Dressed as a rich and powerful prince

Because of Shu Changle's insistence, after Qin Zhenying released the news that Shu Yao had a mental illness, Chi Yue did not express his position on it, as if he had acquiesced to the Qin family's approach.

The melon-eating crowd who watched the excitement sighed in the comments, and then disbanded.

Nowadays, the Internet is everywhere, and there are countless new things happening every day.

The Qin family's affairs were lively and lively, but after a long time, the enthusiasm of the spectators faded once the novelty of the spectators wore off.

After the affairs of the Qin family came to an end, the results of the college entrance examination followed closely.

Chi Yue played very well, ranked first in the city, and won the title of this year's city's college entrance examination champion. The celebration banner with the name in bold was hung for a whole week before teaching in No. [-] Middle School.

Because of the Qin family, Chi Yue was well-known by many netizens. After the results came out, she was almost on the hot searches again, and was almost suppressed by Gu Qingyi.

After the chores came to an end, Chi Yue began to use the vacation time to work part-time, and her daily life was nothing more than ordinary.

To say that the only thing that is still watching secretly is the place where Shu Yao keeps the recordings that can prove Qin Zhenying's innocence.

Besides, everything is going in a good direction.

After the results came out, after careful consideration, Chi Yue chose the Law Department of Capital University of Political Science and Law, which she had never thought about before, as her first choice.

After hearing this, Gu Qingyi was surprised and understood what he was thinking in a moment.

"You regard me as your salvation, but in fact, I am not as good as you say..."

It was the day before the court session. Chi Yue was lying on the balcony railing, looking at the gray sky above her head, her eyes were far away.

"During the darkest days of my life, I had a lot of really bad thoughts. To give you the simplest example..."

Chi Yue turned her head, looked at Gu Qingyi, who was also lying on the balcony, but kept looking sideways at him, and asked with a smile: "Do you know, how many times have I been tempted to kill Shi Guangshan?"

This is not the first time that Chi Yue told Gu Qingyi that he is not a person who always has sunshine in his heart.

However, this is the first time that Chi Yue has directly shown Gu Qingyi the dark side of his heart.

"I don't know. But I can take a guess."

Gu Qingyi frowned, seemed to be serious, but also seemed to think casually for a moment, and said: "Since his domestic violence, have you tried to kill him almost every day? Well, at least once a day?"

Chi Yue neither admitted nor denied it.

But the smile on his face seemed to be the default.

"It was okay at first. In the first month after he started beating people, maybe he still had some conscience in his heart, so he didn't beat people many times. He would also apologize sincerely after each beating."

"At that time, I tried to persuade Aunt Ye, but I couldn't help believing that Shi Guangshan would change. After all, he used to be quite a gentleman. But in the second and third months, he not only When he didn't change, but got worse, I was murderous towards him."

Chi Yue smiled, but the meaning was unclear.

"You know, I had countless chances to kill him. Rat poison, sleeping pills, pesticides... these things can be obtained if you think about it. And even if you don't rely on drugs, there is no problem. Shi Guangshan was a serious alcoholic at that time, Every time I have to drink until I am so drunk that I lose consciousness. People who are drunk to death..."

He narrowed his eyes, "Even if I was just a child at the time, I could easily slit his throat with a dagger. At that time, I couldn't help but think, how good it would be if he died, and I would be relieved if he died." It's..."

After a short pause, Chi Yue said: "Many times, I fantasized about putting a kitchen knife sharpened by a whetstone on his neck, trying to kill him. There were even times when I dreamed that I would kill him." After waking up, I almost believed in the dream of killing him. But the strange thing is that instead of feeling scared, I felt a great sense of relief at that time. But this sense of relief usually didn't last long, and was broken by Shi Guangshan's voice gone."

"I was only nine years old at that time, wasn't I? Nine years old, a child who hadn't finished elementary school, so what if he really committed murder and committed a crime? After all, he would not be sentenced. Maybe people will start crimes because of my case. Pay attention to the topic of 'domestic violence', and in order not to cause similar incidents, we will pay more attention to and help those who have suffered from domestic violence. So, what if I kill Shi Guangshan?"

As if recalling what happened back then, Chi Yue lowered her eyes, shook her head, and said, "It's scary, isn't it? Such an extreme idea? Looking back now, you will feel that I was very scary at that time."

"After I was taken back to the orphanage, it took me a long time to adjust my mentality. The director's grandmother thought that I was stimulated by Shi Guangshan, and I couldn't come out for the time being. In fact, this statement is only half right. A more accurate statement is that At that time, in addition to wanting to ease my mind and get out of the shadow of domestic violence, I was more concerned with finding ways to trap the beast that was about to move in my heart. I was afraid, afraid that if I didn't put in effort to suppress it, I would become a person who would not A psychopath who puts human life at risk. It took me a long time after that to become normal again."

After saying this, Chi Yue didn't speak for a long time.

Gu Qingyi didn't speak, and just stood beside Chi Yue silently.

After a long time, Chi Yue spoke again.

"With me like this, do you still think that I am your light?"

At the end, Chi Yue laughed self-deprecatingly, "That's why I said that I am not qualified to be the light of others. My own heart has been corroded by darkness. It was the first time I heard you say that I am your sun." It was very funny to me at the time.”

Chi Yue thought that the person who could really bring 'light' to others and dispel the darkness in their lives should definitely not be someone like him.

"You have saved me many, many times. You said that I am your light, but in my case, the situation is exactly the opposite." Chi Yue lowered her voice, "You are my light."

"Actually, I'm very bad. Bullying the weak and fearing the strong. I'm afraid I would have punched the one who took me to the equipment room to kiss me with any other one. But because it's you, and because you have the Gu family behind you that I can't afford to offend, So I endured it... I'm actually not good at all, really, not good at all..."

"After hearing this, you still feel..." Chi Yue stared fixedly at Gu Qingyi, "Do you still think I'm good? Do you still want to continue liking me?"

But Gu Qingyi said seriously: "Yes."

He covered the back of Chi Yue's head with his big hand, and rubbed it vigorously.

"I'm not good, and you're not good either. We're not good, so it's just right to be together, isn't it? So as not to harm other people's good children."

Chi Yue was amused by his statement, "You really are..."

Gu Qingyi smiled back at him, "What's wrong with me?"

Chi Yue shook her head, "It's nothing."

Turn your head and look at the night sky above your head.

But I saw that the clouds and mists in the sky dispersed, and the moonlight was clear, covering the window sill.

The author has something to say: I saw a little cutie saying that Chi Yue's mentality is actually not normal, and I want to say that the guess is too correct.From the beginning to the end, Chi Yue was not a very good person.In Gu Qingyi's words, even more so.

But because there are always people who love him and people who like him, Chi Yue was not able to fall into darkness.That's great.

In Gu Qingyi's words, he actually likes this kind of Chi Yue.

Because it really represents light and kindness, has Gu Qingyi really never seen it?His father and his second uncle are the best examples.

But the reason why Gu Qingyi still likes Chi Yue is that, for example, Chi Yue is a candle in the dark, while the other good people Gu Qingyi has met are incandescent lamps walking in the sun.

That's why he attracted Gu Qingyi's attention from the very beginning, that's it.

最后，感谢小可爱们一路以来的陪伴，么么扎。感谢在2020-05-0922:40:10~2020-05-1301:40:25期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of maple scorpion; 1 bottle of snow ball;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!