Chang'an swarm

Chang An is an ordinary high school student. He has no mother. His mother ran away with others when he was young, leaving only his father alone.

Dad's salary is not much, and he always frowns every time he pays the tuition fee. Every time the tuition fee has to be urged by the school, and he has to pay it before the deadline.

The family is very poor and there is no money in the family.

Chang'an didn't dare to ask his father for an extra penny.

Chang'an's study is not bad, in the middle and upper reaches of the class, not very top-notch, but not bad, it does not belong to a very conspicuous position.People like him are the easiest to get lost in the crowd.

He is very reassuring. During the senior high school entrance examination, he knew that the tuition fees of schools that were close to him were much higher, so he desperately went to the best school in the area.Dad is not worried about his studies at all.Teachers also often ignore him.

He is very inferior, he is very introverted, he hardly speaks a word in class, and everyone in the class is not familiar with him.

Nobody knows he doesn't like girls, he likes boys.

He reads the key class of this school.

Even in key classes, there will be naughty boys who are liked by others, but their grades are not very good.

There was such a boy in Chang'an's class.

He is handsome and has a nice name, Jiang Yifeng, a very chivalrous name.He plays very well, has a straight nose, a face with distinct water chestnut angles, and is very extroverted. Both boys and girls like to play with him.

His family is very rich. I heard that his parents started a company, and he bought many things in the class with a wave of his hand.

He and Chang An are two completely different people.

What Chang'an doesn't have, and what Chang'an wants, Jiang Yifeng has it all.

Chang'an admires Jiang Yifeng very much, and Chang'an loves Jiang Yifeng very much.

Chang An dared not tell others.

Like a voyeur, he secretly hid Jiang Yifeng's things and secretly watched Jiang Yifeng's back.

Scratch paper, a small eraser, a test paper with his name written on it, and even one of his dirty clothes.

Chang'an took Jiang Yifeng's dirty clothes home, washed them secretly, and wore them at home on weekends.

There is also the word Jiang Yifeng written on the collar of the school uniform, which cannot be washed off.

Chang'an was also reluctant to wash it off.

When I was at school, I could watch Jiang Yifeng secretly. Although I couldn't see him when I went home, I could wear clothes with his name on it.

Chang An felt that he was a pervert, but couldn't help laughing under the covers while hugging his clothes.

Chang'an feels that life is not very difficult.

Jiang Yifeng shared the same dormitory with him.

Jiang Yifeng was still sitting behind her, but Chang'an didn't take the initiative to turn around and say a word to Jiang Yifeng throughout the semester.

Only when receiving homework materials, Jiang Yifeng would poke him on the back and joke with him.

He can be happy all day.

Chang An secretly listened to him talking with his deskmate in the back, talking about the latest movies and games, and which girl in the grade was the most beautiful.

He knew that many girls in the class liked Jiang Yifeng.

Several even confessed.

He dare not confess.

Jiang Yifeng is a straight man.Chang An knew it very well.

He was afraid that once he confessed his love to Jiang Yifeng, the whole school would know that the boys in Jiang Yifeng's class had confessed to Jiang Yifeng.He was afraid that the class teacher and the teacher would take turns talking to him.

He was afraid that the principal would let him drop out of school. It would cost a lot of money to transfer to another school, and his family had no money.

He was afraid of the eyes of others pointing behind his back.

He was afraid that he would be dragged from the darkness to the stage by others and face everyone's evaluation.Under the light, he has no secrets at all, and all the dirty things in his heart can be clearly seen by others.

He was most afraid, he was most afraid that Jiang Yifeng would look at him with disgusting eyes.

He was most afraid that Jiang Yifeng would reject him.

He knew that Jiang Yifeng would definitely reject him.

He hasn't seen that many movies, and he doesn't have money to buy movie tickets.

He has never played so many games, and his family has no money to buy him a computer.

He is not so dazzling, the girls in the class don't like him very much, he doesn't know the good-looking girls in his grade, he only sees Jiang Yifeng, he is not interested in girls.

Jiang Yifeng and him had no common topic at all.

They are people from two worlds.

Chang'an couldn't think of a reason for Jiang Yifeng to accept him.

Every time he thought about it, he felt like crying a little bit.

There are two physical education classes every week, and the boys in the class will go to play basketball.

Chang An's health was not good, and he would walk aside alone after the roll call.

He found a place where he could secretly see the basketball court, but the people on the basketball court would not easily find it.

Chang An just lay on the railing and looked at Jiang Yifeng.

Only in such a place can he look at the person he likes openly.

Twice a week, four 10 minutes each time.

Chang'an has been secretly in love with Jiang Yifeng for almost two years.

From the first meeting in the first year of high school to the present.

He secretly counted down the days in his heart, and he could see him for another year.

Still have another year to steal.

Only he knows this secret, and the Brazilian tortoise raised at home.

It is said that the Brazilian tortoise was brought back by his mother, and he has been raising it for more than ten years.

It knows all the secrets of Chang'an.

This Brazilian tortoise knows almost everyone's secrets in the family.

Chang'an once thought that if someone told all his secrets, then the tortoise must have become a spirit and told others.

It was in a physical education class that his deskmate Tang Huan accidentally discovered his secret.

He found himself peeking at Jiang Yifeng.

"What are you afraid of..." Tang Huan also leaned on the railing, "I've found out that you like Jiang Yifeng a long time ago. Isn't it gay, and it's not unusual."

Chang An didn't want to accept his words.

Tang Huan took out a pack of cigarettes in his pocket.

"The place you are looking for is not bad. It is secretive and not afraid of being discovered." He took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and handed it to Chang An, "A cigarette? Huh?"

Chang An looked at the cigarette in his hand, shook his head, "I don't smoke."

"Don't smoke? Have you never smoked before? Don't plan to try it?" Tang Huan didn't force him, took a cigarette in his mouth and lit it.

"No, thank you." Chang An still refused.

"Don't look so unfamiliar." Tang Huan squinted at the sky and let out a puff of smoke, "After all, everyone is gay."

Chang'an and Tang Huan were at the same table for two years and hadn't seen him like this before, so he was taken aback by his appearance.

Chang An had never smoked before, and he felt that the price of a pack of cigarettes was enough for one or two meals, so it was not worth it.

Tang Huan waved the cigarette box in front of his eyes, "Really don't want it? It's rare to meet the same kind."

"But I don't like you, I'm not interested in you." Tang Huan said.

Chang An still took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and put it in his mouth.Tang Huan moved closer to help him light the cigarette.

As soon as Chang An took a breath, he choked and coughed non-stop.

"It's like this for the first time I smoked. I still can't forget the ugliness I made when I smoked for the first time." Tang Huan comforted.

Chang An wrinkled his face and threw away the cigarette.

"Jiang Yifeng is really handsome." Tang Huan said, smoking a cigarette, he suddenly stretched out his hand to push away Chang'an's bangs, and looked at it carefully, "I have been at the same table for two years. You look pretty dainty at the table."

Chang'an was smoked by Tang Huan's smoke-smelling hands, he gave Tang Huan a hard look, turned around and left.

Tang Huan was not angry either. He threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stamped it out, then kicked it to a nearby corner to destroy the corpse, and then quickly followed Chang An's pace.

"Didn't you just know your secret, why lose your temper..."

He lowered his voice, "I know you have liked Jiang Yifeng since the first year of high school, you took his draft book and unwanted test papers, and you slept in his direction at night, and you also like to take a bath after him Watching him naked when he came out naked."

"Are you really angry?" Tang Huan suddenly moved closer to his ear, "Everyone is gay, and I can tell who is gay and who is straight in class."

"Gays and gays have a feeling for each other."

"Don't you want to know if Jiang Yifeng is gay?"

Chang'an's hands were pinched so that the veins were bulging, and he squeezed out a sentence from his teeth, "You, give, me, shut up! Shut up, you, what, what, what!"

Tang Huan felt that he was now a cat whose tail had been trampled on, and with the addition of □□, he could come up and give him a few paws.

"I already know about your little tits, and I won't rob Jiang Yifeng from you."

"I already have a boyfriend."

"Much more mature than Jiang Yifeng, he's so handsome." Tang Huan said sullenly.

"You've seen it before. It's the elder brother who came to my parent-teacher meeting last time. He is my boyfriend."

Chang An recalled that Dad didn't have time to attend his parents' meeting at that time.

Almost all the parents in the class were couples in their 40s and [-]s, and he was the only one who came at the same table with a brother who was only a few years older than him.I heard that this brother will graduate from university in one year and start working.

Chang An ignored him.

Perhaps knowing the other party's secret, Chang'an's expression towards Tang Huan also improved a lot.

Recently, everyone in the class noticed that Tang Huan and Chang An got very close and played very well.

Tang Huan was very good-looking, with the temperament of a romantic and noble son; the people in the class found that Chang An was also good-looking, a kind of gentle and lovely good-looking.

Normally, Chang An didn't say a word in class, but now Tang Huan sat next to him, chatting with him all day long, about boys' looks, temperament, body and voice, and so on.

When talking about Tang Huan's boyfriend Song Qianjun, Tang Huan didn't shy away from it at all, and whispered to Chang An about his male ticket's appearance and skills, and Chang An was blushing and heartbeating when he heard it.

Tang Huan was already very familiar with Chang An at this time.Chang'an occasionally sees through the bottom.

"Hey, Chang'an, what do you like about Jiang Yifeng?"

"He's very nice, so I like it...don't force me to ask if it's okay, I can't answer it."

"Like a straight man is not going to end well, Chang'an, how can he get the hang of it?"

"..." Changan is not used to people talking about Jiang Yifeng directly, "Stop talking about this topic."

"Also, I didn't intend to confess."

"You! You didn't intend to confess!!" Tang Huan was shocked.

Chang An was a little anxious, "Why are you so loud all of a sudden!" He looked around secretly, noticing that there were not many people in this corner, "Hush your voice!!"

Tang Huan leaned over and stared into his eyes, "You really don't intend to confess, what a pity, what if he accepts it?"

Chang An's face was a little red, but his tone was very certain, "He won't accept it."

"Then it's not worth the hard work you've been secretly in love with."

Chang An shook his head and denied his words, "It's not worth it, it's worth it."

"There are not many people as pure as you in the circle." Tang Huan was still unwilling to give up, and wanted to continue to persuade him, "You call or write a letter and tell him, don't tell him who you are, won't it be over?"

"He doesn't know who you are, and isn't it great that you can tell him that you like him?"

Chang An felt relieved.

The idea was too tempting for him.

He really couldn't think of a reason to refuse. He had been secretly in love with Jiang Yifeng for two years, and they were going to separate in one year. Tell him, yes, it's no big deal.

He doesn't know who he is either.

After the confession, there will not be too much disturbance in his life, he just met someone who confessed to him.

It's just that this person is a little different, a boy.

He will not know who he is.

Chang'an couldn't refuse the proposal.

He wanted to try it.

"It's really good..." Chang An said, "What if he finds out who I am?"

"Let's be more careful and don't leave any traces."

Later, Chang An secretly used the school's own printing room to print out the confession, and used Tang Huan's mobile phone to create a new QQ and WeChat, adding Jiang Yifeng.

He has Jiang Yifeng's mobile phone number, and he secretly copied Jiang Yifeng's home address.

The author has something to say:

This is the author's first essay, which is a campus essay.I like little angels~~~~ meme chirp