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"But I am like a tree, fixed in the soil, unable to move freely even half a step, how can I do as I wish! Please forgive me, I am a weak and incompetent person!" - Ye Shengtao "Scarecrow" ".

I still clearly remember that this was the first fairy tale I read when I started learning Chinese. No, it was more about listening than reading.Listening to my brother lying beside me and reading for me, he couldn't straighten his tongue in many places, and I couldn't understand many places at all.But I still intended to continue listening against my drowsiness.

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"Your brother bullied you, didn't you even sue?" Le Tiantian rarely diverted his attention from being so dull, he became more and more curious about Mo Quan.

Mo Quan smiled and shook his head: "Thinking about it now, my brother is born with a scheming heart. Then he would give me candy after he bullied me. You don't even know how useful candy was to me when I was a child." Thinking about it, Mo Quan's eyes Unconsciously, it has bent into a crescent moon.

"Then you have learned Chinese and still love reading so much? Normal boys grew up in basketball courts and game halls." Le Tiantian thought of his prisoner-like savage childhood, full of dirt, sweat and game consoles. smell.Whoever wants to read a book all day, always sneaks into the dark and narrow game hall in the name of going to the bookstore after school.

"I have nothing to do but read."

"Play, wave."

"I've been at home and can't play."

Le Tiantian couldn't figure out the logical relationship between these two sentences: "When you get tired of playing at home, go out and play."

Mo Quan seemed to have heard something funny. After thinking about it, he decided to share it with his friends. With the mentality of sharing, he pointed to the chains that restricted Le Tiantian's freedom: "How can I get out with such strong chains? "

Le Tiantian glanced at the chain on his hand, and looked at Mo Quan in shock: "Your brother? Isn't that a violation of personal freedom? You didn't file a complaint if it was so serious? How long have you been tied up? He is still your brother, no, Is he still human? Why are you so stupid?"

It may be serious and uncommon sense to ordinary people, but Mo Quan is used to it, it is already a part of his life, he understands the shock of others, but he can't empathize more deeply.Seeing Le Tiantian become alive because of his surprise, Mo Quan thought it would be a good way to talk to him about something beyond common sense.He also doesn't care about his past being known: "My brother pretended very well in front of people in Mo Manor. You can't imagine where such a young child got the courage to pretend."

——Being by Moze's side since he was a child, after being "abandoned" by his mother, he could only keep up with his elder brother.I live in the same building as my brother, if I go out without authorization, I will be beaten (even if I am careful not to leave a wound), if I stay in the room obediently, I will get snacks when my brother comes back.The Chinese teacher was driven away, and Mo Ze patted his chest to let the parents trust him as the new Chinese teacher.The nanny was kicked out, and Moze took over most of the responsibility for taking care of his younger brother under the pretext of fostering a relationship with him.The younger brother's daily task is to read books and wait for his elder brother to come back.

"Then why did he lock you up?" Le Tiantian couldn't tell how serious the matter was.

Mo Quan shook his head: "I can't tell you clearly what kind of person my brother is. But his desire to control," he smiled helplessly, "it's really scary."

"horrible?"

"Let's talk about being locked at home. I had nightmares during my lunch break, and I couldn't help but want to go to my mother. It was difficult to realize the horror of a thing when I was a child, even though I was threatened badly at the time and beaten several times time, but I still left this building." Mo Quan pointed to the floor, indicating that the incident happened here that year, "My brother wouldn't, of course he wouldn't use iron chains to leave evidence, he was very angry at the time, and found The packing rope tied me up in the bedroom. Well, the doctor will show you my bedroom after two days."

"It's just packing rope, why didn't you cut it and run away?"

"Run?" Mo Quan couldn't hold back, and laughed out of Le Tiantian's useless anxiety and innocence, "Where are you going to run, and you actually told a kid who was scared to go?"

Le Tiantian became even more anxious, and he imagined many scenarios in his mind: "Why didn't you report him afterwards? Tell your mother, and punish this bastard grandson! How can there be such inhumanity! As long as you file a complaint, your parents will definitely Will take it seriously!"

Mo Quan seemed to be lost in memory, he suddenly felt tired talking, and shook his head after thinking about it: "Forget it, I can't explain clearly. Let's talk slowly later."

Le Tiantian told him directly that Mo Quan didn't want to talk anymore.He poured the hot tea again and stared at the cup. The two were speechless, and the atmosphere returned to the dullness before.

"Mo Quan, can I ask you one last question?" This question has troubled him for a long time.

"Huh?" Mo Quan nodded.

"You and your brother, really, really..." Even after seeing so many photos, hearing so many rumors, and even Mo Quan himself said it, the onlookers were extremely unwilling to believe it. How could such absurd things happen?

Mo Quan nodded frankly and admitted: "Yes."

Hearing the person's clear and affirmative answer, Le Tiantian's heart felt like an electric shock, but the pain was inexplicably exciting: "Don't your parents know about such a big thing?"

"My brother is very good at handling these things. Not many people know about this matter, and he doesn't have the courage to shake it out."

"Aren't you afraid that your parents will know?" Le Tiantian couldn't imagine, he imagined that, as a parent, he found out that his child was gay, and the one he loved was a brother of the same blood, it was absurd!absurd!The more I think about it, the more I collapse, the more I think about it, the more I collapse.

"So what if I know?" I have no fear in my life. If I can be stripped of my hypocrisy, wouldn't I be able to live a more relaxed and carefree life?

"Why? Can't understand at all? Why are brothers...!"

"I was brought up by him. We haven't been together since we were young. He doesn't have any brotherhood with me." In the beginning, I was just a threat in his eyes to come back and divide his country.Mo Quan is really a bit bigheaded, but still has a good temper: "Le Yutian, are you too concerned about my sad things?"

Only then did Le Tian realize that he had indeed questioned too deeply and was overly curious.He was sorry: "It's just that you're still sad if you're not used to it. I'm sorry."

In the eyes of almost everyone, Mo Quan is a textbook-like existence, mechanical, steady, and well-behaved.Who can associate the word sad to him.

Before they knew it, the two had a long conversation until late at night.We talked about Mo Quan, we talked about Le Tiantian, we talked about our childhood, we talked about interesting things.Mo Quan controlled the topic so as not to go in a negative direction.After chatting for a day, Le Tiantian was very happy, and a smile appeared on his face.

Heart-to-heart talks are like a cup of mellow warm wine flowing back and forth between the two chests, and the aroma spreads in the leisurely air.It is a comfortable thing to understand others, and it is also refreshing to be able to express one's own knots.

Mo Quan looked at Le Tiantian's smile, and listened to Le Tiantian's talk about the embarrassing things in his childhood. He always hoped in his heart: Let my friend get better. turned back.

He knows that quitting//drugs is a lifetime thing, after all, this innocent person was killed by himself, and he should be responsible for it.

"Mo Quan, you don't pursue what I did before?" Le Tiantian suddenly asked, since Mo Quan helped him so much, he should pursue his own mistakes.

"You have your personal freedom, why should I care about you?"

Le Tiantian was speechless, thinking of Mo Quan who was restrained by his brother since he was a child, thinking of his attitude of denying his own existence, his mechanical life, and the submission that was imprinted in his bone marrow at all times of violent oppression... This person is really infuriating Why, why can we respect the freedom of others so much, but never realize our own freedom?

Another two days passed, and the doctor finally allowed Le Tiantian to leave the room.