It turns out that no one survives in love

Using Li Tian's birthday as an excuse, Lin Rui spent the most extravagant weekend since he started working: two consecutive days without work at all.

Until Monday morning, the two of them finished their breakfast and went to work separately. Lin Rui even had some symptoms of "Monday Syndrome": he didn't want to go to work at all. . .

While waiting for the red light, Lin Rui unexpectedly thought of a sentence, "From now on, the king will not go to court early". . .Lin Rui frowned, and sure enough, "two" is contagious.

When I went to the office to check my mailbox, Lin Rui was shocked by the 199 unread emails.It took nearly two hours to finally reply to all the emails. Lin Rui stretched his body and was about to take off his glasses and massage them, only to find out that he had left them at Li Tian's house.Fortunately, Lin Rui wears glasses only for the sake of aura and not for real myopia, so he gave up the idea of ​​going back to get them.

But thinking of "taking glasses", Lin Rui recalled what happened on Saturday night.

That night, the two of them succeeded in "catching the monster". They got up from the bed and cut the cake. Li Tian didn't touch the knife and fork, but looked at Lin Rui who was sitting opposite him with burning eyes.

Maybe it's because he drank a little too much, maybe it's because the atmosphere is too good, or maybe Li Tian's appearance of waiting to receive the gift hit Lin Rui's cute spot.In short, under the expectant eyes of the other party, Lin Rui didn't give Li Tian the figure that was already wrapped in the backpack, but gave Li Tian a large number of keys.

Li Tian was stunned for a moment, then his eyes lit up, and the corners of his mouth couldn't stop rising, but he still pretended, "What do you mean?"

Lin Rui dragged his chin with the other hand, "Don't think too much, it's not for you."

He watched Li Tian's smile froze on his face with satisfaction, and then said lazily, "My apartment belongs to the school, so it's not convenient to give you the key. However, I can make room for your house key on the key ring. "

Li Tian's heart went up and down like a roller coaster, and now it finally fell to the ground. He took Lin Rui's hand and gave him a firm kiss across the dining table.Then he took the key chain and rushed back to the bedroom with big strides. After a bang, he rushed back to the living room like a gust of wind, and hugged Lin Rui.After a while, let go of him, and put the key chain back into his hand, with a bright smile that made one's heart palpitate, "The bride price."

Recalling this paragraph, Lin Rui's expression softened involuntarily.He doesn't know if he is really in love with Li Tian, ​​or even if the other party is really in love with him, but he likes the feeling of being with the other party, and he can feel the other party's liking, since no one Knowing how long he and Li Tian can go like this, why not take a walk and see.

He made a cup of coffee, collected himself, changed into the suit hanging behind the door, and went to the classroom for class.

After four and a half hours of class in a row, Lin Rui felt physically and mentally exhausted, his mind was empty, and he left the classroom door. He was just about to go back to the office to drink some water and take a rest, but he was stopped.He frowned and turned around, only to find that it was the head of the department, "Director Jiang, are you looking for me?"

Director Jiang was obviously a little surprised that Lin Rui didn't wear glasses, and immediately smiled, "Mr. Xiaolin, do you have time? Come to my office to chat."

Lin Rui knew that he looked small without glasses, but when he was 36 and was called "Mr. Xiao Lin", he suddenly felt a little embarrassed to say "Where is that?" Then he laughed at himself, "Look, you are so beautiful".

He still didn't show anything on his face, and Director Jiang had no way of knowing this series of psychological activities.The two came to Director Jiang's office, "Sit, sit. Xiao Lin, do you want some water?"

Lin Rui was very thirsty at the moment, and he didn't care about the "real concessions", "Oh, is there a bottle of water?"

Director Jiang nodded and smiled, "Yes, I'll get it for you." Turning around, he took out a bottle of water from the small refrigerator under the desk and handed it to Lin Rui.

Lin Rui took the water, "Thank you Director Jiang, I'm really thirsty." After that, he opened the bottle, took a few sips slowly, then screwed it up, put it on the desk, and looked at the other party, " Director Jiang, what do you need from me?"

Director Jiang has been watching Lin Rui. He likes this young teacher very much. He does well in research and lectures. The most rare thing is his personality. People feel bad to get along with.Just like just now, when you're thirsty, you're thirsty, there's no need to pretend, he doesn't like the kind of person who still spends his time thinking about such a big deal.But there are many kinds of "directness". This young man's directness does not make people feel abrupt and impolite.

Thinking of this, he smiled and confirmed his thoughts even more, "Xiao Lin, you've been here for a few months, are you still used to it?"

Lin Rui smiled, "Well, I'm quite used to it, after all, it's my alma mater. At first I was not used to the MBA reception, but I gradually got used to it, and I think it's okay."

Seeing his sincerity, Director Jiang's smile deepened, "Then I won't go around in circles. We were talking about being a visiting professor for a semester. More than half of this semester has passed, and the department is very concerned about your work. They all agree, and there is nothing to say about the research. So, I just want to ask, do you have any ideas to keep?"

Lin Rui was stunned when he heard that, and then his expression became serious, but he didn't answer right away.

Director Jiang continued, "Oh, regarding the remuneration, we discussed it with the hospital and we can give you a Full. Although we can't give you a Title right now, you also understand that this still has to take into account seniority and salary. On the one hand, we can’t be the same as the United States, but we can try to equalize other treatment.”

Lin Rui still didn't speak. In fact, he was completely confused.But Director Jiang obviously misunderstood his meaning, "I understand, I understand, there is no rush, there are still two months left, you can think about it when you go back, and you can come to me anytime if you have any questions or concerns."

Lin Rui finally got out of his dazed state, "Thank you, Director Jiang, and thank you to the department for valuing me so much. I will think about it carefully."

Back in the office, Lin Rui still couldn't calm down.

If he had been asked this question a few months ago, he would have politely refused. This has nothing to do with treatment, or even with the research environment.As a business teacher, he has a computer and data, so it doesn't make much difference where he is.But he has been away for ten years, and he can count on one hand the people he knows here, and they all have their own lives, so it's not easy to bother them all the time.To put it bluntly, there was nothing here for him to worry about, and no reason to stay.

The only reason. . .Yes, the only reason was to push him away mercilessly ten years ago, but now, the time has passed and everyone wants to moveon.

But it's different now, he has just established a relationship with Li Tian, ​​no matter what happens in the future, the two are serious about dating.He has always told himself to "let things go with the flow" and has been deliberately forgetting the time limit for his return to China. In fact, it may be because he does not want to make any decisive moves.Now this matter is like starting a timer, "tick-tock", forcing him to make a decision within a deadline.Make him a little flustered.

However, I don't know what Li Tian thinks. . .

Lin Rui subconsciously wanted to take off his glasses, but found nothing.He smiled wryly, this is the power of habit.Close your eyes and press Yamane with your two fingers. If he stayed, the two of them would not be able to go on. . .Or even worse, Li Tian didn't want to go all the way with him at all, did he pretend to be affectionate. . .

Pretending to be affectionate, and these four words again, he has already passed his age, so is he going to fall into this pit again? !

Lin Rui suddenly thought of a question. From the first time he met Li Tian, ​​Li Tian knew that he would only stay for one semester, but after they got together again, he never asked him about his plans, as if he didn't care at all. Does it mean that Li Tian never thought about staying with him for a long time. . .

Lin Rui suddenly felt dizzy, and his temples throbbed with pain.He subconsciously reached out to find candy in the candy plate, but found nothing.Suddenly remembered, last week, Zhou Yan came to him to ask for chocolates, and he thought he didn't need any more anyway, so he gave the whole plate of candies to him.

Lin Rui's hands shook involuntarily, and he was startled, the "withdrawal effect" that often occurs in psychotherapy finally appeared.

He once thought that he had made a smooth transition, but he turned out to be too optimistic.Like an addict who couldn't find a drug, he felt dizzy and had pain in his stomach, but he didn't want to move, lying on the table in pain.

After an unknown amount of time, Lin Rui's cell phone rang suddenly.He didn't want to answer it, but the phone kept ringing persistently.

Lin Rui sighed, stretched out his hand to touch the phone, and picked it up without looking at the name.His hands trembled and he swiped a few times before answering the call successfully.Putting the phone to your ear, a hearty voice came from the opposite side, "What are you doing? Are you done with class?"

It's Li Tian.There was joy in his voice, and Lin Rui could imagine him smiling and bending his eyes on the phone.For a moment, Lin Rui was a little angry for no reason, and felt terribly wronged. He wanted to say something, but his throat was blocked, and he couldn't say a word.

"Hello? Lin Rui?" Li Tian finally felt that something was wrong. He restrained his indecent smile and lowered his voice, "Lin Rui, what's the matter? Are you at school?"

Feeling the huge soreness in his nasal cavity, Lin Rui clenched his fists tightly, "Oh, it's okay, I'm just a little tired."

Li Tian paused for a moment, and then continued, "Oh, take a rest when you're tired, do something else, and change your mind."

Li Tian's voice was very gentle, but to Lin Rui, it sounded calm and almost cruel.

Lin Rui exerted all his strength to control his tone, "Well, I know, then hang up first."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Rui suddenly wanted to cry. He knew it was part of the "withdrawal effect", and his negative emotions exploded uncontrollably.He wanted to call the psychiatrist, but suddenly realized that it was 3 o'clock in the morning of the other party.

He couldn't do anything now, so he lay powerlessly on the table.

After an unknown amount of time, Lin Rui felt that he was about to fall asleep in a daze, when he suddenly heard someone knocking on the door.He wanted to pretend that no one was there, but the other party was very persistent. He kept knocking three times without haste, waiting for ten seconds, and refused to give up.The person appointed by Lin Rui sighed, stood up and opened the door, thinking to himself, "Don't be a colleague."

He adjusted his expression, opened the door, but was stunned at the door: standing outside the door was Li Tian.

Li Tian looked at him and smiled softly, "Why, don't you let me go in and sit?"

Lin Rui stepped back blankly to let Li Tian in, closed the door, and turned around.Li Tian sighed, took Lin Rui's hand and held it in his palm, stroked his hair, and then hugged him into his arms.

Now Lin Rui couldn't tell whether it was the emotion or the withdrawal effect. In short, he wanted to cry even more.

Li Tian patted Lin Rui's back lightly, and lowered his voice, "Unhappy? Would you like to talk about it?"

Lin Rui didn't speak, Li Tian just continued on his own, "You startled me. It sounded wrong, and I didn't want to say what's wrong, and I didn't dare to force you to ask. I left all the work to you. There are a few of Da Zhou and the others, but you didn’t see that little abandoned eyes, you almost scolded me for being so obsessed.”

Li Tian's speech was not fast, and he didn't have any important points, he just kept nagging, refusing to stop.

Hearing what he said became more and more out of order, and more and more off track, Lin Rui's heart slowly calmed down, and his hands stopped shaking, leaving only sticky sweat stains on his palms.

He put his arm around Li Tian's waist, then wiped the sweat on Li Tian's back shirt viciously.

Li Tian felt the wetness behind his back, laughed a few times, and kissed Lin Rui's ear, "Don't be bored, tell me, you won't scare me away. Besides, you have my house key Well, I can run away from a monk, but I can't run away from a temple, right?"

Lin Rui finally smiled, "It's okay, I'm just scared."

"What are you afraid of?"

"...afraid of being sentimental."

Lin Rui felt that he must have the tendency of masochism. He presented the thing that he feared the most deep in his heart in front of others, as if he was waiting for a verdict.

Li Tian slowly pulled him out of his arms, looked into his eyes firmly, and then said clearly, word by word, "Lin Rui, I thought it was obvious, I love you."

Lin Rui stared blankly at Li Tian, ​​these few words seemed to open a valve, which made him experience the feeling of instantly sweating his back for the first time.His scalp was numb, and he shivered involuntarily, but his heart seemed to be relieved, and he relaxed strangely.

After being overjoyed and sad, he felt as if he had returned to his cage. His eyes darkened, his legs softened, and he slid directly to the ground.

Li Tian was startled, hugged him, and then laughed with a "puchi", and then laughed harder, "As for it! Oh my god! Did I come to you?"

Lin Rui didn't reply, he put his ear close to Li Tian's chest, feeling the strong vibration and warmth in his chest, thinking, I will never tell you, those few words just now saved a person who was on the verge of depression people for many years.

He has seen a psychiatrist for ten years, because it is only close to the standard of depression and cannot be diagnosed, the doctor did not prescribe him medicine, but turned to psychological suggestion.Deliberately forget the face of the other party, use candy for mental mapping, exercise and fitness, and divert attention. . .He tried various methods, but the situation went back and forth, and he never saw a real improvement.A psychiatrist once half-jokingly said that you need to fall in love with someone, and then he falls in love with you, and you will heal without medicine.

At this moment, this man was helping him to sit on a chair with a teasing smile on his face, and his mouth was not serious, "Let's sit and talk when our legs are weak, tell me, how do you feel now?"

Lin Rui looked at him seriously, "I'm hungry."

Li Tian was almost choked to death by these two words, Ren Ren nodded, "Success, I can't afford a fishpond, so it's okay to treat you to a meal. Let's go, eat dumplings!"