chronic silence

【1】

A warm embrace pulled Wei Nuo into the vortex of memories.

Wei Nuo is just one of the ordinary high school students, but he finds some private time in the cycle of "class, homework, get out of class, homework". He just doesn't like to talk, but he just writes some absurd or beautiful fantasy in his head. Things and stories, nothing more than unsociable, nothing more.

Working hard silently, doing what you like, why can't you do it?

The answer is no.

No matter how much Wei Nuo prayed, there would always be unexplained troubles coming to his door.

"Isn't that Wei Nuo? I really envy him. He has done less homework and has good test scores. No wonder the teacher likes him."

"Don't say that, what you said just now is really a joke, go and see what shameful things Wei Nuo is writing again."

This is not the first time, even Wei Nuo at that time hated his own weakness from the bottom of his heart, but the weaker he was, the more immersed he was in his own world, wanting to find a way to breathe.He didn't understand that the more he did this, the more he seemed to be out of the group. Young and passionate boys and girls had long been out of their minds on their studies. It is a beautiful thing that everyone misses and dreams about.

Weinuo instinctively ran away, or avoided them instinctively.

"Quick, he's going to escape!"

"Wei Nuo!" A group of people ran immediately. A boy running wildly on the concrete floor, chasing another boy with a pen and paper, is the most common scene on campus. Only the protagonist of the story understands that behind this ordinary, It will be a violence of words and fists.Wei Nuo has suffered more than once.

"We all know what you are doing so fast. We usually see you as gentle and gentle, but we didn't expect you to have such a wretched face in private."

"I didn't!" Wei Nuo made a gesture to grab the notebook on the ground, but he was held back by someone, watching his treasures being taken away easily.

Next, next, must read.Wei Nuo frantically used his hands and feet, trying to break free from the restraints, but this group of disgusting classmates made fun of Wei Nuo not once or twice, but they managed to find out some "experience", which is extremely ironic.

"Hey, today's resistance is particularly strong, hurry up, hurry up, read it quickly, it must be something shady!"

"No, give it back to me, give it back to me!"

"His slightly rough palm stroked back and forth on the top of his head..."

"Hahahaha!" Whether you understand it or not, just laugh first.

Wei Nuo didn't cry this time, but stared at the culprits with red eyes.

"How dare you look at me like that? Huh?"

Not looking at you with this kind of eyes, but looking at you bastards who want to cramp and chop bones immediately.Wei Nuo was so depressed, why didn't he just give up his hobby of writing?

How could he give up.At the beginning, it was just to find a balance between interests and studies, so that there is no delay in the two, and everyone is happy.But when I realize that I may be different from other boys, I don’t yearn for the beautiful body of women, and I don’t want to appreciate the restlessness and anxiety of puberty when I’m not together. Instead, I find similar people through the Internet and through text, and resolve myself.

This situation became more serious after becoming friends with Chen Yaoyu.

There was endless laughter, but Wei Nuo was helpless.

"What are you doing! Get out, get out of here!" Chen Yaoyu ran to the next class to find We Nuo, trying to tease him, but was told that We Nuo was not in the classroom, so he went downstairs for a walk to no avail. Just saw this scene.He was furious, his blood was surging, his punches were overwhelming, and he beat the person who was holding We Nuo black and blue first. "Give it back to him!"

The rest of the people were stunned by the sudden change. "It's Chen Yaoyu, hurry up and return the things to him!"

"Hand over!"

Although Chen Yaoyu had a notorious reputation, there were many people on the other side, and his repeated angry shouting aroused the rebellious psychology of some of them. After handing over the notebook respectfully on the surface, it was a counterattack that was caught off guard.

"Hmm." Chen Yaoyu felt pain in his stomach, before he could take care of himself, he threw the notebook to Wei Nuo first, "Take it!"

"Okay." Weinuo was still quite worried, but he really couldn't help much.

Chen Yaoyu dealt with the three of them, and no one could take advantage of the two sides coming and going.Wei Nuo didn't ask the teacher for help, because no matter what, Chen Yaoyu had already arrived.He doesn't need anyone else to come.

Later, Wei Nuo hugged Chen Yaoyu and cried.When he was being bullied, his eyes were just red, but when he saw Chen Yaoyu's nose and face swollen, he suddenly couldn't take it anymore, as soon as the tears came out, they were quickly wiped away by Wei Nuo, I don't know if Chen Yaoyu noticed.One was distressed, and the other was that he realized that he had really fallen into it.

Wei Nuo wrote two self-criticisms, and the two read them separately in front of the whole class.

【2】

The last time Chen Yaoyu watched We Nuo cry, it was the night of his third year in high school, he was deeply impressed, but not long after that, the two of them separated completely.The memory of separation is thousands of times more bitter than tears, and the tears shed are not worth mentioning.It's just that now, it's like the scene is reappearing, and the past overlaps, stimulating him to think of this past...

After the stage exam, the campus was full of joys and sorrows.

Looking restless, Wei Nuo ran over to Chen Yaoyu and said softly, "Come out tonight and chat with me." Just as Chen Yaoyu wanted to chat, Wei Nuo hurried to the office They ran away without even leaving time to say hello to each other.

What can be so urgent? "Come out at night..." Chen Yaoyu wondered what the phrase "come out at night" meant.At school, if Wei Nuo has something to say, he usually chooses lunch time at noon or evening, why is it at night this time?

Chen Yaoyu failed to come up with an answer, guessing the mind of a great writer is much more difficult than guessing the answer to a test question.

"Hey, look, Wei Nuo ran to the office."

"The teacher is looking for him."

"He's so bad in the exam this time, it's no wonder we don't look for him!"

"It's abnormal," a girl ran over and said, "Could it be a relationship?"

"What!" Another girl screamed, and then realized that she was screaming too loudly, destroying her usual gentle and quiet image, and deliberately lowered her voice, "Who are you with? Are you from our class?"

"I just saw that Ma Yueer also went to the office, I don't know if it is..."

"Oh my god, I can't tell, Wei Nuo and Ma Yueer..."

"Huh? Didn't Huier come back? Ask her." The girl who yelled just poked her head and waved to Huier, "Huier, Huier, I have something to do with Ma Yueer, have you seen her?"

"Ah? Ma Yueer? The office, Wei Nuo is in there too, I just came out of it, it seems to be an exam..."

Before Huier finished speaking, she was overwhelmed by the ecstatic laughter from the crowd.

Chen Yaoyu leaned leisurely to the side, and after listening to the whole set, he couldn't help laughing in his heart.Although Ma Yue'er had indeed confessed to Wei Nuo, Wei Nuo told himself about it right away, not to mention that the three of them knew this kind of thing in their hearts, and this group of girls would probably never guess that he was Chen Yaoyu. It was the one with Wei Nuo. If Wei Nuo fell in love, it would be with him, Chen Yaoyu.However, Chen Yaoyu thought about it and looked at the results announcement window. It is true that Wei Nuo's performance this time can no longer be described as abnormal.Is it because of poor grades?Wei Nuo is very concerned about grades, it seems that when we meet at night, we should comfort him well.

The strange thing is that after that, Chen Yaoyu didn't see Wei Nuo all afternoon, and only Ma Yueer and the teacher came out of the office, and there was no third person.He couldn't resist asking after class, and finally understood why Wei Nuo chose the night.The answer he got from the teacher was: Wei Nuo asked for a leave of absence for a week.

Chen Yaoyu took a deep breath. What kind of thing could make him take a week off when the college entrance examination was approaching?Chen Yaoyu became more determined in his heart, he must ask Wei Nuo clearly.

The agreed night has arrived, and since the last time they wrote poems under the lamp, that place has become the secret base of the two.After Chen Yaoyu and his roommate explained a few words, they skillfully climbed over the wall and left the school.

Not long after, Wei Nuo appeared in front of him as promised.It's just that his red eye sockets under the light are different from the Wei Nuo in Chen Yaoyu's imagination. "What's the matter? I thought we'd meet at school at night, but when I saw that you didn't come in the afternoon, I asked the teacher to find out that you had something to ask for leave at home. Only then did I realize what you meant by what you said in the morning."

"You're smart." Wei Nuo spoke with a heavy nasal voice.

"Now's not the time to 'count me smart', mysteriously, what's going on—have you cried?"

"The family members are sick, maybe...maybe it won't work."

Sick...to die?Chen Yaoyu has been to Wei Nuo's house. There are four members of his family, and his grandfather lives with them. His health is indeed not very good. "Yes... your grandpa is sick?"

Wei Nuo glanced at him, "Well, it can't be cured, and he was discharged from the hospital. The family said it was grandpa's idea, saying that it would be a waste of money to spend it in the hospital. Why don't you take it back and spend a few days at home with the fumes."

"Don't be too sad, it's fine at home, just talk to him more." Chen Yaoyu originally wanted to say something comforting, but this kind of thing really happened, after much deliberation, he could only say the same thing ;Don't be too sad.

"I understand that people will always leave, but I asked you out today because I was so scared."

"Don't be afraid, I'm here." Still afraid of life and death, Chen Yaoyu gave Wei Nuo a hug.

Wei Nuo heard the meaning in Chen Yaoyu's words, "It's not what you think, Yaoyu, I mean", Wei Nuo pushed Chen Yaoyu away, took a deep breath, "Our affairs are known."

"What did you say!? Got it? Who, it's impossible." It was a bolt from the blue.

"It was my grandfather, he, he saw what I wrote."

"Grandpa, what did you write, what did you know about us, can you explain it clearly, Wei Nuo, I'm almost scared to death by you." Chen Yaoyu was obviously panicked, what Wei Nuo meant Chen Can Yu not understand? He just doesn't want to believe this fact.

"Yaoyu, it's true, it's all true. Today I received a call from my family saying that my grandpa was dying and told me to go home quickly. When I got home, grandpa was lying on the bed with his eyes closed tightly. Hearing my return News, he tried to sit up with difficulty, and then..."

"Then what happened?"

"Later he took out what I and I wrote, although there was only one or one, he held it tightly in his hand, looked at me, and kept shaking his head. Do you understand that kind of look? The kind of reassurance, worry about yourself Grandson, can you understand the last hope of the dying?"

"The others don't know?" Chen Yaoyu couldn't describe his current mood.We Nuo's grandfather died, of course he is very sad, but the secret between the two of them needs to be kept secret.Chen Yaoyu was even a little thankful that his grandfather couldn't speak, he couldn't speak.But this kind of happiness made him feel guilty, and these two emotions were mixed together.Devouring and deriving from each other broke Chen Yaoyu's heart almost instantly.

What surprised Chen Yaoyu even more was that Wei Nuo's thoughts at the moment were exactly the same as his.He suddenly understood why Wei Nuo could hardly speak clearly when he said that paragraph intermittently.One side is his grandfather, and the other side is other family members, friends, classmates...all his life relationships, except for talking to him, Chen Yaoyu, there is no other person in the world to listen to.Thinking of this, Chen Yaoyu's heart felt as painful as wringing out bitter water. He cupped Wei Nuo's face, and kissed it with tears in his hands.

Wei Nuo felt that he was being comforted, and closed his eyes as if he was helplessly letting others do whatever he wanted.After a few seconds, he pushed away abruptly, looking around in fear.

"No one, no one will see, Wei Nuo, no one else knows, even if they know, they won't abandon you, I will be by your side, Wei Nuo."

Wei Nuo still shook his head, "Let's burn the things I wrote. If we burn them all, no one will know about them. Grandpa... Come on, I brought a lighter. Let's burn these things." Wei Nuo flipped The notebooks caught in the clothes came out, big and small, and of different colors.Because they were too flustered and scattered on the ground, Weinuo stacked them together according to size, patted off the dirt on them, and then took out the lighter.

Wei Nuo's hand was shaking from crying, and he failed to light it several times.

"Wei Nuo, you are crazy, this is your painstaking effort." Chen Yaoyu grabbed Wei Nuo's hand, "We don't need to burn it, we can hide him in my house, or we can dig a small pit and bury it." No one will find out, they won't find it."

"I won't find out? When Grandpa took out one of the pages, I was so scared that I knelt on the ground. I locked that thing in a small box. How could it not be found? Someone will find out, and then everyone will know, as long as If something exists, it will definitely be discovered! Do you understand it, ah!" The more Wei Nuo spoke, the more frightened he became, the louder his voice became, and his emotions almost lost control.

"Okay!" Chen Yaoyu stopped loudly, "Does that mean our relationship shouldn't exist?"

Wei Nuo raised his head suddenly, tears fell like a bank, "What did you say?"

After Chen Yaoyu finished speaking, he also realized that he had made a slip of the tongue, "I will help you, I will help you, and help you burn your most precious things, so that no one will know, so you can feel at ease, right?" Chen Yaoyu Yu touched We Nuo's face, took the lighter, and lit it two or three times, each time looking at We Nuo questioningly, but finally lit it.

The fire was getting bigger and bigger, Wei Nuo stood opposite the fire, closed his eyes in pain, the heat wave made the tears dry on his face.

After a long time, Wei Nuo silently sprinkled the burning ashes on the side of the road before saying, "Chen Yaoyu, will you send me back?"

Chen Yaoyu walked up to Wei Nuo and nodded slightly.

Weinuo finally laughed, and the next moment he completely fell on Chen Yaoyu's body.

"Chen Yaoyu, can you take me there?" Wei Nuo asked in a muffled voice at the station gate.

"of course."