Neverland

Toya squeezed the crystal ball in his hand, biting the corner of his lips, trying hard to maintain his indifferent and calm expression.

But those emotions were not under his control. They emerged one after another from the corners of his eyes, cheeks, and even eyes, so that his delicate face looked a little hideous.

"The other 'past' you showed me is indeed full of water." Xu Muzhou said: "In it, Joseph saw you at first, but was killed by her... But I think the truth should be just right on the contrary."

As Xu Muzhou said, he stretched out his hand to his side without turning his head, and then he felt his palm sinking—the Joseph's diary was put in his hand by Yan Cen.

Xu Muzhou took the diary and weighed it, then turned his head approvingly, and gave Yan Cen a "well done" look.

"What Joseph saw was actually that 'Tuoya'." Xu Muzhou said, flipping through the diary casually, the yellowed paper was hard and brittle, and fine scraps of paper fell on Xu Muzhou In his hand, Xu Muzhou gathered them into a pile again, and put them back between the pages of the book.

"It was that girl he saw." Xu Muzhou said: "It was that girl who he praised as an angel, who was grateful to him, who he looked at differently, and who he... fell in love with, maybe it was her too."

"Is it because of this?" Xu Muzhou said, "You killed Joseph because you were jealous of your other self?"

"No!" The gentleness that Toya had worked so hard to maintain finally shattered, revealing the madness hidden deep below, the knuckles of his fingers holding the crystal ball turned white, he raised his head, and stared fiercely at Xu Muzhou.

"What do you understand!" Toya said viciously: "You outsiders were all deceived by her. Do you know how vicious and cruel she is? She can't have any kindness at all. In her eyes, people are like the flowers, plants and stones outside, and it is impossible to become her kind."

Xu Muzhou looked at him calmly, without speaking.

"You have no idea how much effort I spent, how long it took me to lock her up. She is cruel and indifferent, and has no mercy at all. All the good things in this world have nothing to do with her. She is a different kind , is the incarnation of the devil that the bishop said." Toya squatted on the ground slowly, the crystal ball rolled from his knees into his arms, Toya put her arms around her head, closed her eyes in pain, and murmured Yu said: "Why don't you understand, I am obviously saving you... People who are bewitched by witches can only become devils and cannot be recognized by gods."

Xu Muzhou believed that he was telling the truth.

Because he looked so innocent and puzzled, he looked extremely painful, but it didn't look like he was in pain for "killing someone".

At this moment, Xu Muzhou clearly realized a problem - the Toya in front of him really believed that the girl was a devil being "suppressed" by him.

Perhaps it is precisely because of this that he looks so miserable—because he thinks that he is great in his heart, that he is really a saint, and that he is on a path of "protection" that is not recognized by the world Walk alone.

Xu Muzhou sighed, feeling a little sad.

"You are the one who kills, and she is the one who guards the undead." Xu Muzhou suddenly said, "It is you who let me see the 'future', and she is the one who brings us food and water...so why do you think that you are more important than me?" She's great."

"Wouldn't it be nice to see the future?" Toya raised her head, his fingers clenched the end of her hair convulsively, her beautiful green eyes were covered with water vapor, he looked at Xu Muzhou innocently, sincerely Doubtfully said: "I let you see those bad futures, and then give you the possibility to avoid them, isn't that good?"

"What future did you see in the crystal ball?" Xu Muzhou asked back: "I believe that you have not been unable to use it... At the very beginning, when it was shining in your hand, you were inside What did you see?"

Toya opened her mouth, but did not speak for a while.

"Maybe it's been too long, and you can't remember clearly, but I can guess." Xu Muzhou said, "Maybe I saw that you really turned into a cruel witch, or maybe I saw something Something more serious, right?"

"That's why you are so obsessed with 'locking up' your other half." Xu Muzhou said: "Even at the expense of stripping her out of your body, denying her, and turning her into another who is completely opposite to yourself Man... do you think you can feel at peace in this way?"

Judging from Toya's expression, Xu Muzhou felt that he had guessed right.

"You think that 'she' is the witch. You think that without her, you might not have to fall into this prison. You dare not disobey the bishop's prophecy, so you can only escape and seek other ways to get yourself An Ning..." Xu Muzhou interrupted Toya before he could refute, and continued: "Of course, maybe you think you don't think so, but dividing boundaries is a form of evasion. You hate her and dare not face her , that's why I put all the responsibility on her."

Xu Muzhou said: "Only in this way, you will feel that you are innocent."

Yan Cen looked sideways at Xu Muzhou - he actually guessed the significance of Zhong Lu's choice of such a task in the last share, but he still did not expect that Xu Muzhou would say such a thing at this time Say something.

Even some time ago, even Xu Muzhou himself was a member of Wu Yangyang's "unacceptable" army.

But in just a few days, the little fox seems to have been transformed.

Perhaps for Xu Muzhou, "accepting himself" is still a process, but at least he now has the ability to examine himself on a higher level.

This is a good thing, Yan Cen thought with relief.

The little fox's heart has always been so strong, and this time is no exception—it still impresses him.

Toya stared blankly at Xu Muzhou, but said nothing.

"But in fact, she saved Joseph, and you saved both of us." Xu Muzhou said: "There are new bread and fresh water in the castle hall every day. You said she was indifferent and cruel, but you also because of Killed Joseph under a false name."

"In the final analysis, you all do the same thing." Xu Muzhou said firmly, "Tuoya, she is you, and you are her."

The time of this "Tuoya" passed twice as fast as normal. The turbulent sea outside the castle returned to calm, and the sun emerged from the distant sea level, dyeing the dark night with a ray of real morning light.

After a long and precarious night, the sky finally began to light.

Ten minutes ago, Toya carried the crystal ball down the stairs in a daze - Xu Muzhou didn't follow, but guessed that he should have returned to his room.

"Accept yourself" is easy to say, but it may be difficult to do it, but just like the thin morning light on the sea level, as long as you can see the dawn, no matter how long the night is, the sky will always be bright.

Maybe Toya needs to think and struggle day after day, or maybe as long as he wakes up one day, he will suddenly become enlightened like a divine enlightenment.

But no matter what, he has a long time to solve this matter, Xu Muzhou doesn't doubt this at all.

——The progress bar slowly returning to zero in his hand is the evidence.

The small hydrangea rolled twice in the palm of his hand, and when the last bit of black stain faded away, it was just bright outside.

Xu Muzhou was sitting on the stairs under the attic, which happened to be facing a skylight above the big clock, so he could have a panoramic view of the scenery outside.

"It's kind of beautiful." Xu Muzhou narrowed his eyes, looked out of the window and said, "It's not completely dark, nor is it completely bright... Isn't it great to have day and night this way."

"Maybe Toya doesn't think so." Yan Cen said, "He thinks it's going to jail."

"There are ways to go to jail." Xu Muzhou said: "If you want to change the status quo, you should try hard. But if you can't change the status quo, what's wrong with enjoying the status quo."

Yan Cen took a deep look at him, and there seemed to be something in his eyes that was about to come out, but he suppressed it forcefully.

He asked Mu Zhou to stand up one step at a time, and walked downstairs, interrupting the emotional topic in this task.

"...If it's over, go back first." Yan Cen said: "Go back early, and you can still catch up with the meal in Neverland. Aren't you always clamoring to improve the food a few days ago?"

——Nonsense, Xu Muzhou curled his lips, Neverland obviously provides 24-hour cafeteria.

But immediately, Xu Muzhou looked at Yan Cen's back and sighed, and began to feel sorry for his big cat.

"Will Qin Wei come back in the future?" Xu Muzhou suddenly asked.

"Yes." Yan Cen said: "All the protagonists who violated the original path will come to Neverland after death."

"...The deck chairs can't be placed on the terrace, otherwise the waves will easily be blown down." Xu Muzhou sighed, and said with some regret: "...I originally wanted to set up a place to read books there."

Yan Cen paused.

"You..." Yan Cen turned his head, he had a vague guess, but he couldn't believe it for a while: "What do you mean?"

"Sister Song Yan's little cake goes around, and she will always come back." Xu Muzhou looked at him and asked softly, "What about you?"

"Neverland is not a good place either." Yan Cen avoided his gaze and said, "It's a good thing that you don't have to be forced to stay here for thousands of years."

"...Eternal life is not a bad thing." Xu Muzhou smiled suddenly: "If the endless life is put into reality, it can only be called cruel. Because time will take away everything from you, your friends, relatives , lover, all the people who are familiar with you, and the traces of your existence."

Xu Muzhou slowly took off the hydrangea from his wrist, and said, "But in other words...if my relatives, lovers, those who know me and love me are themselves immortal."

Before Yan Cen could say anything, Xu Muzhou had already smashed the hydrangea to the ground.

Before the teleportation at the end of the mission, he bent his eyes at Yan Cen in the distorted space.

"I'll tell you the answer when I return to Neverland." Xu Muzhou said.