chronic silence

Chen Yaoyu stood at the door of Wei Nuo's house. Since that meeting, the internal relationship between him and Liu Junyuan has deteriorated rapidly, and the two of them have almost no communication except for superficial work.Standing in front of We Nuo's house should make him feel more at ease, but he is rarely timid.He can admit that he cares about his own feelings, even more than anyone else in this world; but what he needs to explain is that he, Chen Yaoyu, loves Wei Nuo more than anyone else in this world.This love has been pure, strong, and even shaken, but its final destination and original intention will not change.

Hopefully what you bring will earn you a chance.

Wei Nuo cleared his leave today, and for a week after "Creation Edge", he put all his energy into his work and worked overtime to complete the formulation of a medium-sized project, which can be started immediately after it is approved.If it goes well, this year's performance can reach the target, and the Chinese New Year is coming soon. Wei Nuo wants to spend a different New Year outside with stones.But it is said that if you work hard, you are fighting for whoever lives the longest - Wei Nuo is already 32 years old, and he chooses to fight despite not having so much time. Naturally, fate is unbearable.

So he fell ill unexpectedly.Barely holding on to his sick body, he sent Shi Shi to school. After reading the weather forecast that there would be heavy rain, he put an umbrella in Shi Shi's schoolbag.After settling everything, I honestly curled up in the quilt to sweat.

Weinuo would not have wanted to leave the bed if his stomach acid hadn't made him uncomfortable and his stomach was rumbling in protest.He was alone with the stone, and was "alone" in a way.Except for eating with Shitou, he rarely cooks by himself, and he doesn't hide the food in the refrigerator.Coupled with dragging a hot sick body, the sound of ping-pong-pong came from the room after a while.

Out of concern for Wei Nuo, Chen Yaoyu subconsciously ran up to ring the doorbell, as if he had never hesitated just now.

Who is it at this time.The physical discomfort and the irritability caused by things not going well made Wei Nuo's inner subtext become a little unmodified, revealing the original and most primitive emotions.

And when he opened the door and saw Chen Yaoyu standing at the door, this initial and most primitive emotion finally blurted out, "Get out!"

As expected, Wei Nuo's forceful closing of the door was stopped.Knowing that it would be futile to continue like this, Wei Nuo gave up the idea of ​​shutting Chen Yaoyu out, and decided to let him leave in a cool way.

Chen Yaoyu breathed a sigh of relief, not only because Wei Nuo didn't insist on not letting him in, but also because Wei Nuo's pale face was showing signs of weakness. "I heard the commotion at home, what's the matter?"

Wei Nuo ignored it.Ready to finish cooking his porridge.

Wei Nuo is good at everything, but when his temper comes up, oil and salt won't let him in.Of course, Chen Yaoyu couldn't let his reaction go, he rushed up and hugged him from behind.He was ready for We Nuo's fierce resistance, but the person in his arms remained silent for a long time.

It was as if they were still, but both of them knew that at this moment they truly felt each other's body temperature, and no emotion could disappear silently under such circumstances, whether it was love or hate, or likes and dislikes.

"Have you started to hate me?"

Wei Nuo has a lot of things to say, Chen Yaoyu's hug, Chen Yaoyu's words are like keys, he tried to unlock the lock in his heart, but he just failed.

Yeah, I'm starting to hate him already.

Weinuo didn't respond for a long time, but Chen Yaoyu let go anyway, such a hug is meaningless.Thinking of his attitude towards Wei Nuo, who was far and near, bright and dark, he could also understand Wei Nuo's thoughts and feelings at the moment.And Wei Nuo tried every means to ignore and reject Chen Yaoyu, it took all his strength, and he had to concentrate on forgetting that Chen Yaoyu was standing behind him, thinking of this is incomparable Satire.

The water in the pot that dare not be lonely boiled and rushed out, Wei Nuo was stunned for a second, then immediately turned off the fire, "Hiss."

"It's burning?" Chen Yaoyu chased after him in a few steps. "Why are you so careless." He held We Nuo's scalded finger and blew on it with his mouth, but felt that it had no effect, so he simply put it on his earlobe and squeezed it tightly.

"Take it away." The face-to-face physical contact didn't change Wei Nuo's mind, he just wasn't used to Chen Yaoyu's sudden concern.

Another key failed, and it seemed it wasn't the one that would open Weino's lock.

Chen Yaoyu then took toothpaste from the toilet, squeezed a small piece and applied it on We Nuo's burned finger.

After a toss, Wei Nuo's fingers were still blistered.

"Don't be brave, don't lose your temper, okay?"

click.

"I'm losing my temper? I'm not losing my temper." Wei Nuo faced Chen Yaoyu directly, and withdrew his fingers from his hand, "I just don't want to keep up with you anymore. Before I pick up the stone, how long do you want to stay today?" It's okay, as soon as the time is up, I will love you and disappear."

"Wei Nuo, you should understand me, you look so ugly, how can you let me go back with peace of mind."

"Don't worry, you just showed up for a few short months after 12 years, I won't die because of it."

"Wei Nuo, I know that I fell in love with you at 'Chuangyan' that day. When everyone is confused, can't, can't you forgive me?"

"No. There are times when everyone is confused, and there are times when I can't forgive you." Don't hesitate, don't hesitate.We Nuo finished this sentence almost immediately, decisively. "Emotions can change, and they don't have to be consistent, but if you use such a reason to ask for forgiveness, you really can't forgive."

"I have difficulties." Chen Yaoyu replied, he did have difficulties, but they have come to this point today, not all because of one or the other, but also because of Chen Yaoyu's own reasons, he just confuses the two .

"Difficulties? Difficulties when we separated. Difficulties when we got married. Difficulties when we were together. Difficulties when we didn't want to be with me anymore. Difficulties when you appear in front of me now. Your life is a bowl of water." Chinese medicine? It's a pity that it can't cure my disease."

"You're still so good at speaking, you have a set of principles." Chen Yaoyu has not been able to tell all the things, so that's why he has difficulties.

"I know that's not what you think in your heart." He continued to beat Wei Nuo's heart word by word in a calm statement tone, "You can't forget me, always, always, because I Just like you, I have never forgotten you."

Otherwise, Chen Yaoyu wouldn't have invited this old lover whom he hadn't seen for a long time at his wedding, and he could only explain it if he couldn't forget it.

But what Wei Nuo wants is not just to never forget.The current Chen Yaoyu can't do it. "But I'm not something you can come and go when you call it, and my feelings are not. Instead of wasting feelings on people like you, it's better to pour them on stones to feel at ease. 14 years, I think we are like this , Admit that you loved, that you miss, that you toss and turn, and that it’s good to stop here.”

"Wei Nuo, it really surprised me to say these words from your mouth. I love you, miss you, and toss and turn for you, but I will never admit that we are over here. You said that you put your feelings in that Can you do it on your child?" Chen Yaoyu approached We Nuo, "You can't put it down, even if you go to another city and meet better people, you still have my place in your heart. You can't see the things I often use. Shower gel, can't drink my favorite wine, and can't smell my favorite cigarette smell..."

Chen Yaoyu hugged Wei Nuo carefully, because the person in his arms is now extremely sensitive and fragile.

Wei Nuo didn't resist.

"My habits have penetrated into your life, and for me, you are the same," he hugged Wei Nuo even tighter.These are his sincere words.The two have had too many memories and stories since their high school days, so many interspersed with their respective lives that they are indelible.

Wei Nuo still didn't respond.

Only then did Chen Yaoyu realize that Wei Nuo was not moved by his confession, but indifferent.And the reaction time is a full three seconds.

"It's over?" Weinuo was not touched, but after being touched, he understood more clearly that it was impossible for the two of them to be together again.The intersection of the previous bits and pieces, right as a happy dream.After waking up, he looked for his stone, and Chen Yaoyu looked for his Liu Junyuan.The story ends secretly between the three, as if nothing had happened. "I still say the same thing. After that night, the only option left between us is to stop here. Things will not change because of Yi Yin's rescue. How long do you want to pretend to be stupid?"

Why can't you take my hand and go home.

"Don't be silly. What do you want me to do in that situation? Take your hand and take you home in full view?"

Wei Nuo's heart skipped a beat.

Finally, his words became fierce, "Why can't it? Why can't it? Give up, isn't it obvious? Give up Liu Junyuan, give up everything you have now, can't you walk with me? It's not good to stay by my side - Since you can't even do it, then what are you doing now, just give up on me, can you make a decision like a man!" Wei Nuo pushed Chen with all his strength. Yu wanted to give it a hand, but he seemed limp and lacking strength.

Chen Yaoyu also felt distressed, for Wei Nuo, this was his "hysteria".Chen Yaoyu took the hand that We Nuo pushed over, his left hand and right hand, and held it tightly, as if he would lose it again in the next second, "Marriage is not love. If it is really like what you said, I can Give up all to prove that I love you, what about you? I will divorce Junyuan right now, after being with you, will Stone accept me after that? Or, will he accept you? To put it a little longer, What about your family? Do you really have this awareness?"

The dark side that Wei Nuo didn't want to face was ruthlessly revealed by Chen Yaoyu.He really can't, life is much more complicated than ideal, but Wei Nuo is angry in his heart, just angry that he can't pass his own test, why when Chen Yaoyu is mentioned, all the cells in his body are mobilized, I can't help but recall or associate everything related to him.Even this embarrassing present is no exception.He hated himself for being like this.Chen Yaoyu could even feel his silent crying - his eyes were red and bloodshot, but soon he lowered his head. "It's fine to say it, it's fine to say it. It's fine to cry it out, it's fine to cry it out."