The Silent Cherry And Plum Blossoms

Yan Qi wondered if it had been so long since she had been in a relationship that she had forgotten what it was like.

Her hazy love in high school was just writing notes in class, boys gave her tapes, ice cream, and chanted her name after winning the ball on the court, and she couldn't restrain her smile at that time.

She met Gao Jiming, and this was her true first love.She originally thought that she was not a delicate girl, but after meeting him, she experienced both joy and sadness.

But this time she and Liao Chengyu are getting along more like friends at this stage.They chatted well, and many of their opinions did not have great differences, plain and sincere.Comfortable is comfortable, but I always feel that something is missing, Yan Qi is puzzled, maybe now that I am getting older, the emotional fluctuations are not as strong as before?Maybe it's like the saying "Plain is the truth?"

Before meeting Gao Jiming, Yan Qi's concept of finding a partner had always been to make her fall in love.She has lived in an environment with more male members since she was a child.His grandfather, who is talented and kind, has a deep love for her grandmother. For 50 years, he is the most beautiful love she has ever seen.

Her older brothers, such as her straight older brother who is slightly cancerous, the dull second brother, and the sissy third brother, although they each have their own faults, they are all good men who will treat their partners well .Although Yan Yinan had many girlfriends, he was basically the one who got dumped.

She doesn't have much impression of her parents who died young, but she knows from her family's narrative that her parents are also very loving.

So when Yan Qi's relationship with Gao Jiming failed, Yan Qi fell into a state of depression for a long time.Gao Jiming couldn't give her a sense of security while giving her a heartbeat. Without An Zhi by her side, she might not recover so quickly.

During the few months she spent with Liao Chengyu, the two of them felt that they were quite compatible, but she just didn't have that kind of heart-wrenching feeling.Yan Qi often analyzes herself late at night, what are her emotional needs?Why is it that even her second brother is very clear about what he loves and who he wants to fall in love with, but now she is confused, and she can't think of when she felt the heartbeat last time.

Yan Qi doesn't remember exactly what happened when she was 5 years old, she only knows that she was having a good time, and her brothers said she was very arrogant and mischievous like a bully.When she was five years old, her parents had an accident, and she didn't know much about it. The family only told her that her parents had gone away.

Until the year she was six years old, during the Children's Day celebration in the kindergarten, she was wearing a pink dress and waiting for her grandpa to buy popsicles for her.A little girl in the same class was hugged by her mother, and the two looked at each other with a smile. The young mother bent down to kiss her cheek, left and right, and hugged her up and down.

Six-year-old Yan Qi looked at her in a daze, and suddenly burst into sobs. When Grandpa Yan came back, she cried loudly on the spot.When I got home, I cried for a long time and kept shouting: "I want my mother, I want my mother..."

That was the first time she knew about death.

Because there are many men in the family, Yan Qi does not feel that his father's love is lacking.But when she was a child, she envied her classmates for having a mother for a long time. Although Grandma Yan loved her very much, Yan Yixi and Yan Yinan took a lot of her energy and attention away.

For a while, she was even more mischievous, beating her brothers, destroying the flowers and plants raised by grandpa, and destroying grandma's piano, just to attract and occupy their attention.

The second elder of the Yan family and his brothers were worried for a while, fearing that the words might go wrong.Grandma Yan spends almost all her time with her. She is a gentle, elegant, and very feminine woman. Yan Qi likes her very much when she hugs her on her lap and speaks reasoning, talking, and telling stories to her softly.

She enjoyed that kind of maternal love, but Yan Qi always felt that a certain space was lacking in her heart, until one day, she entered her parents' room and found a bottle of Kai's lotion on the dressing table that was not used up.This is the only memory left by her mother.

Yan Qi later felt that in the process of growing up, she did not lack the experience of getting along with men, but with women. When she was in junior high school, Liu Yiyi went abroad to study, so she hoped to make girlfriends from the beginning of school. Unfortunately, things backfired. I didn't have any good female friends until college, but it was a lot of bad experiences.

I didn't expect that now, all the girls on the Internet call her Miss Sister, say something about marrying her, and even ask her for an autograph.At the age of 30, Yan Qi felt that she still didn't understand many things, about the world, about herself, and about Anzhi.

An Zhi has become unfamiliar with her recently, and I don't know if it's because she has reached adolescence and feels that there is a gap between her and an adult, or because she is preparing for the competition and has to deal with homework, so she is too busy.

Yan Qi wants to find time to have a good chat with her, but she is busy recently, and she feels that Liao Chengyu has become more and more ambiguous towards her recently.

One night they went to the movies and came out of the theater when it happened to be raining.Rainy night, cinema.Walking up to them, there was a young couple. The girl held the boy's arm. The boy looked at her with a smile, and bowed his head, and they kissed intimately.

Just when Yan Qi was feeling that young love is pure and lovely, Liao Chengyu stretched out his warm hand and held her.

Yan Qi was stunned, the first reaction was strange, she thought about it, but she still didn't break free, it was not unbearable.

She let him lead the walk for a while.The man's palm was warm and hot, with a thick callus-like feeling.But Yan Qi didn't have any special feeling in his heart, just felt...it was just a pair of human hands.

The two walked for a while in silence.Liao Chengyu suddenly called her name in a low voice, "Yan Qi..."

Yan Qi was distracted at first, when he heard her name, he subconsciously said "um", and looked at him sideways, and he suddenly moved closer, covering him with his shadow.

Yan Qi was startled, subconsciously turned his face away, and Liao Chengyu's lips fell on her cheek.

Yan Qi frowned and took a step back.

Liao Chengyu saw her obviously displeased and restrained expression because of her upbringing, and apologized awkwardly: "I'm sorry."

Yan Qi's mood sank, she didn't know what to say, she shook her head and continued walking.

Liao Chengyu caught up with her in embarrassment, "I'm sorry, I can't help myself, Yan Qi, I found that I like you more and more."

Yan Qi looked back at him in embarrassment.

Liao Chengyu knew that she might say something he didn't like to hear, "I'm sorry, I promise I won't next time."

Yan Qi endured it, thinking that he shouldn't make a big fuss, so he nodded.

After this incident, Liao Chengyu apologized to her several times, but Yan Qi actually wanted to forget about this incident, and she began to feel that this "trying to get along" model between them would not work and was unfair to him.But Liao Chengyu must have read her mind and said something that he didn't care about.

Yan Qi endured it.When her grandma was sober last time, Yan Qi fell silent again when she heard her relieved smile when she was in love.

On the night of her 30th birthday, Yan Qi promised that Liao Chengyu would help her celebrate this birthday. She put on light makeup at home and wore a long light blue dress.He took a handbag and walked out of the room.

An Zhi was in the kitchen, and Yan Qi walked in to tell her what to do. She had her long curly hair tied back on her head, and her temple hair was slightly curled down on the side of her face. things.

"Is the preliminary round coming soon?" Yan Qi asked her.

"Well, after the National Day. It will be later this year." An Zhi didn't dare to look at her too much, and replied without looking at her.

Time flies, Anzhi has already reached the first semester of senior year.She hesitated and asked, "Auntie, are you in a hurry to leave?"

"Don't worry, what's the matter?" Yan Qi asked softly.

In the past few months, she was busy, and An Zhi was also busy. When she came back at night, An Zhi went to bed early, and the daily phone calls stopped.During the summer vacation, Anzhi even followed Yan's grandpa and grandma to the temples they frequented to escape the summer heat, and the two of them didn't see each other for more than two months.Especially after Anzhi's 15th birthday, Yan Qi felt that she was getting quieter and quieter, less talkative, and turned into a teenager who completely refused to communicate.

Yan Qi always felt that something was wrong but couldn't explain it.I can only follow her, give her free space, and wait for her to take the initiative to communicate with me.

"I'm thinking, I want to move to the school." An Zhi felt that this period of time was too much torment for her, and she didn't dare to get along with her in the same room, so she tried to avoid it as much as possible.It's okay to go to school normally, but as soon as the summer vacation started, An Zhi seized the opportunity to go to the temple with Grandpa Yan and Grandma Yan to escape the summer heat.In the place built far away from the urban area due to the mountain, she couldn't see Yan Qi, and missed her crazily, and even imagined the plot of her love affair.

It hurts to see it, and it hurts not to see it.

An Zhi felt that she had to move to the school, maybe the school environment would be better.Another point is that Yan Qi and that man have been in love for a long time, maybe they will have the personal space they need.An Zhi was afraid that Yan Qi would bring that Liao Chengyu home.

Yan Qi has become less and less concerned about her. He was not with her for such a long period of summer vacation, and they did not talk on the phone for such a long period of time. Yan Qi didn't seem to care.

And she has nothing to do, and she can no longer act like a baby with her like before.After saying this, she didn't dare to look up at Yan Qi.

Yan Qi didn't speak for a while, An Zhi looked up at her uneasily.

Yan Qi frowned: "Do you want to move to the school?"

An Zhi lightly bit his lower lip, and nodded his head with difficulty.

"Why? It's not good at home. I don't believe you when you say it's because of the third year of high school." Yan Qi was puzzled. Could it be for the convenience of getting along with Xu Jiaer?She will make a phone call later to ask her homeroom teacher if Xu Jiaer is also staying.

Her hair is already very long, jet-black and soft, with a tail tied up, revealing her small, white ears.

Yan Qi frowned, did she force her too much, or else...

"I think, now... will I disturb you when I'm at home?" An Zhi stared at her quietly, said this sentence in a low voice, and lowered his head again.

Yan Qi was startled suddenly.

Suddenly, I realized what I had overlooked.

The author has something to say: Here I would like to say a few words for Yan Qi, she is not very old, especially around the sensitive age of 30, when she is more or less confused, she is not so strong, not so thoughtful , everything can be handled rationally.

Don't forget that she was also bullied and isolated.He also lost his parents when he was young, and was hurt in love.

Someone asked me why I arranged the plot of love, it is very simple, the plot needs it.

And I have been laying out memes for a long time, starting from the name "Liao Chengyu", so this is a plot that goes smoothly.

Why did Yan Qi agree?Quite simply, she's 30 years old, she hasn't dated, she hasn't been in love for ten years.And her grandparents are getting old.The first is the pressure of age. How much pressure is the number of 30 years old? I don’t think even people who are 26-27-28 can really feel it, let alone those under 26 years old, let alone junior high school students.

I'm not relying on the old to sell the old, (well, there is a little bit), it is also possible that your young body will have an oldsoul, but you will not understand the feeling of anxiety that burns your hair out until you feel the pain.

When you were a student, when you were still in your early 20s, you might have said what would happen to me when I was 30 years old. Even when you were lazy, you would think that you are not yet 30, so you don’t need to work too hard.When I was 29, my heart skipped a beat, my job was not stable yet, I didn’t have a house yet, I was even single, and even my face was getting old.Every day is the youngest day, every day is the oldest day.

Yan Qi is fine, with a successful career, a house and a car, gentle and beautiful.What is she missing?There is a lack of people who can talk to her and chat with her soul and body.Although she loves Tao Tao, she has not yet reached another kind of love. At this time, someone she doesn't hate appears, and the other party pursues persistently, and even talks about it. Wouldn't you try to get along with him? ?What's more, they still started from the most common friend mode.

There is another point that no one has noticed. When you look back, the reason why she chose Liao Chengyu was because of Tao Tao?Because Liao Chengyu can accept Tao Tao, because he can't gossip about Tao Tao's life experience.

Tao Tao has always been in her heart.

Perhaps some children will say: lights.I understand the truth, but I just can't stand Yan Qi dating someone else, even holding hands!

Well, so many of you were worried that I could not write the transition of the relationship line well. Now that I have finally laid out the stalks and started to dig the road forward, you are no longer with me.I also said that I have to skip and wait for the sweet part, but you won’t find the details if you skip it. I don’t have the patience to find the sweets in each chapter. Then you may come and ask me: Lantern, is the emotional line too abrupt?Why did you kiss after a disagreement?

Tell me, is this the truth?Am I wronged or not?

In Hong Kong, people read pirated articles all day long and still dangle in front of me. I am depressed enough and feel wronged.Even if I'm old, I can't bear it, isn't that the truth?

I would rather you read all of them, and then come to me confidently and throw my face: light!You just didn't write well.For example...

I also think it may be acceptable! (perhaps……)

(Lights at 6:29 am on June 03)

(Xiuzhen couldn't sleep and wrote a long review for himself)