anymore."

"Why? Just because of jealousy?" Xiao Fan couldn't turn the corner.

"Yes, it's not right! It's mainly because of you. I can't get along with you, I can't control my anger... Oh, it's not anger, it's jealousy. Then you, you can't control your sedateness, we are not suitable .”

"Why am I so nervous?" Xiao Fan asked.

"You can't play? Not only do you take yourself seriously, you go wild swimming in the middle of the night! Damn, I get angry when I talk about it. Is there a mermaid in the sea? I'm fascinated by you, go in the middle of the night swim?

Tell me, what if something happens to you?What if you die?What about the family?What about work?What about friends?And me?And what should I do?

Do you think you are stupid?Did you leave your mind on the shore before going to sea?

Did you come out to play alone?Don't you miss everyone?Don't miss me?I'm fucking crazy, you know?Floating on the sea like a fool, pretending to be dead, why didn't a wave take you down?It made me mad, it made you beautiful, it made you pissed off, it made you ignorant of the depth in the middle of the night.

Why!I said Xiao Fan, do you think you are quite capable?Think you swim really well, don't you?Why!Didn't you let Xiaoshu, Xiaoxue, and sister Li wait to see your swimming posture before getting into the water?

Then let me tell you, idiot, remember to tell people in advance before you get jealous next time: 'Hey!Girls, I'm going to go to sea, come and enjoy it! 'Don't be stupid, just pounce on it, people not only didn't see it, they didn't even know where you went!You're stupid, you're so white... If you want me to say..."

Xiao Fan was completely dizzy after being criticized by Liu Tong.She couldn't get a clue at all, Xiao Fan's head throbbed with pain from these messy contents.Xiao Fan frowned and stepped to Liu Tong's side in two steps, lowered his head and sucked Liu Tong's lips fiercely, sealed Liu Tong's mouth, and blocked her unstoppable accusations.

Liu Tong gradually became short of breath, and gradually gave up resistance, Xiao Fan suddenly raised his head, and then bit Liu Tong's neck fiercely, this bite hurt Liu Tong: "Ah! Damn! How did you bite me? ?”

Xiao Fan grabbed Liu Tong and raised his hand to hit his own: "Listen carefully to me. From now on, you can act and make trouble, but you don't have the right to break up!"

"Why?" Liu Tong frowned.

"Just because you abandoned me for no reason, just because you didn't live happily ever after you left me, just because of your deep love for me, just because of your jealousy today, just because you worried about me An Wei has even surpassed himself, and with all of this, you have no right to violate your own heart, betray your own thoughts, and break up with me!"

"Cut, conceited!" Liu Tong blushed and turned away from looking at Xiao Fan.

Xiao Fan kissed Liu Tong again, this time gently and provocatively, when her hand reached under Liu Tong, Xiao Fan said in Liu Tong's ear: "You love me more than you imagined. Liu Tong , remember, you have no right to break up."

That night, Xiao Fan pressed on Liu Tong, forcing her to repeat a sentence: "I have no right to leave you."

58. Choose

In the morning, Liu Tong woke up and suddenly thought of something, she pushed Xiao Fan and asked: "Then, what about jealousy?"

Xiao Fan covered his head and turned his head and opened his sleepy eyes: "What's the matter?"

"Are you jealous? I'm still jealous. If you won't let me go, what if I die of acid?"

Only then did Xiao Fan understand Liu Tong's words: "Hey~~~ Do you still want to? Ancestor, you won't die from sourness. You just started eating, so you just get used to it. Good boy, come and sleep again."

"Fart!" Liu Tong pushed away Xiao Fan's arm, "What if I can't get used to it? I'm very poor at adapting."

Xiao Fan was tortured to no avail, sat up, put his arms around Liu Tong and said: "Okay, okay, I will be cautious in my words and deeds in the future, hide from everyone, put myself in a suit of armor, don't let me Baby is jealous, okay?"

"It's okay." Liu Tong was a little relieved, and she put her arms around Xiao Fan's waist and said, "Xiao Fan, do you know? I wish I could eat you in my stomach, and then I will feel at ease."

Xiao Fan laughed loudly and said, "Oh my God, are you possessed by a demon? How did a straight-faced person suddenly become a man-eating monster?"

"Yes, I fell into your demon, and you are responsible!"

On the second day after returning to work in the city, Xiao Fan moved into Liu Tong's house.Gao Yu was not driven away in the end, not because of Liu Tong's deep friendship, but because of Gao Yu's self-cultivation, and Xiao Fan's lenient attitude, he was able to continue to be her big light bulb.

His daily work and life are in order. Recently, Xiao Fan became obsessed with Chinese medicine in his spare time. He bought a lot of books, looked up information on the Internet and wrote and drew pictures at the same time. He was extremely busy.

"Sister Fan, are you going to change your career?" Gao Yu asked while eating watermelon.

"What should I change? I just need to understand." Xiao Fan read and memorized the book without raising his head.

"It takes so much effort to understand and understand, you can do it!" Gao Yu gave a thumbs up in admiration.

Xiao Fan suddenly remembered something, looked up at Gao Yu: "I heard that you have gotten very close to Lao Xie and the others recently?"

"Ah, it's okay, I always go to her shop to play. I will go fishing with them this weekend."

"Oh," Xiao Fan thought for a while, raised his hand to push his glasses and said, "You are still young, don't be too self-willed."

"What do you mean?" Gao Yu asked.

"What I mean is that hanging out with them all the time may have a bad influence on you. After all, you are not Les. If it gets out, it will delay finding a boyfriend." Xiao Fan simply made it clear.

"Oh, this matter. Hehe, if you can't find it, you can't find it. I think it would be good to find a woman. You see, you and my sister have a good life. I plan to put myself Break away, live a different life." Gao Yu said indifferently with a carefree look.

"Nonsense, can you do whatever you want with this kind of thing?" Xiao Fan became serious. "The choice of relationship can't be decided by looking good? When you are les, it's just a relaxed and happy game? Under the surface of our good-looking, what is the real life, have you ever thought about it?"

"Then tell me what the truth is? Isn't it just living with someone?" Gao Yu was not convinced.

"Have you ever lived with someone? It's so easy for you to say, Gao Yu, you grew up so big, have you never loved? Even if you haven't loved, haven't you seen others love? In this society, even if it is protected by the state, the society Recognition, family support, heterosexuals are not going smoothly, let alone the same sex.

On the basis of handling the relationship with each other well, we have to resist the pressure of the society and the pressure of our family members. We can neither get the understanding of our relatives nor the blessings of our friends.Unable to defend themselves, unable to protect each other, even if they just want to live together, they have to sneak around, and even use the most stupid form of marriage to deceive the world!

Two people living together, lacking the minimum sense of security, lacking the most basic rights, do you think the life that is difficult at every step is really what you want to choose? "Xiao Fan became more and more excited as he spoke. He closed the computer with a snap, went to the window and lit a cigarette.

Hearing the argument, Liu Tong walked out of the bedroom, looked at Gao Yu who was at the table, and then looked at Xiao Fan who was standing in front of the window and said, "Didn't we have a good chat just now, how can we turn it over?"

Gao Yu glanced at Liu Tong and said loudly, "Yes, what you said is right. I don't understand anything, but I would rather live in hardship than meet a scum like my father."

Liu Tong walked up to Gao Yu, rubbed her hair, and said in a low voice, "Girl, your dad can't represent all the men, and we can't represent all the les. Yes. It’s not uncommon for women to be scumbags. Alas, let alone others, even I was a scumbag for a long time when I was young.”

"Really? I don't believe it." Gao Yu looked up at Liu Tong.

"Hehe, it's true. If you knew the young me, you would only be afraid or disgusted, and you would definitely hide away."

"Huh?" Gao Yu looked incredible.

Liu Tong said with a smile: "Back then, not only did I have the bad habits I have now, but I also squandered my feelings. At that time, I thought that nothing would happen anyway, and I played as much as I could, and as long as I could talk nonsense. At that time Rich in emotion, full of energy, changing people every day or two. The people I know in the circle almost make me a circle, it is called a notoriety, and anyone who looks a little decent stays away from me, fearing that I will be stained It's fishy."

"I know, I know, I've heard that in the same-sex circle, it's messy. But I see them, and you two don't look alike."

"A few people you know are past that age, but it's hard to tell when you're young."

Gao Yu secretly pointed at Xiao Fan's back: "What about her?"

Liu Tong bowed his head and thought for a while and said, "She should be an exception."

"Me too," Xiao Fan turned around and took the words.

"Ah!" Gao Yu was a little disappointed.

Xiao Fan went on to say: "Gao Yu, everyone is the same. Without restraint and responsibility, it is easy to do some outrageous things. But today's society is precisely because it blindly avoids this group and refuses to give us a Basic recognition and right to life.

Therefore, the same sex lacks basic legal protection, lacks social supervision, and cannot normally perform family obligations and responsibilities.The direct result of these is that the more undesirable things happen, the more they happen.

Most people of the same sex go to extremes, or use extreme self-discipline and self-control to gain a little respect from society with their intelligence beyond ordinary people.They must be cautious at all times and go all out to gain the most basic recognition.Still others, especially at a young age, may choose the easier path of giving up on themselves.Anyway, if there is no need to be responsible, no one restrains, no one approves, no one understands, then simply act recklessly, break the pot and throw away the precious life.Because of their youth, many people take ignorance as their ability and their uniqueness as their personality. While exposing and entertaining themselves without any consideration, they also pollute and lower the social image of this group.Some of these people will gradually recognize the reality as they mature and get on the right track.But there are still some people who are caught in a sad vicious circle. "

Liu Tong took Xiao Fan's words and continued: "Gao Yu, let me tell you, to choose a love that belongs to you, gender is of course not the limit. However, it must not be used as a choice of love and choice because it is easier to start and easier to give up. gender conditions."

Gao Yu looked at the two of them and nodded seriously.

Xiao Fan sighed, patted Gao Yu on the shoulder and said, "Gao Yu, don't take it as a joke, don't step in because of curiosity, novelty, or excitement, you will definitely regret it. But once you make a decision, then You must be strong, this is not an easy road, you have to bring a hundred times tougher courage than ordinary people, to face yourself and face the unknown world."

59. Xiao Min

"Sister Tong," Gao Yu said in a long voice, "I understand, but the most important thing now is that I'm hungry!"

Liu Tong smiled and thought to himself: Yes, what's the use of telling her so much, growth is achieved by ourselves, we are really old, when will we learn to nag.

"Okay, what do you want to eat?" Liu Tong asked.

"Barbecue, just go to the one from last time."

The three walked out of the house, and Gao Yu followed behind them, seeing their intimacy, thinking about the warning they had just given, she couldn't help but sigh softly: Alas!Sisters, even though you have said a lot, you still can't stop me from being attracted to her.

After dinner, Liu Tong leaned on the bed and read a book, while Xiao Fan was drawing on the computer.It was the phone on the bed that rang.Liu Tong looked sideways and saw that it was Xiao Fan's mobile phone, and it showed an unfamiliar mobile phone number in D City.

"Hi, hello." Xiao Fan picked up the phone that Liu Tong handed over, still clicking the mouse with one hand.

"Yes, I am Xiao Fan. Are you?"

"Oh~~hmm, I remember..." Xiao Fan glanced at Liu Tong, Liu Tong continued to read with her head down, she closed the computer and walked out of the bedroom with the phone in hand.

Liu Tong looked at the figure of Xiao Fan closing the door with his backhand, thinking about the intermittent voice on the phone just now: Sister Fan, I am Xiao Min...Xiao Zhi....Liu Tong thought, who is Xiaomin?What does it have to do with Xiao Zhi? Why did Xiao Fan go out to answer the phone?Intuition told Liu Tong that there was a problem.

Not long after, Xiao Fan came back to change clothes and was about to go out. Liu Tong pretended to be casual and asked: "It's so late? What's the matter?"

"Well, go...go to the company and be back in a while. You go to bed first."

"Well, drive slowly."

Xiao Fan didn't come back until after two o'clock in the morning.As soon as she lay down lightly, Liu Tong sat up and turned on the light.

"Woke you up?" Xiao Fan asked.

"I haven't slept all this time." Liu Tong stared at Xiao Fan.

"What? What's wrong?" Xiao Fan patted Liu Tong's head.

Liu Tong snapped Xiao Fan's hand open: "Why did you go?"

"Go to the company."

"Give you another chance, why did you go?"

"Yes, I'm going to the company. President Han is attending an exhibition in Hong Kong. I need some information urgently. I'll go to the company and pass it on to him." Xiao Fan tried to hug Liu Tong.

"Xiao Fan, this is the last chance, if you want to tell the truth, you can choose to shut up." Liu Tong got up, stood on the ground, crossed his arms, and put on a condescending posture: "Why did you go? "

"Going to pick up the station." Xiao Fan sat up obediently, hugged his legs and put his head on his knees, and replied in a low voice.

"Who?"

"Xiaomin."

"Go on."

Xiao Fan raised his head and showed pitiful eyes: "Oh, it's all Xiao Zhi's fault. She heard that Xiao Min was coming to Zh City to attend the job fair years ago, so she told her that I was here. So, Xiao The girl called me as soon as she came here, and wanted me to help her find a place to stay. Oh, by the way, this Xiao Min is the babysitter Xiao Zhi found for me."

"Who are you kissing?" Liu Tong asked.

"...The one I pretended to kiss, it wasn't real."

"Didn't you not contact her?"

"No contact. It's not that Xiaozhi is meddling. Did you give her my phone number? I've never contacted her."

"Then she never contacted you?" Liu Tong narrowed his eyes.

"Absolutely not, Xiao Min is a very honest girl. By the way, she is younger than Gao Yu. When we met, she hadn't graduated yet. I guess she wouldn't dare to get in touch with us. Not much..."

Liu Tong sneered and looked at Xiao Fan: "You know a lot? I know her age, her school, her personality. How can I remember? You seem to have said that you don't even remember her name?"

"I, I didn't remember it on purpose, she told me at that time." Xiao Fan couldn't explain clearly, and was very anxious.

"Well, I'm too lazy to listen to your making up. Where did you arrange for others?"

"The house rented to me by the company expires after the next year, and it has been vacant all the time, so," Xiao Fan's voice became softer and weaker.

Liu Tong turned around and hugged the quilt and threw it on the sofa, turned around and grabbed Xiao Fan by the collar, sent her out of the bedroom, and closed the door with a slam.

Xiao Fan sighed, lying on the sofa and looking at the ceiling, he thought silently: Xiao Zhi, Xiao Zhi, you have hurt me.

The next day, Gao Yu watched Xiao Fan tidy up the bedding on the sofa, his eyes almost fell out.She pointed to the pillow on the sofa, then pointed to Liu Tong who was washing up, and made a suicide wrap around her neck.Xiao Fan watched her gesture, and asked in a voice that could be heard in the whole room: "Are you going to die?"

Gao Yu waved her hands tightly and shook her head: "Shh, keep your voice down, I mean, you were kicked out by my sister."

Xiao Fan continued to say in the same voice: "That's right, I didn't sleep well, the broken sofa is not comfortable at all."

Gao Yu froze for a moment, then asked, "Why?"

Xiao Fan simply ignored Gao Yu, and said in the direction of the bathroom: "I worked overtime yesterday, and I came back too late for fear of affecting your sister's rest, so..."

Liu Tong walked out of the bathroom, passed the living room, and said in a neutral tone: "Today, do you still work overtime? Do you also work overtime tomorrow? Are you working overtime this week? You don't need to collect things." She went into the bedroom, changed her clothes and came out , and continued: "Oh, by the way, the sofa is not comfortable. I remember that your house will be retired after a year. Why don't you go back and live for a few days, just to accompany others. The little girl came all the way and lives alone. , may be frightened."

Xiao Fan sat at the dining table eating breakfast with his head down, without making a sound.Gao Yu was confused when he heard this.It wasn't until Liu Tong went to work that he asked what was going on: "Sister Fan, you can do it. With my sister's temper, you dare to lie."

"I'm afraid she will be angry. After all, I had such a scene with Xiao Min. When I hesitated, I didn't dare to tell the truth."

"Then you can't go home. What's wrong with you? First you hide it, then you hide it..."

"What's so cute about hiding? The job fair is close to my home. Isn't it convenient for me to think about it? How can I think of so much. Besides,"

Xiao Fan's cell phone rang, and she glanced at the screen, frowning slightly: "Hello, Xiao Min."

Gao Yu quickly posted it, Xiao Fan pushed her away in disgust, walked to the door and changed his shoes and said, "Well, okay, you go. I see. Oh, that's right. Tonight, me, me and me A friend invites you to dinner. Hmm, no trouble, no trouble, that's it, contact me again."

Seeing that Xiao Fan was about to close the door, Gao Yu hurried over and said, "I'll go tonight, too. I'd like to see who this Xiao Min is."

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Diesel, rice, oil and salt, simple and simple

The more calm, the less turbulent

Joy from a thought, optimism from a view

No law, self-control, happiness with you