looking away

【prose sentence】

Emotions have never had anything to do with reason

ups and downs ups and downs

Unwilling to take

Hypocritical, young, drunk, entangled

43. Compromise

"Xiao Fan, Xiao Fan" Ning Xiaofeng saw that Xiao Fan's thoughts had wandered, so he had no choice but to continue: "I will give you a holiday these days, you go home to see your parents, discuss and discuss, and think about it yourself, and then give it to me as soon as possible." I will write back."

"Oh, good, good."

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Rumble rumbling, beep...beep...beep...beep...

The notification sound of the completion of the washing machine brought Xiao Fan back from his memories.

After separating from Ning Xiaofeng, Xiao Fan went back to her parents' house and stayed at home for three days. She analyzed the stakes and interests of the matter to her parents. The old couple's attitude was very clear: Just do what you like to do.They are in good health and will go abroad to play in the past few years, so don't worry about them at all.As for whether to go to Zh City or not, she decided entirely by herself.

After returning from her parents' house, Xiao Fan has been holding back in the house for seven days, Xiao Fan still can't figure it out, she doesn't know what she is afraid of, what is the obstacle blocking the way?

After half a year, there was no news from Liu Tong. From anger to pain, from pain to confusion, Xiao Fan finally calmed down and reluctantly accepted the reality. Who would want such a thing to pop up all of a sudden.

Opened WeChat, and read the only WeChat that she sent in half a year: "Fan? Why did you turn off the phone?" "...I'm worried about you!" Xiao Fan raised his right hand unconsciously, and pressed his thumb on his pulsating temple,

Worried, why leave?

After leaving, why do you still miss it?

If you can't put it down, why don't you dare to pick it up?

Oh, how could I fall in love with you who are so weak!

Well, I surrender, I compromise, I'll go to you, okay?

Liu Tong, you must know that this is the last remaining relationship between us.

Xiao Fan dialed Ning Xiaofeng's mobile phone: "President Ning, I agree to go to ZhH City to do preliminary market research and user development, but I have a request."

"Great, what's the request? Tell me."

"I can opt out at any time."

"this......"

"Mr. Ning, don't get me wrong. I'm not a person who shrinks back because of the difficulty of work. I just want to leave a way out for myself for personal reasons. Please believe me, if I want to quit, I will do my best to ensure that in the interests of the company."

"Okay. Xiao Fan. I promise you. In this way, you come to the company, hand over the work, and leave in the next two days."

"Okay." Xiao Fan put down the phone and took a deep breath.Liu Tong, do you know?I'm coming.

In the evening, Xiao Fan asked Li Jun, Yue Qing and Xiao Zhi to have a meal together.He entrusted his parents to Li Jun and handed over all the company's affairs to Yueqing.Handed over the keys of the house and the car to Xiaozhi.

Xiao Fan raised his glass and said, "Brothers have been here for so many years, so I won't say thank you. You have bothered to help me take care of the house, and keep in touch with me when there is anything to do. Don't look at the north and south, it will only take a day if you come back." So, no matter how big or small you need to come to me, you can come to me, don't hesitate and be polite. Also, if you have time to take your family and friends to play in the south, you must contact me first, you come, eat, live and play I have it all covered."

"You're welcome, Xiao Fan. But this time, you've made a big decision. I heard that this business is not easy to do, is it?" Yueqing said, "And we don't make money. We are only thirty You are a young man, what do you think you are so puzzled? My only pursuit now is how to make money without being tired. I am not as courageous as you. I ran so far and expanded my territory. This life is worth it Is it worth it? If you are successful, you will be the one to go forward. If you are not successful, you will be the one who will give up all your efforts..."

Li Jun raised his hand and pushed Yueqing, interrupting him: "Can you stop talking like this, just go for whatever you want, and give up that one? According to what you said, people have to die anyway, so don't think about how to live." Right! Just pack up and lie on the bed and wait to die. It’s useless anyway.”

Yue Qing pouted and said, "Li Jun, don't sing high-profile things. I didn't talk about the life and death. Let's talk about going to ZhH City now. Why, you still think it's a sunny road?"

"I don't know if there is sunshine or not, but it is definitely a different way of life. Look at Xiao Fan's fighting spirit has been getting less and less in the past few years. What's the point of working according to the rules every day? I think even if this road will not go smoothly, it will Stumbling is not necessarily a bad thing. Try it, what can you do? As you said, people live for only ten thousand and eight days. Apart from eating, drinking and drinking, we must have a different experience. It can’t change the length of life, we always It can expand the width of life. I absolutely agree with Lao Fan."

Li Jun turned his head and said seriously to Xiao Fan: "Brother, no matter what difficulties you encounter when you go, just give a squeak. As long as I can help, I will come right away."

"Cut, who can't go, I can go too, didn't we say..." Yue Qing wanted to say something, but was interrupted by Xiao Zhi:

"Fan Ye, are you doing it for her?"

Everyone was silent for a while, Xiao Zhi looked at Xiao Fan and said, "My brother advises you, don't jump into the pit again. It won't work."

"Why?" Xiao Fan blurted out.

"Oh! I won't hide it from you. What happened to you a few days ago, I drank too much one day and couldn't hold it back, so I told her on WeChat. I thought, you are so unlucky, if she still It's a little hot, I must come back to see you and stay with you."

"You told her?" Xiao Fan was surprised.

"Ah! I told you, and I exaggeratedly said that you had no choice but to be slaughtered."

A black line appeared on Xiao Fan's head: "What did she say?"

"Her? Just didn't strangle me, and gave me three words back the next afternoon: She can do it.

Depend on!Listen, listen.It pissed me off at the time.What do you mean you can do it?This is obviously coping well.This only shows that she doesn't care about you, doesn't miss you, Fan Ye.If you go this time because of her, I tell you it's not worth it. "Xiao Zhi drank the wine in his glass, pursing his lips with a dissatisfied expression.

A smile appeared on the corner of Xiao Fan's mouth: "I've taken everyone's words to heart, don't worry. I can do it. Drink!"

44. Tangle

The plane landed at ZhH City Airport, Xiao Fan got in the car he had already booked, and drove towards the new development area.Xiao Fan looked at the tall and straight tropical plants lined up lushly on both sides of the road, her eyes were filled with green, and she felt extremely happy.Turning on the phone, seeing Ning Xiaofeng asked if she arrived?Then he replied: I just arrived and I am going to the company.Ning Xiaofeng called just after sending the call: "Tired?"

"is acceptable."

"Then take a good rest. The press conference is scheduled for the 21st, next Friday. I will fax you all the relevant materials. After you rest, start preparing. In the evening, Mr. Han in ZhH City will welcome you , drink less."

"Okay, thank you, Mr. Ning, I will." Xiao Fan closed his eyes and leaned on the back of the seat, thinking about where to start the work.Wechat sent out notifications for new messages one after another.

Yueqing said: Lao Fan, are you here?I see that the weather over there is extremely hot. Do you think it is more suitable for drinking skewers and drinking beer?Hehe, that's great, then what else can't be solved, if it's really hard, you just ask them to masturbate twice, and drink to waste him.

Xing Lan sent a message saying: It's really not interesting.Before he left, he didn't say treat me to a good meal.Send me a text and send me away.Why!I was wondering, are you afraid to see me or do you want to see me?You wait, I will chase ZH City in winter to see where you hide.At that time, you have to treat me or treat me to a big meal.

Xiao Zhi said: Lao Xie knew you were coming today, and he estimated that you would be busy these two days, so he made an appointment to meet you on Saturday.When you arrive, write to her.

By the way, also, don't take my words seriously, you are so far away from home, if you let yourself fall into it, the buddies will not be able to catch you right away.You think about it.

Xiao Fan smiled, and replied to several people: OK.knew.

The company is much smaller than City D.The general manager Han Bing is a capable middle-aged man. He and Ning Xiaofeng once served in the same army and have an unusually deep friendship.He had heard Xiao Fan introduced by Ning Xiaofeng a long time ago, so he had a preconceived impression of her.At the wine table in the evening, Xiao Fan's unpretentious conversation and his steady and steady progress plan made Han Bing feel like he hated seeing each other late.When he is happy, he tends to drink too much, and in the end he had to let the driver put him in the car, before leaving, he turned his head and said to Xiao Fan: "Xiao Fan, I have spotted your friend, it's settled, it's settled. "

Facing the breeze at night, Xiao Fan sat on the stone chair downstairs in the rented area, his mind was tumbling magnificently.

—Does she know I'm coming?Should I tell her?Let's say hello, after all, we will meet sooner or later.However, since we will see each other sooner or later, why do we need to say hello in advance?We'll see each other when we see each other, and greet each other naturally, isn't it all right?

— But, what if she asks?Ask yourself when will you come?Why don't you say something?Will it be embarrassing then?It seemed like she was hiding from her on purpose... By the way, she even sent herself a WeChat message, probably after Xiao Zhi told her about her situation, she sent the WeChat message.

Xiao Fan opened WeChat and glanced at the time when Liu Tong sent the message, it was 2:37 in the morning.

——You stay up so late, are you worried that I won’t be able to fall asleep?Alas, I have a nervous breakdown, so why don't I pay attention to rest... By the way, I didn't reply!In those few days, I was piled up at home, and I didn’t know that my phone was out of battery, and I didn’t see her message at all.So, will she be unhappy?

——Then can I send her a message now?If you tell her that you are coming, will it ease her mood?

...seems like it can't!Can't can't.Since she didn't reply, she must think that I don't care that much about her.She is so afraid of pressure, maybe she can breathe a sigh of relief.So, if I say hello, she's bound to get nervous again.

——Oh, no, no, no matter what, you can’t contact her.Even if you meet her in the future, you have to act like you have nothing to do with her, just a friend, just greet her naturally, that's all.

——That's right, that's it, it's just a matter of greeting naturally.But what if she doesn't want to see herself?What if... she turns around and walks away?Wouldn't that be more embarrassing?How about saying hello in advance?gosh...

Xiao Fan had never been so entangled in anything, her head was about to explode, but she still didn't know what to do.She didn't want to think about it anymore, but her thoughts just couldn't stop.Xiao Fan sat on the stone chair and smoked one cigarette after another until he became dizzy and his stomach turned upwards, so he had no choice but to get up and go upstairs.

45. Messy

Gao Yu was very disturbed. She thought that Liu Tong would be fine if she punctured the window paper. Who would have thought that she would just do things behind her back and do it in front of her? In Gao Yu's eyes, it just got worse and there was no improvement.

Liu Tong seldom goes to the bar, in exchange for drinking at home until midnight every day, lying on the ground and sleeping.Every morning, Gao Yu still couldn't see Liu Tong's shadow, because she got up early again, washed up and went to work, Gao Yu said, persuaded, and once even called her stupid, Liu Tong was lucky, as if she hadn't heard, He didn't even glance at her, what should he do.

Gao Yu knew that Liu Tong was thinking of Xiao Fan, but she couldn't understand why the feelings of this generation were so hypocritical and laborious?If you think about it, just talk about it, just ask for it, and spend so much effort to torture yourself, what are you trying to do?

She began to dislike Liu Tong, and when she saw her bored drinking at home, she became very angry.Gao Yu can think about it, and don't watch it when she sees the noise. Sometimes she will go to Lao Xie's bar, and sometimes go back to the dormitory for two nights, but in the end she still misses Liu Tong, fearing that she will die of drinking at home one day. People are in charge, so go out to live for at most two days, and must come back early on the third day, and continue to dislike Liu Tong.Once, Gao Yu went to the bar to play, came back late, and as soon as he entered the house, he saw Liu Tong sitting on the sofa, holding his mobile phone in a daze.

"What are you doing?" Gao Yu asked.

Liu Tong didn't answer.

Gao Yu then asked: "What are you thinking about?" Liu Tong didn't seem to hear it.

Gao Yu snatched Liu Tong's cell phone and wanted to check it: "Let me see, what is it? I scared my sister out of her mind."

Liu Tongteng stood up and said anxiously, "Give it back to me."

Gao Yu took a glance while hiding, and saw a photo in which a woman with short hair seemed to be kissing another woman.The mobile phone was snatched back by Liu Tong, and Gao Yu followed behind and asked, "Who is it? Where did you get the photo?"

"It has nothing to do with you," Liu Tong replied angrily.

"It has nothing to do with me, but it seems to have a lot to do with you!" Gao Yu observed Liu Tong's expression, and said tentatively, "Yes, is she?"

Liu Tong didn't make a sound, turned around and went out the door, and came back with a bottle of white wine.Although she drinks every day, she rarely drinks liquor.She was annoyed by the spicy taste of baijiu, and coupled with her poor health, she couldn't bear the stimulation of high alcohol.Therefore, she drank some low-alcohol alcohol every day.

Seeing that she was holding white wine, Gao Yu understood Qiba and scolded her mentally.Isn't this cheap!You don't want it, and people are not allowed to look for it!If someone finds you, you will be unhappy again.If you are not happy, then you want it!

She beat Liu Tong in a strange way: "Auntie, don't you all have this kind of virtue when you are old? You are so fucking hypocritical. Your vigorous and resolute spirit will be gone after leaving the company, right? How about being cowardly like this B?"

Liu Tong ignored her.Gao Yu went on to say: "Come on, give me your phone, I'll call that Han Fan, and I'll ask her if she's still interested in you. If so, hurry up, you're so big Arms are waiting for her. If not, you fucking give up on me as soon as possible! Drink, drink, drink to death, no one will know, there is a fart."

"Don't worry about it." Liu Tong took a sip of his wine and frowned hotly.

"Sister, you think I want to take care of you. I wish I didn't show kindness on the plane, and I don't know you at all." Liu Tong raised his hand and said blankly: "Get out, it's not too late "Gao Yu's eyes were red with anger, and he roared: "I don't! If you tell me to get out, I'll get out? Why should I listen to you? Look at your current behavior! Are you still a little bit human? Seeing that you look like a human being during the day, but you are not as good as a ghost at night.

Don't lose your temper with me, you can't scare me.Liu Tong, can you be more normal, I know you are uncomfortable, I know you are suffering, but there must be a leader!You have to come out one day.It's been almost half a year, come, come, take a look at yourself, take a look for yourself. "Gao Yu grabbed Liu Tong and dragged him to the mirror.

"Look at you, you are so thin that you have only a handful of bones left, brother! Are you going to die here? Who did you discuss with? Did your parents agree?"

Liu Tong looked at himself in the mirror, his face was earthy gray, his eye sockets were sunken into his eye bags, his hair was scattered and messy, and the blood vessels on both sides of his thin neck were throbbing abruptly.There was only a layer of skin on the collarbone, and under the loose clothes, it was clearly visible that the hideous scars were flushing red and peering at him abruptly.

Liu Tong didn't feel a shiver.Is this still human?Is this how she looks when she goes to work every day?She turned to look at Gao Yu, pointed to her face and said, "I'm in the company, so..."

Gao Yu waved his hand and said, "Don't worry, I still look like a human being during the day, but it's much better with makeup and a layer of skin on."

Liu Tong sighed lightly and said, "I never looked in the mirror at night, really, I have wronged you."

Gao Yu stroked Liu Tong's hair and said, "Sister, you are the one who has been wronged. If you continue like this, you will be useless. A friend of mine told me that she knows a psychiatrist, and we will see it tomorrow. Look, all right?"

Liu Tong smiled wryly and sat back on the sofa: "Thank you, Gao Yu. No one else can cure my problem. Because it's not that I won't get better, but that I don't want to get better at all."

She pointed to the sofa to let Gao Yu sit down, and then said: "The day before yesterday, a friend sent me a message saying that she was in trouble. I was in a hurry, but I didn't know how to help her. I asked many people See if I can unblock the door, but I didn't get a useful line. That day, I couldn't sleep after drinking, I was restless, and then I couldn't control it and sent her a WeChat message. This is when I left City D It was the first time I contacted her. But she ignored me."

"At that time, I thought, maybe I didn't see it, or I was still angry with me? It wasn't until today, when I saw this, that I realized that I was being sentimental." Liu Tong pointed to the phone.

"Hehe, actually, this is pretty good. Isn't this the result I should most want to see? But, when I really saw this photo, my lungs were about to explode, and I was really angry Dead. I just want to rush to her house immediately, drag her over, and bite her down..."

Gao Yu watched Liu Tong finish these words with choked sobs, and couldn't help feeling sad.If he hadn't seen it with his own eyes, Gao Yu would never be able to connect Liu Tong at this moment with the confident, elegant, and easy-talking person in the workplace.

"Gao Yu, give me some more time. In the past, I was enjoying my pain and self-abuse in your eyes, and I was enjoying the torment of longing. It's not that I can't get out, it's that I don't want to get out at all, you know? ?Every time I finish drinking, I am addicted to the happiness I once had, and tasting those memories, I am happy. So, I don't want to wake up at all.

However, starting today, I will seriously go out.I promise you, and I promise myself, that I will be fine. "Liu Tong's clenched fists trembled slightly on his legs.

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【prose sentence】

Emotions have never had anything to do with reason

ups and downs ups and downs

Unwilling to take

Hypocritical, young, drunk, entangled