It turns out that no one survives in love

The days are going on insipidly, and it is almost Li Tian's birthday in a blink of an eye.Thinking of this, Li Tian was a little tangled.

In the past few years, his birthday has been spent with Haiming.Ever since he met Haiming, the other party has been single, and although he has come and gone in a hurry these years, he has not made a serious decision, so the two "difficult brothers" always get together to celebrate each other's birthday.This year, he had Lin Rui by his side, so he naturally wanted to live with Lin Rui, but no matter how much he didn't want Lin Rui to see Hai Ming, he couldn't just exclude Hai Ming in such a day.

When having dinner once, Li Tian seemed to mention it unintentionally, "By the way, do you have time next weekend?"

Lin Rui thought for a while, then nodded, "There should be, what's wrong?"

Li Tian smiled, "Oh, my birthday is next Saturday."

Lin Rui was taken aback, "Really? Oh, okay, do you have any birthday plans?"

Li Tian thought for a while and said carefully, "Actually, there is nothing special. In the past, I just had a meal and a drink with Haiming every year." After a pause, he continued, "My birthdays these years are I lived with Haiming, so this year, I think I might still invite him to come and have fun together."

Lin Rui didn't have any special reaction, "Okay, then let's have dinner together on the weekend? If there is anything you want to do, let me know, so I can prepare in advance."

Li Tian looked into his eyes, trying to catch a little bit of unnaturalness in his eyes, but Lin Rui's eyes were open and clear, without any embarrassment or pain.Li Tian was a little surprised, but he felt more relieved, "Okay, let's have dinner at home on Saturday."

Lin Rui nodded, picked up his chopsticks and continued eating.It was only after that that he caught ginger shreds several times before he realized it when he ate it, and then calmly swallowed it.

Lin Rui and Li Tian were actually thinking about one thing, whether to tell Haiming that they were together.

It's okay if we don't meet each other, as long as we don't deliberately bring up this topic.But there is still a fundamental difference between not taking the initiative to tell and concealing.Everyone met on Saturday, does he still have to pretend to be unfamiliar with Li Tian?That would be too much.

He didn't know what kind of posture he should use to face Haiming, what would Haiming think of him?

Oh, I couldn't ask for Bai Yueguang, but ended up with Bai Yueguang's brother, how awkward it sounds.

Moreover, he was not sure whether he could get along with Li Tian naturally in front of Haiming.Once he made any unnatural move, it would not only embarrass everyone, but also hurt Li Tian.

Li Tian was even more confused.

He both hoped and didn't want Haiming and Lin Rui to have a chance to get along.The relationship between him and Lin Rui seemed to be peaceful, and everything was going in a good direction, but he knew that he had reached a bottleneck period, and it would not be easy to move forward.At this time, the initiative to take a step forward does not belong to him, but to Lin Rui.And Haiming is like a touchstone. If Lin Rui finds that he no longer has that throbbing feeling in his heart when he gets along with Haiming, then the relationship between him and Lin Rui can really go further.But he was also worried that if Lin Rui really still loved Haiming, a little warmth from the other party would make Lin Rui abandon him, and all his past efforts would be in vain.Like Schrödinger's cat, the question is whether he has the guts to take the risk.

The two have their own thoughts, but both seem to be calm on the surface.

In the midst of such entanglements, Saturday arrived.

Lin Rui hesitated for a long time among many ideas, and finally chose a limited edition figure. The price is not expensive, but Li Tian likes that comic character very much, so he probably likes this gift.

The so-called gathering is actually three people eating and chatting, so there is no specific time.Lin Rui went to buy a cake in the morning, and went directly to Li Tian's house, thinking that if Hai Ming hadn't arrived, he would stay with Li Tian for a while, and it would be the weekend.

When they arrived at Li Tian's house, it was Hai Ming who opened the door.When they met each other, both of them were taken aback.Lin Rui didn't expect that Haiming would arrive so early, and Haiming didn't expect that Lin Rui was holding a big cake in a light blue box. . .

Lin Rui felt a little nervous when he saw Haiming. He didn't really think about anything, but this reaction has become a conditioned reflex.He changed his shoes tensely, entered the living room, put the cake on the dining table, and heard Li Tian's cheap laughter from behind, "You actually bought a cake! Uncle, how kind of you!"

Lin Rui gave him a big roll of his eyes, "Isn't it normal to eat cake for your birthday?"

As a result, Li Tian and Hai Ming looked at each other, and both of them laughed. Hai Ming made up the knife mercilessly, "We haven't eaten birthday cakes since we were in middle school."

Lin Rui blushed now, and said casually, "Huh? Is that so. I don't know, I thought everyone ate birthday cakes."

Now, Li Tian and Haiming were quiet, and Haiming looked at Lin Rui with distressed eyes.

Li Tian suddenly laughed, "Then we have to be optimistic about you, a piece of cake can be cheated away."

"Tsk!" Lin Rui gave him a big roll of his eyes.

Haiming faintly felt that there was something different in the atmosphere between these two people.

The three of them discussed it and decided to save the birthday cake for the evening, and enjoy the craftsmanship of "Chef Li" together at noon.Chef Li, as always, has no shame in "learning now and selling now". Now he is following the online tutorial to marinate beef short ribs, while arguing with Uncle Lin and Uncle Hai who are sitting on the sofa.

Li Tian put a snack basket on the tea table, there are various snacks in it, Haiming was still wondering when he saw it just now, he wanted to know when Li Tian developed this habit, but now he thinks he has the foresight.

As soon as Lin Rui sat down, Haiming found that he was always looking into the snack basket unconsciously, although his face was still calm.Haiming thought it was funny, so he found a pack of beef jerky in the basket on purpose, opened it, and started eating.With Haiming taking the lead, Lin Rui no longer felt embarrassed. He reached out and dug out a pack of dried fruit, opened it and put it on the table. Piece after piece, can't stop.It was the first time Haiming saw Lin Rui like this, and he thought it was very fresh, and a little, um, cute.

Li Tian was still chattering away, focusing on two tasks, from policy changes to mergers and acquisitions in the industry, from Trump to Putin, but his eyes were still fixed on the ipad screen.

Haiming responded casually absent-mindedly, but his attention was always on Lin Rui beside him.Seeing that Lin Rui finished eating the last piece of dried fruit, he stretched out his hand to take it out and found it was empty, his expression froze for a moment, as if he couldn't accept the fact that he had eaten the whole bag, then he immediately calmed down and stretched out his hand to the jelly.

Haiming couldn't bear it any longer, so he approached and whispered, "I'll eat in a while, don't eat too much." Only then did Lin Rui realize that Haiming had seen all his gluttony, so he withdrew his hand and replied lightly, "Oh." But his face turned red all of a sudden, and he thought bitterly in his heart, "It's all to blame for Li Tian, ​​who didn't put away the snacks and deliberately made me look ugly."

Li Tian was talking vigorously over there, and found that the two people here were not paying attention to him, so he looked up, just in time to see this scene, Haiming leaned into Lin Rui's ear and said something, Lin Rui blushed, and Haiming Looking at him, she smiled inexplicably.Li Tian's heart skipped a beat, and he lost the mood for chattering immediately, and looked away, but his hands didn't stop.

Seeing that Lin Rui was embarrassed, Hai Ming didn't want to tease him anymore, so he got up and went to the bathroom.Lin Rui looked at the snack basket and felt the waves of gluttons attacking him. The enemy army was too strong. He felt that he might surrender soon, so he simply stood up and went to the kitchen to see if he could help Li Tianbang.

He walked up to Li Tian, ​​put his hands behind his back, and lightly bumped Li Tian with his shoulder, "How are you doing, Chef Li?"

Li Tian didn't speak, but turned his head and kissed him on the forehead cleanly.Lin Rui was taken aback for a moment, then blushed, and unconsciously glanced in the direction of the bathroom, and lowered his voice and said anxiously, "What are you doing?"

Li Tian, ​​as always, had a cheerful face and said, "Kiss you! I miss you." But his voice suddenly became very low.

Li Tian then lowered his head, picked up a bamboo skewer and threaded the marinated beef, chopped green peppers and mushrooms.

Lin Rui suddenly remembered that last time he said he wanted to eat roast beef and beef gluten, but he didn't have time that day, so the two of them ate beef noodles to make do.Unexpectedly, Li Tian remembered it in his heart, and even bought materials to make it.

He looked at Li Tian who was wearing a kebab seriously, and felt very uncomfortable.

Li Tian celebrated his birthday with his boyfriend at his own home, but even kissed him secretly.Lin Rui felt a little sad. Li Tian wouldn't have to do this with anyone other than him. He could show his affection in front of his friends openly, unlike now.

He lowered his head and thought for a moment, then stood behind Li Tian's back, got closer, slowly stretched out his arms around Li Tian's waist, turned his head sideways, and gently leaned his face on the back of Li Tian's neck, closing his eyes. Eye.

Li Tian was obviously taken aback for a moment, and then great joy filled his heart, he understood the meaning behind this simple action.

He wanted to hold Lin Rui's hand immediately, wanted to hug him back, wanted to press his head and kiss him frantically, and even wanted to. . .But he didn't do anything, just laughed a few times in a muffled voice, and continued to wear the meat skewers, but his face was full of happiness, showing his white teeth.

Lin Rui keenly felt the change in Li Tian's mood, he knew that Li Tian understood what he meant, and couldn't help curling the corners of his mouth.

This is what Haiming saw when he came out of the bathroom.It was the first time he wanted to complain about the open kitchen and living room, and it was true that everything was clear at a glance.

He had doubts just now in the bathroom. The towels and toothbrushes belonged to two people. He was still thinking about when Li Tian brought someone back for the night, and now everything was explained.He went into the bathroom to relieve Lin Rui's embarrassment, and washed his hands by the way. He didn't want to go to the bathroom at all, so naturally he didn't make any flushing sound.Therefore, these two people did not realize that he had come out at this time, one relied on him wholeheartedly, while the other had a gentle smile on his face.

The picture is beautiful, but Haiming doesn't want to watch it anymore.He turned around silently, went back to the bathroom, and gently closed the door again.

The so-called seeking benevolence and gaining benevolence.He has been in prison for so many years, kidnapped by guilt, unable to escape, unable to let go.He could never tell Lin Rui that he could not fall in love with anyone, no matter male or female, for ten years.It's not that no one showed affection, but every time he saw the expectant eyes of the other party, he would think of the extremely wronged boy who cuddled up to him, those eyes that went from warm to bleak and finally lonely.And after Lin Rui returned to China, he felt that he had the responsibility and obligation to accompany him and witness his happy day.He thought that day would be the redemption of everything, the end of everything.A shackle, each of them held one side, freed Lin Rui, and saved him.From then on, it is true that there is a difference between the two, and each is happy.

But when this day really came, what filled his heart was not relief, not relaxation, but confusion.

He is not a person with strong emotions. Since the first love, the emotional fluctuations of the past ten years have all revolved around this person.Now suddenly tell him that from now on, it has nothing to do with him, and he is at a loss for a while.what's next?Where does he want to pin his feelings?What kind of person is he going to fall in love with?Or, after that, is he still capable of falling in love with someone again?At this moment, he was really confused.

Haiming looked at the face in the mirror that was turned pale by the light, and felt dizzy, "Lin Rui, maybe from now on, I will never meet a person who affects all my emotions like you. In my life , you will always be unique, are you happy?"

The Buddha said, if the heart does not move, it will not hurt if it does not move.Haiming thought that those who loved but were let down were pitiful, but those who were originally loved could not escape either.To love and be loved is to live to death, not to stay out of it.