chronic silence

"Nurse nurse, I want to ask, how are the patients in Ward 507 doing now?"

"507? Are you a family member of the patient? Go over there quickly, doctors, policemen..."

Mother Wei didn't think much about it. She was both a doctor and a policeman. She panicked, and the nurse behind her yelled, "Auntie, Ward 507 is over there!"

Mother Wei immediately turned around and ran towards Ward 507 where her son lived.

"Wei Nuo!" When Wei's mother pushed the door open, several uniformed police officers surrounded Wei Nuo's bed. She walked over, and the doctor was talking to her son. keep silent.

"What's wrong with my son? Let mom see if he's not hurt anywhere? How could there be a car accident? I'm so careless. There aren't many cars in the thirties. Are you okay? Are you okay?"

The doctor was the first to react, "Are you the patient's family member? The patient's current situation..." He said a lot, and Wei's mother couldn't understand many parts, but it was roughly the same as what he said on the phone.

"Doctor, I don't quite understand what you're saying. I just want to ask, can my son's disease be cured? Will it recur?"

"Stress disorder can be cured with reasonable treatment, but once it is stimulated to recall memories, the possibility of relapse is very high, and patients may stagger and overlap seizures in different periods, and related memories will also be confused and deviation. We invite you to come here, just hope that you can enlighten him, in this case, psychological counseling is much more effective than drug treatment. "

"It's so serious..." Wei's mother's voice became softer and softer, "Wei Nuo, Mom is here with you. Don't be afraid, look, it's not hurt at all——Little Shitou, come to grandma."

"You are Mr. Wei's mother, right?"

Wei's mother held Wei Nuo's hand tightly with both hands, and she didn't know what to say to comfort her.Then I heard a voice from behind, and then I remembered that there were still a few policemen standing behind me, "Yes. Yes. I am."

"It's like this. In view of Mr. Wei's current mental state, Wei Minglei, which is what you call 'Stone', whether Mr. Wei can continue to raise this child is still open to question. We will have a simple question for you later, I hope you able to cooperate."

"Shitou, what's wrong with Shishi? We must cooperate if we have to cooperate... Shitou can't go with you. Wei Nuo, what do they mean by him?"

"Mom." Wei Nuo's voice sounded calm, but it seemed to be weak after being hoarse. "Thank you for visiting me."

"Silly boy, why don't you thank me, a mother came to see her son... Look at you, you don't know how to take care of yourself, so you took care of yourself in the ward on New Year's Eve."

"Shitou, come here." Weinuo waved to Shishi.

Shi Shi obediently approached, "Father."

"Turn around."

Stone put his hands on the back of his head slowly and turned around.

We Nuo gently removed the hand covered by the stone. There was a swelling on the lower left side of the back of the head that could be noticed after a little searching. We Nuo put his fingers on it carefully, and the stone took a step forward with pain.

"Did I do it just now?"

"No, no."

"What's the matter, such a big bag is swollen."

"Turn around and look at me. I just did it, didn't I?"

The child lowered his head and did not speak.

Wei Nuo took a deep breath, "Mom, can I trouble you all to go out for a while? Doctor, please explain to her that this is not a serious illness. Also, I hope you can let her rest for a while and calm down. After a while, ask her another question."

The people present glanced at each other, understanding Wei Nuo's current situation, and quietly left the room.Only Wei's mother turned her head every few steps, really wanting to see her son more.

"Shitou, you have to listen carefully to every word I say next, do you understand?"

Although Shi Shi couldn't fully understand what happened, he got a rough idea.He had a hunch that what Dad said next would be very important, very serious, and he was a little afraid of such a moment.how to say?Especially in the hospital, there is a sense of tension and seriousness in the preparation stage when the doctor installs the needle, wipes the cotton, and binds the rope before the injection, but it does not penetrate.

"Do you want to be as serious as you are in school?"

"Be as serious as you are in class."

"Okay." Shitou found a small bench and sat by the bed, sitting upright with his hands folded, staring at We Nuo and waiting for his next sentence.

"I want to apologize to you for today's incident. Whether it's because of the mobile phone, or because of the car, the car accident, or hitting a bag on the back of your head... I'm really sorry."

The more serious the stone is, the more Wei Nuo will think about what happened today.With just a few words, Wei Nuo became afraid of mentioning the car and everything related to it.Although he knows that he is not vulnerable to this level.In the conversation between the two, after finishing this sentence, Wei Nuo couldn't organize his words for a long time.

"I remember. What else?"

"If, I mean, if, Dad can't be with you in the future, what will you think?"

"Why can't Daddy be with me anymore?"

"I'm just saying if, it doesn't really happen."

"Father, do you think I'm a fool...?" Shito knew that no matter how dull a person is, even a child, he should be aware of something, "Did that uncle doctor tell you just now that you don't want me anymore? Didn't he?" The police uncle wants to arrest you and leave?"

"You're really a fool. Where did you think of it? The doctor uncle is here to treat my father, and the police uncle will not arrest me. He just asks me to pay some money."

"Oh, lose money...do you lose a lot?"

Shi Shi still cares about the "if" that Wei Nuo said just now, probably he doesn't know yet, things that are assumed with "if" will usually become true - Shi Shi has already had this concept, which was taught to him by Wang Xiaowen of.

【"Wang Xiaowen, if, I said, if someone likes you, you... what would you do?"】

【"You like me!"】

【"You, you... how do you know—no, not me, I...】

【"Stupid, how can there be so many ifs in the world, and ah, they still come out of your mouth."】

It was after this time that ten-year-old Xiao Shitou understood what "if".But Shitou was still a little proud that his father could be made to laugh by him.

Wei Nuo continued, "Stone, if Dad has some reasons... hey." The words came to his lips, but Wei Nuo really couldn't say them.

"Actually, you can tell me, I will listen carefully. No matter what it is - it seems that you told me the status of adoption in the first place and there is nothing to feel ashamed of... It's the same, because Dad will have something to say Tell me."

Should it be said that the stone is innocent?Or should I say that I think too complicated?Wei Nuo remembered that when Stone was adopted, he was already six years old.Wei Nuo did a lot of research before this, and he knew that the older the child, the lower the possibility of being adopted.That's because if they start remembering things, "adoption" becomes difficult to explain.There are thousands of reasons for adopting a child, but Wei Nuo doesn't have too many requirements.So he chose the oldest stone in the courtyard at that time.

Wei Nuo never planned to hide it from him from the beginning: first, because he is already six years old, he should have a memory of this incident; No thought it was something to be ashamed of, and he should be treated as an equal.

But to be honest, if it wasn't for his own reasons, he would probably choose to hide it.

"Forget it, let's wait until you go to school in City H. Can you help me see how grandma is doing?"

"Yes!" Stone agreed loudly, and then quickly ran out.It's just that Wei Nuo didn't realize that his hand kept pressing on the position of his heart, as if he was afraid of something unbearable suddenly coming.

It's a prayer, for the stone, it's a prayer.

"Grandma, grandma!" He didn't run far, and Wei's mother ran over to hug him, "How is it? Is your father okay?"

"Father asked me to call grandma to come in."

Mother Wei took Shitou's hand and entered the room.

"Mom. They didn't ask you weird questions, did they?"

Rather than saying that the police asked her, it would be better to say that Wei's mother had a clear understanding of what happened through the police. "No no."

【"We already have a basic understanding of your son's situation. With his current conditions, if he is judged unsuitable to continue raising Wei Minglei, are you two willing to adopt him?"]

【"Of course, he is my grandson, of course he is willing."】

【"If both husband and wife are willing, Mr. Wei can still meet with Wei Minglei frequently. This is also the best solution after the discrepancy is determined."】

【"Both, both sides? His father..."】

【"What did you just say?"】

【"It's nothing, I mean, what if I can't do it myself?"】

【"Yourself? Just you? Do you have sources of income other than social security?】

【"Financial resources? I have them, my pension... other than that? No, no more"】

【"I don't know why your husband is, but I think you still do his ideological work..."】

His thought work?If it made sense, Wei Nuo wouldn't be living in such a miserable situation now... Forget it, I don't want to think about it. "Xiao Nuo, Mom brought some dumplings when she went out. You and Shitou haven't eaten yet, right? Try Mom's cooking."

"Okay." Weinuo tried to move his body, his left leg was a little numb after sitting for a long time.

"It's cold. I wanted to bring it here for you to taste while it was hot, but there were few cars on the street, so it was delayed."

"It's all right. Good, delicious. Isn't it, Stone?"

"Delicious! Grandma give me another one."

"Actually, I'm fine. Now that the doctor has said what he should have said, and the police have finished taking notes, I always feel unlucky staying in the hospital."

"That's fine, Mom will discharge you from the hospital."

"Father, what is bad luck?"

"Unlucky is unlucky. Unlucky at the beginning of a year, if you say that you will be unlucky next year."

"Then let's go quickly, grandma, do you want to go home with us? Or go to... grandpa?"

"No, Grandma will stay with Shitou today, okay?" Mother Wei said while looking at We Nuo, looking at the expression on her son's face, it was uncertain.

Mother Wei arranged for Wei Nuo to be discharged from the hospital. The night was windy, the streets were empty, and Wei Nuo's car was not there. Even if it was, he would not dare to drive easily now.

Memories violently.

"Son, this girl is really nice, she has self-cultivation and ability, and you are in the same company. Mom is very satisfied."

"Mom... don't you think she's too old?" The girlfriend Yi Yin brought back home just because she was older than him didn't let it go.

"I don't think so. I've already figured it out. You like girls older than you. So as long as the age is not too exaggerated, Mom won't think about it. How about it, how long have you been dating and when are you going to get married?"

"Actually, I brought her back this time just to ask for your permission. Now it seems that I can talk to Yue'er with confidence."

"Say it earlier, and I'll tell you later when I go out, your father is having a good chat with her!"

"Yue'er, so you are very young and promising, much more capable than Xiaoyi."

"Don't say that, Yi Yin is only so old, and he has already sat in this position. At my age, he will definitely surpass me."

"Actually, his father and I are not obsessed with age. In the past, there was no one that Xiao Yi brought home during the Chinese New Year that was not older than him..."

"Mom. What are you talking about?"

"Oh, did I say something wrong, Yue'er, don't take offense."

Of course Ma Yueer would not.Yiyin's mother's tone now is completely different from when she was chatting alone just now.From Ma Yue'er's point of view, this is all to invigorate the atmosphere and let her relax.This time I came to see Yi Yin's parents, my father is steady and my mother is shrewd -- at least it looks like this at the moment.

"By the way, when Xiaoyi and Yue'er plan to get married, we can also meet Yue'er's parents sooner."

"Mom, so fast?"

"It's not too fast. You are also 27, and Yue'er can't afford it. From the beginning of the negotiation to the actual wedding, it takes a few months at least, and you have to follow the plan step by step."

"Your father is right, unless you are incapable and haven't made Yue'er make up your mind."

"No, although Yi Yin and I are a few years apart, we have been together for a while. The two of us are quite suitable. Marriage is also a decision we made after discussion."

"That's fine, that's fine."

"Yes, let them do the pre-marital examination first, and let's find some time to visit our future in-laws."

Everything was so logical, just like what Yi Yin said before coming here, her worry seemed a little unnecessary.It wasn't until just now that Ma Yue'er really opened up her heart and regarded herself as a member of this family.

"Son, are you full just now? There are so many dishes at home, why don't I fry some more to fill you and your grandson?"

"No, no need, I will cook if you want to eat, mom, don't rush in and out." Before arriving home, Wei Nuo didn't think of the person who was supposed to celebrate the New Year with him today.But once back home, the familiar feeling, the familiar smell, even the meal that does not belong to two people, and a pair of his shoes at the door... everything seems to be back to the original point, but the time spent in it, no matter what Whether it was 12 hours or [-] years, Wei Nuo couldn't know where Chen Yaoyu went during that time.

Forget it, let's not think about it for now.He remembered that the police who came to question him said that the verdict would come out within a month.The most important thing now is the issue of stone custody.There must be no hope for the parents, and Wei Yan's... They are still newlyweds, and they will have children of their own - even if Wei Yan agrees, gossip will inevitably occur, and Dad's face will definitely be lost.Wei Nuo quickly screened a few names in his mind, but he couldn't find any friends except relatives and colleagues.

Ma Yueer?The first thought that popped into Wei Nuo's mind.He looked at his mother who was quietly busy, and the stone who helped lay the hands, and suddenly he hated himself.Tired, bored, ashamed of myself for thinking this way, blaming myself.

Wei Nuo finally realized the feeling of being cornered.

"Mom, let me come, Shitou, you go to rest. Now... let me see..." Wei Nuo glanced at the time, the phone screen lit up, and he couldn't help but send a text message.

The three of them made a few simple dishes, which were the ones Wei Nuo usually cooks. When sitting at the table, Wei's mother couldn't help crying.

"Mom, why are you crying?"

"grandmother?"

"Mom is fine." Seeing We Nuo's hard life, her heart became entangled.The two of them lived outside for more than ten years, and they still had to send money and buy things to the family. "Mom just thinks that the past few years have really suffered for you." After Wei's mother said this, her emotions suddenly found an outlet, and tears fell on her body.

"Don't talk, don't talk, let's eat. I'm happy to see what I'm talking about." She was afraid that We Nuo would be worried, so she wiped her hands twice, and then showed a familiar smile.

We Nuo saw the small box she put next to the shoe cabinet, "Mom, stay here with me today, you and Shitou will sleep in my room, and I will sleep in Shitou's."

"it is good."

After finishing everything, "Mom, I'm going out to do some shopping."

"What to buy, I'll go and buy it for you... There are so many things at home."

"No need, you are not familiar with this area."

"That's it. Well, then you come back early."

"I'm familiar, I'm familiar, I'm going!" Stone shouted loudly.

"You set off fireworks at home, watch TV with grandma, and dad will be back soon." After Wei Nuo finished speaking, he put on some clothes and went out.

He called Wei Yan first, "Hello, Wei Yan?"

"Brother?" Wei Yan just quelled the war that broke out at home, and there were traces of ceramics and glass on the ground.He stood at the door of two doors, not knowing which one to open.He didn't expect that he would have to deal with his parents and wife so soon. He wasn't prepared, this year was too tiring.

"What's the matter with you, Mom has been away for so long, and she hasn't even called?"

Connecting a phone call is a complaint.Wei Yan took several deep breaths in a row, and it was obvious that Wei Nuo on the other end of the phone could hear him clearly. "Brother, things at home are more chaotic than yours. I just finished cleaning up... I have a terrible headache now, and I really can't leave. How is Mom?"

Wei Nuo was silent for a few seconds, and he could probably imagine what kind of situation Wei Yan was facing—and the situation would only be more complicated and chaotic than he imagined. "Have you drank a lot? Mom is fine. She's here with me now. Let's rest today. Mom lives with me. Come and pick mom up tomorrow morning."

"I'm going to take Cheng Yi back tomorrow. Brother, you can send mom back." Wei Yan just thought that there were so many things waiting for him the next morning, and he wished he could fall asleep right away.He immediately decided not to enter anyone's door and just sleep on the sofa.

"I can't even drive recently, I..."

"That's all right, all right, I'll come and pick up Mom tomorrow." Wei Yan's anger suddenly charged up, and he hung up without saying a few words.One by one really knows how to find time, and they all squeeze together to find his unhappiness.He picked up a cushion and threw it on the ground with all his strength.

The cushion flew far and bounced twice on the ground.Other than that nothing happened.

Wei Yan watched and felt that even inanimate things were laughing at him.

When Wei Nuo heard the busy signal, he didn't plan to call again.Hearing his tone, I'm already tired of it.He was walking aimlessly on the street, only the 24-hour convenience store not far away was still lit.The fireworks in the sky are gorgeous and beautiful, and it takes a short moment to complete a lifetime.Suddenly want to buy a pack of cigarettes.Wei Nuo entered the store, and walked back and forth at the front desk for a while, not knowing what brand to choose.

"Which one do you want, sir?" The cashier boy was very enthusiastic today, which is what Chinese New Year should feel like.

"Let me see."

"What brand did you draw before, sir?"

"First draw."

"First time? You, don't bother me."

Hearing that his accent and tone had changed, Wei Nuo was completely different from the warm and polite look just now. He remembered that Chen Yaoyu had said exactly the same thing to him in high school.Strictly speaking, this is the second time. "No, no, don't get me wrong, I didn't mean to trouble you, but I still want to trouble you to help me find a pack of cigarettes."

The person on the opposite side looked at Wei Nuo as if he was looking at a weirdo, and then randomly found a pack of cigarettes.

"35."

"it is good."

"Smoking is not allowed in the store."

"I don't smoke."

Damn you... the cashier cursed the complete works of "Three Character Classic" in his heart, most of the unhappiness of working overtime was vented on Wei Nuo.

In this convenience store, just a few months ago, he met Ma Yueer and Chen Yaoyu.Who would have thought that everyone would come to this point in a few months?He passed the narrow long table, and the shadows of instant noodles and beer flashed past, but now there was no one on the opposite side.We Nuo's fingers touched the cold table, walked along the edge of the table, and just went out.

He bought a lighter, and the cashier looked at him even more strangely, with some pity in it.

Yes, he needs pity, and needs unknown things to make his head overwhelmed. At this moment, the most useless thing is to wake up.

Light the fire, a plume of smoke rises, squandering freedom in the moment when there is no wind.

After the fifteenth day, let's take the stone and go to City H to settle down.

The smoke made Wei Nuo feel uncomfortable, and he didn't know whether it was too much choking or his eyes were suffocated, so Wei Nuo cried.Mom is still waiting at home, the stone is also there, go home.